Thursday, Nov 6
Busy day once again. I met my kasama family and theyre all cool! Too bad I couldn't go to the kaba meeting and hooters coz I went to Sierra assertiveness training for the youngns. Yih party room in 101 is da bomb! Hahaha. Funtimes with my Sierra family. So got home at about 10.. theeen i thought I was goin to bed early...but noooo. Chilled with Liwanag of course! Thanx to Cristina for picking us up...u da bomb. We were jus chillen in Interfaith then decided to go to Turtle Rock. Awesome place. Despite the ghost stories and me missing the shooting star, I had an amazing time. Fun talks and stufffff like det...mhmmm. I wana go back there! Who's down? No? Fine. So we jus chilled at the Interfaith parking lot afterwards, and jus had random talks. Random is fun. All the time. Got home about 3 i think. Toooo tired.
Friday, Nov 7
So I was in the Social Ecology I building that afternoon about to go to work. I was waiting for the elevator for the longest time, and when it finally opened two cops came out. There was a lady behind me who told the cops, "He went that way towards the dean's office. I'm not sure if he's still there. He was this tall, this kind of hair, this kind of shirt, blahblahblah." She was basically describing some man who was apparently some psycho dude wandering around the building. The lady cop interrupted her as if the description she was giving was useless info, and the cop's first question was, "Color?" I stopped and looked at that cop and she seemed to think that her question was the smartest question she could ask. I just went in the elevator, frustrated for some reason, and went to work disturbed.
So newaaaaaaaaaays this is what happened Friday nite...
I was supposed to go to commons with Rona, Alisa, and David coz it's buy one meal get one free on Froidays. They've been planning that since iono when so I said I would go. But then, Kathleen called me and asked if I wana chill with Liwanag people at Island's. So of course, why would I not want to? It's Liwanag! I was thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking. Then I thought some more. Part of me thought it would be rilly sad if I ditched roomies and David. The other part of me thought that I see roomies n them everyday neway and I don't think they'd mind. So I decided to go to Islands. I'M SORRY TO ROOMIES N DAVID! Even though I know you guys didn't rilly care, I pretended that u did neways. Hahaha. Chillen with Liwanag people is always fun. Fun birthday dinner for Leo haha. Thank you guys for a fun dinner! got back here early so that I could still chill with roomies n them. Sorry for not being able to go to the Cerritos vigil...I would've gone if I didn't feel too guilty about ditching people.
Ended up having a Newport sleepover with Alisa, Dale, David, and Rona. Shopped for junk food, drove around looking for a vcr, rented Candyman, and all that other fun stuff. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. I just need to stay away from mirrors thats all. So that's good. But it'd be a fun date movie. Yihaa. Slept at about 3 I think, on a semi-comfy couch thing.
Saturday, Nov 8
Had to be back at the apt by 10am to get ready for fun beach day with the mentees. Dragged David, Rona, and Alisa out of bed yaay. Got picked up by Shermaine, headed to Amy's house to get the food, then off to Corona del Mar. Got lost, but its all gud. I'm always lost. Got there and the weather was perfect. It was amazing. We thought it was going to rain today too, but I guess someone's been watches over us and just wants us to have fun. Thank you for the beautiful weather! I just cant emphasize enough how perfect it was outside. I was just laying there, feeling the nice breeze and the warmth of the sun. I love it. It was also fun seeing our mentees having a good time. They were having good bonding times with each other and I thought that was amazing. Just to see them have fun makes me happy and content. Good beach outing turnout!
So now, I'm just here chillen like a villain. Rona, Alisa, and David ditched me coz I deserve it. I guess I'm stuck with roomie again. *sigh* Haha jk. Perhaps another heart to heart talk will happen. Dude I'm tired of thinking about this sshhhtuff. Why can't everything just be perfect? Dudeness.
Okai now I know wut happened saturday...
So GP and Francia were bored and hungry so we decided to go to Paul's Place to eat some greek/mexican/american food. It was me, Chelle, GP, Francia, and Mel. Despite the snails/ slugs it was perty fun there. I liked my Chicken Mushroom Sadwich and the fried mushrooms. That was yummay. Then they decided to go to Jei's house which is approximately 12 minutes away from the freeway (is det rite?) and we jus sang along the songs in Beauty and the Beast, took quizzes and I found out I'm Mrs. Potts, and played musical games. Bwaahaa. Got home perty early and slept. Woohoo.
Thursday, November 06, 2003
Monday night was a night full of emotions poured out, deep feelingsrevealed, fears and dreams shared, along with both sad and happy tears. It wasn't as much as a depressing session than it was a therapy session, where two people were brave enough to let it all out, without hesitation, but definitely a whole lot more of understanding for each
other. I'm not even sure how it all started, but whatever it was, I knew that me and my roomie both needed that moment.
