time to bloooooooog once again....

august 2, friday
- did all my chores and chilled with sue at home
- hoping id be able to go to maria's but got the sermon instead

august 3, saturday
- went to santa barbara with sister, her friends marge and floyd, and bj
- i so wanted to go to maria's but i couldnt go out unless i was with sister

august 4, sunday
- went to church with sister, and saw bel, keith and bj there too
- went home, chilled for awhile, then went to the grove with sister and her friend jeff
- met up with bel, trina, keith, and bj there
- chilled, went to beverly connection, chilled

august 5 and 6, monday and tuesday
- im a bum, tryin to be productive and bitter haha oh well

so that's wuts happening. i basically cant go out coz they said i do that too much already. wtf. iono. sucks to be me. oh well. um wut else. ill blog again later wen my brain's awake.

man today was sadtimes...i spoiled the beach outing for bel, keith, and bj. sorry u guys. okai here's wut happened...

me n bj went to keith's house just coz...then they were all "lets go to the beach"...so i was all..orite...so keith was all preparing and stuff...and we stopped by bj's house for towels n stuff...and then we decided to kidnap bel (sowee bel i forgot to say it was a beach outing haha)...so yeah...everything was goin fine...it was trafficy but its alll gud. so after an hour's drive my mom calls me and was all pissed coz i dint tell her i was goin somewhere. so she decides to ruin my fun and told me to get my ass home. fucker. big trouble woohoo. so i had to go home even though we were like more than halfway to the beach after all that traffic n shit. im soweeee u guys i felt rilly bad. i owe u guys a beach trip. so we decided to pass by in n out first...comfort food. funtimes. while my mother called me 5 times in a row...and left 13 messages in the friggin answering machine at home. fucker. that was scary. i jus dont understand why she was all bein paranoid and shit. i mean wut can possibly happen to me on a weekday afternoon. fuck. so they chilled at my house for a while. then i had to kick them out coz mom will be home soon. she got home and wasnt talkin to me at all. silent treatment woohoo. i thought that was kinda scary...but perty cool. for once she has nothing to say to me. so i took a nap...woke up and she's still not talking...wutever. and then dinnertime she was all normal and shit. her usual happy self. i was all....hhmmm sumtin's wrong here. so later on she talks to me coz she asked me to type up sumtin for her. she was all bein nice n stuff...i was all...hmm okai now this is rilly wrong. she dint mention a single thing about wut i did. my sister was all, "maybe she felt guilty." waha well yeah. wutever. i duno if that means she'll let me go on saturday. we'll see. but if i cant, i suck. but its all gud coz im used to it. ive been dealing with this ish since forever. i think i can handle it for couple more months.

This week started out perfectly, just becoz I got to chill with my girls yesterday. Okai lets have a recap so that its easier…

- got up at 7:30..took a shower
- started cooking at 8am for the meeting haha
- bj came and gave me fun stuff from his trip
- we go to class and he sat in woohoo
- we go back to my house and fought with sue about parking
- 6 of us chilled for awhile, ate, saw a flip movie
- bj n me go pick up mari at togo’s
- so we finally started the sharing --> funtimes. I luv my girls.
- Left to eat at islands
- Got home and dint get in trouble woohoo

Even though maria was present through speaker fone for a while, we still missed her. But all in all, the kickback was fun. Its just nice to catch up with wuts happening with everyone else yah know. I wish all of us girls the best of luck in our lil “journeys” in life. heeheeee

So today was fun too. Bj picked me up after school and we jus chilled at home.

Basically, ive been a happy girl these past few weeks. I mean, life hasn’t been all perfect or nething like that. But its been good. I guess those of you who know wutsup with me might be thinking, “of course she’s happy…why would she not be.” Well yah that’s true. Im having fun this summer. That’s wut summer’s supposed to be neway. I jus wana have some funtimes before we all go off to college, out into the real world. I just wana make some fun memories to remember yah know. That’s all I want. But neways, I just wish everyone who’s been goin thru a lot of ish can find a way to have funtimes this summer. I know its hard to be optimistic sometimes. Well all the time actually. I find it hard to do it myself. But I guess its jus a matter of attitude. As I always say, if u wana have funtimes, then ull find a way to have funtimes. That’s all for now.

This week has been an eeeh one. Ive been bumming around, goin to summer school, and then sleeping the whole day. That was nice. Hahaha. But yeah, I got time to jus chill and do nothing and think of nothing. That was cool. Man I duno wut else to say. Ooh except today was funtimes for me. I got spoiled by my mommy todaaaay woohoo. I got me some clothes of course…and guess wut else?!? A fone! Woohoo finally! Yeaah that was the highlight of the day.

