HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHELLLLEE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOOUUU...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOOUUU...HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR CHEEEELLLEEEE...HAPY BIRTHDAY TO YOOOOUUUU! I LOVE YOU BABE!

okai earlier i said i was too lazy to fuckin cuss but now im just not. im fuckin pissed at every fuckin thing rite now its not cute. i thought i was gona keep my cool and be calm and shit but no its not workin. oh maaah god no moreee... i know it doesnt seem like id be fuckin pissed at anything, but i am. and it’s not just about one thing. its about lots of things. i guess im just pms-ing again...coz this is wut happens. but wutever.... i thought summer was supposed to be a stress-free time of my life but i guess not. and im perty sure a lot of people are feelin the same way. gggggrrrrrrrrr i dont need anymore crap to do. cant people just understand that?!?! NO THEY CANT!

THIS WAS THE BLOG I STARTED LAST WEEK....
these past two weeks has been an interesting one for me. i guess i can say a lot has happened, both good and bad. ive been spending most of my time with the people i love, and at the same time had time to myself to think about the things that have been going on in my life rite now. i realized things are goin well...for the most part. im a happy person. yes i am. coz i said so. haha. ive been tryin to look for ways to amuse myself these days. just coz. and i guess it worked.

THIS IS THE CONTINUATION FOR THIS WEEK...
iono. i would be cussing throughout this whole blog, but im too lazy. haha. im gona try not to be all drama queen, coz thats not who i am. but wutever. ugh i dont even know wut my point is here. im jus bloggin coz i feel bleeeh. everything’s bleeeh to me rite now. i need to keep myself busy...and thats not a problem since i have stuff to finish neway. damnit wut the hell is my point. i dont know. maybe i should just stop here.

funtimes wednesday! i wasnt supposed to be there but yay i was. im not gona go to details coz im too lazy. actually check out sue’s blog coz she has all the details... all i can say is....thanx sue ur the best....ur the best muthasucka evah waaahaaa no....and chelle i luv yah mucho hun. ill never forget our talk...thanx for making me cry. in a good way.

thursday was funtimes with chang and sue...went to lacc to enroll...dropped off mitch’s glasses at his dad’s clinic...and then went to the mall...oh man i went crazy at a&f ohmahgod u dont understand. bought a skirt shirt slippers yaaaaay. no more shopping for me ever again.

friday......had a looong day with sue of course. went to her house at 7:19 (according to her)...and thought we were gona go jogging but that dint happen. chilled for a while...then went to westside pavillion —> american eagle to buy stuff. yay i bought a shirt for seven bucks great. after that rushed to the airport...got lost...and picked up my tita...stopped over sue’s house...ate fun spaghetti at andre’s...stopped by my house....rested...then went to the mall..marketplace...greeat. after that went straight to debut practice at the
hotel. did our video thing for chelle. and then after that went to in n out. very fun and interesting times for sue.

friday night..tryin to be a good daughter...but its kinda useless becoz parents are not even home. gggrrr. oh well. im tired neways. i need to get some real sleep.

saturday...went shopping with mommy yay...shopping galore at old navy and victoria’s secret....great....got home...tried to put make up on sue..ohman that was fun...went to pick up shar n bel...got to the moose lodge...
- saw people in jeans...not funnie
- freaked out coz all of us were in friggin semiformal attire
- went back to the car..changed...decided to go to the mall to get stuff and fix sue’s makeup
- got back..funtimes at jhona joanna chris and marco’s grad party yaaay. im too layzee to go into details...see someone else’s blog lol

sunday
- church
- bought dad gift
- lola’s house
- debut practice

sorry bel treena mari and sue for bein a party pooper...soooooo soweee i swear to god it wont happen again.

monday...woke up..found out dad was home...grrr...slept...fone woke me up...it was chelle...said she was gona kidnap me with “keith”...so we went down dint see keith newhere...instead i see sue...maaan o maaaan i luv my friends. went to kfc and rite aid. funtimes talkin about peeps wahaa no. thanx u guys...ur the bestest. then went to micheals and ross yaaaay. funtimes.

funnest week with sue...omigod sue i saw u sunday monday wednesday thursday friday saturday sunday monday....wtf?!?! wahaha but its all gud coz sue’s cool.

this week has been fun i guess...im happy...yes i am....just coz...no praticular reason.... or am i? yeah wutever. i chose to be happy...so there...yay.

funtimes wednesday! i wasnt supposed to be there but yay i was. im not gona go to details coz im too lazy. actually check out sue’s blog coz she has all the details... all i can say is....thanx sue ur the best....ur the best muthasucka evah waaahaaa no....and chelle i luv yah mucho hun. ill never forget our talk...thanx for making me cry. in a good way.