You never know what someone's really feeling until they open up to you and everything is just said. As roomie says, sometimes you just have to take a moment and ask someone if he or she is really doing okai. Sometimes you get a good, simple answer. Other times, you get the real answer. The real answer is never simple, but is always truthful.
When I look at my life, I realize how much blessings I have received through the years that I have completely taken for granted. I've been too busy asking God for what I don't have, blaming Him for every bad thing that has happened to me, without even taking the time to stop and thank Him for what I do have in my life right now. There are times when I feel as though life is not worth living, simply because of all the heartaches that I feel at times. I realized how selfish it is of me to think that way. It is selfish of me to think that I have nothing, when in reality, I have more than I could ever imagine.
Father Pat once said, people may not remember you by your face or your name, but they will always remember how you made them feel (is that rite? well it was sumtin like det). I'm lucky enough to have experienced these people in my life. I don't even know why I deserve such wonderful people in my life. All I know is that they are all the answers to my prayers.
I know I haven’t been there for people when they needed me the most, and I regret that. I’ve been too busy to care about anything but my own little world. I’m sorry. I guess right now my greatest fear would be to lose the people who I have grown to love. I don't know what that would feel like, and I don't ever want to know. I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry for running away. But I'm here now. I'll always be here.
Man… this is one random blog. I don’t know if I made sense at all, but it’s what I’ve been thinking about lately. I haven’t blogged like this in a while, and it feels good to be able to write like this again. More to come laterrrrrr. Payce.
Ooohhh thanx to roomie, Gladys, and Tsai for a fun girls nite out. Man we're pathetic.
And yay to Cristina, GP, and Leo for visiting us on Monday. You guys are awesome. Come visit us again! Please? Haha.
other. I'm not even sure how it all started, but whatever it was, I knew that me and my roomie both needed that moment.
You never know what someone's really feeling until they open up to you and everything is just said. As roomie says, sometimes you just have to take a moment and ask someone if he or she is really doing okai. Sometimes you get a good, simple answer. Other times, you get the real answer. The real answer is never simple, but is always truthful.
When I look at my life, I realize how much blessings I have received through the years that I have completely taken for granted. I've been too busy asking God for what I don't have, blaming Him for every bad thing that has happened to me, without even taking the time to stop and thank Him for what I do have in my life right now. There are times when I feel as though life is not worth living, simply because of all the heartaches that I feel at times. I realized how selfish it is of me to think that way. It is selfish of me to think that I have nothing, when in reality, I have more than I could ever imagine.
Father Pat once said, people may not remember you by your face or your name, but they will always remember how you made them feel (is that rite? well it was sumtin like det). I'm lucky enough to have experienced these people in my life. I don't even know why I deserve such wonderful people in my life. All I know is that they are all the answers to my prayers.
I know I haven’t been there for people when they needed me the most, and I regret that. I’ve been too busy to care about anything but my own little world. I’m sorry. I guess right now my greatest fear would be to lose the people who I have grown to love. I don't know what that would feel like, and I don't ever want to know. I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry for running away. But I'm here now. I'll always be here.
Man… this is one random blog. I don’t know if I made sense at all, but it’s what I’ve been thinking about lately. I haven’t blogged like this in a while, and it feels good to be able to write like this again. More to come laterrrrrr. Payce.
Ooohhh thanx to roomie, Gladys, and Tsai for a fun girls nite out. Man we're pathetic.
And yay to Cristina, GP, and Leo for visiting us on Monday. You guys are awesome. Come visit us again! Please? Haha.
Sunday, November 02, 2003
Reasons why i realized that sleep is not as important as i thought:
tuesday, oct 28
studied for two friggin midterms and prepared a presentation. guess wut time i slept! coz i dont know.
wednesday, oct 29
had a paper due the next day. soooooo basically did that the whole nite. had printer problems so that took another hour. so wut time did i sleep? hmmm...im not quite sure
thursday, oct 30
so i thought this was my fun sleepytime nite. but that all changed wen i got a fonecall...it went sumtin like this...
me: hey wutsup
cristina: hey wut r u doing tonite
me (thinking she was gona ask if i wana go to a bday surprise): hmm...nuttin i guess.
cristina: wut does ur schedule look like tomorrow
me: uhm...i have a 9am class
cristina: maan rilly
me: why wutsup
cristina: well we wana go to vegas
me: oh...wen?
cristina: in 30 minutes
me: oh crap....hmmm...:me thinking hard:...
