Seniors at Liwanag Banquet
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Tsai once said, “You know, not blogging for a long time is sign that you have a life.” Thanks Christine. And that’s why you’re my friend. Haha. But really, It’s not that I have a “life” as Christine puts it. I just have a tendency to not blog when I’m on a funk. I’m sorry, my blog, for neglecting you for so long. You deserve the long-awaited and substance-filled post. So here it goes…
It’s kinda weird to see the many aspects of my life so differently after just one weekend. People have been asking me how I’m doing after Days, and I always say it’s been hard. Yes, it’s been hard, but He never said it would be easy, but He also said that it would be worth it.
I’ve always had an excuse when I forget. My ultimate excuse for everything is that I’m busy. Busy with school, work, and other responsibilities. Someone once told me, that the minute I start thinking that my faith is separate from all the other aspects my life, then I'm not fully putting Him in the center. That's when I start to forget. It's always been a struggle for me. But that's what makes it worth it. The struggle makes it worth. Going through it and realizing how much of Him I'm missing makes me want to put Him first.
I’ve been taking in everything that comes in my life, whether good or bad, because that’s what He wants me to do. Take all that is handed to me, good or bad, and see it as a blessing. It's already hard enough to take on my own crosses, what more to take on someone else's? But you know when they say that when someone you really care about hurts, you hurt too. There's really no way of shielding someone who cares about you so much from the burdens that you're carrying. That's just how it works. When someone I care about is hurting, it makes me hurt too. A lot.
I keep on telling myself that being selfless means letting go of one's pride. It means not having to set any conditions and being able to fully give without asking for anything in return. It means being able to look past your own needs to see other people's. It is also struggle. To care so much for others in the expense of your own well-being. I keep on telling myself this, over and over and over and over again. But I still can't seem to hear myself talk.
It's almost over. End of the year banquets make the end real. It sucks. But it's also good. It makes me appreciate a lot of things more, and it also makes me realize how much I love those who I have gotten close to these past four years. You guys have no idea how much you all mean to me. There are no words to describe that feeling. No words.
i still don't understand how you could still be there after all this time. you have been my sponge whenever i needed someone. you never get tired of hearing me cry about everything. you always made me feel like you still cared after everything. you were always there to listen and you have always been so patient with me. you have no idea how much that means to me. no idea. thanks for talking to me all the way home that one time i was being a stupid stupid girl. i always get scared when i drive by myself at night. you will forever be my lifesaver.
It sucks whenever I’m on a slump I always lose to a very bad habit. I thought I was done with it. I guess not.
I know I haven't exactly been the happiest lately. Thanks to those who have been there to put up with me...for those who have attempted to cheer me up...for those who took me out for goodtimes...for those who called just to say hello...for those who yell at me when I'm being stupid...for those who listened to me ramble and cry about everything...and most importantly...for all the prayers. You are so all awesome. I wouldn't have survived these last few weeks without all of you. Thank You.
It’s kinda weird to see the many aspects of my life so differently after just one weekend. People have been asking me how I’m doing after Days, and I always say it’s been hard. Yes, it’s been hard, but He never said it would be easy, but He also said that it would be worth it.
I’ve always had an excuse when I forget. My ultimate excuse for everything is that I’m busy. Busy with school, work, and other responsibilities. Someone once told me, that the minute I start thinking that my faith is separate from all the other aspects my life, then I'm not fully putting Him in the center. That's when I start to forget. It's always been a struggle for me. But that's what makes it worth it. The struggle makes it worth. Going through it and realizing how much of Him I'm missing makes me want to put Him first.
I’ve been taking in everything that comes in my life, whether good or bad, because that’s what He wants me to do. Take all that is handed to me, good or bad, and see it as a blessing. It's already hard enough to take on my own crosses, what more to take on someone else's? But you know when they say that when someone you really care about hurts, you hurt too. There's really no way of shielding someone who cares about you so much from the burdens that you're carrying. That's just how it works. When someone I care about is hurting, it makes me hurt too. A lot.
I keep on telling myself that being selfless means letting go of one's pride. It means not having to set any conditions and being able to fully give without asking for anything in return. It means being able to look past your own needs to see other people's. It is also struggle. To care so much for others in the expense of your own well-being. I keep on telling myself this, over and over and over and over again. But I still can't seem to hear myself talk.
It's almost over. End of the year banquets make the end real. It sucks. But it's also good. It makes me appreciate a lot of things more, and it also makes me realize how much I love those who I have gotten close to these past four years. You guys have no idea how much you all mean to me. There are no words to describe that feeling. No words.
i still don't understand how you could still be there after all this time. you have been my sponge whenever i needed someone. you never get tired of hearing me cry about everything. you always made me feel like you still cared after everything. you were always there to listen and you have always been so patient with me. you have no idea how much that means to me. no idea. thanks for talking to me all the way home that one time i was being a stupid stupid girl. i always get scared when i drive by myself at night. you will forever be my lifesaver.
It sucks whenever I’m on a slump I always lose to a very bad habit. I thought I was done with it. I guess not.
I know I haven't exactly been the happiest lately. Thanks to those who have been there to put up with me...for those who have attempted to cheer me up...for those who took me out for goodtimes...for those who called just to say hello...for those who yell at me when I'm being stupid...for those who listened to me ramble and cry about everything...and most importantly...for all the prayers. You are so all awesome. I wouldn't have survived these last few weeks without all of you. Thank You.
Monday, March 20, 2006
Kiss Me Kate with the E4L crew on Friday night and then In N Out. That was kinda weird since we didn't have our usual Denny's atmosphere with Omar. Anyways, got back to the apartment and helped Rona make Gazpacho for Pam's bday. It surprisingly went well. Good job Rone!
Saturday was homeless outreach. I wasn't gonna go to LA with them because I reallly needed to study, but they needed people and I thought, what's more important, missing a couple hours of studying or feeding a starving person on the street? And so I went. It's the same feeling every time. It was slap of reality in the face. It hurts and it's real. After that, I had the best date with the most beautiful person alive *wink*. Kalesa Grill and naptime. Who can ask for more? Thank you again, beautiful. See, our time finally came.
Saturday night, helped David cook Spanish Croquetas for Pam's bday. It was pretty good, despite the fact that it was still "cheesy" in the inside. Haha. But goodtimes, goodtimes. Went to Pia's for Pam's spanish bday dinner. It was sooooooooooo good. We had the tapas of course: calamari, croquetas, gazpacho, and this salmon on bread topped with breadcrumbs, and sangria. And then we had the oh-so-good paella. Then port wine with the brownie dessert. And last but not the least, churros con chocolate. Oh man. Dude. All of these was made from scratch btw. It was the best dinner ever. Man o man. Then we went to Pam's dorm for yet another surprise. Yay Pamela! Hope you had a good time you deserve it all! I love you. Didn't feel so good afterward so went straight to bed.
Sunday, went to noon mass, back to the apartment for lunch, attempted to start studying which kinda worked but not really. Too many distractions. And now, Monday, I'm at work, "working".
Finals week and I have a love-hate relationship. I love it because it's pretty much a chill week, but not really. I hate it coz, well, it's finals week. It just sucks because everyone seems to be done Thursday while I'm not. Dengit. I'm thinking of being in hiding this whole week. Just go far far away where no one knows where I am and then just pop out of nowhere when it's all over. Maybe that will push me to study. Eh wutever.
I'm sick.
I'm sleepy.
I'm tired.
But I'm alive. Yehey.
Wow this post is kinda blah.
Okai, I need to get my study on foreal. Payce.
Saturday was homeless outreach. I wasn't gonna go to LA with them because I reallly needed to study, but they needed people and I thought, what's more important, missing a couple hours of studying or feeding a starving person on the street? And so I went. It's the same feeling every time. It was slap of reality in the face. It hurts and it's real. After that, I had the best date with the most beautiful person alive *wink*. Kalesa Grill and naptime. Who can ask for more? Thank you again, beautiful. See, our time finally came.
