i need to get better! or else no debut practice for me tomorrow...=/....ive been trying to rest here at home but i cant seem to sit still...i need to get out of this house sooooon or ima go crayzeee....
had an interesting conversation w/ chelle n maria....as usual....3 of us put together equals sadness all over....but it was all gud coz it reminded me of our lacc days..maaaan those were the days...and of course wut else would be the topic of the best conversation ever....prom....nyahaha.....i know chelle doesnt have a problem nemore....but mariaaa over here...maaaan....u have ur choices lined up for u arite......i dont even know nemore....newaaysss..conversation was all good until these two people jus made me even more sicker than i already am....do not add to my misery.....that was not fun at all. wahaha.
so now im jus chillen like a villain...watched save the last dance for the hundredth time....i want a black boi now...wahaa...maan i jus need to get some rest.
Thursday, March 28, 2002
im sick. not fun. i ditched. for the first time. no more perfect attendance. nyahaha. i need to get better. someone help. =/
i went to my cousin's house today to chill...we watched part of aladdin but dint finish it coz i had to go rest...they fed me pizza though so that was gud...nyahaha...and then i went home and watched shrek...that was cute
i realized wen the movie started....oh how i wish that life is like a fairytale...."with a princess waiting up at the tower for her prince charming to rescue her from the evil dude and the dragon....after he rescues her...they live happily ever after"....ugh my ass....
man i need to get better...or else ill just be as bitter as can be...nyahaha...laterz
i went to my cousin's house today to chill...we watched part of aladdin but dint finish it coz i had to go rest...they fed me pizza though so that was gud...nyahaha...and then i went home and watched shrek...that was cute
i realized wen the movie started....oh how i wish that life is like a fairytale...."with a princess waiting up at the tower for her prince charming to rescue her from the evil dude and the dragon....after he rescues her...they live happily ever after"....ugh my ass....
man i need to get better...or else ill just be as bitter as can be...nyahaha...laterz
Monday, March 25, 2002
Saturday, March 23, 2002
man this week was loooooooong....so glad that friday finally came. but had to stay for heart2heart sorting clothes...maaan i felt unusually weak after that....maybe coz i dint rilly eat the whole day...but thanx to christiiine i dint have to take the bus home or else i wouldve fainted on the street. neways watched the play friday night with chelle...funnie n cute....goodjob everyone in the play yaaay.
saturday morning had to go to ap spanish practice test in school. it was eeeh until ms. martin fed us w/ her enchiladas....yumm-mmy...
after that i went to debut practice, thinking i would be late. but wen i got there a lot of ppl werent there yet...wut else is new....fitted our dresses...yaay pink....oh yaah and got to ride colette's new car w/ her cool lights! we finally started practice at iono...230? that was a pretty interesting practice...i could feel the love...elbowwwssss up..... cool fartnah was coool...i gave him the best protective bubble...nyahaha...we're learning the washing machine dance now...yaay...i dint wana go home so i was jus chillen like a villain...had an interesting conversation w/ bel's bestfriend...lol...and finally decided to go home..omigod bel's bestfriend actually offered to take me home..LOL....but i jus called my daddy coz he can pick me up neways.
to sum it all up....i have too much crap to do and i havent done jack...yeah it's all sue's fault bcoz she jus had to make me yack and cough away...nyaaha!
saturday morning had to go to ap spanish practice test in school. it was eeeh until ms. martin fed us w/ her enchiladas....yumm-mmy...
after that i went to debut practice, thinking i would be late. but wen i got there a lot of ppl werent there yet...wut else is new....fitted our dresses...yaay pink....oh yaah and got to ride colette's new car w/ her cool lights! we finally started practice at iono...230? that was a pretty interesting practice...i could feel the love...elbowwwssss up..... cool fartnah was coool...i gave him the best protective bubble...nyahaha...we're learning the washing machine dance now...yaay...i dint wana go home so i was jus chillen like a villain...had an interesting conversation w/ bel's bestfriend...lol...and finally decided to go home..omigod bel's bestfriend actually offered to take me home..LOL....but i jus called my daddy coz he can pick me up neways.
to sum it all up....i have too much crap to do and i havent done jack...yeah it's all sue's fault bcoz she jus had to make me yack and cough away...nyaaha!
Wednesday, March 20, 2002
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 I taste like Peanut Butter.I am one of the most blendable flavours; I go with sweet, I go with sour, I go with bland, I go with anything. I am practical and good company, but have something of a tendency to hang around when I'm not wanted, unaware that my presence is not welcome.(LOL HOW SAD!) What Flavour Are You? |
I taste like Peanut Butter.