*after some talking and convinvcing and stuff*
me: okai me n rona r down
cristina: cressa n rona r going!..okai we'll come get u.
so there yah go. we left around 8pm...it was gp, francia, leo, me, angie, rona, and cristina. interesting ride going over there...fun drivingtimes (sumtimes)...fun car rules...fun games (sumtimes)...fun hesperia (pronounced hes-pee-ria…not hes-pe-ria)…we got there I think around midnite. rona needed a potty break so i went with her to the bathroom...where she ended up going into stall with an old lady in it. BWAAAAAAAAAAHA. that was funnie. so neways we were jus walkin around...did the ocean's eleven ending with the walking away from the water thing. bwaaahaa. then gp n francia wanted to go to excalibur and gamble so the youngns just kicked it somewhere in there...more interesting fun times...gp ended up losing more than he withdrawed from the atm...sadnesss...so we decided to eat..but there were no open buffets around...so we jus went to stateline and me n rona ate our tiny sausages n uglee eggs and pancakes in a big ass plate. bwaaaaha. we ended up giving our flipina waitress a big tip...without giving our other waiter any. that wasnt good. so we headed back home and had more fun singing games n stuff like det. i was too tired so i was kinda falling asleep but everyone else seemed too hyper still. but eventuallly everyone got tired.
friday, oct 31
we got back from vegas around 8:30am. thanx liwanag people for a memorable thursday nite! u guys are awesome! so then i took a quick shower and then rushed to my 9am class. i was kinda late but i still made it. after that i had to go to the post office to get money order, then i went to the bookstore to get me a sweatshirt, then went to my 11am class...12:30 class...2pm class...3-pm work. DUDENESS. i did all of this without naps or nething. well i was falling asleep in my lectures but those dont count. i cant believe i went to all my classes. im so cool. haha jk. i jus hate missing class. im a nerd like that. so i went back to the apt and i jus needed to crash. so took a 45minute nap. then im off to monster massive.
it was me, david, jay, arnie, and a bunch of arnie's buddies. we got to the rave around 9pm i think. it was my first rave so everything was new to me. it was interesting. i didnt drop so thats gud. i think. haha. ooh and dale n george were there too. and tall tiff and her friends. and a whole bunch oh uci people. so i dint rilly know how to dance to that kind of stuff and i was feelin kinda awkward. but then later on i felt like i was rollin too and i was getting high off sleep deprivation...or maybe it was because of all the stuff that i was inhaling around me...wutever it was there was point where i felt that i didnt care about nething...no worries...no nothing...jus dancing. interesting times. but then later on i rilly felt the tiredness and i couldnt stand the smoke n everything. so i went home with dale and george. dropped off george then me n dale got lee's sandwiches. yummmmy. had fun times with dale....aaww dale and his promiscuous ways. bwahahhaa. so got back around 4am...had to wake up chelle coz i dint have my keys on me (sorry roomiee). had insect surprises like a spider and a big ass cockroach. is that how u spell that? neways finally slept around 5...way too tired.
saturday, nov 1
woke up around 2pm...practically wasted half a day. did nothing at all. jus sat around n ate. sad fone conversation. david came over to drop off my purse and chilled for a lil bit then had to kick him out coz its group date time with cristina. woohoo. it was me, chelle, cristina, maritess, jason and francia...kfc dinner and a movie; life of david gale. interesting movie. i liked that. so we jus watched n chilled and finally got home around 1 sumtin. and then slept. dayum it felt so good to sleep so early. thanx cristina for picking us up! and thanx to maritess for bringing us home!
sunday, nov 2
woke up around 1pm. man that was the best sleep ive had since iont even know. and now its time to be productive. i think. ionow. we'll see. ooh thanx to chelle's dad tito dennis for cooking us some fried rice, eggs, and spam!
oh and happy birthday to tc and leo today!
so thats my sleep deprived week. u can actually survive without sleeping for how many days. yeahp its fun. especially those delirious moments. its like heaven. bwahaha jk. i think i should go back to sleep. sleep is good...sleep is fun....sleep is great...sleep is my best friend...sleep is awesome...sleep is alkjsaldasm,n,ab,moqi.....ZZzzzZZZzzZZ
tuesday, oct 28
studied for two friggin midterms and prepared a presentation. guess wut time i slept! coz i dont know.
wednesday, oct 29
had a paper due the next day. soooooo basically did that the whole nite. had printer problems so that took another hour. so wut time did i sleep? hmmm...im not quite sure
thursday, oct 30
so i thought this was my fun sleepytime nite. but that all changed wen i got a fonecall...it went sumtin like this...
me: hey wutsup
cristina: hey wut r u doing tonite
me (thinking she was gona ask if i wana go to a bday surprise): hmm...nuttin i guess.
cristina: wut does ur schedule look like tomorrow
me: uhm...i have a 9am class
cristina: maan rilly
me: why wutsup
cristina: well we wana go to vegas
me: oh...wen?
cristina: in 30 minutes
me: oh crap....hmmm...:me thinking hard:...