Saturday night, helped David cook Spanish Croquetas for Pam's bday. It was pretty good, despite the fact that it was still "cheesy" in the inside. Haha. But goodtimes, goodtimes. Went to Pia's for Pam's spanish bday dinner. It was sooooooooooo good. We had the tapas of course: calamari, croquetas, gazpacho, and this salmon on bread topped with breadcrumbs, and sangria. And then we had the oh-so-good paella. Then port wine with the brownie dessert. And last but not the least, churros con chocolate. Oh man. Dude. All of these was made from scratch btw. It was the best dinner ever. Man o man. Then we went to Pam's dorm for yet another surprise. Yay Pamela! Hope you had a good time you deserve it all! I love you. Didn't feel so good afterward so went straight to bed.
Sunday, went to noon mass, back to the apartment for lunch, attempted to start studying which kinda worked but not really. Too many distractions. And now, Monday, I'm at work, "working".
Finals week and I have a love-hate relationship. I love it because it's pretty much a chill week, but not really. I hate it coz, well, it's finals week. It just sucks because everyone seems to be done Thursday while I'm not. Dengit. I'm thinking of being in hiding this whole week. Just go far far away where no one knows where I am and then just pop out of nowhere when it's all over. Maybe that will push me to study. Eh wutever.
I'm sick.
I'm sleepy.
I'm tired.
But I'm alive. Yehey.
Wow this post is kinda blah.
Okai, I need to get my study on foreal. Payce.
Friday, March 17, 2006
I think I'm gonna screw up my gpa this quarter. I just spent this whole week attempting to finish my paper (NOTE: attempting) so that I don't have to stay up late the night before it's due. Of course I ended up finishing at 4am, five hours before it's due. Yeah senioritis.
I'm done with finals on the last day at 3:30pm. So if you're done waaay before that, don't come near me until Friday at 3:30pm or else you will get hurt.
I will apologize in advance for not being able to come to the LA Marathon. I know I suck but I just can't afford to not study on Sunday. I'm so sorry! I will be there in spirit, cheering you on. I swear!
On Wednesday, my Tagalog kids did skits from the movie "Dubai". I was so proud and impressed I wanted to cry. Okai jk. But seriously. They all make me so proud. Talagang solid! Hahaha.
So I remember talking to a friend about opening up to people and telling them your problems, thoughts, feelings about anything. And I told her the reason why I don't open up to some people is because I don't think they would care about what I have to say anyway. It's not a diss to them or anything, it's just how I feel. I don't open up because I don't really think it matters to them if I do. And that's fine with me. Sometimes. Coz I already know who I could turn to when I needed them. I also realized that the ones who I don't really run to to tell my problems are the ones who are very open about their problems to me. I mean I'm thankful and flattered that they trust me with all that. But sometimes that's what holds me back from telling them about my life. I feel like I have to be the stronger one, the one who takes it all in and absorbs everything. Anyways...
I'm not going home this weekend coz it's finals week. I really like going home because I get spoiled at home. I also like spending time with the family because they always make me laugh. Even though they always call me fat. Haha. I love, love, love, love, love and did I say love, hearing my parents laughing when they're talking and making fun of each other. Makes me feel good to know that someday, when me and my sister are all "grown'd up", we know that they will be fine.
Random thoughts...
Apparently, I've been spoiled too much (not by my family). I guess I was. Not anymore though. And it sucks.
People bug me. I need to be more patient.
Instability scares me.
Wow I'm kinda broke.
Mmmmmmm ube ice cream.
I hate the rain.
I'm gonna end this post with a song that I thought I would never ever hear again after high school Mary's day. But No Joke sang it beautifully and I could listen to it over and over and over and over again. Amen. Haha.
Hail Mary
Full of Grace
The Lord is with you
Blessed art you among women
And blessed is the fruit
of thy womb,
Jesus formed in your faith
Ave Maria Alleluia
Jesus formed in your love
Ave Maria Alleluia
Ave Maria
Gratia plena
Dominus tecum
Benedicta tu in mulieribus
Et benedictus fructus ventris
Ventris tuae, Jesus.
Sancta Maria
Mater Dei
Ora pro nobis peccatoribus
Nunc et in hora mortis nostrae
Amen.
I'm done with finals on the last day at 3:30pm. So if you're done waaay before that, don't come near me until Friday at 3:30pm or else you will get hurt.
I will apologize in advance for not being able to come to the LA Marathon. I know I suck but I just can't afford to not study on Sunday. I'm so sorry! I will be there in spirit, cheering you on. I swear!
On Wednesday, my Tagalog kids did skits from the movie "Dubai". I was so proud and impressed I wanted to cry. Okai jk. But seriously. They all make me so proud. Talagang solid! Hahaha.
So I remember talking to a friend about opening up to people and telling them your problems, thoughts, feelings about anything. And I told her the reason why I don't open up to some people is because I don't think they would care about what I have to say anyway. It's not a diss to them or anything, it's just how I feel. I don't open up because I don't really think it matters to them if I do. And that's fine with me. Sometimes. Coz I already know who I could turn to when I needed them. I also realized that the ones who I don't really run to to tell my problems are the ones who are very open about their problems to me. I mean I'm thankful and flattered that they trust me with all that. But sometimes that's what holds me back from telling them about my life. I feel like I have to be the stronger one, the one who takes it all in and absorbs everything. Anyways...
I'm not going home this weekend coz it's finals week. I really like going home because I get spoiled at home. I also like spending time with the family because they always make me laugh. Even though they always call me fat. Haha. I love, love, love, love, love and did I say love, hearing my parents laughing when they're talking and making fun of each other. Makes me feel good to know that someday, when me and my sister are all "grown'd up", we know that they will be fine.
Random thoughts...
Apparently, I've been spoiled too much (not by my family). I guess I was. Not anymore though. And it sucks.
People bug me. I need to be more patient.
Instability scares me.
Wow I'm kinda broke.
Mmmmmmm ube ice cream.
I hate the rain.
I'm gonna end this post with a song that I thought I would never ever hear again after high school Mary's day. But No Joke sang it beautifully and I could listen to it over and over and over and over again. Amen. Haha.
Hail Mary
Full of Grace
The Lord is with you
Blessed art you among women
And blessed is the fruit
of thy womb,
Jesus formed in your faith
Ave Maria Alleluia
Jesus formed in your love
Ave Maria Alleluia
Ave Maria
Gratia plena
Dominus tecum
Benedicta tu in mulieribus
Et benedictus fructus ventris
Ventris tuae, Jesus.
Sancta Maria
Mater Dei
Ora pro nobis peccatoribus
Nunc et in hora mortis nostrae
Amen.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
I was never really good at affirmations. First of all, I never know what to say to the person. Second of all, I don't know how to react to anything said about me, good or bad. Lastly, sometimes I feel like it's more of a confrontation than an affirmation, and I'm never really good at confrontation either. I'm the type of person who keeps everything in, won't say a word about what's bothering me, until someone tries really hard to pry it out in me. There are some people who don't need to try hard to do that. But there's still others who need to keep trying until I finally say something.
Anyways...
Okai I admit it. I've always had trouble committing to anything. Which is funny when I think about it because I've always thought of myself as someone very reliable in anything that anyone asks of me. I guess I'm not? Or maybe being committed to something doesn't necessarily mean being reliable. I'm not even sure if I'm making sense right now. The reason why I don't commit to anything sometimes is not because I don't want to. It's because I don't want to promise anything and then break that promise later on if something comes up. This might only make sense to one person so I'm sorry if I'm not making sense right now.
Whatever...
So I seem to get myself in certain situations only to realize later on that I don't know how and why I'm in it. I want to think that I get myself in them for a reason, and hopefully those reasons are worth it. But I can't help but wonder why. There has to be something there that makes me want to stay. I hope I find that something soon.
I'm averaging four hours of sleep every night and it's not gud (even though I would still say "that's guuud"). I'm always late for my 9am class on MWF. How am I supposed to survive having an 8am class next quarter? I don't know. But I just have to suck it up and deal with it because that's what I do.
