Saturday, May 29, 2004
Friday, May 28, 2004
Hardcore week! Finally done with midterms, papers, and presentation! I thought we did perty gud in our advertising presentation. Everyone seemed to love our product. I had fun working with those foolios haha. Whoop there it is... haha
Neways...finally three day weekend! Toime to jus chilax with the family. I miss them.
Been on a rollercoaster roide with my emotions lately. It's perty weird. One minute everything is horrible, next thing everything is perfect. Man, I'm so special.
Ayt toime to get ready for a fun froiday noite. Payce.
Neways...finally three day weekend! Toime to jus chilax with the family. I miss them.
Been on a rollercoaster roide with my emotions lately. It's perty weird. One minute everything is horrible, next thing everything is perfect. Man, I'm so special.
Ayt toime to get ready for a fun froiday noite. Payce.
Thursday, May 20, 2004
I missed Liwanag. Can’t believe I was m.i.a. for that long. I’m glad I went this past Tuesday. They never fail to make me feel oh-so-blessed. Loved the hugs I got. Made me feel good that I came back.
Went to Casa Youth Shelter for a WYSE field trip with our girls yesterday. We delivered the donations that we collected from people. They gave us a tour of the place and a background of what it was about. It’s basically a place for runaway teenagers who have different problems at home like abuse, neglect, abandonment, etc.
The founder of this place is this awesome lady, who is going to be 95 this year (I think), and has done a lot in her life…she was one of the first few women in the navy, served as a probation officer, worked with martin luther king, worked with cesar chavez, and did a whole lotta other stuff to help people. I just thought that she was an incredible woman with all that she has done and all the lives she’s made a difference in. It makes my heart smile to know that there are still people like her left in this world.
If you wana know more about it you can check out the website. And since now that you know about it, you can be an ambassador like me and let other people know about it! If you know anyone who’s having problems at home you can tell them about it.
Sooooo I’ve been rilly tired from school and midterms and papers and meetings and work and everything! I over slept today (and I know that whenever that happens it means it’s time to get a break) so was an hour late to work. It’s greatness. Good thing my boss understands (I think). It’s jus never-ending! I need a break! But I can’t get a break! Ever! Okai maybe I’m overreacting but still. I am toired. I NEED A BREAK (free breakfast, lunch, or dinner would be greatly appreciated thanks).
Went to Casa Youth Shelter for a WYSE field trip with our girls yesterday. We delivered the donations that we collected from people. They gave us a tour of the place and a background of what it was about. It’s basically a place for runaway teenagers who have different problems at home like abuse, neglect, abandonment, etc.
The founder of this place is this awesome lady, who is going to be 95 this year (I think), and has done a lot in her life…she was one of the first few women in the navy, served as a probation officer, worked with martin luther king, worked with cesar chavez, and did a whole lotta other stuff to help people. I just thought that she was an incredible woman with all that she has done and all the lives she’s made a difference in. It makes my heart smile to know that there are still people like her left in this world.
If you wana know more about it you can check out the website. And since now that you know about it, you can be an ambassador like me and let other people know about it! If you know anyone who’s having problems at home you can tell them about it.
Sooooo I’ve been rilly tired from school and midterms and papers and meetings and work and everything! I over slept today (and I know that whenever that happens it means it’s time to get a break) so was an hour late to work. It’s greatness. Good thing my boss understands (I think). It’s jus never-ending! I need a break! But I can’t get a break! Ever! Okai maybe I’m overreacting but still. I am toired. I NEED A BREAK (free breakfast, lunch, or dinner would be greatly appreciated thanks).
Monday, May 17, 2004
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GRANDMA (ON MY DAD’S SOIDE) LAST SATURDAY! I KNOW YOU READ THIS LOLA AND JUST WANTED TO SAY THANK YOU FOR ALL THE FOOD AND MORE FOOD AND SOME MORE FOOD YOU’VE BLESSED ME WITH SINCE I WAS BORN. I LOVE YOU!