What day are you?
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Find your inner rubber ducky.
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Tuesday, March 19, 2002
SADNESS ALL OVER...
One thing i noticed today was that everyone seemed sad and depressed. im not gona name every single one coz i mite not be able to...thats how many..tsk tsk tsk
wuts even sadder is that i feel sadder on top of my own sadness....did ya get that?....maaan y does life have to be so unfair....
well i rilly dunno wut to say except....SMILE!
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by
If you smile through your fears and sorrow
Smile, there may be tomorrow
You'll see that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile.
"Unrest of spirit is a mark of life; one problem after another presents itself and in the solving of them we can find our greatest pleasure."
-- Karl Menninger
One thing i noticed today was that everyone seemed sad and depressed. im not gona name every single one coz i mite not be able to...thats how many..tsk tsk tsk
wuts even sadder is that i feel sadder on top of my own sadness....did ya get that?....maaan y does life have to be so unfair....
well i rilly dunno wut to say except....SMILE!
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by
If you smile through your fears and sorrow
Smile, there may be tomorrow
You'll see that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile.
"Unrest of spirit is a mark of life; one problem after another presents itself and in the solving of them we can find our greatest pleasure."
-- Karl Menninger
Sunday, March 17, 2002
man i havent blogged for a while....ive been sick for a while now and its not fun coz im to weak to do nething...*sigh* good thing there was no debut practice coz i would jus be too weak to chacha
friday i chilled at sue's house....trying to fix her blog but cant hihi...then connie and gina and john came...chilled for awhile..then connie, sue and me went to baja for dinner....maan was i hungry...connie went home...but then i dint wana go home yet...so me n sue went to this funky record store...then sue chilled at my house for a bit...
friday is the day...ucla acceptances are out....of course i dint wana check in school coz i dont wana cry there...but i checked at home...and its not like i was expecting to get in.....so i was jus wutevr...i was sad...but wut can i do? i fell asleep coz i was rilly tired and sick..and wen my whole family came home i told them...they were very supportive but i was kinda pissed...iono y..but they were cool about it and i think we decided tha ima go to irvine...i thnk...not sure yet...but its all gud to me
saturday was tatay ben's funeral (my lola's brother)....went early to walnut...mass first...maaaan i dint know i would cry...but i did...i wasnt rilly that close to him tho...but wen the eulogies came, i cried my eyes out...my 2 cousins and my lolo gave the eulogies...and wen they started singing hindi kita malilimutan and my lola started ballin, i started too....*sigh*.....went to the cemetery after....after the thing was over i hugged my cousins who were all pretty crushed. they were rilly close to tatay, and i felt rily sorry for them. it was rilly sad coz wen i was hugging my other cousin he was shakin. *sigh* i guess i can say this was the first time ive been to a funeral of someone very closely related to me... but later it was all gud wen we went to the house and there was foooood...maan i havent eaten real food in awhile so that was good...and evryone seemed okai...people were laffin n stuff so the mood of the house was better...
omigod btw my tita had the most beautiful orchids ever...they were so big and healthy i thot they were fake..but they were real..jus wanted to share coz orchids are the best flowers ever...LOL
saturday nite i was a loser...went to church at omgc...i saw bel's mom yaay...but she dint see us..
sunday was eeh coz i was rilly sick and i had all my crap to do...i was sleeping most of the day so i feel eeeh rite now...i duno if u should go to school tom tho..i prolly will knowing me....but it all depends on how i feel tom....
maaan i hate the smell of vicks...i hate the smell and the feel of it....please make me feel better now =(....i cant take it nemoreeee
friday i chilled at sue's house....trying to fix her blog but cant hihi...then connie and gina and john came...chilled for awhile..then connie, sue and me went to baja for dinner....maan was i hungry...connie went home...but then i dint wana go home yet...so me n sue went to this funky record store...then sue chilled at my house for a bit...
friday is the day...ucla acceptances are out....of course i dint wana check in school coz i dont wana cry there...but i checked at home...and its not like i was expecting to get in.....so i was jus wutevr...i was sad...but wut can i do? i fell asleep coz i was rilly tired and sick..and wen my whole family came home i told them...they were very supportive but i was kinda pissed...iono y..but they were cool about it and i think we decided tha ima go to irvine...i thnk...not sure yet...but its all gud to me
saturday was tatay ben's funeral (my lola's brother)....went early to walnut...mass first...maaaan i dint know i would cry...but i did...i wasnt rilly that close to him tho...but wen the eulogies came, i cried my eyes out...my 2 cousins and my lolo gave the eulogies...and wen they started singing hindi kita malilimutan and my lola started ballin, i started too....*sigh*.....went to the cemetery after....after the thing was over i hugged my cousins who were all pretty crushed. they were rilly close to tatay, and i felt rily sorry for them. it was rilly sad coz wen i was hugging my other cousin he was shakin. *sigh* i guess i can say this was the first time ive been to a funeral of someone very closely related to me... but later it was all gud wen we went to the house and there was foooood...maan i havent eaten real food in awhile so that was good...and evryone seemed okai...people were laffin n stuff so the mood of the house was better...