Oh and I ran into two of my immac girls today too. Alisha and Christine woohoo. Aaww I miss my girls. It was nice running into people I havent seen o talked to in awhile. And even though I havent seen maureen in a while, its nice to know that’s she’s never bored at SLO waahhahaha funtimes all the time buddy.

To bel and shar….aww u guys I thought my dad was gona stop to let u guys ride but then I guess not. Lol I felt bad. Soweeeee.

Welcum back suuuuuuueeeeeeeeeeee and bj!

I wana change my template gggrr. But itll take me awhile to fix it. Im too layzee. Eh wutever.

since sue, bel, and maria made me feel oh-so-special, i was inspired to do the same thing. so to my girls, i luv u all, and i dont know where the hell i would be without ur constant support and trust in me. u guys are my foundation, the “table” of all the appetizers, maindishes, and desserts that i would have. without you, all the funtimes in my life would not exist. thank you...and i luv u...mwah!

(in alphabetical order lol)...

bel - aaaaww beeeeeeeeeeel. wut can i say, but from funtimes in algebra, to goodtimes at the mall wahahaha, to the fun rides that ur mom always gave me just so id have a life haha, thank u soooo much. thanx for not freakin out about u know...uve been so supportive...i needed that...thanx bel i luv u!

chelle - omigod chelle u dont know how much this whole rommie thing is affecting me. chelle u dont understand! i dont wana lose u..u freak on a big stick. u have to promise me we’ll make things work damn u. but neways, i know i dont get to talk to u on a regular basis nemore...coz ud rather be with other people than us...but its okai...hahah naw im kidding. but yeah..... uve been there to listen to my stupid nonsense, and support me 100% of the time. thank u so much ur the best. i know u always blog about the sadness inside of u. but i jus hope u see the funtimes that i know is somewhere in there. smile chelle. u r beautiful. i luv u.

mari - mari! dude im serious...where the hell are u...uve been M.I.A. (missing in action) since...see i dont even know! man o man u still alive dude? newayssss....mari....i jus wana thank you for ur dreams.. hahahaha. if it werent for them, i dont know where i would be rite now lol. u were one of my best supporters, always reminding me about “wutever floats my boat”. well, im sailing away! wahahaaha i luv u mari.

maria - mariaaaaaa omigod my laffin partner. oh maaan. u bring the sunshine in my life. i know i said u were the saddest of the combo, bread, and salad, but i told u exactly why. omigod maria ur hot orite? and if they cant see that, well then sux to be them. maybe we can say that god has sumthin majorly fun for u in the future. everything happens for a reason. rite mi amiga? also, thank you so much for the happy thoughts u sent my way the last time we talked on the fone. heehee i luv u maria!

shar - omigod seastar wutupwutup? do u remmber junior retreat? horseshoe? yeah we rock. if it werent for that experience, i duno if u and i would have funtimes at all. man o man shar. not only were u my retreat buddy, but also the coolest physics cheatmate. haha. man o man im so glad u stayed till the end. or else i wouldve gona crayzee. and oh yes....we do need to have our talk. i luv u shar.

sue - sssssuuuueeeeee. dayum sue. one more month. suuuee why cant u jus stay here??!?!? that just shows how much u care about us boohoo. naw im playin. heehee. but seriously sue. uve been there, every minute, even every second of my day, that i wouldnt know wut it would be like wen u leave. u have given me so much, (u know wut they all are....im not gona mention them...it ranges from material things to nonmaterial things haha) and words cannot express the gratitude that i feel. i dont know where i would be without u. i luv u sue.

and for everyone else (you know who u guys are..the ones readin this rite now =)), who may have also touched my life in one way or another, i luv u.

yesterday was funtimes once again of course.
- summer school: learned that the teacher does see every move u make
- bj n sue picked me up and then went to keith's house...keith n bel came
- went to marketplace...panda...jewel city...woohoo yay for me n keith the best players (special awards: sue for almost making a hole on the floor every single time, bel for her graceful bowling moves, bj for 10 fouls in a row waha naw im playin)
- ray, aprille, and cool fartnah came yaaay i miss the couuuurrtt
- after two games we chilled at my house...funtimes...all the time
- they all left and had funtimes at coffee bean without me...yeah i c how it is
- and yes...interesting convos with sue n chelle who else...maan u guys r the bomb waha

todaaay....
i guess ima be stuck at home today. im not part of the funtimes at maria's coz id have to be home by 5..and that wouldnt happen. so yah. sleepy time for me today woohoo.

yaay fun filled week yet again. i guess next week will be an eeh week for me coz sue n bj r both not gona be here sadness. man why is everyone leavin. to mitch, bj, n sue, and whoever else is goin somewhere...have fuuuuuuuuuuun!

i have some random thoughts in my head rite now but i still have to organize it. haha so check again later yay.