Okai so maybe she doesn’t read this. But that’s what I’d tell her neway.
True story from this weekend…So I was home again this weekend and my mom and I went to this supermarket near my house called “Jons” (Yes, it’s Vons with a J). We were about to pay for our shtuff when suddenly some dude came running in the store because someone was chasing him from outside. As my mom attempts to run for her life (forgetting that I am with her btw), some customer dude just grabbed him to stop him and about to beat him up, and all the other Jons employees were loike, “What’s going on…what’s wrong with you…why are you causing a scene blahblahblah.” This dude was all, “Someone’s trying to kill me! You’re guard’s trying to kill me!” He had cuts all over his body with blood dripping and all that gud stuff. They escorted him outside and I think that was the end of it. That was the extent of all the action that I’ve seen this week. Only in LA.
Ionow what else happened after but that is when I finally realized that I can’t handle panicky situations too well. I was jus standing there shocked and I didn’t know what to do. Just loike the microwave incident with the popcorn and the metal rack thing that I thought was gona explode. I just screamed and pointed and that was that.
Randomness…Yay for Tita Tess and Karla for coming to visit us. Hope to see u guys again next year maybe?
Bought a $10 dress shirt. Score.
Despite the toime pressure we had and the semi-creepy waiter, I had fun Sue.
Cousinstoime as usual. Lola’s food, guitar (“You’ll never know…” bwhaha), Erin Brokovich, Ube cake, and halo halo. And they wonder why I look like this! GEEZNUTS.
I just received good news today. Maybe that’s why I’m kinda happier than usual. It’s prolly gona make up for the shittiness I’ve been feeling lately. So after isolating myself from the whole world (well not rilly), I think I’m ready to come back.
Okai so maybe she doesn’t read this. But that’s what I’d tell her neway.
True story from this weekend…So I was home again this weekend and my mom and I went to this supermarket near my house called “Jons” (Yes, it’s Vons with a J). We were about to pay for our shtuff when suddenly some dude came running in the store because someone was chasing him from outside. As my mom attempts to run for her life (forgetting that I am with her btw), some customer dude just grabbed him to stop him and about to beat him up, and all the other Jons employees were loike, “What’s going on…what’s wrong with you…why are you causing a scene blahblahblah.” This dude was all, “Someone’s trying to kill me! You’re guard’s trying to kill me!” He had cuts all over his body with blood dripping and all that gud stuff. They escorted him outside and I think that was the end of it. That was the extent of all the action that I’ve seen this week. Only in LA.
Ionow what else happened after but that is when I finally realized that I can’t handle panicky situations too well. I was jus standing there shocked and I didn’t know what to do. Just loike the microwave incident with the popcorn and the metal rack thing that I thought was gona explode. I just screamed and pointed and that was that.
Randomness…Yay for Tita Tess and Karla for coming to visit us. Hope to see u guys again next year maybe?
Bought a $10 dress shirt. Score.
Despite the toime pressure we had and the semi-creepy waiter, I had fun Sue.
Cousinstoime as usual. Lola’s food, guitar (“You’ll never know…” bwhaha), Erin Brokovich, Ube cake, and halo halo. And they wonder why I look like this! GEEZNUTS.
I just received good news today. Maybe that’s why I’m kinda happier than usual. It’s prolly gona make up for the shittiness I’ve been feeling lately. So after isolating myself from the whole world (well not rilly), I think I’m ready to come back.
Thursday, May 13, 2004
It would be quite interesting to watch my life and see it in a different perspective. I bet I could easily see everything that I'm doing wrong and realize how much I need to change a lot of things. Or maybe jus do things differently.
But I'm sure it'll be super fun to watch denny's nights or just time with my immacers. We're too cute huh? Haha.
Cramtoime will always be the best distraction I'll ever need. I think. Nyaha.
