Christmas/Bday Wishlist
- Carolina Herrera 212Sexy (thanx roomie!!!)
- Mamma Mia! (ohemgee thanx manjie!)
- Rainbow sandals (thanx tsai!!!)
- F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Seasons 6-10
- Little Mermaid or Beauty and the Beast DVD
- RENT Movie Soundtrack (thanx daniel!)
- coffee/lunch/dinner date (thanx jeff!)
- capo for my guitar (thanx cousin!)
- super cool bangles (thanx pam!)
- milky way midnight
- big, huggable stuffed toys (thanx bj!)
- white lilies (thanx jeff!)
- gift cards: forever 21, nordstroms, urban outfitters
- surprise me!

Got this from roomie's blog. Enjoy.

Boredom at work

(X) smoked a cigarette - I haven't done it in a while though. Yay me.
(X) smoked a cigar - Roomie's debut hahahahahaha.
( ) made out with a member of the same sex - Well, not really made out. So no I guess. Haha.
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(X) been in love
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(X) snuck out of house - Wow never again.
(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back - Always.
( ) been arrested
(X) made out with a stranger - No comment.
(X) gone on a blind date - No comment.
(X) lied to a friend - I'm sorry. It was prolly because I didn't want to hurt them.
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) been to Europe
(X) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
( ) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(X) eaten Sushi - I'm craving it now.
( ) been snowboarding
(X) met someone in person from the internet - No comment.
( ) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
( ) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow man
(X) had a tea party
(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(X) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
(X) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(X) watched the sun set
(X) felt an earthquake - When I was little, I was on my bed and I thought someone was shaking it hardcore.
(X) touched a snake
(X) slept beneath the stars
(X) been tickled
(X) been robbed - My Little Twin Star pink wallet when I was seven. Couple days later I found it in the trash can in the school bathroom. Yawk.
( ) petted a reindeer/goat
(X) won a contest
( ) ran a red light
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(X) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) had deja vu
(X) danced in the moonlight
(X) hated the way you look - Most days
(X) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
(X) been to the opposite side of the country
( ) swam in the ocean
(X) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
(X) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers - No, but I want to!
(X) sung karaoke
(X) paid for a meal with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose - No worries it was water.
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) danced in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus - And then Santa wrote me back! With my mom's hadnwriting though. I got confused.
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(X) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
(X) made a bonfire on the beach
(X) crashed a party
(X) gone rollerskating
(X) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(X) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed penis in public
( ) ate dog/cat food
(X) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror
(X) sang in the shower
(X) had a dream that you married someone - I might have. I don't remember.
(X) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(X) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(X) sat on a roof top
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs - Every Tuesday night.
(X) done a one-handed cartwheel - Man I used to be able to do those so well.
(X) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(X) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
(X) had a tree house - My dad and uncles made it for me and my cousins when we were little!!! I miss that tree house.
(X) are scared to watch scary movies - But I watch them anyway
(X) believe in ghosts
(X) have more than 15 pairs of shoes - But I only wear 3 of em
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) played chicken
(X) pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on - My friend's house in the Philippines during my goodbye party.
( ) been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(X) been easily amused
(X) caught a fish then ate it - I didn't catch it myself though.
( ) caught a butterfly
(X) laughed so hard you cried
(X) cried so hard you laughed
( ) mooned/flashed someone
(X) had someone moon/flash you
(X) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(X) forgotten someone's name
( ) slept naked
(X) French braided someone's hair
( ) grown a beard
( ) skinny dipped in a hot tub

I'm going through the cycle again. But this time, it seems to be going faster. I need to slow it down or else it will all be gone too soon. I think I want this one to work out this time.

YEAH FINALS WEEK!!! I love finals week! I love the atmosphere around campus with everyone studying to the point of delirium and all that good stuff. I never really reached that point this week though, just coz I wasn't really taking my stats final seriously. But I'm officially done with my last fall quarter. Yay!