BLOGTIME!

monday, july 15
first day of school at lacc. i thought i was gona end up taking poli sci....but i ended up liking psych much better. funtimes all the time. hmmm i forgot wut else i did. i think i slept the whole day. yeah i forgot. next day...


tuesday, july 16
second day of summer school. eh. great. but after school was funtimes. outing with sue, shar, chelle, keith, bj, joe, john, and jonn woohoo
- bj picked me up from school
- got lost goin to sue’s house
- got there...we were late yes we’re sorry
- followed keith to hermosa
- funtimes all the time at the beach
- left and changed at sue’s
- ate at andre’s...italian and chilled there for a while
- went to the grove to watch the fountain
check out sue’s blog for more details.. I HAD MAJOR FUNTIMES. i got in trouble wen i got home, but wutever...it was worth it.


wednesday, july 17 (today)
third day of summer school. still eh. but its also cool. perty interesting funtimes with interesting people in class.. major points for keith for giving me a ride yay. after school i had fun bonding times with bj. went to in n out...dairy queen...haha...then chilled at my house n watched american history x...fun movie haha. thanx dude for a fun day.


time for messages to my girls...

bel - welcum back beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel
mari - where the hell r u man
shar - man wen u gona tell me ur story?
maria - u still got it. u still make me laff. thanx mi amigaaaaa
chelle - sooo...howwwss it goooeeenn????...holy mother i have a story for u..oh yah thank u so much for
bein one of my trusted advisers i luv u chelle.
sue - damn u bitch i luv u haha. i guess all i can say is..where would i be without you.. i owe it all to u. thanx so much i luv u sue.

random thoughts...
- things dont turn out the way u expect them to be
- it’ll come when u least expect it
- i just wana live my life as if there’s no tomorrow

well all i can say is i luv summer. it’s the best one so far. man. iono. im speechless. geezus. um...yah...im happy. there. that says it all.

GOT BACK FROM UCI ORIENTATION WOOHOO!

July 11, Thursday
- got only 2 hours of sleep coz I jus luv my chatroom buddies sue, maria, chelle, keith, and bj haahaa
- woke up at 5am, left at 6 with chelle n my dad, got to uci, took my precalc test, saw jason n patrick
- chelle’s ate tricia and her bf mike took us to their place to chill, chelle’s ate berly took us to in n out
- me n chelle took id pics, chilled, saw mad and sidney, then checked in our dorms yaaay
- chelle n I were in different dorms (which was perty gud rite chelle? U have to admit it was better that we were separated) GO OTERO! GO NINTERO haha
- Met a lot of interesting people, and cute anteaters. Maaan I luv my staff people
- My roomie Stephanie was cool, she was 20 but she looked like she was 12.
- Had interesting convos with these cool people who im so thankful I met. Jeanette and Colleen were my girls. Theyre perty cool people.
- Me n chelle wandered late that night looking for a computer with aim. Haha jk. But man was I was dying of aim deprivation I swear.

July 12, Friday
- breakfast with fun people, then academic counseling (that was torture), picnic at the park (with fun games of course)
- academic counseling once again. Met a new friend who is undecided too but wants to major in ics too. Yay we mite have same classes together.
- Basically chilled with cool people till the talent show
- Talent show: anteaters are awesome. Theyre a bunch of talented and funny people who know how to entertain yayay.
- Dance at the plaza woohoo funtimes with my dorm people and of course freakydeaky chelle.

July 13, Saturday
- Dint rilly sleep coz we played hella fun games: the animal game, stick game haahaa, mafia, cross dressing game, sexual position game. Sounds like funtimes haa
- We were basically waiting till sunrise so we all went up the parking lot and chilled aww that waas fun.
- Thought I could take a one hour nap so I could eat breakfast, but noooo I overslept and missed breakfast. Damn.
- Closing. Went back to dorms and had an awesome experience. It was almost like mini kairos I swear. The touch game did touch my heart. Ill never forget that game.
- OOOOOOOOOTERO!
- Yay for the coolest staffers – man I forgot some of their names. Haha but lets try this: Hian, Shelby, Katie, R, Beat, Josh, Nick, and the sexiest ones, my group leaders Thao and Rachel. YAY! Theyre the nicest and the best leaders one could have. They made me feel at home, and that I was truly part of the group. Theyre one awesome group of people I luv them all.
- Checkout time. GOODBYE EVERYONE! DON’T FORGET THE SPOP REUNION!