I'm fine. I'm rilly okai. Foreal. No worries. I'll be back I swear. I jus need to breathe and chillax. I'm jus here.
But I'm sure it'll be super fun to watch denny's nights or just time with my immacers. We're too cute huh? Haha.
Cramtoime will always be the best distraction I'll ever need. I think. Nyaha.
I'm fine. I'm rilly okai. Foreal. No worries. I'll be back I swear. I jus need to breathe and chillax. I'm jus here.
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Thursday, May 06, 2004
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABS!!! YOU'RE TOOO OLD PARE! HOPE TO SEE YOU SOOOON! I LOVE YOU!
Neways I'm bored at work so I searched for this tree thing onloine. Thanx Rone for not emailing it to me and for making me find it somewhere else.
Find your birthday, find your tree and then scroll down to see what it means.
Jan 01 to Jan 11......Fir Tree --> (I'm a Fir Tree! Jan 3 baybee!)
Jan 12 to Jan 24......Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03.....Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08.....Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18.....Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28.....Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10.....Weeping Willow
Mar 11 to Mar 20.....Lime Tree
Mar 21.....................Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31.....Hazelnut Tree
Mar 01 to Apr 10......Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20......Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30......Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14....Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24....Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03.....Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13......Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23......Fig Tree
Jun 24......................Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04........Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14.........Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25.........Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04.......Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13.....Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23.....Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02.....Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12.....Weeping Willow
Sep 13 to Sep 22.....LimeTree
Sep 23.....................Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03......Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13.......Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23.......Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11......Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21......Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01.......Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11.......HornbeamTree
Dec 12 to Dec 21.......Fig Tree
Dec 22.......................Beech
Dec 23 to Dec 31.......Apple Tree
APPLE TREE (the Love) - of slight build, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, scientific talents,lives for today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.
ASH TREE (the Ambition) - uncommonly attractive,vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be egotistic, very reliable and trustworthy, faithful and prudent lover, sometimes brains rule over the heart, but takes partnership very seriously.
BEECH TREE (the Creative) - has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.)
BIRCH TREE (the inspiration) - vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly,unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.
CEDAR TREE (the Confidence) - of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, determined, impatient, likes to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.
CHESTNUT TREE (the Honesty) - of unusual beauty,does not want to impress, well-developed sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat, but irritates easily and sensitive in company, often due to a lack of self confidence, acts sometimes superior, feels not understood loves only once, has difficulties in finding a partner.
CYPRESS TREE (the Faithfulness) - strong, muscular,adaptable, takes what life has to give, content, optimistic, craves money and acknowledgment, hates
loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered, unruly, pedantic, and careless.
ELM TREE (the Noble-mindedness) - pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.
FIG TREE (the Sensibility) - very strong, a bit self-willed, independent, does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family, children and animals, a bit of a social butterfly, good sense of humor, likes idleness and laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.
FIR TREE (the Mysterious) - extraordinary taste, dignity, sophisticated, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to them, rather modest, very ambitious,talented, industrious, discontented lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable. (Yay that's me!)
HAZELNUT TREE (the Extraordinary) - charming, undemanding, very understanding, knows how to make an impression, active fighter for social cause,
popular, moody, and capricious lover, honest, and tolerant partner, precise sense of judgment.
HORNBEAM TREE (the Good Taste) - of cool beauty,cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egotistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.
LIME TREE (the Doubt) - accepts what life dishes out in a composed way, hates fighting, stress, and labor, dislikes laziness and idleness, soft and relenting, makes sacrifices for friends, many talents but not tenacious enough to make them
blossom, often wailing and complaining, very jealous but loyal.
MAPLE TREE (Independence of Mind) - no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.
OAK TREE (the Brave) - robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.
OLIVE TREE (the Wisdom) - loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.
PINE TREE (the Particular) - loves agreeable company, very robust, knows how to make life comfortable, very active, natural, good companion, but seldom friendly, falls easily in love but its passion burns out quickly, gives up easily,
everything disappointments until it finds its ideal, trustworthy, practical.