So far, I already got one of my grades for one of my management classes. And I got a solid A baybeeeeee! I'm so happy!!! I haven't seen that letter in a looooooong time. And I just found out that my group in my Advertising class won for the best presentation! Wow I'm so cool right now. I think I shall throw a party for this. Heeeheee. JK.

Speaking of party, my birthday's coming up (*cough* January 3 *cough*) and I'm not too sure what I want to do this year. I know I don't want the party at the apartment deal because I'm just too old for that now. Or I'm just too lazy to deal with all of that madness. I kinda just want to go out somewhere for dinner and then have some drinks but then that means only the oldies can go. So we shall see what can be done. Any suggestions anyone?

Recap of funtimes last week and this week:
- Tagalog potluck with my kids and Jiedson.
- Wish I could've stayed longer but I had to leave early
- I love those Tagalog kids mucho
- Daniel's 3-part birthday hoopla: RENT, BJ's, Elvis Karaoke
- I was good all throughout RENT and BJ's but then I started getting really sick in Elvis. Damn that sucked.
- Got home around 3am about to die
- I was looking forward to going to Homeless Outreach the next day but I couldn't get out of bed. That was not fun.
- Didn't study for finals at all during the weekend. That was fun.
- Late night at Pipin
- Beach at midnight with the PASS-ey (get it? PASS-ey = possey! hahaha okai fine)
- "I need someone to take me to the hospital" scare from a friend. Not a fun scare.
- Girly movie night: When Harry Met Sally, Anastasia, 13 Going on 30. Wow.

I made this analogy and I've concluded that chick flicks to girls is like porn to guys. They live vicariously through it because it's just too good to be true. I watch all these romantic comedies because I figured, it never happens to me so might as well see it happen to someone else. Although in the back of my head I'm thinking, gag me now can this be any cheesier? It's just too perfect it's nauseating. I've always been the pessimistic, cynical, ugh wutever type person when it comes to lovey dovey stuff. I didn't used to be. It's because over the years I've come to a realization that being in a relationship isn't always about prince charming sweeping you off your feet and living happily ever after forever. There's always the ugly stuff that comes with it. Problems, fights, disappointments, hurt, etc. I guess I was too focused on the ugly stuff that it made me into this cynical, heartless girl. Haha okai maybe not heartless, but you get the point. Sometimes I just laugh at the corniest chickflicks just thinking about how dumb they are. The thought of all that romantic stuff happening to me is just non-existent and whenever I come close to it, I try to laugh it off or just ignore it like it's nothing because I stopped believing in that kind of stuff a long time ago. But lately I realized that maybe I shouldn't just brush it off. That maybe if I believed even just a little bit of it, I wouldn't be so bitter about a lot of things. Maybe I will be able to appreciate the little joys in life a lot more. Just a thought.

Wow okai that was long. I shall blog again when I'm in the mood maybe I'll come up with something longer. Time to collect the Tagalog finals coz time's up. Haha.

Have an awesome finals week to those who are not done yet! And for those who are done, holla!

People have tried to surprise me before but somehow I always knew about it before it happened. But this one time, I actually was surprised. That was the best one I've gotten so far. Thanks =).

WARNING: Long and pointless entry. It's more like a novel really, not an entry. But if you're that bored, then go ahead and proceed.

Liwanag Benefit Concert was awesome possum as always! This is my third one so far, and it just keeps getting better and better each year. Makes me kinda sad to think that this was my last benefit concert, hopefully only as an undegrad, and not the last one ever. Thanks Christine and Gladys for supporting you guys rock!!! And the other Immacers who have always gone since the beginning you guys are awesome. Truly felt His presence there. Amen, I do believe! Yay!

