This poem was written by the beautiful women of WYSE (Women and Youth Supporting Each Other) during my last year as a mentor. All the mentors got a framed copy of it and it's sitting next to my tv in my room. I just wanted to share it because I'm feeling a little inspired.
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Strength
lies in her eyes
behind the tears she cries
in the injustice she defies
and without asking why
she makes that sacrifice
by her own device
makes the world look twice
and under her wing strengthen ties
uplifting others with the hope she provides
she and many others touch millions of lives
their strength we seek to emulate
we are the women of wyse
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So I've really, really, really been wanting to get cute colorful rainboots since last year but I think I didn't get them because the rainy season was almost over when I thought about getting them. Just a random thought. I've also been bugging my parents to get a dog. I've been wanting to get one since I can't even remember but I couldn't get one because I was way too busy and poor haha. But now, I'm at home so it's easier to have one. I either wanted a yorkie or a maltese because they're so weetle yes they are they're so very weetle *in a baby voice* haha.
I'm in love with the song "Just Like Heaven" by The Cure and Katie Melua and Taking Back Sunday right now. Haha yes, I'm in love with all three versions. They've been showing Just Like Heaven on HBO and I just can't not watch it everytime. Haha I'm such a girl.
I really, really, really wanted to see Tyrone Wells perform at the Troubadour tonight but I had no one to go with *tear*. It's your fault Pam. Haha. Did you know he was UCLA graduate? Apparently my sister "knew" him before I did. Ugh wutever. I think I'm in love with him.
I bought the first season of Grey's Anatomy and after I finished watching it I couldn't wait to get season two. So I rushed to Walmart because I figured that's where it would be cheapest but it was $48. Mayn. I really need a job. Obviously, I didn't get it. I'd just have to wait till my birthday or sumtin. *sigh*
So, I think I've thought it through. I'm not gonna take it. Long story. But I really have thought it through. One might say I've wasted all this time, you know, one minute thinking I want one thing but then the next minute I don't, and just completely not knowing what I want in life blah blah blah. But I disagree. I think I really needed all this time to figure out what I want and where I see myself in the future. I think I'm pretty confident with my decision. Okai, scratch the "I think" and "pretty". I'm confident with my decision. I hope.
My room is going through a major renovation. Well, not really. I'm just putting new furniture to make it look like how I wanted it to be in the first place. I'll post pictures when it doesn't look like a trash dump in here anymore.
David and Rona, just get it over with and have sex already. Haha no? Just me? Okai.
I miss you roomie. I'm sad I don't know what your blogs mean anymore. Like at all. Well, except for "Maybe next time." Haaaaha.
I miss Liwanag and PASS people. I shall come back soon when all this job hunting madness ends.
Can I just say that Jury Duty can suck my ass?!?! Jury Duty can suck my ass!!! I have other important matters in life that I need to deal with than go to this. Ugh I'm so annoyed.
I think I should sleep now.
I'm good. Better than last week. I can almost see the light.
Praying for everyone who's going through stuff. It all works out in the end. Just trust.
I should really listen to myself more.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Friday, October 20, 2006
I was feeling a little nostalgic the other day. It's amazing how so many changes can happen in just one year. I just wish life was as fun and easy as it was a year ago.
Don't we all just wish that life could go from harder to easier instead of the other way around, so that the hardest part would be over before the easy part begins? Everyday I feel like I'm faced with making decisions that could make me or break me. Why can't it just, I don't know, make me? I don't think I've ever been so confused in my entire life until now.
I love how I have all the time in the world to watch tv now. I never had the time to watch tv all throughout my four years of college. I'm trying to catch up with the Grey's Anatomy hype since I never had the chance to watch it on Sunday nights because of PASS meetings. Can I just say that I think Dr. Bailey is my favorite character in that show. She's such a strong and smart woman that they seem to make her imperfections still so admirable. Man, she's super cool.
Pam, you will be missed greatly. I'm so proud of you taking this big step in your life. You are a brave one. I love you. And as you would say, "Goodbye forever." Haha jk e-mail us and I promise I'll e-mail back.