POPLAR TREE (the Uncertainty) - looks very decorative, not very self-confident, only courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership serious.
ROWAN TREE (the Sensitivity) - full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egotism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good
company, does not forgive.
WALNUT TREE (the Passion) - unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
WEEPING WILLOW (the Melancholy) - beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but isn't easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.
Neways I'm bored at work so I searched for this tree thing onloine. Thanx Rone for not emailing it to me and for making me find it somewhere else.
Find your birthday, find your tree and then scroll down to see what it means.
Jan 01 to Jan 11......Fir Tree --> (I'm a Fir Tree! Jan 3 baybee!)
Jan 12 to Jan 24......Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03.....Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08.....Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18.....Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28.....Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10.....Weeping Willow
Mar 11 to Mar 20.....Lime Tree
Mar 21.....................Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31.....Hazelnut Tree
Mar 01 to Apr 10......Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20......Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30......Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14....Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24....Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03.....Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13......Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23......Fig Tree
Jun 24......................Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04........Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14.........Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25.........Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04.......Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13.....Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23.....Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02.....Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12.....Weeping Willow
Sep 13 to Sep 22.....LimeTree
Sep 23.....................Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03......Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13.......Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23.......Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11......Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21......Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01.......Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11.......HornbeamTree
Dec 12 to Dec 21.......Fig Tree
Dec 22.......................Beech
Dec 23 to Dec 31.......Apple Tree
APPLE TREE (the Love) - of slight build, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, scientific talents,lives for today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.
ASH TREE (the Ambition) - uncommonly attractive,vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be egotistic, very reliable and trustworthy, faithful and prudent lover, sometimes brains rule over the heart, but takes partnership very seriously.
BEECH TREE (the Creative) - has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.)
BIRCH TREE (the inspiration) - vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly,unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.
CEDAR TREE (the Confidence) - of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, determined, impatient, likes to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.
CHESTNUT TREE (the Honesty) - of unusual beauty,does not want to impress, well-developed sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat, but irritates easily and sensitive in company, often due to a lack of self confidence, acts sometimes superior, feels not understood loves only once, has difficulties in finding a partner.
CYPRESS TREE (the Faithfulness) - strong, muscular,adaptable, takes what life has to give, content, optimistic, craves money and acknowledgment, hates
loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered, unruly, pedantic, and careless.
ELM TREE (the Noble-mindedness) - pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.
FIG TREE (the Sensibility) - very strong, a bit self-willed, independent, does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family, children and animals, a bit of a social butterfly, good sense of humor, likes idleness and laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.
FIR TREE (the Mysterious) - extraordinary taste, dignity, sophisticated, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to them, rather modest, very ambitious,talented, industrious, discontented lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable. (Yay that's me!)
HAZELNUT TREE (the Extraordinary) - charming, undemanding, very understanding, knows how to make an impression, active fighter for social cause,
popular, moody, and capricious lover, honest, and tolerant partner, precise sense of judgment.
HORNBEAM TREE (the Good Taste) - of cool beauty,cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egotistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.
LIME TREE (the Doubt) - accepts what life dishes out in a composed way, hates fighting, stress, and labor, dislikes laziness and idleness, soft and relenting, makes sacrifices for friends, many talents but not tenacious enough to make them
blossom, often wailing and complaining, very jealous but loyal.
MAPLE TREE (Independence of Mind) - no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.
OAK TREE (the Brave) - robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.
OLIVE TREE (the Wisdom) - loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.
PINE TREE (the Particular) - loves agreeable company, very robust, knows how to make life comfortable, very active, natural, good companion, but seldom friendly, falls easily in love but its passion burns out quickly, gives up easily,
everything disappointments until it finds its ideal, trustworthy, practical.
POPLAR TREE (the Uncertainty) - looks very decorative, not very self-confident, only courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership serious.
ROWAN TREE (the Sensitivity) - full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egotism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good
company, does not forgive.