I haven't hung out with Liwanag people in a looooooooooooooong time. I feel a little detached just because I'm so caught up with everything else I'm involved in. I shall make up for it soon. I miss those kids foreal.
Friggin Pamela made me think about things that I didn't really care about before. You suck Pam. I don't think I can put it on here, but it just makes me wonder sometimes. Yeah pulling a Meechy. Hahaahaha.
My car is dying. Slowly but surely. Man. Now my parents are gonna blame me for it. But it was already dying in the first place. Dengit. Window adventures are always fun right Daniel? Dude, I was sad about that caramel empanada foreal.
Fatty fattness is all I see when I look at the mirror (And all I hear at home. Ugh.) Someone drag me to the arc please (*cough* David *cough*).
I think I need E4L and roommate dinner soon. It's been too long.
I realized that I have yet to break down the walls that I put up around me when it comes to relationships.
Blessed sacrament at Our Lady of Lourdes, you've been home for the past two weeks. Thank You.
Blog dedications are hot. Haha. Thanks for making me smile like this :D.
Congratulations to PASS for another successful Conference! We are way cool kids.
Chomp and Black Star Canyon night funtimes kids.
Thanks for an awesome (somewhat scary) Friday night David, Rone, Arnold. I lost a button from my shirt. Not cool. Maybe that's why I was super cold. Haha. I have a bruise on my left arm and I have no idea why. I think one of you guys might have caused it. Goodtimes, goodtimes.
Dude, pics coming soon foreal.
Anyways...
Okai I admit it. I've always had trouble committing to anything. Which is funny when I think about it because I've always thought of myself as someone very reliable in anything that anyone asks of me. I guess I'm not? Or maybe being committed to something doesn't necessarily mean being reliable. I'm not even sure if I'm making sense right now. The reason why I don't commit to anything sometimes is not because I don't want to. It's because I don't want to promise anything and then break that promise later on if something comes up. This might only make sense to one person so I'm sorry if I'm not making sense right now.
Whatever...
So I seem to get myself in certain situations only to realize later on that I don't know how and why I'm in it. I want to think that I get myself in them for a reason, and hopefully those reasons are worth it. But I can't help but wonder why. There has to be something there that makes me want to stay. I hope I find that something soon.
I'm averaging four hours of sleep every night and it's not gud (even though I would still say "that's guuud"). I'm always late for my 9am class on MWF. How am I supposed to survive having an 8am class next quarter? I don't know. But I just have to suck it up and deal with it because that's what I do.
I haven't hung out with Liwanag people in a looooooooooooooong time. I feel a little detached just because I'm so caught up with everything else I'm involved in. I shall make up for it soon. I miss those kids foreal.
Friggin Pamela made me think about things that I didn't really care about before. You suck Pam. I don't think I can put it on here, but it just makes me wonder sometimes. Yeah pulling a Meechy. Hahaahaha.
My car is dying. Slowly but surely. Man. Now my parents are gonna blame me for it. But it was already dying in the first place. Dengit. Window adventures are always fun right Daniel? Dude, I was sad about that caramel empanada foreal.
Fatty fattness is all I see when I look at the mirror (And all I hear at home. Ugh.) Someone drag me to the arc please (*cough* David *cough*).
I think I need E4L and roommate dinner soon. It's been too long.
I realized that I have yet to break down the walls that I put up around me when it comes to relationships.
Blessed sacrament at Our Lady of Lourdes, you've been home for the past two weeks. Thank You.
Blog dedications are hot. Haha. Thanks for making me smile like this :D.
Congratulations to PASS for another successful Conference! We are way cool kids.
Chomp and Black Star Canyon night funtimes kids.
Thanks for an awesome (somewhat scary) Friday night David, Rone, Arnold. I lost a button from my shirt. Not cool. Maybe that's why I was super cold. Haha. I have a bruise on my left arm and I have no idea why. I think one of you guys might have caused it. Goodtimes, goodtimes.
Dude, pics coming soon foreal.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Yeah Santa Barbara! Goodtimes all the time with the PASS kids of course. It's weird how I never really realized how much they all meant to me till this weekend. They're just an awesome bunch of crazy kids who ALMOST made me cry this weekend (haha they were good tears though, good tears) but I just held it back because it's not my time to cry yet. Watch out when this year is over. That's when the tears will come. Haha.
Do you ever have those realizations about yourself that you, somehow, already know about, but on some level, you never really acknowledge it until someone points it out? No? Me either. Haha jk. I had one of those this weekend. I had interesting one-on-ones with some friends over the weekend and I was telling them about what's been going on in my life. It was interesting how they all said the same thing about how I am as a person. I felt like they knew me more than I knew myself. Which is both good and bad I guess. Good because I feel like the people I trust the most really know who I am. Bad because, well, I guess I don't know myself after all. It just made me think about a lot of things, and I get really sad when I think too deeply into things. That's another reason why I try hard not to think about things too much. But then again, not thinking about things that bother me is unhealthy. Because one day I know one day it will all build up and then I wouldn't know what to do. I don't know. Whatever.
So I didn't go to church this weekend coz of Santa Barbara. Not good. Mass has been a routine for me ever since I was little. The only reason why I would miss it is I absolutely can't go because I have to be somewhere over the weekend. I usually go to mass at home because I'm almost always home over the weekend. I kinda miss going to church at Interfaith because I really feel at home there. But either way, I know He's really present during mass. Liwanag retreat has opened my eyes (Wow irony right there. Get it? No? Okay. Haha.) to the beauty of the mass that I never really knew before. It's such a painful but beautiful thing. Man, I can't even describe how beautiful it is. Dude, yeah. No words.
Thank you for listening...again. You have no idea how much that means to me. No idea.
Roomie I haven't talked to you in soooo long. You know, our "talks". *sigh* I miss you.
I love my mommy. Haha. Sorry random.
Wow I'm getting pretty good at this blogging thing lately. Good for me.
Pics will come up soon!
I need to work now foreal. Payce.
Do you ever have those realizations about yourself that you, somehow, already know about, but on some level, you never really acknowledge it until someone points it out? No? Me either. Haha jk. I had one of those this weekend. I had interesting one-on-ones with some friends over the weekend and I was telling them about what's been going on in my life. It was interesting how they all said the same thing about how I am as a person. I felt like they knew me more than I knew myself. Which is both good and bad I guess. Good because I feel like the people I trust the most really know who I am. Bad because, well, I guess I don't know myself after all. It just made me think about a lot of things, and I get really sad when I think too deeply into things. That's another reason why I try hard not to think about things too much. But then again, not thinking about things that bother me is unhealthy. Because one day I know one day it will all build up and then I wouldn't know what to do. I don't know. Whatever.
So I didn't go to church this weekend coz of Santa Barbara. Not good. Mass has been a routine for me ever since I was little. The only reason why I would miss it is I absolutely can't go because I have to be somewhere over the weekend. I usually go to mass at home because I'm almost always home over the weekend. I kinda miss going to church at Interfaith because I really feel at home there. But either way, I know He's really present during mass. Liwanag retreat has opened my eyes (Wow irony right there. Get it? No? Okay. Haha.) to the beauty of the mass that I never really knew before. It's such a painful but beautiful thing. Man, I can't even describe how beautiful it is. Dude, yeah. No words.
Thank you for listening...again. You have no idea how much that means to me. No idea.
Roomie I haven't talked to you in soooo long. You know, our "talks". *sigh* I miss you.
I love my mommy. Haha. Sorry random.
Wow I'm getting pretty good at this blogging thing lately. Good for me.
Pics will come up soon!
I need to work now foreal. Payce.
Friday, February 17, 2006
Can I just grant myself just this one time to be a girly girl? It's my post-Valentine's mini-post so please just bear with me. It's just this one time I promise. Haha. Are you ready? Okai here it goes...