*after some talking and convinvcing and stuff*
me: okai me n rona r down
cristina: cressa n rona r going!..okai we'll come get u.
so there yah go. we left around 8pm...it was gp, francia, leo, me, angie, rona, and cristina. interesting ride going over there...fun drivingtimes (sumtimes)...fun car rules...fun games (sumtimes)...fun hesperia (pronounced hes-pee-ria…not hes-pe-ria)…we got there I think around midnite. rona needed a potty break so i went with her to the bathroom...where she ended up going into stall with an old lady in it. BWAAAAAAAAAAHA. that was funnie. so neways we were jus walkin around...did the ocean's eleven ending with the walking away from the water thing. bwaaahaa. then gp n francia wanted to go to excalibur and gamble so the youngns just kicked it somewhere in there...more interesting fun times...gp ended up losing more than he withdrawed from the atm...sadnesss...so we decided to eat..but there were no open buffets around...so we jus went to stateline and me n rona ate our tiny sausages n uglee eggs and pancakes in a big ass plate. bwaaaaha. we ended up giving our flipina waitress a big tip...without giving our other waiter any. that wasnt good. so we headed back home and had more fun singing games n stuff like det. i was too tired so i was kinda falling asleep but everyone else seemed too hyper still. but eventuallly everyone got tired.
friday, oct 31
we got back from vegas around 8:30am. thanx liwanag people for a memorable thursday nite! u guys are awesome! so then i took a quick shower and then rushed to my 9am class. i was kinda late but i still made it. after that i had to go to the post office to get money order, then i went to the bookstore to get me a sweatshirt, then went to my 11am class...12:30 class...2pm class...3-pm work. DUDENESS. i did all of this without naps or nething. well i was falling asleep in my lectures but those dont count. i cant believe i went to all my classes. im so cool. haha jk. i jus hate missing class. im a nerd like that. so i went back to the apt and i jus needed to crash. so took a 45minute nap. then im off to monster massive.
it was me, david, jay, arnie, and a bunch of arnie's buddies. we got to the rave around 9pm i think. it was my first rave so everything was new to me. it was interesting. i didnt drop so thats gud. i think. haha. ooh and dale n george were there too. and tall tiff and her friends. and a whole bunch oh uci people. so i dint rilly know how to dance to that kind of stuff and i was feelin kinda awkward. but then later on i felt like i was rollin too and i was getting high off sleep deprivation...or maybe it was because of all the stuff that i was inhaling around me...wutever it was there was point where i felt that i didnt care about nething...no worries...no nothing...jus dancing. interesting times. but then later on i rilly felt the tiredness and i couldnt stand the smoke n everything. so i went home with dale and george. dropped off george then me n dale got lee's sandwiches. yummmmy. had fun times with dale....aaww dale and his promiscuous ways. bwahahhaa. so got back around 4am...had to wake up chelle coz i dint have my keys on me (sorry roomiee). had insect surprises like a spider and a big ass cockroach. is that how u spell that? neways finally slept around 5...way too tired.
saturday, nov 1
woke up around 2pm...practically wasted half a day. did nothing at all. jus sat around n ate. sad fone conversation. david came over to drop off my purse and chilled for a lil bit then had to kick him out coz its group date time with cristina. woohoo. it was me, chelle, cristina, maritess, jason and francia...kfc dinner and a movie; life of david gale. interesting movie. i liked that. so we jus watched n chilled and finally got home around 1 sumtin. and then slept. dayum it felt so good to sleep so early. thanx cristina for picking us up! and thanx to maritess for bringing us home!
sunday, nov 2
woke up around 1pm. man that was the best sleep ive had since iont even know. and now its time to be productive. i think. ionow. we'll see. ooh thanx to chelle's dad tito dennis for cooking us some fried rice, eggs, and spam!
oh and happy birthday to tc and leo today!
so thats my sleep deprived week. u can actually survive without sleeping for how many days. yeahp its fun. especially those delirious moments. its like heaven. bwahaha jk. i think i should go back to sleep. sleep is good...sleep is fun....sleep is great...sleep is my best friend...sleep is awesome...sleep is alkjsaldasm,n,ab,moqi.....ZZzzzZZZzzZZ
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
stupid midterms. who invented midterms neway? man. sux to be me. but newayssssss...today was my typical busiest day...wednesday. its okai tho coz i wasnt as tired as i expected to be (since i dint sleep that well last nite). but the fun isnt over yet. paper due tomorrow. yesssss.
i would blog more about stuff but ill jus stick with the random song for the day. maybe ill blog again in a lil bit. peace.