WALNUT TREE (the Passion) - unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
WEEPING WILLOW (the Melancholy) - beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but isn't easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.
Sunday, May 02, 2004
Got rid of 2 midterms and a paper...whew. Ten million more to go...
Stayed in Irvine this weekend...for the first time in forever
Been ARC-ing it...finally
Been trying to swim but it aint working
Bought 2 pairs of dressy pants for $8 each...WOW!
Saw PCN on saturday...tnx jenice...saw coleen and bel. good job everyone!
Saw 13 going on 30 today...cute movie.
Oh, and can't forget...CONGRATULATIONS BJ!
Stayed in Irvine this weekend...for the first time in forever
Been ARC-ing it...finally
Been trying to swim but it aint working
Bought 2 pairs of dressy pants for $8 each...WOW!
Saw PCN on saturday...tnx jenice...saw coleen and bel. good job everyone!
Saw 13 going on 30 today...cute movie.
Oh, and can't forget...CONGRATULATIONS BJ!
I am...
Feeling better...jus need to concentrate on more important things.
Happier than I was before becoz I want to be happy, and so I decided to be happy. Did you get that? Okai, I guess what I'm saying is the only reason why I was sad was becoz I brought it on to myself. So I made it so that I'm happy coz I brought happiness to myself.
Sleepy
Tired
Lucky
Feeling better...jus need to concentrate on more important things.
Happier than I was before becoz I want to be happy, and so I decided to be happy. Did you get that? Okai, I guess what I'm saying is the only reason why I was sad was becoz I brought it on to myself. So I made it so that I'm happy coz I brought happiness to myself.
Sleepy
Tired
Lucky
Monday, April 26, 2004
Feeling bleh. But trying to smile. I have a lot of shtuff to do this week so hopefully all this shtuff can take my mind off things.
Let's try to blog happy thoughts...
Sooo this weekend was gift shopping for people with sister. I thought I was gona spend ten million dollahs for gifts alone...but I ended up saving a lot. Yay for a smart shopper! It sux coz I didn't even buy anything for myself. But its okai, I like buying people gifts that I think they love. I hope.
Saw my cousins again. I love seeing them even for just a little whoile. They make my heart smile =).
Tita Ruth's surprise was fun...makes me happy to see people happy. She had no idea and she cried aww haha. Fun videos were the highlight of the party waahaa.
I'm gona close this with a forward I got from a friend. It's kinda what I'm going through right now. I'm not twenty-something yet but I could already feel it coming. Maybe most of you people will agree.
"Being Twenty-Something"
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One-night-stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Let's try to blog happy thoughts...
Sooo this weekend was gift shopping for people with sister. I thought I was gona spend ten million dollahs for gifts alone...but I ended up saving a lot. Yay for a smart shopper! It sux coz I didn't even buy anything for myself. But its okai, I like buying people gifts that I think they love. I hope.
Saw my cousins again. I love seeing them even for just a little whoile. They make my heart smile =).
Tita Ruth's surprise was fun...makes me happy to see people happy. She had no idea and she cried aww haha. Fun videos were the highlight of the party waahaa.
I'm gona close this with a forward I got from a friend. It's kinda what I'm going through right now. I'm not twenty-something yet but I could already feel it coming. Maybe most of you people will agree.
"Being Twenty-Something"
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One-night-stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Thursday, April 22, 2004
It's hard to live each and everyday without seeing You. How am I supposed to see the purpose if I don't acknowledge You? I never realized how hard it is to hold on. I never realized how vulnerable I can be until I couldn't see. Everyday, I run farther and farther away until I get to the point where there is nothing. I need You right now. I can't go on pretending to be someone I'm not. It breaks my heart when I pray and realize that I haven't been the person You want me to be. I've been struggling, and I keep on falling. I don't know where I'm going.
I hate feeling worthless. I hate feeling like a failure. I hate hating.