I loved the surprise. It was perfect. I wanted to cry but I didn't want to ruin the make-up. Haha jaykay! I absolutely have no idea why I deserve to be spoiled this way. But really, no one has ever done that for me before and I felt really special. Aaaahhh thanks so much for everything. I'm still in awe of the truffles from scratch. Really, I'm not over it. You're just plain awesome. Thank you!!!
End of the girlygirl-ness.
This quarter is going by way too fast. I'm so behind with all my classes and it worries me that I'm not really worried. Oh well. That's seniorities for yah.
Been thinking about what life would be like for me a year from now. It's scary, but I'm kinda excited too. As Pam said, "Aren't you excited to have a career?" I guess I am. Of course it's scary because it's such a grown-up concept. But it's something to look forward to I guess.
Liwanag retreat was just woah. Woah as in...ionow...woah. Haha. Can't really describe it any other way. I'm glad I went. Actually I'm more than glad. I'm grateful I went. Been reminiscing about how I got to where I am in my faith. I remember, my first year in Liwanag was definitely when I had my "spiritual high". It was the most awesome feeling in the world. To be able to appreciate life a lot more and to have that sense of fulfillment in completely trusting in Him. Letting Him lead you to where He intends you to go and fully surrendering your whole being all for Him. No questions asked. No doubts. No worries. It was the greatest feeling in the world. It was in the summer of my sophomore year when I decided to become involved with a lot of other activities on campus. I was bombarded with all these responsibilities that of course I chose to do, and it somehow gave me a sense of security. Security in knowing that I was doing something valuable with my time and energy. It wasn't until junior year that I realized how much I've been so distracted with all these responsibilities that I've lost touch with my faith. It was such a struggle trying to get back on that "high". I want to say I tried hard to get back on, but I would be lying. The end of junior year wasn't exactly the happiest time in my college life. I had a lot of internal struggles that I needed to let go of. So naturally, being only human during this low point in my life, I turned to Him for help. I asked Him for forgiveness. Forgiveness for when I lost sight of Him because I was too selfish to think of anything or anyone else but myself. Before I left for D.C. this past summer, I was afraid to leave because I was sure that I would let distractions take over my life once again. I prayed so hard, asking Him to help me keep Him close. And I did. I dont think I would've said yes to becoming a servant leader if I didn't pray so much about it. I had a lot of doubts about myself in becoming a servant leader. I didn't quite understand why they picked me. I didn't think I had what it takes to become one. But I realized that it wasn't about me. It was all for Him. So I said yes. It was my first real attempt to getting back on.
Someone once told me that once you reach that "high", it's just natural to fall down and break. She said that it's almost impossible to have that awesome feeling again, that "spiritual high". But then I thought, "spiritual high" doesn't have to be that awesome feeling that I once had. Constantly trying to go through that struggle of completely trusting in Him is the high. Falling down numerous times is the high. The little sacrifice that you go through for Him is the high. Being blessed and broken is definitely the high. It's those struggles that make it all worth it because there is no struggle that can't be won through Him.
End of my inspired post.
Anyways...
Yeah PASS retreat to Santa Barbara this weekend! Pictures coming soon! Maybe when I get back. Have an awesome three day weekend my babies. Payce!
I loved the surprise. It was perfect. I wanted to cry but I didn't want to ruin the make-up. Haha jaykay! I absolutely have no idea why I deserve to be spoiled this way. But really, no one has ever done that for me before and I felt really special. Aaaahhh thanks so much for everything. I'm still in awe of the truffles from scratch. Really, I'm not over it. You're just plain awesome. Thank you!!!
End of the girlygirl-ness.
This quarter is going by way too fast. I'm so behind with all my classes and it worries me that I'm not really worried. Oh well. That's seniorities for yah.
Been thinking about what life would be like for me a year from now. It's scary, but I'm kinda excited too. As Pam said, "Aren't you excited to have a career?" I guess I am. Of course it's scary because it's such a grown-up concept. But it's something to look forward to I guess.
Liwanag retreat was just woah. Woah as in...ionow...woah. Haha. Can't really describe it any other way. I'm glad I went. Actually I'm more than glad. I'm grateful I went. Been reminiscing about how I got to where I am in my faith. I remember, my first year in Liwanag was definitely when I had my "spiritual high". It was the most awesome feeling in the world. To be able to appreciate life a lot more and to have that sense of fulfillment in completely trusting in Him. Letting Him lead you to where He intends you to go and fully surrendering your whole being all for Him. No questions asked. No doubts. No worries. It was the greatest feeling in the world. It was in the summer of my sophomore year when I decided to become involved with a lot of other activities on campus. I was bombarded with all these responsibilities that of course I chose to do, and it somehow gave me a sense of security. Security in knowing that I was doing something valuable with my time and energy. It wasn't until junior year that I realized how much I've been so distracted with all these responsibilities that I've lost touch with my faith. It was such a struggle trying to get back on that "high". I want to say I tried hard to get back on, but I would be lying. The end of junior year wasn't exactly the happiest time in my college life. I had a lot of internal struggles that I needed to let go of. So naturally, being only human during this low point in my life, I turned to Him for help. I asked Him for forgiveness. Forgiveness for when I lost sight of Him because I was too selfish to think of anything or anyone else but myself. Before I left for D.C. this past summer, I was afraid to leave because I was sure that I would let distractions take over my life once again. I prayed so hard, asking Him to help me keep Him close. And I did. I dont think I would've said yes to becoming a servant leader if I didn't pray so much about it. I had a lot of doubts about myself in becoming a servant leader. I didn't quite understand why they picked me. I didn't think I had what it takes to become one. But I realized that it wasn't about me. It was all for Him. So I said yes. It was my first real attempt to getting back on.
Someone once told me that once you reach that "high", it's just natural to fall down and break. She said that it's almost impossible to have that awesome feeling again, that "spiritual high". But then I thought, "spiritual high" doesn't have to be that awesome feeling that I once had. Constantly trying to go through that struggle of completely trusting in Him is the high. Falling down numerous times is the high. The little sacrifice that you go through for Him is the high. Being blessed and broken is definitely the high. It's those struggles that make it all worth it because there is no struggle that can't be won through Him.
End of my inspired post.
Anyways...
Yeah PASS retreat to Santa Barbara this weekend! Pictures coming soon! Maybe when I get back. Have an awesome three day weekend my babies. Payce!
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Dude, I've been wanting to blog foreal I swear. There's just so much I want to blog about but I would probably take a lifetime to write it all out. So I tried to sum it all up in one word and that word is...drum roll please...FAITH. Yes, faith. Faith in Him, in other people, and myself. But as Manjie puts it, I'm gonna "bust a meechy" and be vague in this post because I have class right now and I am not one to miss class so there. Yes, I'm bo-ring I'm sorry. Maybe I'll be inspired this weekend and post something meaningful. But for now, that's all I have to say. Payce my babies.
P.S. HAPBURDY SUE!
P.S. HAPBURDY SUE!
Saturday, January 14, 2006
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Many, many, many thanks to everyone for the birthday greetings and presents! My multiple birthday celebrations were all awesome of course because of the family and friends. You guys rock. And of course I can't forget to thank Him for giving me another year to enjoy the countless blessings I've been given. Thank You! Oh yeah, one last thank You for making my grandma better. The best news I've heard this weekend is that she's going to the mall to go shopping for shoes. Yay lola's back in action!
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Christmas/Bday Wishlist
- Carolina Herrera 212Sexy (thanx roomie!!!)
- Mamma Mia! (ohemgee thanx manjie!)
- Rainbow sandals (thanx tsai!!!)
- F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Seasons 6-10
- Little Mermaid or Beauty and the Beast DVD
- RENT Movie Soundtrack (thanx daniel!)
- coffee/lunch/dinner date (thanx jeff!)
- capo for my guitar (thanx cousin!)
- super cool bangles (thanx pam!)
- milky way midnight
- big, huggable stuffed toys (thanx bj!)
- white lilies (thanx jeff!)
- gift cards: forever 21, nordstroms, urban outfitters
- surprise me!
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- F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Seasons 6-10
- Little Mermaid or Beauty and the Beast DVD
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- coffee/lunch/dinner date (thanx jeff!)