Warrior Is A Child
Gary V.
Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
Unafraid because His armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
i would blog more about stuff but ill jus stick with the random song for the day. maybe ill blog again in a lil bit. peace.
Warrior Is A Child
Gary V.
Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
Unafraid because His armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
hardcore week this week: two midterms wednesday and an article to talk about...essay thursday....sholarship essays by this weekend. im too tired.
so lately ive been rilly busy and always tired, but i like it coz it better boredom. im happy becoz i got wut i wished and prayed for...to be busy haha. its kind of a funny thing to wish for i know, but i have my reasons. its jus that wenever im not busy, i feel so useless and depressed coz i start thinking about things that make me even sadder. so being busy is gud becoz it means no worries....haha sorry if im not making sense.
im liking life rite now. i feel rilly happy wen im surrounded with people i love and enjoy spending time with. sumtimes i feel that i dont deserve all these awesome people in my life. i guess i can say im enjoying irvine, and i just wish everything can be perfect all the time. but i know it cant.
so lately ive been rilly busy and always tired, but i like it coz it better boredom. im happy becoz i got wut i wished and prayed for...to be busy haha. its kind of a funny thing to wish for i know, but i have my reasons. its jus that wenever im not busy, i feel so useless and depressed coz i start thinking about things that make me even sadder. so being busy is gud becoz it means no worries....haha sorry if im not making sense.
im liking life rite now. i feel rilly happy wen im surrounded with people i love and enjoy spending time with. sumtimes i feel that i dont deserve all these awesome people in my life. i guess i can say im enjoying irvine, and i just wish everything can be perfect all the time. but i know it cant.
Saturday, October 18, 2003
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah i jus lost the post i wrote demnit! lets try to rewrite...
yay im blogging! finally! im gona try to update it more often now becoz i wana be cool like everyone else. yaaaay! so heres my life so far...
SCHOOL
im doing better than i expected! i got a nine out of ten in my first math quiz (when i thought i was gona get a 1) and i participated in my women's studies discussion (cookie for me) and ive been doing my readings (sumtoimes). school is cool. so far.
WORK
so ive been looking for a job since summer. but no one wanted me so i dint have a job...until this week! i went on four interviews and i got three job offers =). just wen i thought i was some useless piece of $#@!...they call me and tell me they wana hire me. :tears of joy: :sniff sniff snif:
WYSE (Women and Youth Supporting Each Other)
wyse is an orgnization that mentors twelve to fourteen yr old young girls. this year, im a mentor in the spurgeon middle school in santa ana. we've only been to two sessions with our girls and its been fun so far. we get to play games while getting to know them in a deeper level, so we can talk about issues that these girls need to be aware of (sex, drugs, family probs, school probs, peer pressure, future goals/plans, anything else). its kind of a weird feeling being somewhat of a "role model" for these girls coz i dont rilly feel worthy of being looked up to. sad but true. but ill still try.
ANNIV
happy fifteen months today. yehey.
FUN STUFF
sierra party here last nite. i volunteered to be the sober one (meaning the one who would have to deal with the cops in case they come knocking on our door) but i still had fun. it was nice to meet the adorable new sierrans and see old sierrans too. thanx to everyone who helped us fix up the apartment and clean and look after people and stuff like that. you know who you are. you're da bomb diggity.
LIWANAG (light of god)
i jus joined liwanag this year and i can already see how amazing these people are. i didnt think i was gona stick with it till i came to their meetings n bonfire n homeless outreach. these people are seriously the most welcoming group of people ive ever met. i cant even express how happy i am to be part of it. i jus wish i joined it earlier (but i couldnt coz of sierra class last year). theyre so awesome its not even funnie. haha. cristina n leo are the coolest directors this year. my tdg family (true disciples) rocks (go mom francha). and everyone else is great. liwanag is the coolest thing ever.
life does not suck as much as before. thank you god for listening to me =).
yay im blogging! finally! im gona try to update it more often now becoz i wana be cool like everyone else. yaaaay! so heres my life so far...
SCHOOL
im doing better than i expected! i got a nine out of ten in my first math quiz (when i thought i was gona get a 1) and i participated in my women's studies discussion (cookie for me) and ive been doing my readings (sumtoimes). school is cool. so far.