I'm sorry for not making you smile. I'm sorry for whatever I've done to make you unhappy. I can't be happy when you're unhappy. I'm sorry.
Sorry for my sad and random blog. I try not to blog about sad stuff but sumtimes it's my only way of letting it out. I have fun stuff to look forward to though. I mite go home again this weekend! I think that's fun stuff coz I like going home these days. Makes me happy to see my family. It's weird how I used to not want going home becoz I'd rather have fun with friends. But now my family's been my source of happiness, comfort, and strength. I love them all and I'm very thankful for their presence in my life.
I have one last random thought! It's kinda sad how sometimes the highlight of my day would be when I'd be watching my favorite shows like F.R.I.E.N.D.S, American Idol, and The OC. It shows how fun my life really is!
I hate feeling worthless. I hate feeling like a failure. I hate hating.
I'm sorry for not making you smile. I'm sorry for whatever I've done to make you unhappy. I can't be happy when you're unhappy. I'm sorry.
Sorry for my sad and random blog. I try not to blog about sad stuff but sumtimes it's my only way of letting it out. I have fun stuff to look forward to though. I mite go home again this weekend! I think that's fun stuff coz I like going home these days. Makes me happy to see my family. It's weird how I used to not want going home becoz I'd rather have fun with friends. But now my family's been my source of happiness, comfort, and strength. I love them all and I'm very thankful for their presence in my life.
I have one last random thought! It's kinda sad how sometimes the highlight of my day would be when I'd be watching my favorite shows like F.R.I.E.N.D.S, American Idol, and The OC. It shows how fun my life really is!
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Sunday, April 18, 2004
outlet stores for two weekends in a row...camarillo and citadel...woohoo. finally got the pointy shoes i want woohoo.
so ive been home every weekend now. its weird how i like going home a lot now. i miss having funtoimes with the family. been spending a lot of toime with my lola and my cousins too. i luv chillen with them. it's always full of laughs and food. always a good combination.
it jus sux sumtimes when i have to choose betweeh friends and family. coz i know ill always choose family. which sux too coz i wana spend time with friends too. i feel rilly bad when i cant please everyone. somehow i just feel the need to make everyone happy. ionow. im odd. oh well. sux to be me.
Once again...i jus wana say...
THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH TO EVERYONE WHO CAME TO THE PARTY THURSDAY NITE! EVEN THOUGH THE LINE WAS WAY TOO LONG I RILLY APPRECIATE ALL YOU GUYS WHO WAITED AND PAID TO GET IN. :HUGS: FOR EVERYONE!
so ive been home every weekend now. its weird how i like going home a lot now. i miss having funtoimes with the family. been spending a lot of toime with my lola and my cousins too. i luv chillen with them. it's always full of laughs and food. always a good combination.
it jus sux sumtimes when i have to choose betweeh friends and family. coz i know ill always choose family. which sux too coz i wana spend time with friends too. i feel rilly bad when i cant please everyone. somehow i just feel the need to make everyone happy. ionow. im odd. oh well. sux to be me.
Once again...i jus wana say...
THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH TO EVERYONE WHO CAME TO THE PARTY THURSDAY NITE! EVEN THOUGH THE LINE WAS WAY TOO LONG I RILLY APPRECIATE ALL YOU GUYS WHO WAITED AND PAID TO GET IN. :HUGS: FOR EVERYONE!
Saturday, April 17, 2004
So today, I thought it was gona be a bright, bright, bright sun-shiny day rite...for WAYZGOOSE (UCI Open House). But nooooooo. They decided to make it rain and get me all soaking wet on my way to school for our WYSE booth. So I got there and turns out its cancelled. So great. Packed up, left, walked back to my apartment, got to my apartment door with my jeans dripping, and realized that I lost my keys. Awesome. Can you believe it?!? ME losing my keys?!? I don't lose things!!! No, I didn't cry. I didn't even panic. I was way pissed to feel any other emotion. So in the pouring rain, I traced my way back to where I passed on my way to sch, went back to where our booth was at, went back the any other place I stopped at, and found my keys! If I hadnt asked people if they saw my keys I wouldn't have gotten it back. Whew. Lesson of the day: Ask and you shall receive. Seek and you shall find.