omigod btw my tita had the most beautiful orchids ever...they were so big and healthy i thot they were fake..but they were real..jus wanted to share coz orchids are the best flowers ever...LOL
saturday nite i was a loser...went to church at omgc...i saw bel's mom yaay...but she dint see us..
sunday was eeh coz i was rilly sick and i had all my crap to do...i was sleeping most of the day so i feel eeeh rite now...i duno if u should go to school tom tho..i prolly will knowing me....but it all depends on how i feel tom....
maaan i hate the smell of vicks...i hate the smell and the feel of it....please make me feel better now =(....i cant take it nemoreeee
I'm a Wind Spiriti
Thought above feeling and mind over matter are your mottos. Others come to you for advice and guidance. Some see you as introverted and snobbish, but they are merely jealous of your common sense knack to think things through. Don't be afraid to listen to your heart though.
Monday, March 11, 2002
start of another week and i realized that this week will be hell again for me...oh well wut else is new...but newayss
i had my bonding time with my little cousins over the weekend so that was fun...three of us went to the mall..and went shopping..i bought new jeans n a shirt n a silver necklace n eyeliner yaaay...funfunfun under the sun...i had too much homework but who could refuse shopping?...not me.
i jus realized while talking to sue that it is exactly a month and eight days away until prom...yeeep im countin...can u blame me? nopee...who am i taking? uuhmm..who knows...do i care?..well yeah i actually do...but wutever. oooh maybe i should have a promcountdown...hmmmmm...
i had my bonding time with my little cousins over the weekend so that was fun...three of us went to the mall..and went shopping..i bought new jeans n a shirt n a silver necklace n eyeliner yaaay...funfunfun under the sun...i had too much homework but who could refuse shopping?...not me.
i jus realized while talking to sue that it is exactly a month and eight days away until prom...yeeep im countin...can u blame me? nopee...who am i taking? uuhmm..who knows...do i care?..well yeah i actually do...but wutever. oooh maybe i should have a promcountdown...hmmmmm...
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Saturday, March 09, 2002
okai i jus got home from practice....and maaan that was hella tiring....i know i wasnt supposed to go, but my mom took pity on me i guess and made me go...and how sad did i feel when i found out mariaaa wasnt there coz of me....mariaaaaaa im soweeeeeee...
i danced w/ ur partner yesh i told u...and that was jus too tiring for me...i was leading most of the time, and he was just too hyper for me....maaan that was a great work out. how relieved did i feel wen my cool fartnah came back...yaaay.
im here again as usual on a saturday nite being a loser....while everyone else is out somewhere....and i ask myself y????? i duno...i guess im jus being safe....my mom's mood swings hasnt been very helpful w/ my social life....but its not like im not used to it...wutever....rite after practice she asked me y everyone was outside kat's house n stuff...i was all, "well they're all goin out tonite." AND she actually asked me..."do u wana go w/ them then?". i was all, "no its okai coz i know ur jus gona get mad at me." and i think i made her all guilty and she was all being nice after that...maaaan wutsssuuup w/ tha world... someone please kindap me one of these days...pleeeeaassse im beggin u.
i danced w/ ur partner yesh i told u...and that was jus too tiring for me...i was leading most of the time, and he was just too hyper for me....maaan that was a great work out. how relieved did i feel wen my cool fartnah came back...yaaay.
im here again as usual on a saturday nite being a loser....while everyone else is out somewhere....and i ask myself y????? i duno...i guess im jus being safe....my mom's mood swings hasnt been very helpful w/ my social life....but its not like im not used to it...wutever....rite after practice she asked me y everyone was outside kat's house n stuff...i was all, "well they're all goin out tonite." AND she actually asked me..."do u wana go w/ them then?". i was all, "no its okai coz i know ur jus gona get mad at me." and i think i made her all guilty and she was all being nice after that...maaaan wutsssuuup w/ tha world... someone please kindap me one of these days...pleeeeaassse im beggin u.