That Friday started off pretty bad just cause I was dead tired from my stuff that week. I woke up that Friday just thinking about how long that day was gonna be, physically and mentally drained from everything. I had work 9-11, Tagalog discussion 11-12, mandatory office hours 12-2, needed to finish work or else I would've gotten my ass whooped from 2-3, needed to study for my 4pm test from 3-4, took a test 4-5, decided to go back to the apt to pack for the retreat and showered 5-6, benefit prep time 6-7, benefit concert 7-11, left for pass vegas retreat 12midnight, didn't really get much sleep in the car, got there around 3:30, slept at around 4:30am. Wow.

PASS Vegas retreat was funtimes all the time of course. I love those crazy kids. Highlights: scotch tape, not really getting enough sleep on the way to vegas, pancakes, seafood buffet, hot tea, embarassing moments, fond memories, reverse gavel pass, magic mic all night, hot bedroom pics, "I can still see you!", "gum" stories, good talks, candy, mixed drinks, strip at 5am, freeezing weather, sleeping at 7am, steak and egss at 4pm, sleep all the way back. Goodtimes goodtimes.

And then there was Thanksgiving break! I was looking forward to seeing family since I haven't been home in two weeks. Can you believe that?!? Two whole weeks! Wow. I'm so cool. Haha. The cousins and grandparents were over the entire weekend. Of course we went shopping the whole day Friday. I feel like all I did was eat and go shopping. And sleep in between. Goodtimes. Of course there's always drama that comes with the family, so that sucked a little. It was also kinda sad to see my grandma so weak after getting out of the hospital. I'm not used to seeing her like that. It just makes me sad. But her condition is definitely bringing the family closer together. So I'm thankful for that. Just prayers for my grandma please.

Highlight of Thanksgiving weekend: The ladies (My lola, aunt, mom, me, sister, and two cousins) talking all night long after dinner on Saturday night, about the most random things. My mom of course was mostly the one yapping away about anything and everything. It was really fun just sitting there with them, talking and laughing and sharing stuff that we never really did before. I love my family soooo much I just wish it was always like that. That was a great way to end the weekend. Loved every minute of it.

So I thought I was a busy person. But I guess there's other people who are busier than me. Haha. It's all gud though. Sometimes I just wish there was more than 24 hours in a day so I could spend more time with those I really miss.

I have two finals this Thursday, and I haven't started studying. I'm pretty much screwed as always. So this week will be hell, and if you see me and I don't seem too happy, you'll know the reason why. Bleh.

Christmas/Birthday wishlist is coming up soon! If you're really dying to get me a gift right at this moment, feel free to contact me whenever. Otherwise, watch out for the wishlist either here or on my profile. That is all. Haha.

Yay I got pumpkin pie!!!

Time to go to class. Payce.

I’m at work as usual. I realized I only blog when I’m at work. I’m not liking work very much these days. I actually got in trouble today. I’m really sad but not as much as I thought I would be. I knew something had to go wrong with my life. Haha.

These past couple weeks progressed from hell-ish to not so hell-ish. A couple weeks ago, I was so overwhelmed with everything, I just thought couldn’t handle it anymore. So I had a mini-breakdown during Rainbowfest in the middle of ring road. So that was a little embarrassing. I blame it on someone who just had to tell me the saddest news on the day I was already stressed out with life. Maraming salamat. And then later on that night I found out that my grandma was in the hospital. I think that was what finally triggered it. I was supposed to study for a midterm that night too, and I tried. But I did horribly bad. Oh well.

The following week was a little better. I don’t think I would’ve survived without everyone who have always been there for me. I took comfort from the simplest things that each and everyone of you have done for me. From making me laugh, to making me cry, even checking in to see wutsup. That’s where I find Him, and that’s when I’m most happy.

My long weekend was actually pretty fun. Friday I went to JFAV (Justice for Filipino-American Veterans). That was the first time I went, and it was so awesome to see so many young people fighting for a cause, not for their own benefit, but for the benefit of the Filipino veterans who sacrificed so much for this country. Saw an old friend who I haven’t seen since welcome week, who needs to cut his hair and not be awkward. Haha.

