Saturday, June 24, 2006
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Tsai once said, “You know, not blogging for a long time is sign that you have a life.” Thanks Christine. And that’s why you’re my friend. Haha. But really, It’s not that I have a “life” as Christine puts it. I just have a tendency to not blog when I’m on a funk. I’m sorry, my blog, for neglecting you for so long. You deserve the long-awaited and substance-filled post. So here it goes…
It’s kinda weird to see the many aspects of my life so differently after just one weekend. People have been asking me how I’m doing after Days, and I always say it’s been hard. Yes, it’s been hard, but He never said it would be easy, but He also said that it would be worth it.
I’ve always had an excuse when I forget. My ultimate excuse for everything is that I’m busy. Busy with school, work, and other responsibilities. Someone once told me, that the minute I start thinking that my faith is separate from all the other aspects my life, then I'm not fully putting Him in the center. That's when I start to forget. It's always been a struggle for me. But that's what makes it worth it. The struggle makes it worth. Going through it and realizing how much of Him I'm missing makes me want to put Him first.
I’ve been taking in everything that comes in my life, whether good or bad, because that’s what He wants me to do. Take all that is handed to me, good or bad, and see it as a blessing. It's already hard enough to take on my own crosses, what more to take on someone else's? But you know when they say that when someone you really care about hurts, you hurt too. There's really no way of shielding someone who cares about you so much from the burdens that you're carrying. That's just how it works. When someone I care about is hurting, it makes me hurt too. A lot.
I keep on telling myself that being selfless means letting go of one's pride. It means not having to set any conditions and being able to fully give without asking for anything in return. It means being able to look past your own needs to see other people's. It is also struggle. To care so much for others in the expense of your own well-being. I keep on telling myself this, over and over and over and over again. But I still can't seem to hear myself talk.
It's almost over. End of the year banquets make the end real. It sucks. But it's also good. It makes me appreciate a lot of things more, and it also makes me realize how much I love those who I have gotten close to these past four years. You guys have no idea how much you all mean to me. There are no words to describe that feeling. No words.
i still don't understand how you could still be there after all this time. you have been my sponge whenever i needed someone. you never get tired of hearing me cry about everything. you always made me feel like you still cared after everything. you were always there to listen and you have always been so patient with me. you have no idea how much that means to me. no idea. thanks for talking to me all the way home that one time i was being a stupid stupid girl. i always get scared when i drive by myself at night. you will forever be my lifesaver.
It sucks whenever I’m on a slump I always lose to a very bad habit. I thought I was done with it. I guess not.
I know I haven't exactly been the happiest lately. Thanks to those who have been there to put up with me...for those who have attempted to cheer me up...for those who took me out for goodtimes...for those who called just to say hello...for those who yell at me when I'm being stupid...for those who listened to me ramble and cry about everything...and most importantly...for all the prayers. You are so all awesome. I wouldn't have survived these last few weeks without all of you. Thank You.
It’s kinda weird to see the many aspects of my life so differently after just one weekend. People have been asking me how I’m doing after Days, and I always say it’s been hard. Yes, it’s been hard, but He never said it would be easy, but He also said that it would be worth it.
I’ve always had an excuse when I forget. My ultimate excuse for everything is that I’m busy. Busy with school, work, and other responsibilities. Someone once told me, that the minute I start thinking that my faith is separate from all the other aspects my life, then I'm not fully putting Him in the center. That's when I start to forget. It's always been a struggle for me. But that's what makes it worth it. The struggle makes it worth. Going through it and realizing how much of Him I'm missing makes me want to put Him first.
I’ve been taking in everything that comes in my life, whether good or bad, because that’s what He wants me to do. Take all that is handed to me, good or bad, and see it as a blessing. It's already hard enough to take on my own crosses, what more to take on someone else's? But you know when they say that when someone you really care about hurts, you hurt too. There's really no way of shielding someone who cares about you so much from the burdens that you're carrying. That's just how it works. When someone I care about is hurting, it makes me hurt too. A lot.
I keep on telling myself that being selfless means letting go of one's pride. It means not having to set any conditions and being able to fully give without asking for anything in return. It means being able to look past your own needs to see other people's. It is also struggle. To care so much for others in the expense of your own well-being. I keep on telling myself this, over and over and over and over again. But I still can't seem to hear myself talk.
It's almost over. End of the year banquets make the end real. It sucks. But it's also good. It makes me appreciate a lot of things more, and it also makes me realize how much I love those who I have gotten close to these past four years. You guys have no idea how much you all mean to me. There are no words to describe that feeling. No words.
i still don't understand how you could still be there after all this time. you have been my sponge whenever i needed someone. you never get tired of hearing me cry about everything. you always made me feel like you still cared after everything. you were always there to listen and you have always been so patient with me. you have no idea how much that means to me. no idea. thanks for talking to me all the way home that one time i was being a stupid stupid girl. i always get scared when i drive by myself at night. you will forever be my lifesaver.
It sucks whenever I’m on a slump I always lose to a very bad habit. I thought I was done with it. I guess not.
I know I haven't exactly been the happiest lately. Thanks to those who have been there to put up with me...for those who have attempted to cheer me up...for those who took me out for goodtimes...for those who called just to say hello...for those who yell at me when I'm being stupid...for those who listened to me ramble and cry about everything...and most importantly...for all the prayers. You are so all awesome. I wouldn't have survived these last few weeks without all of you. Thank You.