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- super cool bangles (thanx pam!)
- milky way midnight
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- gift cards: forever 21, nordstroms, urban outfitters
- surprise me!
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Got this from roomie's blog. Enjoy.
Boredom at work
(X) smoked a cigarette - I haven't done it in a while though. Yay me.
(X) smoked a cigar - Roomie's debut hahahahahaha.
( ) made out with a member of the same sex - Well, not really made out. So no I guess. Haha.
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(X) been in love
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(X) snuck out of house - Wow never again.
(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back - Always.
( ) been arrested
(X) made out with a stranger - No comment.
(X) gone on a blind date - No comment.
(X) lied to a friend - I'm sorry. It was prolly because I didn't want to hurt them.
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) been to Europe
(X) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
( ) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(X) eaten Sushi - I'm craving it now.
( ) been snowboarding
(X) met someone in person from the internet - No comment.
( ) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
( ) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow man
(X) had a tea party
(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(X) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
(X) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(X) watched the sun set
(X) felt an earthquake - When I was little, I was on my bed and I thought someone was shaking it hardcore.
(X) touched a snake
(X) slept beneath the stars
(X) been tickled
(X) been robbed - My Little Twin Star pink wallet when I was seven. Couple days later I found it in the trash can in the school bathroom. Yawk.
( ) petted a reindeer/goat
(X) won a contest
( ) ran a red light
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(X) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) had deja vu
(X) danced in the moonlight
(X) hated the way you look - Most days
(X) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
(X) been to the opposite side of the country
( ) swam in the ocean
(X) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
(X) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers - No, but I want to!
(X) sung karaoke
(X) paid for a meal with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose - No worries it was water.
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) danced in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus - And then Santa wrote me back! With my mom's hadnwriting though. I got confused.
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(X) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
(X) made a bonfire on the beach
(X) crashed a party
(X) gone rollerskating
(X) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(X) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed penis in public
( ) ate dog/cat food
(X) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror
(X) sang in the shower
(X) had a dream that you married someone - I might have. I don't remember.
(X) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(X) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(X) sat on a roof top
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs - Every Tuesday night.
(X) done a one-handed cartwheel - Man I used to be able to do those so well.
(X) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(X) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
(X) had a tree house - My dad and uncles made it for me and my cousins when we were little!!! I miss that tree house.
(X) are scared to watch scary movies - But I watch them anyway
(X) believe in ghosts
(X) have more than 15 pairs of shoes - But I only wear 3 of em
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) played chicken
(X) pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on - My friend's house in the Philippines during my goodbye party.
( ) been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(X) been easily amused
(X) caught a fish then ate it - I didn't catch it myself though.
( ) caught a butterfly
(X) laughed so hard you cried
(X) cried so hard you laughed
( ) mooned/flashed someone
(X) had someone moon/flash you
(X) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(X) forgotten someone's name
( ) slept naked
(X) French braided someone's hair
( ) grown a beard
( ) skinny dipped in a hot tub
Boredom at work
(X) smoked a cigarette - I haven't done it in a while though. Yay me.
(X) smoked a cigar - Roomie's debut hahahahahaha.
( ) made out with a member of the same sex - Well, not really made out. So no I guess. Haha.
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(X) been in love
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(X) snuck out of house - Wow never again.
(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back - Always.
( ) been arrested
(X) made out with a stranger - No comment.
(X) gone on a blind date - No comment.
(X) lied to a friend - I'm sorry. It was prolly because I didn't want to hurt them.
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) been to Europe
(X) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
( ) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(X) eaten Sushi - I'm craving it now.
( ) been snowboarding
(X) met someone in person from the internet - No comment.
( ) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
( ) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow man
(X) had a tea party
(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(X) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
(X) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(X) watched the sun set
(X) felt an earthquake - When I was little, I was on my bed and I thought someone was shaking it hardcore.
(X) touched a snake
(X) slept beneath the stars
(X) been tickled
(X) been robbed - My Little Twin Star pink wallet when I was seven. Couple days later I found it in the trash can in the school bathroom. Yawk.
( ) petted a reindeer/goat
(X) won a contest
( ) ran a red light
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(X) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) had deja vu
(X) danced in the moonlight
(X) hated the way you look - Most days
(X) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
(X) been to the opposite side of the country
( ) swam in the ocean
(X) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
(X) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers - No, but I want to!
(X) sung karaoke
(X) paid for a meal with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose - No worries it was water.
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) danced in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus - And then Santa wrote me back! With my mom's hadnwriting though. I got confused.
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(X) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
(X) made a bonfire on the beach
(X) crashed a party
(X) gone rollerskating
(X) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(X) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed penis in public
( ) ate dog/cat food
(X) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror
(X) sang in the shower
(X) had a dream that you married someone - I might have. I don't remember.
(X) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(X) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(X) sat on a roof top
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs - Every Tuesday night.
(X) done a one-handed cartwheel - Man I used to be able to do those so well.
(X) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(X) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
(X) had a tree house - My dad and uncles made it for me and my cousins when we were little!!! I miss that tree house.
(X) are scared to watch scary movies - But I watch them anyway
(X) believe in ghosts
(X) have more than 15 pairs of shoes - But I only wear 3 of em
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) played chicken
(X) pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on - My friend's house in the Philippines during my goodbye party.
( ) been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(X) been easily amused
(X) caught a fish then ate it - I didn't catch it myself though.
( ) caught a butterfly
(X) laughed so hard you cried
(X) cried so hard you laughed
( ) mooned/flashed someone
(X) had someone moon/flash you
(X) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(X) forgotten someone's name
( ) slept naked
(X) French braided someone's hair
( ) grown a beard
( ) skinny dipped in a hot tub
Monday, December 12, 2005
Thursday, December 08, 2005
YEAH FINALS WEEK!!! I love finals week! I love the atmosphere around campus with everyone studying to the point of delirium and all that good stuff. I never really reached that point this week though, just coz I wasn't really taking my stats final seriously. But I'm officially done with my last fall quarter. Yay!
So far, I already got one of my grades for one of my management classes. And I got a solid A baybeeeeee! I'm so happy!!! I haven't seen that letter in a looooooong time. And I just found out that my group in my Advertising class won for the best presentation! Wow I'm so cool right now. I think I shall throw a party for this. Heeeheee. JK.
Speaking of party, my birthday's coming up (*cough* January 3 *cough*) and I'm not too sure what I want to do this year. I know I don't want the party at the apartment deal because I'm just too old for that now. Or I'm just too lazy to deal with all of that madness. I kinda just want to go out somewhere for dinner and then have some drinks but then that means only the oldies can go. So we shall see what can be done. Any suggestions anyone?
Recap of funtimes last week and this week:
- Tagalog potluck with my kids and Jiedson.
- Wish I could've stayed longer but I had to leave early
- I love those Tagalog kids mucho
- Daniel's 3-part birthday hoopla: RENT, BJ's, Elvis Karaoke
- I was good all throughout RENT and BJ's but then I started getting really sick in Elvis. Damn that sucked.
- Got home around 3am about to die
- I was looking forward to going to Homeless Outreach the next day but I couldn't get out of bed. That was not fun.
- Didn't study for finals at all during the weekend. That was fun.
- Late night at Pipin
- Beach at midnight with the PASS-ey (get it? PASS-ey = possey! hahaha okai fine)
- "I need someone to take me to the hospital" scare from a friend. Not a fun scare.
- Girly movie night: When Harry Met Sally, Anastasia, 13 Going on 30. Wow.