yaay kairos people are back! i went to the "homecoming" last nite....kat n ray picked me up and we went to see all the kairos people...maaan i said i wasnt gona cry...i dint rilly...but i was about to..wehehe...but wutever..im glad they all had fun...oh yah chelle dont forget ur stories k....
neways...saturday morning and i jus had the best dream...i dreamt i was with apolo ohno....maaan it was too real and i jus had to wake up and realize it wasnt tru....but newayssss
had a fight w/ my mother this morning...maria was supposed to come by and do homework but my mom just had to ruin all that... y does she keep on doing that? she said that i always ruin her plans and so she decided that i cant do what i was planning on doin.... she was yellin about me not tellin her bout my plans....but the thing is...i DID tell her...and i jus have to suffer because of her not being able to listen..i jus dint wana talk to her nemore coz i know she's not gona hear me out neways.....i duno if im gona be able to go to debut practice...she said no debut practice for me today jus coz she was all pissed at me....im hopin i can still go....but im not too positive bout that...
neways...maria i know ive said this the hundredth time....and i hope this will be the last time im gona say this.....but im really sorry...u dont know how sorry i am i swear....this is not the first time ive done this, i know that. i dont want u to think that im doin it on purpose...im not....i will make it up to u i swear to god... i jus dont want u to feel like u cant count on me anymore...im supposed to be doin homework rite now but i cant coz this whole thing is bothering me...i jus had to blog it out..but neways...im sorry i let u down...again....hope u understand.
neways...saturday morning and i jus had the best dream...i dreamt i was with apolo ohno....maaan it was too real and i jus had to wake up and realize it wasnt tru....but newayssss
had a fight w/ my mother this morning...maria was supposed to come by and do homework but my mom just had to ruin all that... y does she keep on doing that? she said that i always ruin her plans and so she decided that i cant do what i was planning on doin.... she was yellin about me not tellin her bout my plans....but the thing is...i DID tell her...and i jus have to suffer because of her not being able to listen..i jus dint wana talk to her nemore coz i know she's not gona hear me out neways.....i duno if im gona be able to go to debut practice...she said no debut practice for me today jus coz she was all pissed at me....im hopin i can still go....but im not too positive bout that...
neways...maria i know ive said this the hundredth time....and i hope this will be the last time im gona say this.....but im really sorry...u dont know how sorry i am i swear....this is not the first time ive done this, i know that. i dont want u to think that im doin it on purpose...im not....i will make it up to u i swear to god... i jus dont want u to feel like u cant count on me anymore...im supposed to be doin homework rite now but i cant coz this whole thing is bothering me...i jus had to blog it out..but neways...im sorry i let u down...again....hope u understand.
Wednesday, March 06, 2002
maaaan eveyone's jus gone for kairos...but its all good coz we get to do nothing in some of my classes...hihi...but *sigh* i wish i went to kairos again. that was the best experience ever. ima be prayin for everyone in kairos tonite! im pretty sure chelle n maria will do a good job as leaders, and theyre gona do great w/ their talks too. roite? rite. oh yah and ima be prayin that sue sees her hunnie in chicago...have a safe trip sue! bring back some hotwhiteboys for me.
newaysss...i hope this week would go by faster so that saturday would come...yyeeeah debut practice..wahaa...im a nard i know..im pretty sure maria agrees w/ me too...hihi....oh no actually i take it back...i dont want this week to go by fast.. coz that means the uc's will be sendin out crap...damnit im scurred...oh yah i actually got my first acceptance yesterday..uc santa cruz yaaaay...its not as exciting nemore coz everyone else has wut...ten acceptances, and here i am w/ my only one. im still prayin tho..*crossing fingers*
newaysss...i hope this week would go by faster so that saturday would come...yyeeeah debut practice..wahaa...im a nard i know..im pretty sure maria agrees w/ me too...hihi....oh no actually i take it back...i dont want this week to go by fast.. coz that means the uc's will be sendin out crap...damnit im scurred...oh yah i actually got my first acceptance yesterday..uc santa cruz yaaaay...its not as exciting nemore coz everyone else has wut...ten acceptances, and here i am w/ my only one. im still prayin tho..*crossing fingers*
Monday, March 04, 2002
well well well another day has passed and im as bitter as i can get....well me and maria actually (hihi yeeeaah).... i know this is old news already, but prom is approaching real quick...and i do not know wut to do nemore....
see here's the thing...the world is jus not fair...why can people not get exactly what they want? y do other people get to have their fun, while others suffer? damnit...i duno...me n maria do not even need words to explain wut we were feeling, because we understand jus by our bitter looks....lol....and yah unfortunately we lost one club member today, due to some circumstances..wahaha...we'll see how we can take that club member back..but i duno if its possible...lol
in conclusion, this day has been homework-free, therefore it gave me time to think about things that rilly shouldnt be bothering me at all...lesson learned? occupy my mind w/ school work.
