So much crap to do at work. I think they finally realized that I don't have enough work to keep me busy. Man!

Yes, it's over. I didn't like that final at all. Grrr. Wutever, it's over and that's all that matters.

Friday noite was party noite. I think it's funner to party without being intoxicated. You get to laugh at other people being stupid.

Thanx..once again...for taking me home Saturday. You never fail to entertain me. Well, actually u do sumtoimes but it's all gud.

So my spring break's kinda over after today coz im gona be working. Man, I suck like a duck. Oh well. I need the money.

I think I should take this toime to organize my whole loife. Payce.

I just realized that whenever I have to study for something big (finals or midterms), I tend to have this cleaning disorder where I have to clean the apartment, or my room, or whatever I can clean right before I study. Dang I'm special.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULA ANDREA PAZ TAYAG! UR TOO OLD TO HAVE BIRTHDAYS! MWAH I LOVE YOU CUZ!

Thanx for the visit...again...and it's not ur fault that I'm tired. That's my fault. Still not failing to bring me good junk. Good stuff good stuff. Thank you!
Oh, and Rona wants to give u a great big thank you for the foodrun. She's special like that.

One final down, three to go.

C'mon everyone we can do this! Study study study now so you can party hard later! And as my nerdy sister says, there's no such thing as luck, but there is such a thing as effort. Sooooooo...BEST EFFORTS TO EVERYONE THIS FINALS WEEK! And for those who are done with finals, boo to you all. JK I still like all of you.

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAM! I had fun at ur party...and everyone else that I brought yaaay.

Gross toimes at the parking lot though. Bleh.

Now it's time to study hardcore. Like grrrrr.

I had a shitload of shit due last week...which meant crankiness to the max. I didn't even go to Liwanag meeting because I thought I would get stuff done...but I didn't. Shoo. I should've just gone. But I got through it and it wasn't as bad as I thought. Well, except for my econ midterm. Pshahaha.

Thursday was PUSO's high school outreach and I wasn't feeling very woohoo about it for many reasons. But when the students started coming I got over it. "We're going to Miami, we're going to Miami, we're going to Miami...Metroids!" Pwaha. My kids Rudy, Sha, Vince, and Julianne were awesome. GREAT BIG THANK YOU to Mars n Mark for being honorary Metroids...it would not have been as fun if you guys weren't there to help me out.

Friday was a field trip to Planned Parenthood with my WYSE girls. Even though it was a short one, I thought it was a good field trip. Very educational. Haha.

Some questions that the girls had:
"What is this for?" *holds up lubricant*
"Why do condoms have flavors?"

It's rilly an awesome resource and not a lot of people realize that. Check it out if you have toime -->
Planned Parenthood

friday nite...party-ed for a bit.

Saturday sister picked me up and we headed to Paul's Place (thanx Cristina for directions) then headed home to LA. Went with sister to her hiphop class (bwaahaa that was funtoimes), took a shower, headed to the mall to buy cousin's gift, then went straight to church. Black Angus for dinner coz it was my parents' anniversary on the 10th! Yay! My sister surprised them with a trip to vegas for 3 days with a hotel suite n everythaang. Of course my mom had to take all the toiletries (did I spell that right?) and errthing else she could find in there. I'm happy they had fun.

Sunday was lunch at lola's. Mmmmm food. Chilled with cousin. Awww I love my cousin. Shampoo shampoo snake snake! BWAHA.

It feels so much better to let go of the negativity. Makes me feel lighter and more carefree. I love it.

Fun-filled weekend:

- Spirit Rally was awesome. I wanted to stay so bad...but couldn't. But I know it was funtoimes all the toime. Yay liwanag! Yay Jesus!

- HAPPY BIRTHDAY COOL FARTNAH AND MELISSA! You guys looked amazing.


This week is hecticness all over. Paper, project, midterm, high school outreach, mother. Just when my day was starting to get better, she just ruins everything for me. *frustrated/mad/about to cry face*. I would blog more about it but I wana stay away from posting all the negativity for a while.

Happy Thoughts:
- free food (thanx ng =D)
- beautiful weather
- chilltoime
- more free food

I hate it when I feel mad for some reason. I hate it when I feel the bitterness. I hate it when I feel resenment towards people. I hate it when I hate.

There was a point when I felt I had so much hate inside me. It wasn't a very good feeling because it only made me feel worse. Whenever I catch myself feeling angry and furious about sumtin, I disappoint myself and almost feel guilty for having those emotions. I don't like feeling that way and I try hard not to, but then I'm only human and it takes a lot to stop it. Venting seems to be the only way to let it out, but sometimes it only makes it worse. I ask Him to make me stronger, to give me the strength to be more understanding. I ask Him to take away all the hate I have in me so that I would not feel the heaviness I have in my heart. I ask Him to be with me...and forgive me.

Man I used the word hate ten million times in this post. I know hate is a strong word...and so is love. And you know...you can never rilly hate someone you don't love.

Happier blog will come soon! I hope.