Friday night was the Liwanag sleepover. That was another goodtimes. I wish I had more energy to stay up and bond with the homies, but I was just too tired I knocked out. I actually got a pretty goodnight sleep. I wish I always woke up to those crazy kids singing. Then I would always start my day with a smile.

Saturday, got back to the apartment, and then had to go meet up for a group project around noon. I wasn’t really focusing the whole time coz I was too excited for PUSO’s Medical Mission Gala that night. Haha. Oh well.

So Saturday night was gala! It was awesome possum times all the time. And I could honestly say, it was waaaaay funner than both junior and senior prom combined. I swear. Actually maybe just junior prom. Hahaha. Whatever. I had fun. Thanks to the awesome promdate for being such a gentleman sometimes and for the much awaited flower. Even though you didn’t top my roomate’s date’s flowers. I actually wanted lilies, but now you know that for next time. Haha JK geez I’m over it. First of all, firstly…can we just?

Sunday was bleh. Monday started out bleh, but got a little better later on. Tuesday was confession night and PCN workshops. Yay I’m doing Kordilyera. So exciting. I don’t know what I got myself into, but we’ll see how it works out.

So last night was my second time going to confession with Father John Francis. He told me something that I didn’t think would come from him. But it made me feel better. Thanks father for saying the right words at the right moment.

Dude I had so much more to blog about but I forgot. I need to be productive now. I wonder when my next entry will be. Anyone wanna guess? I’ll give you a cookie.

Random thought of the day…
Have you ever fallen asleep with someone, wake up in the morning only to find that they’re gone, leaving you there like a cheap hooker? It already happened to me twice in the span of one month. This has got to stop.

wow i suck. i need to seriously update.

Awesome awesome past week! It was my chill week believe it or not, since I only had one test and one essay to do. And I was quite productive the weekend I was here so I didn't have to do much the whole week. This week though, is not gonna be so chill. Even though my boss isn't here for the whole week (come visit me! SEI room 226!) she left me a bunch of stuff to do. Two midterms and Tagalog tests to correct. So fun!

Last Thursday I was studying for my stats test on Friday. But of course, what did I do after? I went to D&B's for Pia's birthday. Awesometimes. Haha. Thanks Pam and Rob for driving! I did okai on the test. I hope. If I didn't, then oh well. My bad. Then on Friday went to Octoberfest for a little bit, chilled with the homies, cooked chicken for the homies, and then went to Knotts Scary Farm for the first time ever. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be, but then maybe it was coz there were too many people that night. I had my scary moments though so goodtimes. Got home home preeeeetty late. Like 5am late. Thank god parents were already sleeping. I don't think they heard me come in. If they did I wouldn't have seen the light of day. Thanks again Jeff!

My whole weekend was semi-productive. I was so tired from Friday night I couldn't really function the rest of the weekend. But it's all gud coz I needed it before it gets crazy this week. Yaaayuh.

I've been having identity issues. I mean cultural identity. I would blog about it but I don't think anyone would understand. I mean I don't even understand what's going on with me. I'm so confused. Haha. Ahh wutever I'll blog about it when I could actually articulate it.

So I was talking to Christine about the cycle that I'm so tired of going through. You know, the cycle. When it happens, it starts messing with your head. You think it's something, but then it's really nothing. I hate that. Why should I even bother starting? Why, Cressa, why?!?!? So dumb.

Oh btw roomates, another one of my highs last night was our highs and lows talk. I love you guys.


So to make this post a little bit more longer and pointless, here's a survey:

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at?
My hair. I go ooooh when I just woke up coz I like my hair when I just woke up. After I wash it it's bo-ring.

2. How much cash do you have on you?
Five dollahs. I don't like carrying cash so that's a lot of cash for me.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST":
Chest?

4. Favorite planet
The earth.

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell?
My sister

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?
It's called digital signal and it goes...tananannnanananaanananaanaannn. And then there's a moaning sound in the end that goes uuuugggh. I'm serious.