One would think that since I am "in between jobs" right now that I would just be sitting on my ass all day everyday. But I surprisingly find something to do somehow. Well, kind of. Like last week I was practically in Irvine the whole week. Thanks Pelican Bay and Laguna Hills townhome (wow you guys should have a name foreal) for your hospitality. This past weekend was supposed to be eventful but not really. Had fun partying with the Immacers for the past couple weekends though. We should do that more!
Anyways, I need to get started on my arts and crafts project for the Christmas season. I think I'm excited.
You wanna know what's ironic? The ball's in my court, but I need balls.
I need direction.
I need You.
Prayers please.
Moving down the highways of my life
Making sure I stay to the right
So I can't be concerned with the other side of the road
Reading all the signs along the way
Knowing what I am by what they say
My destination's closer day by day
So I can't be concerned with the other side of the road
"Maybe pain is there for a reason." - Dr. Bailey from Grey's Anatomy
Thank You for answering my prayers. Now, I need Your guidance.
Don't we all just wish that life could go from harder to easier instead of the other way around, so that the hardest part would be over before the easy part begins? Everyday I feel like I'm faced with making decisions that could make me or break me. Why can't it just, I don't know, make me? I don't think I've ever been so confused in my entire life until now.
I love how I have all the time in the world to watch tv now. I never had the time to watch tv all throughout my four years of college. I'm trying to catch up with the Grey's Anatomy hype since I never had the chance to watch it on Sunday nights because of PASS meetings. Can I just say that I think Dr. Bailey is my favorite character in that show. She's such a strong and smart woman that they seem to make her imperfections still so admirable. Man, she's super cool.
Pam, you will be missed greatly. I'm so proud of you taking this big step in your life. You are a brave one. I love you. And as you would say, "Goodbye forever." Haha jk e-mail us and I promise I'll e-mail back.
One would think that since I am "in between jobs" right now that I would just be sitting on my ass all day everyday. But I surprisingly find something to do somehow. Well, kind of. Like last week I was practically in Irvine the whole week. Thanks Pelican Bay and Laguna Hills townhome (wow you guys should have a name foreal) for your hospitality. This past weekend was supposed to be eventful but not really. Had fun partying with the Immacers for the past couple weekends though. We should do that more!
Anyways, I need to get started on my arts and crafts project for the Christmas season. I think I'm excited.
You wanna know what's ironic? The ball's in my court, but I need balls.
I need direction.
I need You.
Prayers please.
Moving down the highways of my life
Making sure I stay to the right
So I can't be concerned with the other side of the road
Reading all the signs along the way
Knowing what I am by what they say
My destination's closer day by day
So I can't be concerned with the other side of the road
"Maybe pain is there for a reason." - Dr. Bailey from Grey's Anatomy
Thank You for answering my prayers. Now, I need Your guidance.
Friday, October 06, 2006
Monday, October 02, 2006
Oh 442 Stanford Court
This is gonna be a semi-emo post. Well, actually it's not even semi. It's really emo. As in SuprEMO. HAHAget it supremo, super-emo? No, just me? Okai no, not rilly. It's just emo. It's good emo though. It's like aaawww okai. Okai enough intro sorry here it is...
More than a year ago, June 2005, the residents of 442 Stanford Court went their separate ways (well, kind of) to spend their summer far, far away from home. I still remember being really emo about it even thought I was extremely excited to spend summer of 2005 in D.C. I remember moving out all our stuff to make room for the temporary 442 tenants. I thought to myself, man, this is a preview of what it's gonna be like in a year, the end of senior year, the end of college life. I'm gonna be this emo but worse. Haha.
A little over a year later, after living there for three years, on Saturday, September 30, 2006, 442 Stanford Court officially moved out. (By the way, thank you for everyone who helped us move out. You are friggin awesome). It truly is the end of an era. 442 Stanford has given me a whole lot of memories, both good and bad. Of course, the good ones are the ones that stick out the most. That apartment may have been the dirtiest apartment in the whole wide world but I still love it nonetheless. Despite the tiniest rooms, the most grody kitchen ever, and one gross bathroom shared by the whole world, I wouldn't have wanted to live in any other apartment for all three years of my college life. All the secrets and "moments" shared in that patio, the front door step, the living room, the master bedroom, and of course me and roommate's bedroom, will never be forgotten. Thank you 442.