WORK
so ive been looking for a job since summer. but no one wanted me so i dint have a job...until this week! i went on four interviews and i got three job offers =). just wen i thought i was some useless piece of $#@!...they call me and tell me they wana hire me. :tears of joy: :sniff sniff snif:
WYSE (Women and Youth Supporting Each Other)
wyse is an orgnization that mentors twelve to fourteen yr old young girls. this year, im a mentor in the spurgeon middle school in santa ana. we've only been to two sessions with our girls and its been fun so far. we get to play games while getting to know them in a deeper level, so we can talk about issues that these girls need to be aware of (sex, drugs, family probs, school probs, peer pressure, future goals/plans, anything else). its kind of a weird feeling being somewhat of a "role model" for these girls coz i dont rilly feel worthy of being looked up to. sad but true. but ill still try.
ANNIV
happy fifteen months today. yehey.
FUN STUFF
sierra party here last nite. i volunteered to be the sober one (meaning the one who would have to deal with the cops in case they come knocking on our door) but i still had fun. it was nice to meet the adorable new sierrans and see old sierrans too. thanx to everyone who helped us fix up the apartment and clean and look after people and stuff like that. you know who you are. you're da bomb diggity.
LIWANAG (light of god)
i jus joined liwanag this year and i can already see how amazing these people are. i didnt think i was gona stick with it till i came to their meetings n bonfire n homeless outreach. these people are seriously the most welcoming group of people ive ever met. i cant even express how happy i am to be part of it. i jus wish i joined it earlier (but i couldnt coz of sierra class last year). theyre so awesome its not even funnie. haha. cristina n leo are the coolest directors this year. my tdg family (true disciples) rocks (go mom francha). and everyone else is great. liwanag is the coolest thing ever.
life does not suck as much as before. thank you god for listening to me =).
Monday, September 29, 2003
too many heartaches bottled up inside
i dont even wana bother let it all out coz it seems pointless
ill jus end up crying my eyes out
but hey theres jus some people who make it all better even for jus a short while
they dont know how much laughter means to me
it feels great
but sometimes
i jus need to do my own thing
i need to be stronger
i need faith
well...i need to chillax
but i cant
so wat am i supposed to do?
i don't know
maybe i should cry some more
haha
nope
i need to hold on and believe
yeah rite
thats bullshit
wutever
ionow
we'll see wut happens
rite now
i jus need to do my shit
that's all
gnite
i dont even wana bother let it all out coz it seems pointless
ill jus end up crying my eyes out
but hey theres jus some people who make it all better even for jus a short while
they dont know how much laughter means to me
it feels great
but sometimes
i jus need to do my own thing
i need to be stronger
i need faith
well...i need to chillax
but i cant
so wat am i supposed to do?
i don't know
maybe i should cry some more
haha
nope
i need to hold on and believe
yeah rite
thats bullshit
wutever
ionow
we'll see wut happens
rite now
i jus need to do my shit
that's all
gnite
Saturday, September 13, 2003
Think Of Me
by Mark Schultz & Rachel Lampa
Packing my bag this morning was the hardest thing to do,
But packing my bag was so easy compared to standing outside your door
right now to say goodbye,
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry,
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye,
Think of me...
what can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
I know that it feels like leaving
is a part of letting go
But I'm praying with hope and believing
That I'll see you once again down this road
I hope that it won't be long
Think of me...
I know God brought you as a friend,
Think of me...
I know he'll bring you back again,
Think of me...
What can I say to show you,
I"ll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye
Think of me...
What can I say to show you
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
by Mark Schultz & Rachel Lampa
Packing my bag this morning was the hardest thing to do,
But packing my bag was so easy compared to standing outside your door
right now to say goodbye,
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry,
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye,
Think of me...
what can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
I know that it feels like leaving
is a part of letting go
But I'm praying with hope and believing
That I'll see you once again down this road
I hope that it won't be long
Think of me...
I know God brought you as a friend,
Think of me...
I know he'll bring you back again,
Think of me...
What can I say to show you,
I"ll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye
Think of me...