7. What shirt are you wearing?
Light blue AE sweater that I got from roomate Christine.

8. Do you "label" yourself?
Yes, dumb girl.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing:
Moss. (Wannabe Rainbows from Target).

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Dark. Even when I'm reading.

11. What do you think of the person who posted this before you?
I've seen roomate's first and she's aaaaayt.

12. Ever "spilled the beans"?
Oh was I not supposed to?

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Prolly watching tv with Rona and David. Or chillen with them outside. Or having fun roommate talks. I forget what time those things happened.

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?
"i dont know where she is but eryone said dat the flier says ht starts at 7 but ders no end time"

15. Do you click on pop ups?
No, but my mom does.

16. What's a saying that you say a lot?
Apparently it's....aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhmmmmmmm.

17. Who told you they loved you last?
My mommy

18. Last furry thing you touched?
I guess I would have to say my panda too.

19. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
I have this disposable camera that I've had for two years now and I've totally neglected it since I got a digital. Sorry hi-tech.

20. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days?
None

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
I've enjoyed 14, 18, 19, and 21 so far.

22. Your worst enemy?
Carbs.

23. What is your current desktop picture?
Liwanag first meeting of the year.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"You don't be stupid too."

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?
A million bucks. I need a cool new sweater and jeans. And a car. I've always wanted a truck. A big one. And Carolina Herrera Sexy 212 perfume. Hey, it's almost Christmas! Wishlist will come soon. Oh and of course I need money to buy all my loved ones presents. I don't think I've had any major regrets. Actually, maybe I do but I wouldn't really call them regrets. They're life experiences that I've learned a lot from.

26. Do you love/like someone?
Yes.


Oh btw I updated my pics.
www.photos.yahoo.com/cressa_dot_com
New pics: Dale's Bday, D&B's with the homie, Pia's Bday


See ya later kids.

Picturetime! Random pics from random funtimes. Enjoy!


Chillen by the pool


The loverly cousins


Dale's birthday at D&B's...with my short hair =)


September babies


The family


Immac!


The homies at D&B's

I didn't go home this weekend! For the first time in ten million years! Isn't that amazing? I think so. I decided to stay just because people were always always always giving me a hard time about never wanting hang out with them on the weekends. So I stayed. But then they didn't even hang out with me. Wut the heezys dude. Oh well. Sux to be you.

I went to AIDS walk LA yesterday! I wasn't exactly looking forward to waking up at 7am and walking 10kilometers for the rest of the day. But it turned out to be funtimes all the time. Saw couple people I know and also saw my two lovely cousins. Man, I love my PASS kids. They never cease to amuse me. Went back to the apartment, took a nap, went to church at Interfaith after the longest time, and then had a board meeting that night that lasted a little bit longer than I thought. So I couldn't go to Liwanag benefit concert practice. Sucks to be me. But it's all gud. Maybe next time.

I never realized how fun aim conversations could be. I never rilly went on aim that much. I mean I'm always away when I'm on. But I think from now on I'm gonna go on it more just for fun. Ima do it roomie-style - aim all night long. Haha jk roomie.

Oh yeah Adrian and I finally have our Liwanag family! I'm so excited! It's gonna be an awesome year I could tell. I love seeing new faces and getting to know them more.

Almost forgot to mention, Friday night was gudtimes. It was a little weird but gudtimes overall. Oh those crazy kids haha.

I was gonna blog about something more meaningful but work is over so it's time to go to class.

Until then, payce my babies.

I've been on a Lifehouse high for a while now. So here's to the addiction...

All the stars are out tonight it feels as though I might
Make some sense out of this madness will it turn out right
Who's to say where the wind will blow

-Chapter One

Tell me all the dreams that you have
Let slip right through your hands
Do you feel lost inside of someone else's life

-We'll Never Know

All in all it's just another day now
You're falling down
What you gonna do
Standing on top of the world tonight
No ones looking back at you
Stand tall
It's gonna be just fine
You're holding on today

- All In All

I was sitting in one of my Management classes yesterday, completely phasing out the professor, because all I could think about were all the reponsibilities that I chose to take on this quarter. I sat there listing all the things I have to do in my head - all ten million of them. It was a never-ending list of responsibilities that I, of course, chose to do. Sometimes I ask myself why I do what I do. But even then, I feel like I don't have the time to answer my own question.