I made this analogy and I've concluded that chick flicks to girls is like porn to guys. They live vicariously through it because it's just too good to be true. I watch all these romantic comedies because I figured, it never happens to me so might as well see it happen to someone else. Although in the back of my head I'm thinking, gag me now can this be any cheesier? It's just too perfect it's nauseating. I've always been the pessimistic, cynical, ugh wutever type person when it comes to lovey dovey stuff. I didn't used to be. It's because over the years I've come to a realization that being in a relationship isn't always about prince charming sweeping you off your feet and living happily ever after forever. There's always the ugly stuff that comes with it. Problems, fights, disappointments, hurt, etc. I guess I was too focused on the ugly stuff that it made me into this cynical, heartless girl. Haha okai maybe not heartless, but you get the point. Sometimes I just laugh at the corniest chickflicks just thinking about how dumb they are. The thought of all that romantic stuff happening to me is just non-existent and whenever I come close to it, I try to laugh it off or just ignore it like it's nothing because I stopped believing in that kind of stuff a long time ago. But lately I realized that maybe I shouldn't just brush it off. That maybe if I believed even just a little bit of it, I wouldn't be so bitter about a lot of things. Maybe I will be able to appreciate the little joys in life a lot more. Just a thought.
Wow okai that was long. I shall blog again when I'm in the mood maybe I'll come up with something longer. Time to collect the Tagalog finals coz time's up. Haha.
Have an awesome finals week to those who are not done yet! And for those who are done, holla!
So far, I already got one of my grades for one of my management classes. And I got a solid A baybeeeeee! I'm so happy!!! I haven't seen that letter in a looooooong time. And I just found out that my group in my Advertising class won for the best presentation! Wow I'm so cool right now. I think I shall throw a party for this. Heeeheee. JK.
Speaking of party, my birthday's coming up (*cough* January 3 *cough*) and I'm not too sure what I want to do this year. I know I don't want the party at the apartment deal because I'm just too old for that now. Or I'm just too lazy to deal with all of that madness. I kinda just want to go out somewhere for dinner and then have some drinks but then that means only the oldies can go. So we shall see what can be done. Any suggestions anyone?
Recap of funtimes last week and this week:
- Tagalog potluck with my kids and Jiedson.
- Wish I could've stayed longer but I had to leave early
- I love those Tagalog kids mucho
- Daniel's 3-part birthday hoopla: RENT, BJ's, Elvis Karaoke
- I was good all throughout RENT and BJ's but then I started getting really sick in Elvis. Damn that sucked.
- Got home around 3am about to die
- I was looking forward to going to Homeless Outreach the next day but I couldn't get out of bed. That was not fun.
- Didn't study for finals at all during the weekend. That was fun.
- Late night at Pipin
- Beach at midnight with the PASS-ey (get it? PASS-ey = possey! hahaha okai fine)
- "I need someone to take me to the hospital" scare from a friend. Not a fun scare.
- Girly movie night: When Harry Met Sally, Anastasia, 13 Going on 30. Wow.
I made this analogy and I've concluded that chick flicks to girls is like porn to guys. They live vicariously through it because it's just too good to be true. I watch all these romantic comedies because I figured, it never happens to me so might as well see it happen to someone else. Although in the back of my head I'm thinking, gag me now can this be any cheesier? It's just too perfect it's nauseating. I've always been the pessimistic, cynical, ugh wutever type person when it comes to lovey dovey stuff. I didn't used to be. It's because over the years I've come to a realization that being in a relationship isn't always about prince charming sweeping you off your feet and living happily ever after forever. There's always the ugly stuff that comes with it. Problems, fights, disappointments, hurt, etc. I guess I was too focused on the ugly stuff that it made me into this cynical, heartless girl. Haha okai maybe not heartless, but you get the point. Sometimes I just laugh at the corniest chickflicks just thinking about how dumb they are. The thought of all that romantic stuff happening to me is just non-existent and whenever I come close to it, I try to laugh it off or just ignore it like it's nothing because I stopped believing in that kind of stuff a long time ago. But lately I realized that maybe I shouldn't just brush it off. That maybe if I believed even just a little bit of it, I wouldn't be so bitter about a lot of things. Maybe I will be able to appreciate the little joys in life a lot more. Just a thought.
Wow okai that was long. I shall blog again when I'm in the mood maybe I'll come up with something longer. Time to collect the Tagalog finals coz time's up. Haha.
Have an awesome finals week to those who are not done yet! And for those who are done, holla!
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Monday, November 28, 2005
WARNING: Long and pointless entry. It's more like a novel really, not an entry. But if you're that bored, then go ahead and proceed.
Liwanag Benefit Concert was awesome possum as always! This is my third one so far, and it just keeps getting better and better each year. Makes me kinda sad to think that this was my last benefit concert, hopefully only as an undegrad, and not the last one ever. Thanks Christine and Gladys for supporting you guys rock!!! And the other Immacers who have always gone since the beginning you guys are awesome. Truly felt His presence there. Amen, I do believe! Yay!
That Friday started off pretty bad just cause I was dead tired from my stuff that week. I woke up that Friday just thinking about how long that day was gonna be, physically and mentally drained from everything. I had work 9-11, Tagalog discussion 11-12, mandatory office hours 12-2, needed to finish work or else I would've gotten my ass whooped from 2-3, needed to study for my 4pm test from 3-4, took a test 4-5, decided to go back to the apt to pack for the retreat and showered 5-6, benefit prep time 6-7, benefit concert 7-11, left for pass vegas retreat 12midnight, didn't really get much sleep in the car, got there around 3:30, slept at around 4:30am. Wow.
PASS Vegas retreat was funtimes all the time of course. I love those crazy kids. Highlights: scotch tape, not really getting enough sleep on the way to vegas, pancakes, seafood buffet, hot tea, embarassing moments, fond memories, reverse gavel pass, magic mic all night, hot bedroom pics, "I can still see you!", "gum" stories, good talks, candy, mixed drinks, strip at 5am, freeezing weather, sleeping at 7am, steak and egss at 4pm, sleep all the way back. Goodtimes goodtimes.
And then there was Thanksgiving break! I was looking forward to seeing family since I haven't been home in two weeks. Can you believe that?!? Two whole weeks! Wow. I'm so cool. Haha. The cousins and grandparents were over the entire weekend. Of course we went shopping the whole day Friday. I feel like all I did was eat and go shopping. And sleep in between. Goodtimes. Of course there's always drama that comes with the family, so that sucked a little. It was also kinda sad to see my grandma so weak after getting out of the hospital. I'm not used to seeing her like that. It just makes me sad. But her condition is definitely bringing the family closer together. So I'm thankful for that. Just prayers for my grandma please.
Highlight of Thanksgiving weekend: The ladies (My lola, aunt, mom, me, sister, and two cousins) talking all night long after dinner on Saturday night, about the most random things. My mom of course was mostly the one yapping away about anything and everything. It was really fun just sitting there with them, talking and laughing and sharing stuff that we never really did before. I love my family soooo much I just wish it was always like that. That was a great way to end the weekend. Loved every minute of it.
So I thought I was a busy person. But I guess there's other people who are busier than me. Haha. It's all gud though. Sometimes I just wish there was more than 24 hours in a day so I could spend more time with those I really miss.
I have two finals this Thursday, and I haven't started studying. I'm pretty much screwed as always. So this week will be hell, and if you see me and I don't seem too happy, you'll know the reason why. Bleh.
Christmas/Birthday wishlist is coming up soon! If you're really dying to get me a gift right at this moment, feel free to contact me whenever. Otherwise, watch out for the wishlist either here or on my profile. That is all. Haha.
Yay I got pumpkin pie!!!
Time to go to class. Payce.
Liwanag Benefit Concert was awesome possum as always! This is my third one so far, and it just keeps getting better and better each year. Makes me kinda sad to think that this was my last benefit concert, hopefully only as an undegrad, and not the last one ever. Thanks Christine and Gladys for supporting you guys rock!!! And the other Immacers who have always gone since the beginning you guys are awesome. Truly felt His presence there. Amen, I do believe! Yay!
That Friday started off pretty bad just cause I was dead tired from my stuff that week. I woke up that Friday just thinking about how long that day was gonna be, physically and mentally drained from everything. I had work 9-11, Tagalog discussion 11-12, mandatory office hours 12-2, needed to finish work or else I would've gotten my ass whooped from 2-3, needed to study for my 4pm test from 3-4, took a test 4-5, decided to go back to the apt to pack for the retreat and showered 5-6, benefit prep time 6-7, benefit concert 7-11, left for pass vegas retreat 12midnight, didn't really get much sleep in the car, got there around 3:30, slept at around 4:30am. Wow.