Friday, April 16, 2004
THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH TO EVERYONE WHO CAME TO THE PARTY THURSDAY NITE! EVEN THOUGH THE LINE WAS WAY TOO LONG I RILLY APPRECIATE ALL YOU GUYS WHO WAITED AND PAID TO GET IN. :HUGS: FOR EVERYONE!
For those who couldn't come you missed out. You all suck.
JK! I still like all of you! But you bettah have a good excuse for not coming.
For those who couldn't come you missed out. You all suck.
JK! I still like all of you! But you bettah have a good excuse for not coming.
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Types of people that bug the hell out of me:
1) The notorious seatmate who sit next to in class who move way too much, hog ur personal space, tap their foot on ur chair, or don't shower.
2) People I watch tv or movies with, who say the lines out loud or predict what's gona happen b4 it happens
3) Those who think they know everything and everyone before anyone else, making them feel "in" or cool or better than everyone
4) Anyone who immediately associates someone who has a lot of faith as someone who is narrow-minded
5) The Dirty Ho...not like that. Those who are unsanitary or jus messy or unclean
6) Those who think the world revolves around them
7) Being too dependent and needy
8) Extreme PDA
9) Those who can't go clubbing tonite
What's ironic is that I prolly am one of these. Scary scary thought.
I can think of so much more to put in here but I don't wana sound too mean.
Yes, it's that time of the month again ladies.
Last plug I promise...
WHAT: Clubbing night/Fundraiser party for my mentoring group called WYSE
WHEN: Thursday, April 15 doors open at 9pm
WHERE: The Pier in Long Beach...used to be called Live Bait
6251 E. Pacific Coast Highway
Long Beach, CA
Girls are in free before 10:30pm! BE THERE.
1) The notorious seatmate who sit next to in class who move way too much, hog ur personal space, tap their foot on ur chair, or don't shower.
2) People I watch tv or movies with, who say the lines out loud or predict what's gona happen b4 it happens
3) Those who think they know everything and everyone before anyone else, making them feel "in" or cool or better than everyone
4) Anyone who immediately associates someone who has a lot of faith as someone who is narrow-minded
5) The Dirty Ho...not like that. Those who are unsanitary or jus messy or unclean
6) Those who think the world revolves around them
7) Being too dependent and needy
8) Extreme PDA
9) Those who can't go clubbing tonite
What's ironic is that I prolly am one of these. Scary scary thought.
I can think of so much more to put in here but I don't wana sound too mean.
Yes, it's that time of the month again ladies.
Last plug I promise...
WHAT: Clubbing night/Fundraiser party for my mentoring group called WYSE
WHEN: Thursday, April 15 doors open at 9pm
WHERE: The Pier in Long Beach...used to be called Live Bait
6251 E. Pacific Coast Highway
Long Beach, CA
Girls are in free before 10:30pm! BE THERE.
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Okai so I'm gona be posting this over and over and over again until all of you get it. That's right you bettah get it!
WHAT: Clubbing night/Fundraiser party for my mentoring group called WYSE
WHEN: Thursday, April 15 doors open at 9pm
WHERE: The Pier in Long Beach...used to be called Live Bait
6251 E. Pacific Coast Highway
Long Beach, CA
Girls are in free before 10:30pm! BE THERE.
WHAT: Clubbing night/Fundraiser party for my mentoring group called WYSE
WHEN: Thursday, April 15 doors open at 9pm
WHERE: The Pier in Long Beach...used to be called Live Bait
6251 E. Pacific Coast Highway
Long Beach, CA
Girls are in free before 10:30pm! BE THERE.