thursday was funtimes with chang and sue...went to lacc to enroll...dropped off mitch’s glasses at his dad’s clinic...and then went to the mall...oh man i went crazy at a&f ohmahgod u dont understand. bought a skirt shirt slippers yaaaaay. no more shopping for meever again.

friday...today...had a looong day with sue of course. went to her house at 7:19 (according to her)...and thought we were gona go jogging but that dint happen. chilled for a while...then went to westside pavillion —> american eagle to buy stuff. yay i bought a shirt for seven bucks great. after that rushed to the airport...got lost...and picked up my tita...stopped over sue’s house...ate fun spaghetti at andre’s...stopped by my house....rested...then went to the mall..marketplace...greeat. after that went straight to debut practice
at the hotel. did our video thing for chelle. and then after that went to in n out. very fun and interesting times for sue.

now im home on a friday night..tryin to be a good daughter...but its kinda useless becoz parents are not even home. gggrrr. oh well. im tired neways. i need to get some real sleep.

maria’s party was fun yaaay...my face didnt show it but i had fun...the video was the best...wahaha..neways i tried to cheer myself up despite all the things that were bothering me....im not mad at anyone...im not mad at all....it jus bothered me...but right now i dont know anymore...my sister told me, “dont be upset with things that u dont have control of.” thats rite.....but neways thanx mariaaaaa...and im sorry if we took time out in your room...hope u dint get in trouble...i know ur having fun ovah there with ur hotboys yaaaay.

after the party i felt better. so much better. u know wut’s funnie? the one person who pissed me off was the one person who cheered me up. haha. muy interesante noh? life is just full of surprises.

to ray...maaaaan its all gud in the hood. im not mad tito....i swear....just dont hurt anyone aayt?

i wana thank sue for the ice cream and love and basketball...thanx suueeeee...and also for doin me the funnest favor..haha...that was fun...i jus needed to know...and u made that possible for me. now i dont have to feel all dumb and stupid. well actually i still do... but yeah thanx sueee.

to bel and mitch....aaawww u guyyysssssss...lol...thats all i can say...heeeheee....

to shar....i agree mucho with ur realizations in ur blog. also, dont u jus love ms. mcgrath and ms. pollia’s gift? i love it.

to chelle..i wana thank you for being there for me when i had to be ms. drama queen over here. thanx for not making me feel stupid...even though i really did feel like i was bein the dumbest person ever. dont ask why. i jus did. thanx chelle mwah. hope ur feeling better hun.

ive been thinking a lot about thinnnggssss in life that i do not have control over. my own feelings and emotions, and also other people’s. yes, i know you cant control these things. ive been telling that to myself over and over and over. but lately, i guess i didnt want to believe it. in the back of my mind, i was trying to convince myself that im strong enough to just turn off any feelings or emotions that i have. i was wrong. i dont have control over it. so now wut do i do? umm...i have no friggin clue. there’s nothing to do. there’s no point in doing anything. maybe i should jus slowly back away. or else jus leave things the way they are. yeah. jus leave it the way it is. no complications. no drama. no nothing.

p.s. if there was gona be a second down, im pretty sure it’s not gona be me. believe me. haha.

p.p.s. giving someone mixed signals is not cute.

p.p.p.s. u know wuts sad? i found myself eating cookie dough lastnite. thats the best food one can turn to when theyre down. haha.

TIRED - is what i am right now after debut practice. i thinks its coz of gradnite still. aww i had fun at gradnite. even though we dint get to ride mucho rides (coz i gave up after splash mountain...the best picture evah with maria, cool fartnah, and christine heehee)...the clubs were fun too i guess. with naomi teaching me her moves wahaha im a raver at heart...and who could forget my fun driving times with bel aawwrite. it was all fun till we had to wait for friggin bus for 2 hours. ugh no. jai took me home. slept from 8am till 4pm? i think. that was nice.

saturday went to bj's grad lunch at toto's...that was fun and interesting times...chelle, ray (the two people who better stop giving me looks) and keith were also there. yaay. after that went to the mall with ray (who better stop the interrogation)...got boba...spilled it on my shirt grrr...ray got him a shirt...i got a liquid eyeliner yaay...then went to practice. tita johannes wasnt there so melissa ran practice yay. i was tiiiirreeed. tried to take a nap...dint work...fun ride home with maria n bj...got home...got interrogation from my whole family....aye im tireed.

TIRED - ive been feeling this lately...physically yes...emotionally yes...lol ayee mom's buggin so ill continue this later byebye

man o man o man life is full of surprises i swear to god.