Before I left for D.C., I asked for His help. I told Him that I have grown closer to Him in the past couple years, and I don't want to lose sight of Him, as I part from the family who has been so close to my heart, because they have taught me so much about Him. I was really excited when I found out that there was a church right across the street from my apartment in D.C. The first thing I looked for was the blessed sacrament. It was the first time I went to the blessed sacrament by myself.

I remember when I was younger, my mom would always insist that we go to the blessed sacrament first thing on our birthday. It was really the only time besides church when my family would all pray together. But now that my sister and I are all grown up, it's harder for my mom to keep us close to her. She tries really hard though and I love her for that.

So I tried to go to the blessed sacrament in D.C. as much as I could. It was where I could just sit and talk to Him. Everything in that city just seemed so fast paced. People are always rushing to be somewhere, running to catch the subway to go to work, even rushing to go back home. Amidst all the hustle and bustle of the city, the blessed sacrament is where I found solace.

I was struggling with the question that was looming over my head all summer. It was the question that I thought and prayed about so much it was already apparent what my answer would be. I would go to the blessed sacrament asking Him for guidance and strength for me to say it with great conviction. And finally, the time came. The question was asked and I finally said my Yes. Without hesitation, but full of conviction. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be after all.

Now I realize why I do what I do. I chose it for a reason. It's inevitable to feel disheartened at times, but it keeps me grounded. A very close friend (who prolly won't read this) told me something that I've always known but never fully realized until she said it. Thanks homie. I may be physically tired from everything I have to do, but I know He constantly fills me with the strength to go on.

Oh yeah, one thing I forgot to update on was my hair. So I cut my hair. Short. Really short. Shorter than what I wanted. Shorter than the picture that I showed her. Damnit. But it's growing though! I could feel it! And yes Christine, it would be just the perfect length when it's time for senior portraits...I hope. I miss my long hair. My girly hair. It's like a part of my girliness was taken away from me. Bwahaha oh man okai I'm stopping right now.

I've always liked Welcome Week. Some people would say otherwise, but I enjoy it because it's when I see most people who I don't usually see during the school year. It's like one big happy reunion before school starts. Gotta love it. I also got to meet new faces and make new friends and meet people from my old school! That was exciting. It's also a week of anticipation before all the first meetings of clubs and organizations. Which makes week one exciting for me too.

Speaking of first meetings, the first meeting for Liwanag was awesome of course. I was actually really excited and that was the one thing I looked forward to that Tuesday night of week one. Meeting and getting to know fresh new faces who share the same passion and faith as I do...what more could I ask for? Thank You.

PASS's first meeting was also great. I was a little overwhelmed by the number of people who were there. Not that I wasn't expecting that many people to come out, but yeah actually I wasn't expecting that. Haha. I thought it turned out pretty well, considering the turnout of our paid members. Dude. Awesometimes. Good job my babies I'm so proud of you all. Bonfire was of course goodtimes all the time. Thank you to everyone who came out and showed support I love you all.

I had a heart to heart at the bonfire with a really good friend of mine, and he made me realize a lot of things that I have always known but have avoided for the past year. It's not the first time the subject has come up, but hearing it again from someone else makes me think about it more. It just seems like there is only one way to handle it, but in reality I don't even know if I would be able to handle it.

A very wise friend once told me, "That's a good step. It's a good step towards moving on with your life. That's exactly what you need." I agree. It is exactly what I need. The question is, is it what I really want?

"Let's go back, back to the beginning, back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned..."