PASS Vegas retreat was funtimes all the time of course. I love those crazy kids. Highlights: scotch tape, not really getting enough sleep on the way to vegas, pancakes, seafood buffet, hot tea, embarassing moments, fond memories, reverse gavel pass, magic mic all night, hot bedroom pics, "I can still see you!", "gum" stories, good talks, candy, mixed drinks, strip at 5am, freeezing weather, sleeping at 7am, steak and egss at 4pm, sleep all the way back. Goodtimes goodtimes.
And then there was Thanksgiving break! I was looking forward to seeing family since I haven't been home in two weeks. Can you believe that?!? Two whole weeks! Wow. I'm so cool. Haha. The cousins and grandparents were over the entire weekend. Of course we went shopping the whole day Friday. I feel like all I did was eat and go shopping. And sleep in between. Goodtimes. Of course there's always drama that comes with the family, so that sucked a little. It was also kinda sad to see my grandma so weak after getting out of the hospital. I'm not used to seeing her like that. It just makes me sad. But her condition is definitely bringing the family closer together. So I'm thankful for that. Just prayers for my grandma please.
Highlight of Thanksgiving weekend: The ladies (My lola, aunt, mom, me, sister, and two cousins) talking all night long after dinner on Saturday night, about the most random things. My mom of course was mostly the one yapping away about anything and everything. It was really fun just sitting there with them, talking and laughing and sharing stuff that we never really did before. I love my family soooo much I just wish it was always like that. That was a great way to end the weekend. Loved every minute of it.
So I thought I was a busy person. But I guess there's other people who are busier than me. Haha. It's all gud though. Sometimes I just wish there was more than 24 hours in a day so I could spend more time with those I really miss.
I have two finals this Thursday, and I haven't started studying. I'm pretty much screwed as always. So this week will be hell, and if you see me and I don't seem too happy, you'll know the reason why. Bleh.
Christmas/Birthday wishlist is coming up soon! If you're really dying to get me a gift right at this moment, feel free to contact me whenever. Otherwise, watch out for the wishlist either here or on my profile. That is all. Haha.
Yay I got pumpkin pie!!!
Time to go to class. Payce.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
I’m at work as usual. I realized I only blog when I’m at work. I’m not liking work very much these days. I actually got in trouble today. I’m really sad but not as much as I thought I would be. I knew something had to go wrong with my life. Haha.
These past couple weeks progressed from hell-ish to not so hell-ish. A couple weeks ago, I was so overwhelmed with everything, I just thought couldn’t handle it anymore. So I had a mini-breakdown during Rainbowfest in the middle of ring road. So that was a little embarrassing. I blame it on someone who just had to tell me the saddest news on the day I was already stressed out with life. Maraming salamat. And then later on that night I found out that my grandma was in the hospital. I think that was what finally triggered it. I was supposed to study for a midterm that night too, and I tried. But I did horribly bad. Oh well.
The following week was a little better. I don’t think I would’ve survived without everyone who have always been there for me. I took comfort from the simplest things that each and everyone of you have done for me. From making me laugh, to making me cry, even checking in to see wutsup. That’s where I find Him, and that’s when I’m most happy.
My long weekend was actually pretty fun. Friday I went to JFAV (Justice for Filipino-American Veterans). That was the first time I went, and it was so awesome to see so many young people fighting for a cause, not for their own benefit, but for the benefit of the Filipino veterans who sacrificed so much for this country. Saw an old friend who I haven’t seen since welcome week, who needs to cut his hair and not be awkward. Haha.
Friday night was the Liwanag sleepover. That was another goodtimes. I wish I had more energy to stay up and bond with the homies, but I was just too tired I knocked out. I actually got a pretty goodnight sleep. I wish I always woke up to those crazy kids singing. Then I would always start my day with a smile.
Saturday, got back to the apartment, and then had to go meet up for a group project around noon. I wasn’t really focusing the whole time coz I was too excited for PUSO’s Medical Mission Gala that night. Haha. Oh well.
So Saturday night was gala! It was awesome possum times all the time. And I could honestly say, it was waaaaay funner than both junior and senior prom combined. I swear. Actually maybe just junior prom. Hahaha. Whatever. I had fun. Thanks to the awesome promdate for being such a gentleman sometimes and for the much awaited flower. Even though you didn’t top my roomate’s date’s flowers. I actually wanted lilies, but now you know that for next time. Haha JK geez I’m over it. First of all, firstly…can we just?
Sunday was bleh. Monday started out bleh, but got a little better later on. Tuesday was confession night and PCN workshops. Yay I’m doing Kordilyera. So exciting. I don’t know what I got myself into, but we’ll see how it works out.
So last night was my second time going to confession with Father John Francis. He told me something that I didn’t think would come from him. But it made me feel better. Thanks father for saying the right words at the right moment.
Dude I had so much more to blog about but I forgot. I need to be productive now. I wonder when my next entry will be. Anyone wanna guess? I’ll give you a cookie.
Random thought of the day…
Have you ever fallen asleep with someone, wake up in the morning only to find that they’re gone, leaving you there like a cheap hooker? It already happened to me twice in the span of one month. This has got to stop.
These past couple weeks progressed from hell-ish to not so hell-ish. A couple weeks ago, I was so overwhelmed with everything, I just thought couldn’t handle it anymore. So I had a mini-breakdown during Rainbowfest in the middle of ring road. So that was a little embarrassing. I blame it on someone who just had to tell me the saddest news on the day I was already stressed out with life. Maraming salamat. And then later on that night I found out that my grandma was in the hospital. I think that was what finally triggered it. I was supposed to study for a midterm that night too, and I tried. But I did horribly bad. Oh well.
The following week was a little better. I don’t think I would’ve survived without everyone who have always been there for me. I took comfort from the simplest things that each and everyone of you have done for me. From making me laugh, to making me cry, even checking in to see wutsup. That’s where I find Him, and that’s when I’m most happy.
My long weekend was actually pretty fun. Friday I went to JFAV (Justice for Filipino-American Veterans). That was the first time I went, and it was so awesome to see so many young people fighting for a cause, not for their own benefit, but for the benefit of the Filipino veterans who sacrificed so much for this country. Saw an old friend who I haven’t seen since welcome week, who needs to cut his hair and not be awkward. Haha.
Friday night was the Liwanag sleepover. That was another goodtimes. I wish I had more energy to stay up and bond with the homies, but I was just too tired I knocked out. I actually got a pretty goodnight sleep. I wish I always woke up to those crazy kids singing. Then I would always start my day with a smile.
Saturday, got back to the apartment, and then had to go meet up for a group project around noon. I wasn’t really focusing the whole time coz I was too excited for PUSO’s Medical Mission Gala that night. Haha. Oh well.
So Saturday night was gala! It was awesome possum times all the time. And I could honestly say, it was waaaaay funner than both junior and senior prom combined. I swear. Actually maybe just junior prom. Hahaha. Whatever. I had fun. Thanks to the awesome promdate for being such a gentleman sometimes and for the much awaited flower. Even though you didn’t top my roomate’s date’s flowers. I actually wanted lilies, but now you know that for next time. Haha JK geez I’m over it. First of all, firstly…can we just?
Sunday was bleh. Monday started out bleh, but got a little better later on. Tuesday was confession night and PCN workshops. Yay I’m doing Kordilyera. So exciting. I don’t know what I got myself into, but we’ll see how it works out.
So last night was my second time going to confession with Father John Francis. He told me something that I didn’t think would come from him. But it made me feel better. Thanks father for saying the right words at the right moment.
Dude I had so much more to blog about but I forgot. I need to be productive now. I wonder when my next entry will be. Anyone wanna guess? I’ll give you a cookie.