- sue n shar picked me n chelle up. Aww I missed my girls. Ate at islands
- the ride home was fun for me n chelle coz we catched up on our sleep. Sue n shar we need those pictures that u said u took damn u. haha.
- Man o man I miss laffin w/ maria. Mariaaa u know wuts funner? Telllin ur story live.
- Dropped of shar then chelle. Then my house. Then me n sue went to the mall and then marketplace to chill n eat.
- Chelle called tellin us to come over n bring her food. Sorry no panda for u chelle, it was all sue’s fault.
- Bj n keith were there too so we had funtimes in our almost complete live chatroom (maria was the only one missing)
- Keith has the coolest car n radio wahaa wutupwutupwutup
- Got home, dint get in trouble woohoo (yeah coz that’s how much my family misssed me)

July 14, Sunday
- had to go to church t 9am at omgc. Maaan I need sleeeep I swear.
- Saw bj, but no keith. Tsk tsk major negative points for him, but major points for bj coz we chilled the whole day with my sister. Went to santa monica beach, (kinkyness all over damn) ate at mr. Noodle at westwood (thanx sister!), and diddy riese (yes I wasted my ice cream sandwich im sorry), and then went to rodeo to try and avoid getting food coma (and some more kinkyness of course).
- Went back to omgc to drop off bj coz he left his car there
- Got home, took a nice nap, and then fun bonding times with mi familia si.


Random thoughts:
The whole orientation experience was great. I rilly did not wana go at first. I got there with the feeling of “not wanting to be there”. I was scared, felt sad, and wanted to go home. But then immediately that first night of orientation, I met the coolest people. We were all jus chillen and we all started getting to know each other. That was cool. So the second day I woke up and felt good. I decided that its up to me if I want to make this orientation fun for me or not. I realized that if I want to make the best out of that experience, I should make an effort to make it as awesome as I want it to be. I woke up with a positive attitude, and jus seized the day. So the next couple of days was awesome. Ill admit, it did feel like I was there for one whole week. But I had fun. On the third day, I guess I was excited to go home. But it was jus so weird how I felt like I was leaving that place for good, wen rilly, im gona be back there in two months. The last activity just amazed me. I havent felt that much loved in a while. It was amazing.

The nice lunch with sue, shar, and chelle was nice. Its nice to see familiar faces once again. Sue n shar, u guys will have funtimes at orientation too. Don’t worry about it. U will if u want to. Trust me.

I realized that college is a whole new different world. It’s a whole new different experience, far away from high school and far away from home. I hate changes. Im bad at dealing with changes, or anything that has to do with it. I don’t like starting from scratch. Ive gone thru it before, and im scared that my first year in collge would be hell. But then, I also realized that if I don’t, at least, make an effort to just give it a try, then I rilly will be experiencing hell. Its up to me if I want college to be fun or not. I will if I want it to be. So I decided, that I will make it funtimes all the time. Yes I will haha.

It’s nice to be back home. I luv seeing familiar faces once again, and jus kickin it with funfunfun people. Especially today. That was funtimes all the time.

yes yes yes i know i havent been bloggin that much. its jus coz i rilly have nothing to blog about...nothing that would interest you neways...waha ...but neways....im gona blog just for the hell of it...and so that u would have sumthin to do. OOOHHH and i wrote some deep shiet in the end end so yah enjoy haha.

july 3, wednesday
i forgot wut happened

july 4, thursday
happy 4th of july! had a lil party thing at my grandma’s house. fun bonding times with cousins. man ima miss jus kickin it and doing wutever with them wen i leave. so yeah, after that went to old town and got some stuff at pacsun. man their pacsun over there is perty gud. so yeah went to target after, and then ate at in n out. fun bonding times with family grreeaaaat.

july 5, friday
kat’s debut. sue picked me up, then maria, then bel and then we went to coffee bean and played the game haha. that was fun. so we get to the hotel and i see everyone once again. aww everyone was so perty. the debut was beautiful, jus like chelle’s. i had fun....im perty sure everyone did. of course they all did. i know maria n mari did. wahahaa. yaay. i was jus kinda sad after wen i realized that that mite be the last time ima be seeing these people. maaan i swear we all have to go out again soon.

july 6, saturday
lil party thing at tita’s house. yaay food. funtimes with family and cousins again as usual. then two lil cousins, sister, and me went to go see mr. deeds at the marketplace yaaaay. fun bonding times at taco bell haha.

july 7, sunday
went to church at 9. keith wasnt there so negative points for him hahaaa. then we all went to eat at sushi mac at friggin sherman oaks geesh. then i remembered i had this gift that i wanted to return from myaunt. haha. she got it at mervyn’s so i had to actually look for sumthin i like in that store. man was that a challenge. so my mom saved my life by buying some kitchen thing so that she could use the gift money, and she just paid me my cash. then i was happy! so then after that me n sister decided to watch the yaya sisterhood. we went to burbank, watched, and ate at bj’s (who have cheater waiters btw gggrrrrrrr).

july 8, monday
fun talk with mommie. haha man i luv my mother.

july 9, tuesday
ate at thai bbq with sue and then went to marketplace to get coldstones. chilled at my house and of course had an interesting talk. man sue, wen do ever not have an interesting talk?


okai time to be deep....