What can I say to show you
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
Sunday, August 10, 2003
Sunday, August 03, 2003
Saturday, July 19, 2003
Thursday, July 03, 2003
Monday, June 30, 2003
Convo of the day with Chelle:
i am meechy keen (5:43:40 PM): i hate this summer
Buthafly (5:44:45 PM): i know it sux
Buthafly (5:44:51 PM): theres nuttin to do
i am meechy keen (5:44:56 PM): seriously
i am meechy keen (5:45:00 PM): i have NO:
i am meechy keen (5:45:02 PM): job
i am meechy keen (5:45:09 PM): fun
i am meechy keen (5:45:12 PM): books
i am meechy keen (5:45:15 PM): license
i am meechy keen (5:45:16 PM): boy
i am meechy keen (5:45:20 PM): sleep
i am meechy keen (5:45:28 PM): food
i am meechy keen (5:45:39 PM): even though i shouldnt have the food
i am meechy keen (5:45:40 PM): lol
i am meechy keen (5:45:43 PM): NO:
i am meechy keen (5:45:45 PM): gym
i am meechy keen (5:45:49 PM): money
i am meechy keen (5:45:52 PM): man o man
i am meechy keen (5:45:55 PM): i have nothing
i am meechy keen (5:45:56 PM): nothing
i am meechy keen (5:45:57 PM): nothing
Buthafly (5:46:02 PM): bwhahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaha
i am meechy keen (5:46:05 PM): if i dont have u
i am meechy keen (5:43:40 PM): i hate this summer
Buthafly (5:44:45 PM): i know it sux
Buthafly (5:44:51 PM): theres nuttin to do
i am meechy keen (5:44:56 PM): seriously
i am meechy keen (5:45:00 PM): i have NO:
i am meechy keen (5:45:02 PM): job
i am meechy keen (5:45:09 PM): fun
i am meechy keen (5:45:12 PM): books
i am meechy keen (5:45:15 PM): license
i am meechy keen (5:45:16 PM): boy
i am meechy keen (5:45:20 PM): sleep
i am meechy keen (5:45:28 PM): food
i am meechy keen (5:45:39 PM): even though i shouldnt have the food
i am meechy keen (5:45:40 PM): lol
i am meechy keen (5:45:43 PM): NO:
i am meechy keen (5:45:45 PM): gym
i am meechy keen (5:45:49 PM): money
i am meechy keen (5:45:52 PM): man o man
i am meechy keen (5:45:55 PM): i have nothing
i am meechy keen (5:45:56 PM): nothing
i am meechy keen (5:45:57 PM): nothing
Buthafly (5:46:02 PM): bwhahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaha
i am meechy keen (5:46:05 PM): if i dont have u
Monday, June 23, 2003
Thursday, June 19, 2003
And yes, I'm still alive!
the last few weeks of school have been crazy. foinals and all that crap: over!
the very last week of school was fun interesting toimes all the toime. yeaaahp. fun interesting toimes indeed.
move out day was the worst day. sierra has been one of the greatest things that has happened to me, and leaving was one of the hardest things i've ever done. i'll miss you all. we need to party hardcore next yr!
so neways, this summer i wana be productive. summer school, summer job, volunteer. yeahp thats roite. u think i can do it? of course i can. i think. we'll see.
the last few weeks of school have been crazy. foinals and all that crap: over!
the very last week of school was fun interesting toimes all the toime. yeaaahp. fun interesting toimes indeed.
move out day was the worst day. sierra has been one of the greatest things that has happened to me, and leaving was one of the hardest things i've ever done. i'll miss you all. we need to party hardcore next yr!
so neways, this summer i wana be productive. summer school, summer job, volunteer. yeahp thats roite. u think i can do it? of course i can. i think. we'll see.
Saturday, May 03, 2003
Complicated Melody
by
India Arie
If he were a color
He'd be a deep dark forest green
If he were a car
He'd be a long stretch limousine
With room for all of humanity inside
Cause he is so giving
And he is so wise
If he were a number
He'd be a five
Cause he has such a brilliant mind
If he were an animal
He'd be an ass
Cause he's so stubborn sometime
But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key
But he means the world to me
If he were a building
He'd be a beautiful cathedral
Cause he's so traditionally spiritual
If he were a dance
He'd be complicated like the tango
Exotic like a mango
But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key
But he means the world to me
He ain't the reason for the sun and the moon
He is just the reason for this here tune
Cause he means the world to me
Said he means the world to me
Me me me yeah
He means the world to me yeah
Complicated melody that complicated fellow he
He's complicated melody
I almost cannot sing it on key
__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
My Mother Taught Me...
1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE . "If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."
2. My mother taught me RELIGION. "You better pray that will come out of the carpet."
3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL . "If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"
4. My mother taught me LOGIC. "Because I said so, that's why."
5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC. "If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."
6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT. "Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."
7. My mother taught me IRONY. "Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."
8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS. "Shut your mouth and eat your supper."
9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM . "Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"
10. My mother taught me about PATIENCE. "You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."
11. My mother taught me about WEATHER. "This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."
12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY. "If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"
13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE. "I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."
14.My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION . "Stop acting like your father!"
15. My mother taught me about ENVY. "There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."
16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION. " Just wait until we get home."
17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING. "You are going to get it when you get home!"
18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE. "If you don't stop crossing your eyes, They are going to freeze that way."