I JUST GRADUATED! aaww i still cant believe its over. my last day of finals was the day i felt a whole mess of mixed emotions. i couldnt believe its over. no more issue briefs...no more cuentos "aye chihuahua"...no more timed writing...no more force or work formulas...no more killer bio lectures...no more scary zaphiriou...its over!

class day was ayt...i dint cry as much as i was expecting...well i dint rilly cry...i was teary eyed...after that was some fun driving times with sue to get our shoes..maaan people need to go go go go go...after practice went to payless..sue bought shoes..i bought slippers of course...and then chilled at chelle's. of course what else would be funtimes but the question game. maaaan how come everytime i play this game i get picked on. so now everyone knows grrreat. but its all gud coz now i feel like i have nothing to hide nemore. lol. thanx chelle for putting me on the spot. awww bel thanx for not freakin out all the way...lol... maria's gona be the next one to be picked on i swear.

after that was our farewell dinner at school. ohmahgod i was hunggrrrryy...rite maria? hell yah. there was a whole slideshow with a poem and speech from mr manion and ms hill. aww and the fun picture n video times. wahahaa i have to see the video.. went home..tried on my dress...woah too white for me.

june 5 ...graduation! sue picked me up to go to practice..then picked up chelle n maria...got there and couldnt believe we were gona be the ones up on stage....maan aww we were so good that we were dismissed early...and sue over here was pms-ing...its ayt sue.
got home..tried to take a nap...i did for like 30 mins...got ready at 4 lol...but finished jus in time...

sue picked me up and we practiced our songs in the car....oh maaan never again. got there...cant believe thats the day...kinda excited...a bit nervous...but its all gud...finally marched..aaww a lot of people came. the ceremony itself went by perty quickly. i thought we sounded great. yay. i got my diploma woohoo! four years of hard work and i get a piece of paper orrrite. after the thing i saw everyone...aaww thanx for EVERYONE who came and gave me gifts! especially kamille!!!! ohmahgod ring sister ur too cool! yay u surprised me i was so happy u came! thanx for the fun gifts! i love u ring sister! thanx kamille n ian yay! im not gona name everyone who came and gave me a hug coz i mite forget people...but u know who u guys r and thanx sooo much for comin to grad... i love u all!

after grad jus went to in n out with mom dad and lil cousins coz everything was closed. but its all good. aww i havent spent quality time with my lil cousin in a while...happy that they came to see their ate graduate =).

got home...too tired...thinkin about how graduation went. it was perty cool. im gona miss immac. but there's one more day left of fun bonding times with everyone...gradnite. yaaaaaay!

i jus read chelle’s and maria’s blog and both songs mad me wana cry...

the real last day of class...wednesday...may 29...i was thinking of ditching but decided to jus go...maan mr. mcclellan and ms. conklin were the two teachers who almost made me cry...iono why...at the end of the day everyone was all happy...but i was jus feeling mixed emotions...oh yah after school was my last real after school funtimes with sue. *sniff sniff*

finals are here...and i feel like im the only loser who has finals all three days...ggrrrr... but wutever...i cant wait to get some real sleep after all this is over. man i still have a paper due on sunday...ggrrrrr help meeee.

saturday was fun. went to loyola grad early...sue picked me up..picked up maria..and then we were perty early..so we jus chilled in the car...and finally decided to walk...saw lots of immac people...sat together...that grad was looong..too many speeches. after the ceremony congratulated peoples yaaay theyre freeeee.....and i will be too on wednesday...=)...then had to go to practice right after...

- tried to fit in chelle’s car
- got to aprille’s
- went to choochoo’s...fun quesadillas w/ meat
- dint start practice till 3
- broke sumthin at aprille’s...soweee aprille!
- tiring practice ended at 6
- HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: drove keith’s car LOL...sowee keith, ray, and maria =)
- went to the mall to buy stuff
- got home....too tired.....

sunday...baccalaureate mass...okai iono how to spell it i know...yay i was a euchraistic minister...man why cant people finish my wine..that was fun...after the mass i dint rilly wana go to mitch’s party coz i know ima get in trouble...my mom may say “it’s up to cressa”..but in reality she means...NO..i jus know it....BUT THEN.. when i got home...i guess my mom took pity on me and said, “if u rilly wana go u can.” waaaaaaaaaaaah.... oh well. sorry shar, bel and sue! dont worry...we’ll party hard at maria’s next weeeek
baybee...woohoo!

messages to people....

sue: ur welcum about saturday man...even if i had to F#@! someone id do it just for u...LOL JK

bel: aawww beeeel gave bestfriend a hug on saturday.....funtimessssssss

shar: ima steal ur camera i swear

chelle: fake smile! i say get to know this boy chelle....and teach him to be bad ...and also..bestfriends are for life coz u know theyll be there for yah whenever u call

maria: man o man we have got to schedule our happy day....

cool fartnah: oohhmahgod u need to have a moment of sober-ness i swear

keith, ray , and maria: dont worry....ill never touch the wheel ever again