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Monday, April 05, 2004
So my spring break was technically from Friday night till Sunday night. It was kinda weird how I really, really, really wanted to go home so bad. Maybe it was coz I was all by myself in the apt for a couple days and that wasn't very fun.
Before I forget...
APRIL 3, 2004HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE OLDEST SISTER IN THE WORLD! YOU'RE TOOO OLD SIS. ION'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU STILL CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAYS. GEEZNUTS. JK MWAH I LOVE YOU.
So Saturday was filled with family parties. Well, just two. That's too much for me though.
The first one was Nanay Tala's 80th surprise luau. That was fun coz counsins n everyone was there. Too fun when titas started dancing. WAAHAA cute.
The second one was this family friend party, who I do not even know, and I was just dragged by my mother to come (since my sister partied with her old friends and I couldn't really go party with them, I was kinda stuck with my mother). I was kinda entertained by the people singing the magic mic while getting drunk though. So that was cool. Left at around 2am coz parents were jus having so much fun with their peoples. Didn't wana ruin it for them so I just tried entertaining myself and called some peoples.
Sunday was church, Pat & Oscars, Michaels, Best Buy, and Loemans with sister. Yes, I am officially broke. Time to work more hours.
So I didn't really get to see old high school friends this spring break. That sucked. But it's okai coz I had good quality time with family and that's what I missed the most.
Today's the first day of spring quarter and I think I'm gona have funtoimes with my Advertising and Marketing classes...I hope. I'm just praying that I don't get stuck with not-so-cooperative teamates for the group projects that's worth half my grade or else.
Man I thought I would have written a funner post. Oh well, sux to be me. Will blog more later.
OOHH okai so I'm inviting YOU, yes YOU to a fundraising event for WYSE (mentoring group). Here's the info so far:
When : Thursday - April 15, 2004
Where: The Pier in Long Beach (Used to be called Live Bait)
Time: At night! Free before 10pm I think?
So you better come coz everyone who's anyone will be there. I'll post more info later when I have it. YOU BETTER COME OR ELSE...ionow. Okai fine if you come, I'll have a surprise gift for you!
Before I forget...
APRIL 3, 2004HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE OLDEST SISTER IN THE WORLD! YOU'RE TOOO OLD SIS. ION'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU STILL CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAYS. GEEZNUTS. JK MWAH I LOVE YOU.
So Saturday was filled with family parties. Well, just two. That's too much for me though.
The first one was Nanay Tala's 80th surprise luau. That was fun coz counsins n everyone was there. Too fun when titas started dancing. WAAHAA cute.
The second one was this family friend party, who I do not even know, and I was just dragged by my mother to come (since my sister partied with her old friends and I couldn't really go party with them, I was kinda stuck with my mother). I was kinda entertained by the people singing the magic mic while getting drunk though. So that was cool. Left at around 2am coz parents were jus having so much fun with their peoples. Didn't wana ruin it for them so I just tried entertaining myself and called some peoples.
Sunday was church, Pat & Oscars, Michaels, Best Buy, and Loemans with sister. Yes, I am officially broke. Time to work more hours.
So I didn't really get to see old high school friends this spring break. That sucked. But it's okai coz I had good quality time with family and that's what I missed the most.
Today's the first day of spring quarter and I think I'm gona have funtoimes with my Advertising and Marketing classes...I hope. I'm just praying that I don't get stuck with not-so-cooperative teamates for the group projects that's worth half my grade or else.
Man I thought I would have written a funner post. Oh well, sux to be me. Will blog more later.
OOHH okai so I'm inviting YOU, yes YOU to a fundraising event for WYSE (mentoring group). Here's the info so far:
When : Thursday - April 15, 2004
Where: The Pier in Long Beach (Used to be called Live Bait)
Time: At night! Free before 10pm I think?
So you better come coz everyone who's anyone will be there. I'll post more info later when I have it. YOU BETTER COME OR ELSE...ionow. Okai fine if you come, I'll have a surprise gift for you!