man i havent blogged for a while....ive been sick for a while now and its not fun coz im to weak to do nething...*sigh* good thing there was no debut practice coz i would jus be too weak to chacha

friday i chilled at sue's house....trying to fix her blog but cant hihi...then connie and gina and john came...chilled for awhile..then connie, sue and me went to baja for dinner....maan was i hungry...connie went home...but then i dint wana go home yet...so me n sue went to this funky record store...then sue chilled at my house for a bit...

friday is the day...ucla acceptances are out....of course i dint wana check in school coz i dont wana cry there...but i checked at home...and its not like i was expecting to get in.....so i was jus wutevr...i was sad...but wut can i do? i fell asleep coz i was rilly tired and sick..and wen my whole family came home i told them...they were very supportive but i was kinda pissed...iono y..but they were cool about it and i think we decided tha ima go to irvine...i thnk...not sure yet...but its all gud to me

saturday was tatay ben's funeral (my lola's brother)....went early to walnut...mass first...maaaan i dint know i would cry...but i did...i wasnt rilly that close to him tho...but wen the eulogies came, i cried my eyes out...my 2 cousins and my lolo gave the eulogies...and wen they started singing hindi kita malilimutan and my lola started ballin, i started too....*sigh*.....went to the cemetery after....after the thing was over i hugged my cousins who were all pretty crushed. they were rilly close to tatay, and i felt rily sorry for them. it was rilly sad coz wen i was hugging my other cousin he was shakin. *sigh* i guess i can say this was the first time ive been to a funeral of someone very closely related to me... but later it was all gud wen we went to the house and there was foooood...maan i havent eaten real food in awhile so that was good...and evryone seemed okai...people were laffin n stuff so the mood of the house was better...

omigod btw my tita had the most beautiful orchids ever...they were so big and healthy i thot they were fake..but they were real..jus wanted to share coz orchids are the best flowers ever...LOL

saturday nite i was a loser...went to church at omgc...i saw bel's mom yaay...but she dint see us..

sunday was eeh coz i was rilly sick and i had all my crap to do...i was sleeping most of the day so i feel eeeh rite now...i duno if u should go to school tom tho..i prolly will knowing me....but it all depends on how i feel tom....

maaan i hate the smell of vicks...i hate the smell and the feel of it....please make me feel better now =(....i cant take it nemoreeee