have u ever heard someone say that life is just like a book, composed of chapters that never seem to end. each chapter has a new adventure, a certain climax that will never be forgoten. the first few chapters of one’s life may start out in high spirits, and end in a resentment. or maybe it could start with bitterness, and end with true bliss. each chapter has its ups and downs, but wut makes up the whole is the experience. each chapter gives one the opportunity to better understand life. it doesnt matter if it hurts. it doesnt matter if it brings you tears. it doesnt matter if it breaks your heart. what matters is that it strengthens. it tests your mind, it tests your heart, it tests your faith. living life to the fullest means living each chapter, page by page, without the fear of stumbling or losing sight of one’s way. each chapter teaches. it does not bring one down to the point of defeat. it does not mean to ruin or cause hatred. each chapter is a challenge that one has to go through in order to move on to the next. once a chapter has ended, as one wanted it to end or not, it is time to turn the page and start a new one. the question is, when can one say that it truly is over? only time can tell. maybe if one looks hard enough, one can find a way to move on and start that new chapter in life. maybe i already did.

yay blogtime. let’s start with all the funtimes last week...

june 26, wednesday, chelle’s birthday was a very interesting day, not only for me but for a lot of people. i guess i can say things are looking better for most of us, but not for some. im one of the people who, i guess, have fixed things with certain people. i should be happy. but can u blame me if i still wasnt? wutever. im gona be okay.

june 27, thursday, practice at the hotel. but first had to watch jonn at cool fartnah’s and melissa’s coz he wanted an audience. yeah chelle found out about it neways but wutever! we did our best to keep it from her till the debut itself. well except for sue who just had to write it in her blog geesh. man i couldnt believe that was the real last practice. sadness. went to celebrate tita wela’s bday after, and yeah we did have funtimes celebrating with coffee bean and yeah. haha gud stuff. except wen my mother called and scared the shit out of me, resulting in a lie that just made everything worse haha oh well sux to be me.

june 28, friday, day of the debut. woke up early to do my chores, packed, and of course went online to see who had the heart to give me a ride to chelle’s. it was a long story, but bj took me, after passing by this office he works at. um yah thanx sue, u truly add color to my everyday life ggeesssh. got to chelle’s, got hair and makeup done, thanx nikki and melissa! okai lets make things easier and make bullet points...
- thankful for mcdonalds coz i was hella hungry
- got ready by putting on our tops, and sweating like u dont know
- rode with kat to the hotel, nervous as hell
- got there, got ready in the room, took pics, practiced our thang, saw lots of people, got more nervous
- grand entrance(CHELLE U WERE BEAUTIFUL) dinner, program GOOD JOB CZAREINE, KAT, & MELISSA and finally candles came, can never be more nervous
- after that i was fine, GOOD JOB SUE AND JONN!, cotillion performance, aawww the time finally came
- dance, dance, dance - too tired
so yeah, that was basically the whole night, funtimes at the after party of course =).

june 29, saturday, after the debut. well the after party wasn’t over. everyone got some sleep at some point. i think me n chelle were the last ones to knock out. at 5? man it’s fun watching people sleep i swear to god. yeah we were planning on watching the sunrise. our 5 minute nap became a 2 hour nap. so i got up at about 7 sumthin, got ready to go home coz i dint wana get in trouble. they were gona go to denny’s and keith’s house but i couldnt. sadness. bj took me home, took my 7 hour “nap” and got the semi-silent treatment from my mother. grrr.

man ima miss the whole court i swear. ive spent almost every single weekend since january with these people, and i dont know wut my weekends would be like anymore without practices. no more funtimes at kat’s or chelle’s, no more reason for me to go out on saturdays, no more goofin around (man i cant believe ima say this but ima miss credit cards hahahaa naww maybe not). to the whole court, especially to the coolest fartnah one could have, i will miss all of u! dude we better have more debut outings i swear.

june 30, sunday, family day. went to church, costco, trader joe’s, lola’s house, hospital to visit tito, home, vons, ralphs, home. yes quality time with family. grrreaat. mom r u happy now. got THE sermon that i thought she forgot to give me. haha. it wasnt as bad as i thought. it’s the usual. but yeah. im sowee if i let my parents down. i still am the good daughter that theyve always had. i jus need to be reminded everytime.

july 1, monday, cress and sue are back. sue picked me up to go to islands. it was closed still so we bugged mari. went back to see if islands was open yay it was. funtimes watching gay people, and dissing boys of course. but we did some praising boys too so that was fun. went back to the mall, couldnt find anything nice, went back to kidnap mari, and went to coldstones. chilled and had funtimes with mari n sue. dont worry mari i feel yah. i know wut ur goin thru coz im goin thru the same exact thing. LOL JK. and sue, maaaan i duno. im dumb. there. haha. jk. thanx sue.


