HAPPY LUV DAY! rilly now? i decided to face this day with a positive attitude even though i dont have a V. rite chelle? yeah...positive energy all the way...maybe not...okai yeah ive been the bitter-est person ive known in my whole life, and i kinda thought that my bitterness majorly grows each and everyday. I duno why, thats jus me. so i decided to be positive just for one day. positive positive positive all the way. did i succeed? unfortunately, not. i was listenin to my usual sappy songs, doin my homework, watchin the tv, while talkin to my sister on the fone. i told her about my positive vibe for today. but rite after i got off the fone, everything jus fell apart. i have no idea why. i jus started to cry. it's not jus coz of stupid vday. well maybe its partly bcoz of that. but thats not the whole of it. its jus the fact that i feel that there is something missing there. ill admit that sometimes i dont rilly care about anything thats happening or not happening in my life. but tonite, i felt that missing piece. damnit im being histrionic (wahaha sat word meaning overly dramatic. thanx sue, i still remmber that word). im pretty sure this'll pass in a couple of hours. i jus need to occupy my mind with school shit so that i wouldnt be thinking about these kinds of stuff. damnit im a loser.