The car ride home after moving out was filled with mixed emotions. I was very successful in holding back the tears halfway through the drive but then it just came when Something in Between by Lifehouse started playing lol. Sorry, it's my emo song. So there, I have emotions. It's very hard to explain what I was feeling. Of course I was sad, but at the same time I felt good. Yes, it is the end of an era, but it's also the start of an awesome new beginning. I know it sounds cheesy, but if there is a perfect time for change to begin, I think this is it.
Thank You for giving me these four awesome years of college. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to serve You through all my experiences in Irvine. Now it's time for me to continue serving You through my family and friends back home.
Shoutouts to the ALL residents of 442, the real ones and the honoraries. You are a real one if you have lived there for more than a week. You are an honorary if you have either slept over or you were a boyfriend or a "boyfriend" or boy friend LOL. You have given 442 the best memories.
Okai, I know it sounds like I won't see you guys ever again. Don't worry, I'll come visit. Maybe not everyday, but I'll be there. I promise LOL HAHAHA okai sorry inside joke. Feel free to come visit me anytime. I have a full bed AND a twin haha.
WANTED: Designated event coordinator to let me know of all the Irvine happenings since I won't be in the loop anymore. Roommate? Do you want the job?
That's it for now. Until the next blog.
442, I love you. Haha. Okai I'm done.
This is gonna be a semi-emo post. Well, actually it's not even semi. It's really emo. As in SuprEMO. HAHAget it supremo, super-emo? No, just me? Okai no, not rilly. It's just emo. It's good emo though. It's like aaawww okai. Okai enough intro sorry here it is...
More than a year ago, June 2005, the residents of 442 Stanford Court went their separate ways (well, kind of) to spend their summer far, far away from home. I still remember being really emo about it even thought I was extremely excited to spend summer of 2005 in D.C. I remember moving out all our stuff to make room for the temporary 442 tenants. I thought to myself, man, this is a preview of what it's gonna be like in a year, the end of senior year, the end of college life. I'm gonna be this emo but worse. Haha.
A little over a year later, after living there for three years, on Saturday, September 30, 2006, 442 Stanford Court officially moved out. (By the way, thank you for everyone who helped us move out. You are friggin awesome). It truly is the end of an era. 442 Stanford has given me a whole lot of memories, both good and bad. Of course, the good ones are the ones that stick out the most. That apartment may have been the dirtiest apartment in the whole wide world but I still love it nonetheless. Despite the tiniest rooms, the most grody kitchen ever, and one gross bathroom shared by the whole world, I wouldn't have wanted to live in any other apartment for all three years of my college life. All the secrets and "moments" shared in that patio, the front door step, the living room, the master bedroom, and of course me and roommate's bedroom, will never be forgotten. Thank you 442.
The car ride home after moving out was filled with mixed emotions. I was very successful in holding back the tears halfway through the drive but then it just came when Something in Between by Lifehouse started playing lol. Sorry, it's my emo song. So there, I have emotions. It's very hard to explain what I was feeling. Of course I was sad, but at the same time I felt good. Yes, it is the end of an era, but it's also the start of an awesome new beginning. I know it sounds cheesy, but if there is a perfect time for change to begin, I think this is it.
Thank You for giving me these four awesome years of college. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to serve You through all my experiences in Irvine. Now it's time for me to continue serving You through my family and friends back home.
Shoutouts to the ALL residents of 442, the real ones and the honoraries. You are a real one if you have lived there for more than a week. You are an honorary if you have either slept over or you were a boyfriend or a "boyfriend" or boy friend LOL. You have given 442 the best memories.
Okai, I know it sounds like I won't see you guys ever again. Don't worry, I'll come visit. Maybe not everyday, but I'll be there. I promise LOL HAHAHA okai sorry inside joke. Feel free to come visit me anytime. I have a full bed AND a twin haha.
WANTED: Designated event coordinator to let me know of all the Irvine happenings since I won't be in the loop anymore. Roommate? Do you want the job?
That's it for now. Until the next blog.
442, I love you. Haha. Okai I'm done.