july 2, today, im a bum. woke up at 1230. damn im unproductive. i need to do stuff now. ggrrr. orite ill blog again if sumthin interesting happens. i highly doubt that tho.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHELLLLEE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOOUUU...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOOUUU...HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR CHEEEELLLEEEE...HAPY BIRTHDAY TO YOOOOUUUU! I LOVE YOU BABE!

okai earlier i said i was too lazy to fuckin cuss but now im just not. im fuckin pissed at every fuckin thing rite now its not cute. i thought i was gona keep my cool and be calm and shit but no its not workin. oh maaah god no moreee... i know it doesnt seem like id be fuckin pissed at anything, but i am. and it’s not just about one thing. its about lots of things. i guess im just pms-ing again...coz this is wut happens. but wutever.... i thought summer was supposed to be a stress-free time of my life but i guess not. and im perty sure a lot of people are feelin the same way. gggggrrrrrrrrr i dont need anymore crap to do. cant people just understand that?!?! NO THEY CANT!

THIS WAS THE BLOG I STARTED LAST WEEK....
these past two weeks has been an interesting one for me. i guess i can say a lot has happened, both good and bad. ive been spending most of my time with the people i love, and at the same time had time to myself to think about the things that have been going on in my life rite now. i realized things are goin well...for the most part. im a happy person. yes i am. coz i said so. haha. ive been tryin to look for ways to amuse myself these days. just coz. and i guess it worked.

THIS IS THE CONTINUATION FOR THIS WEEK...
iono. i would be cussing throughout this whole blog, but im too lazy. haha. im gona try not to be all drama queen, coz thats not who i am. but wutever. ugh i dont even know wut my point is here. im jus bloggin coz i feel bleeeh. everything’s bleeeh to me rite now. i need to keep myself busy...and thats not a problem since i have stuff to finish neway. damnit wut the hell is my point. i dont know. maybe i should just stop here.

funtimes wednesday! i wasnt supposed to be there but yay i was. im not gona go to details coz im too lazy. actually check out sue’s blog coz she has all the details... all i can say is....thanx sue ur the best....ur the best muthasucka evah waaahaaa no....and chelle i luv yah mucho hun. ill never forget our talk...thanx for making me cry. in a good way.

thursday was funtimes with chang and sue...went to lacc to enroll...dropped off mitch’s glasses at his dad’s clinic...and then went to the mall...oh man i went crazy at a&f ohmahgod u dont understand. bought a skirt shirt slippers yaaaaay. no more shopping for me ever again.

friday......had a looong day with sue of course. went to her house at 7:19 (according to her)...and thought we were gona go jogging but that dint happen. chilled for a while...then went to westside pavillion —> american eagle to buy stuff. yay i bought a shirt for seven bucks great. after that rushed to the airport...got lost...and picked up my tita...stopped over sue’s house...ate fun spaghetti at andre’s...stopped by my house....rested...then went to the mall..marketplace...greeat. after that went straight to debut practice at the
hotel. did our video thing for chelle. and then after that went to in n out. very fun and interesting times for sue.

friday night..tryin to be a good daughter...but its kinda useless becoz parents are not even home. gggrrr. oh well. im tired neways. i need to get some real sleep.

saturday...went shopping with mommy yay...shopping galore at old navy and victoria’s secret....great....got home...tried to put make up on sue..ohman that was fun...went to pick up shar n bel...got to the moose lodge...
- saw people in jeans...not funnie
- freaked out coz all of us were in friggin semiformal attire
- went back to the car..changed...decided to go to the mall to get stuff and fix sue’s makeup
- got back..funtimes at jhona joanna chris and marco’s grad party yaaay. im too layzee to go into details...see someone else’s blog lol

sunday
- church
- bought dad gift
- lola’s house
- debut practice

sorry bel treena mari and sue for bein a party pooper...soooooo soweee i swear to god it wont happen again.

monday...woke up..found out dad was home...grrr...slept...fone woke me up...it was chelle...said she was gona kidnap me with “keith”...so we went down dint see keith newhere...instead i see sue...maaan o maaaan i luv my friends. went to kfc and rite aid. funtimes talkin about peeps wahaa no. thanx u guys...ur the bestest. then went to micheals and ross yaaaay. funtimes.

funnest week with sue...omigod sue i saw u sunday monday wednesday thursday friday saturday sunday monday....wtf?!?! wahaha but its all gud coz sue’s cool.

this week has been fun i guess...im happy...yes i am....just coz...no praticular reason.... or am i? yeah wutever. i chose to be happy...so there...yay.

funtimes wednesday! i wasnt supposed to be there but yay i was. im not gona go to details coz im too lazy. actually check out sue’s blog coz she has all the details... all i can say is....thanx sue ur the best....ur the best muthasucka evah waaahaaa no....and chelle i luv yah mucho hun. ill never forget our talk...thanx for making me cry. in a good way.