Random thought of the day…
Have you ever fallen asleep with someone, wake up in the morning only to find that they’re gone, leaving you there like a cheap hooker? It already happened to me twice in the span of one month. This has got to stop.
Monday, October 24, 2005
Awesome awesome past week! It was my chill week believe it or not, since I only had one test and one essay to do. And I was quite productive the weekend I was here so I didn't have to do much the whole week. This week though, is not gonna be so chill. Even though my boss isn't here for the whole week (come visit me! SEI room 226!) she left me a bunch of stuff to do. Two midterms and Tagalog tests to correct. So fun!
Last Thursday I was studying for my stats test on Friday. But of course, what did I do after? I went to D&B's for Pia's birthday. Awesometimes. Haha. Thanks Pam and Rob for driving! I did okai on the test. I hope. If I didn't, then oh well. My bad. Then on Friday went to Octoberfest for a little bit, chilled with the homies, cooked chicken for the homies, and then went to Knotts Scary Farm for the first time ever. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be, but then maybe it was coz there were too many people that night. I had my scary moments though so goodtimes. Got home home preeeeetty late. Like 5am late. Thank god parents were already sleeping. I don't think they heard me come in. If they did I wouldn't have seen the light of day. Thanks again Jeff!
My whole weekend was semi-productive. I was so tired from Friday night I couldn't really function the rest of the weekend. But it's all gud coz I needed it before it gets crazy this week. Yaaayuh.
I've been having identity issues. I mean cultural identity. I would blog about it but I don't think anyone would understand. I mean I don't even understand what's going on with me. I'm so confused. Haha. Ahh wutever I'll blog about it when I could actually articulate it.
So I was talking to Christine about the cycle that I'm so tired of going through. You know, the cycle. When it happens, it starts messing with your head. You think it's something, but then it's really nothing. I hate that. Why should I even bother starting? Why, Cressa, why?!?!? So dumb.
Oh btw roomates, another one of my highs last night was our highs and lows talk. I love you guys.
So to make this post a little bit more longer and pointless, here's a survey:
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at?
My hair. I go ooooh when I just woke up coz I like my hair when I just woke up. After I wash it it's bo-ring.
2. How much cash do you have on you?
Five dollahs. I don't like carrying cash so that's a lot of cash for me.
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST":
Chest?
4. Favorite planet
The earth.
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell?
My sister
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?
It's called digital signal and it goes...tananannnanananaanananaanaannn. And then there's a moaning sound in the end that goes uuuugggh. I'm serious.
7. What shirt are you wearing?
Light blue AE sweater that I got from roomate Christine.
8. Do you "label" yourself?
Yes, dumb girl.
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing:
Moss. (Wannabe Rainbows from Target).
10. Bright or Dark Room?
Dark. Even when I'm reading.
11. What do you think of the person who posted this before you?
I've seen roomate's first and she's aaaaayt.
12. Ever "spilled the beans"?
Oh was I not supposed to?
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Prolly watching tv with Rona and David. Or chillen with them outside. Or having fun roommate talks. I forget what time those things happened.
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?
"i dont know where she is but eryone said dat the flier says ht starts at 7 but ders no end time"
15. Do you click on pop ups?
No, but my mom does.
16. What's a saying that you say a lot?
Apparently it's....aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhmmmmmmm.
17. Who told you they loved you last?
My mommy
18. Last furry thing you touched?
I guess I would have to say my panda too.
19. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
I have this disposable camera that I've had for two years now and I've totally neglected it since I got a digital. Sorry hi-tech.
20. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days?
None
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
I've enjoyed 14, 18, 19, and 21 so far.
22. Your worst enemy?
Carbs.
23. What is your current desktop picture?
Liwanag first meeting of the year.
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"You don't be stupid too."
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?
A million bucks. I need a cool new sweater and jeans. And a car. I've always wanted a truck. A big one. And Carolina Herrera Sexy 212 perfume. Hey, it's almost Christmas! Wishlist will come soon. Oh and of course I need money to buy all my loved ones presents. I don't think I've had any major regrets. Actually, maybe I do but I wouldn't really call them regrets. They're life experiences that I've learned a lot from.
26. Do you love/like someone?
Yes.
Oh btw I updated my pics.
www.photos.yahoo.com/cressa_dot_com
New pics: Dale's Bday, D&B's with the homie, Pia's Bday
See ya later kids.
Last Thursday I was studying for my stats test on Friday. But of course, what did I do after? I went to D&B's for Pia's birthday. Awesometimes. Haha. Thanks Pam and Rob for driving! I did okai on the test. I hope. If I didn't, then oh well. My bad. Then on Friday went to Octoberfest for a little bit, chilled with the homies, cooked chicken for the homies, and then went to Knotts Scary Farm for the first time ever. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be, but then maybe it was coz there were too many people that night. I had my scary moments though so goodtimes. Got home home preeeeetty late. Like 5am late. Thank god parents were already sleeping. I don't think they heard me come in. If they did I wouldn't have seen the light of day. Thanks again Jeff!
My whole weekend was semi-productive. I was so tired from Friday night I couldn't really function the rest of the weekend. But it's all gud coz I needed it before it gets crazy this week. Yaaayuh.
I've been having identity issues. I mean cultural identity. I would blog about it but I don't think anyone would understand. I mean I don't even understand what's going on with me. I'm so confused. Haha. Ahh wutever I'll blog about it when I could actually articulate it.
So I was talking to Christine about the cycle that I'm so tired of going through. You know, the cycle. When it happens, it starts messing with your head. You think it's something, but then it's really nothing. I hate that. Why should I even bother starting? Why, Cressa, why?!?!? So dumb.
Oh btw roomates, another one of my highs last night was our highs and lows talk. I love you guys.
So to make this post a little bit more longer and pointless, here's a survey:
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at?
My hair. I go ooooh when I just woke up coz I like my hair when I just woke up. After I wash it it's bo-ring.
2. How much cash do you have on you?
Five dollahs. I don't like carrying cash so that's a lot of cash for me.
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST":
Chest?
4. Favorite planet
The earth.
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell?
My sister
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?
It's called digital signal and it goes...tananannnanananaanananaanaannn. And then there's a moaning sound in the end that goes uuuugggh. I'm serious.
7. What shirt are you wearing?
Light blue AE sweater that I got from roomate Christine.
8. Do you "label" yourself?
Yes, dumb girl.
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing:
Moss. (Wannabe Rainbows from Target).
10. Bright or Dark Room?
Dark. Even when I'm reading.
11. What do you think of the person who posted this before you?
I've seen roomate's first and she's aaaaayt.
12. Ever "spilled the beans"?
Oh was I not supposed to?
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Prolly watching tv with Rona and David. Or chillen with them outside. Or having fun roommate talks. I forget what time those things happened.
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?
"i dont know where she is but eryone said dat the flier says ht starts at 7 but ders no end time"
15. Do you click on pop ups?
No, but my mom does.
16. What's a saying that you say a lot?
Apparently it's....aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhmmmmmmm.
17. Who told you they loved you last?
My mommy
18. Last furry thing you touched?
I guess I would have to say my panda too.
19. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
I have this disposable camera that I've had for two years now and I've totally neglected it since I got a digital. Sorry hi-tech.
20. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days?
None
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
I've enjoyed 14, 18, 19, and 21 so far.
22. Your worst enemy?
Carbs.
23. What is your current desktop picture?
Liwanag first meeting of the year.
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"You don't be stupid too."
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?
A million bucks. I need a cool new sweater and jeans. And a car. I've always wanted a truck. A big one. And Carolina Herrera Sexy 212 perfume. Hey, it's almost Christmas! Wishlist will come soon. Oh and of course I need money to buy all my loved ones presents. I don't think I've had any major regrets. Actually, maybe I do but I wouldn't really call them regrets. They're life experiences that I've learned a lot from.
26. Do you love/like someone?
Yes.
Oh btw I updated my pics.
www.photos.yahoo.com/cressa_dot_com
New pics: Dale's Bday, D&B's with the homie, Pia's Bday
See ya later kids.