Damnit I don't know why this song has been on my head for a while now. I think it's coz of frigin Laguna Beach. Man, I hate that show. That's why I watch it sometimes. Heehee. My Super Sweet Sixteen is growing on me too. It's pretty fun watching those kids. It's annoying in an entertaining kind of way. Especially Divo. Oh man.

So I'm back. I haven't updated in so long. I already forgot what happened since the last time I blogged. Let's see if I could reminisce...

D.C. overall was awesome. My last two weeks over there weren't the greatest because me and the roomie got really sick. But of course that didn't stop us from partying it up. It was kinda sad how broke we were towards the end of the trip. But I thought it was all worth it. I'm fosho gonna miss the cool people I met over there. On our last day in D.C., I was so excited to come back home. I mean yeah I'm gonna miss D.C. and all, but I could just feel that it was time to go back. So I'm back!

I was chillaxin at home the first couple weeks. I didn't want to move back Irvine just yet. It was kinda hard accepting the fact that I'm going back to the same old routine I had before D.C. School...work...club stuff...school...work...club stuff...school...work...club stuff. See, even you got tired reading that. I needed time to adjust back to my life here. It was hard but I got over it. Now I'm kinda excited for this year. THE last year. Yeah, I'm kinda scared too, but just seeing all you guys again made it a easier for me to want to be back.

I thought I was gonna have a chill senior year. But looks like that's not happening. Being the diligent student (haha yeah right), the bitch at the same old work, pass financial vp aka "mom", liwanag servant leader (I'm scared but excited), and a Tagalog tutor, is hard work but it will be awesome. Yes it will be an awesome year!

I’m halfway through my D.C. experience and so far it’s been awesome. I’m loving my job right now, despite the fact that I don’t get paid or reimbursed for transportation. I was never really a “political” person or whatever you might call it, and I still don’t think I am. But working here makes me want to learn more, and maybe, possibly, consider pursuing a career in politics. No, not running for office. Maybe working at the district office in California where they handle more grassroots issues, where I’d feel much closer to helping the people of the district. Now that would be awesome. But a lot could change in one year. I’m too scared to think about it, so I’ll just go with the flow wherever it takes me.

I imagined myself living in D.C. and working here after graduation, and I just couldn’t picture it. I’m sure it would be a “growth” experience or however you wanna put it, but I guess I’m just too chicken to go through with it. If you know me pretty well, you know how much I love going home to see my family. I don’t think I could handle living in D.C. knowing that my family is ten zillion miles away. Don’t get me wrong, I’m loving D.C. (except for the weather) and all its glory. There’s so much to do, so many places to go, and so many people to meet. I just don’t think I’m ready to spread my wings that far. Maybe someday, but definitely not at this point in my life.

I've been thinking a lot about the future lately, and its both exciting and scary. Not just career-wise, but everything else that comes with it. It actually depresses me sometimes but what else is new. Haha jk. I'm just wishing and hoping that everything will fall into place when it should.

That's all for now folks.

Until the next adventure.

I miss you all.

"In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do."
-Anonymous

Somewhere In Between
by
Lifehouse

I can't be losing sleep
over this, no I can't
and now I cannot stop pacing
give me a few hours
I'll have this all sorted out
if my mind would just stop racing

cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
this cannot be happening

this is over my head
but underneath my feet
cause by tomorrow morning
I'll have this thing beat
and everything will be back
to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy

cause I'm waiting for tonight
and then waiting for tomorrow
and I'm somewhere in between
what is real and just a dream

would you catch me if
I fall out of what I fell in
don't be surprised if I collapse
down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this

cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
this cannot be happening, yeah

cause I'm waiting for tonight
and then waiting for tomorrow
and I'm somewhere in between
what is real and just a dream

You are Proverbs.


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Hhhmmmm.

Btw, I updated my pics.



New pics from:

Baltimore, Chelle's 21st Birthday, Colonial Williamsburg, D.C. Apt, 4th of July, Girls night out, Weekend with cousins, White House

I miss you all!