thursday was funtimes with chang and sue...went to lacc to enroll...dropped off mitch’s glasses at his dad’s clinic...and then went to the mall...oh man i went crazy at a&f ohmahgod u dont understand. bought a skirt shirt slippers yaaaaay. no more shopping for meever again.

friday...today...had a looong day with sue of course. went to her house at 7:19 (according to her)...and thought we were gona go jogging but that dint happen. chilled for a while...then went to westside pavillion —> american eagle to buy stuff. yay i bought a shirt for seven bucks great. after that rushed to the airport...got lost...and picked up my tita...stopped over sue’s house...ate fun spaghetti at andre’s...stopped by my house....rested...then went to the mall..marketplace...greeat. after that went straight to debut practice
at the hotel. did our video thing for chelle. and then after that went to in n out. very fun and interesting times for sue.

now im home on a friday night..tryin to be a good daughter...but its kinda useless becoz parents are not even home. gggrrr. oh well. im tired neways. i need to get some real sleep.

maria’s party was fun yaaay...my face didnt show it but i had fun...the video was the best...wahaha..neways i tried to cheer myself up despite all the things that were bothering me....im not mad at anyone...im not mad at all....it jus bothered me...but right now i dont know anymore...my sister told me, “dont be upset with things that u dont have control of.” thats rite.....but neways thanx mariaaaaa...and im sorry if we took time out in your room...hope u dint get in trouble...i know ur having fun ovah there with ur hotboys yaaaay.

after the party i felt better. so much better. u know wut’s funnie? the one person who pissed me off was the one person who cheered me up. haha. muy interesante noh? life is just full of surprises.

to ray...maaaaan its all gud in the hood. im not mad tito....i swear....just dont hurt anyone aayt?

i wana thank sue for the ice cream and love and basketball...thanx suueeeee...and also for doin me the funnest favor..haha...that was fun...i jus needed to know...and u made that possible for me. now i dont have to feel all dumb and stupid. well actually i still do... but yeah thanx sueee.

to bel and mitch....aaawww u guyyysssssss...lol...thats all i can say...heeeheee....

to shar....i agree mucho with ur realizations in ur blog. also, dont u jus love ms. mcgrath and ms. pollia’s gift? i love it.

to chelle..i wana thank you for being there for me when i had to be ms. drama queen over here. thanx for not making me feel stupid...even though i really did feel like i was bein the dumbest person ever. dont ask why. i jus did. thanx chelle mwah. hope ur feeling better hun.

ive been thinking a lot about thinnnggssss in life that i do not have control over. my own feelings and emotions, and also other people’s. yes, i know you cant control these things. ive been telling that to myself over and over and over. but lately, i guess i didnt want to believe it. in the back of my mind, i was trying to convince myself that im strong enough to just turn off any feelings or emotions that i have. i was wrong. i dont have control over it. so now wut do i do? umm...i have no friggin clue. there’s nothing to do. there’s no point in doing anything. maybe i should jus slowly back away. or else jus leave things the way they are. yeah. jus leave it the way it is. no complications. no drama. no nothing.

p.s. if there was gona be a second down, im pretty sure it’s not gona be me. believe me. haha.

p.p.s. giving someone mixed signals is not cute.

p.p.p.s. u know wuts sad? i found myself eating cookie dough lastnite. thats the best food one can turn to when theyre down. haha.

TIRED - is what i am right now after debut practice. i thinks its coz of gradnite still. aww i had fun at gradnite. even though we dint get to ride mucho rides (coz i gave up after splash mountain...the best picture evah with maria, cool fartnah, and christine heehee)...the clubs were fun too i guess. with naomi teaching me her moves wahaha im a raver at heart...and who could forget my fun driving times with bel aawwrite. it was all fun till we had to wait for friggin bus for 2 hours. ugh no. jai took me home. slept from 8am till 4pm? i think. that was nice.

saturday went to bj's grad lunch at toto's...that was fun and interesting times...chelle, ray (the two people who better stop giving me looks) and keith were also there. yaay. after that went to the mall with ray (who better stop the interrogation)...got boba...spilled it on my shirt grrr...ray got him a shirt...i got a liquid eyeliner yaay...then went to practice. tita johannes wasnt there so melissa ran practice yay. i was tiiiirreeed. tried to take a nap...dint work...fun ride home with maria n bj...got home...got interrogation from my whole family....aye im tireed.

TIRED - ive been feeling this lately...physically yes...emotionally yes...lol ayee mom's buggin so ill continue this later byebye

man o man o man life is full of surprises i swear to god.