see here's the thing...the world is jus not fair...why can people not get exactly what they want? y do other people get to have their fun, while others suffer? damnit...i duno...me n maria do not even need words to explain wut we were feeling, because we understand jus by our bitter looks....lol....and yah unfortunately we lost one club member today, due to some circumstances..wahaha...we'll see how we can take that club member back..but i duno if its possible...lol
in conclusion, this day has been homework-free, therefore it gave me time to think about things that rilly shouldnt be bothering me at all...lesson learned? occupy my mind w/ school work.
Sunday, March 03, 2002
Saturday, March 02, 2002
wow i dint realize i havent blogged in a while...well lets have a recap of my week so far....
friday was the mother-daughter luncheon. i went even tho i was motherless jus to see everyone model...awww everyone looked so pweety...sat w/ chelle n bel yaay...it was ayt...we were like the only seniors who werent modelling but wutever...its all good in the hood. after that went to chelle's house n chilled till kat came and then we all went to glendale to watch 40days and 40nights. yep ur rite maria...guy movie...but the flower thing was too cute...very creative i might add...lol...got home at i forgot wut time..but i dint get trouble! yaay...i havent gotten in trouble lately...its kinda weird...im scared that wen i do get in trouble itll be big trouble...*sigh*
early saturday morning had an ironing accident..accidentally burned the carpet...dont ask y...but wutever everythings fine... went to chelle's house at 830 i tink.. to help her and maria w/ kairos stuff...even tho i wasnt very succesful in helping, it was all good. had our girly makeup session for iono how many hours...lol...and chelle w/ her fashion show...we should have one again u guys...i actually thot i could do homework in ur house chelle...i guess i jus never learn...
debut practice supposedly at 1pm-4pm...buuut since the debutante wasnt there till...2 i think?...practice dint start till later. its al good coz me n maria were w/ the debutante..hihihi... practice was fun as usual....even tho i cant pull off our washing machines or wutever u call those..it was fun...got home at 7 and im soooo tired...plannin on starting my crap coz if i dont..i wont finish by tom....but oh well
still havent gotten college acceptances...why o god...why?...is it because im not worthy? *sigh* maaan i gtg take a chill pill i know...too many things goin on in my mind rite now...it jus adds on to my tiredness...i have to focus focus focus...maybe i should do standards now...."i should focus on the more important things in my life rite now" haha wuta nard...yeah important things...meaning things that actually make sense...ugh wutever i dont even know wut im talkin bout...gtg sleep now or sumtin...im too tired.
friday was the mother-daughter luncheon. i went even tho i was motherless jus to see everyone model...awww everyone looked so pweety...sat w/ chelle n bel yaay...it was ayt...we were like the only seniors who werent modelling but wutever...its all good in the hood. after that went to chelle's house n chilled till kat came and then we all went to glendale to watch 40days and 40nights. yep ur rite maria...guy movie...but the flower thing was too cute...very creative i might add...lol...got home at i forgot wut time..but i dint get trouble! yaay...i havent gotten in trouble lately...its kinda weird...im scared that wen i do get in trouble itll be big trouble...*sigh*
early saturday morning had an ironing accident..accidentally burned the carpet...dont ask y...but wutever everythings fine... went to chelle's house at 830 i tink.. to help her and maria w/ kairos stuff...even tho i wasnt very succesful in helping, it was all good. had our girly makeup session for iono how many hours...lol...and chelle w/ her fashion show...we should have one again u guys...i actually thot i could do homework in ur house chelle...i guess i jus never learn...
debut practice supposedly at 1pm-4pm...buuut since the debutante wasnt there till...2 i think?...practice dint start till later. its al good coz me n maria were w/ the debutante..hihihi... practice was fun as usual....even tho i cant pull off our washing machines or wutever u call those..it was fun...got home at 7 and im soooo tired...plannin on starting my crap coz if i dont..i wont finish by tom....but oh well
still havent gotten college acceptances...why o god...why?...is it because im not worthy? *sigh* maaan i gtg take a chill pill i know...too many things goin on in my mind rite now...it jus adds on to my tiredness...i have to focus focus focus...maybe i should do standards now...."i should focus on the more important things in my life rite now" haha wuta nard...yeah important things...meaning things that actually make sense...ugh wutever i dont even know wut im talkin bout...gtg sleep now or sumtin...im too tired.