I JUST GRADUATED! aaww i still cant believe its over. my last day of finals was the day i felt a whole mess of mixed emotions. i couldnt believe its over. no more issue briefs...no more cuentos "aye chihuahua"...no more timed writing...no more force or work formulas...no more killer bio lectures...no more scary zaphiriou...its over!

class day was ayt...i dint cry as much as i was expecting...well i dint rilly cry...i was teary eyed...after that was some fun driving times with sue to get our shoes..maaan people need to go go go go go...after practice went to payless..sue bought shoes..i bought slippers of course...and then chilled at chelle's. of course what else would be funtimes but the question game. maaaan how come everytime i play this game i get picked on. so now everyone knows grrreat. but its all gud coz now i feel like i have nothing to hide nemore. lol. thanx chelle for putting me on the spot. awww bel thanx for not freakin out all the way...lol... maria's gona be the next one to be picked on i swear.

after that was our farewell dinner at school. ohmahgod i was hunggrrrryy...rite maria? hell yah. there was a whole slideshow with a poem and speech from mr manion and ms hill. aww and the fun picture n video times. wahahaa i have to see the video.. went home..tried on my dress...woah too white for me.

june 5 ...graduation! sue picked me up to go to practice..then picked up chelle n maria...got there and couldnt believe we were gona be the ones up on stage....maan aww we were so good that we were dismissed early...and sue over here was pms-ing...its ayt sue.
got home..tried to take a nap...i did for like 30 mins...got ready at 4 lol...but finished jus in time...

sue picked me up and we practiced our songs in the car....oh maaan never again. got there...cant believe thats the day...kinda excited...a bit nervous...but its all gud...finally marched..aaww a lot of people came. the ceremony itself went by perty quickly. i thought we sounded great. yay. i got my diploma woohoo! four years of hard work and i get a piece of paper orrrite. after the thing i saw everyone...aaww thanx for EVERYONE who came and gave me gifts! especially kamille!!!! ohmahgod ring sister ur too cool! yay u surprised me i was so happy u came! thanx for the fun gifts! i love u ring sister! thanx kamille n ian yay! im not gona name everyone who came and gave me a hug coz i mite forget people...but u know who u guys r and thanx sooo much for comin to grad... i love u all!

after grad jus went to in n out with mom dad and lil cousins coz everything was closed. but its all good. aww i havent spent quality time with my lil cousin in a while...happy that they came to see their ate graduate =).

got home...too tired...thinkin about how graduation went. it was perty cool. im gona miss immac. but there's one more day left of fun bonding times with everyone...gradnite. yaaaaaay!

i jus read chelle’s and maria’s blog and both songs mad me wana cry...

the real last day of class...wednesday...may 29...i was thinking of ditching but decided to jus go...maan mr. mcclellan and ms. conklin were the two teachers who almost made me cry...iono why...at the end of the day everyone was all happy...but i was jus feeling mixed emotions...oh yah after school was my last real after school funtimes with sue. *sniff sniff*

finals are here...and i feel like im the only loser who has finals all three days...ggrrrr... but wutever...i cant wait to get some real sleep after all this is over. man i still have a paper due on sunday...ggrrrrr help meeee.

saturday was fun. went to loyola grad early...sue picked me up..picked up maria..and then we were perty early..so we jus chilled in the car...and finally decided to walk...saw lots of immac people...sat together...that grad was looong..too many speeches. after the ceremony congratulated peoples yaaay theyre freeeee.....and i will be too on wednesday...=)...then had to go to practice right after...

- tried to fit in chelle’s car
- got to aprille’s
- went to choochoo’s...fun quesadillas w/ meat
- dint start practice till 3
- broke sumthin at aprille’s...soweee aprille!
- tiring practice ended at 6
- HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: drove keith’s car LOL...sowee keith, ray, and maria =)
- went to the mall to buy stuff
- got home....too tired.....

sunday...baccalaureate mass...okai iono how to spell it i know...yay i was a euchraistic minister...man why cant people finish my wine..that was fun...after the mass i dint rilly wana go to mitch’s party coz i know ima get in trouble...my mom may say “it’s up to cressa”..but in reality she means...NO..i jus know it....BUT THEN.. when i got home...i guess my mom took pity on me and said, “if u rilly wana go u can.” waaaaaaaaaaaah.... oh well. sorry shar, bel and sue! dont worry...we’ll party hard at maria’s next weeeek
baybee...woohoo!

messages to people....

sue: ur welcum about saturday man...even if i had to F#@! someone id do it just for u...LOL JK

bel: aawww beeeel gave bestfriend a hug on saturday.....funtimessssssss

shar: ima steal ur camera i swear

chelle: fake smile! i say get to know this boy chelle....and teach him to be bad ...and also..bestfriends are for life coz u know theyll be there for yah whenever u call

maria: man o man we have got to schedule our happy day....

cool fartnah: oohhmahgod u need to have a moment of sober-ness i swear

keith, ray , and maria: dont worry....ill never touch the wheel ever again