19. My mother taught me ESP . "Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"
20. My mother taught me HUMOR. "When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."
21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT. "If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."
22. My mother taught me GENETICS. "You're just like your father."
23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS. " Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"
24. My mother taught me WISDOM. "When you get to be my age, you'll understand."
25. And my favorite : my mother taught me about JUSTICE. "One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!"
______________________________________________________________________________________________________
The Best Things In Loife (highlighted ones are extra special to me)
> 1. Falling in love.
>
> 2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
>
> 3. A hot shower.
>
> 4. No lines at the supermarket.
>
> 5. A special glance.
>
> 6. Getting mail.
>
> 7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
>
> 8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
>
> 9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
>
> 10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
>
> 11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
>
> 12. Chocolate milkshake (or vanilla!) (or strawberry).
>
> 13. A long distance phone call.
>
> 14. A bubble bath.
>
> 15. Giggling.
>
> 16. A good conversation.
>
> 17. The beach.
>
> 18. Finding a $20 bill in your coat from last winter.
>
> 19. Laughing at yourself.
>
> 20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
>
> 21. Running through sprinklers.
>
> 22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
>
> 23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
>
> 24. Laughing at an inside joke.
>
> 25. Friends.
>
> 26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
>
> 27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
>
> 28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
>
> 29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
>
> 30. Playing with a new puppy.
>
> 31. Having someone play with your hair.
>
> 32. Sweet dreams.
>
> 33. Hot chocolate.
>
> 34. Road trips with friends.
>
> 35. Swinging on swings.
>
> 36. Eating cookies and drinking your favorite hot toddy.
>
> 37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
>
> 38. Going to a really good concert.
>
> 39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
>
> 40. Winning a really competitive game.
>
> 41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
>
> 42. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
>
> 43. Spending time with close friends.
>
> 44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
>
> 45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
>
> 46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
>
> 47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
>
> 48. Watching the __expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
>
> 49. Watching the sunrise.
>
>50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
by
India Arie
If he were a color
He'd be a deep dark forest green
If he were a car
He'd be a long stretch limousine
With room for all of humanity inside
Cause he is so giving
And he is so wise
If he were a number
He'd be a five
Cause he has such a brilliant mind
If he were an animal
He'd be an ass
Cause he's so stubborn sometime
But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key
But he means the world to me
If he were a building
He'd be a beautiful cathedral
Cause he's so traditionally spiritual
If he were a dance
He'd be complicated like the tango
Exotic like a mango
But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key
But he means the world to me
He ain't the reason for the sun and the moon
He is just the reason for this here tune
Cause he means the world to me
Said he means the world to me
Me me me yeah
He means the world to me yeah
Complicated melody that complicated fellow he
He's complicated melody
I almost cannot sing it on key
__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
My Mother Taught Me...
1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE . "If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."
2. My mother taught me RELIGION. "You better pray that will come out of the carpet."
3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL . "If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"
4. My mother taught me LOGIC. "Because I said so, that's why."
5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC. "If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."
6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT. "Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."
7. My mother taught me IRONY. "Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."
8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS. "Shut your mouth and eat your supper."
9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM . "Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"
10. My mother taught me about PATIENCE. "You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."
11. My mother taught me about WEATHER. "This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."
12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY. "If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"
13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE. "I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."
14.My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION . "Stop acting like your father!"
15. My mother taught me about ENVY. "There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."
16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION. " Just wait until we get home."
17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING. "You are going to get it when you get home!"
18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE. "If you don't stop crossing your eyes, They are going to freeze that way."
19. My mother taught me ESP . "Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"
20. My mother taught me HUMOR. "When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."
21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT. "If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."
22. My mother taught me GENETICS. "You're just like your father."
23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS. " Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"
24. My mother taught me WISDOM. "When you get to be my age, you'll understand."
25. And my favorite : my mother taught me about JUSTICE. "One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!"
______________________________________________________________________________________________________
The Best Things In Loife (highlighted ones are extra special to me)
> 1. Falling in love.
>
> 2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
>
> 3. A hot shower.
>
> 4. No lines at the supermarket.
>
> 5. A special glance.
>
> 6. Getting mail.
>
> 7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
>
> 8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
>
> 9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
>
> 10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
>
> 11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
>
> 12. Chocolate milkshake (or vanilla!) (or strawberry).
>
> 13. A long distance phone call.
>
> 14. A bubble bath.
>
> 15. Giggling.
>
> 16. A good conversation.
>
> 17. The beach.
>
> 18. Finding a $20 bill in your coat from last winter.
>
> 19. Laughing at yourself.
>
> 20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
>
> 21. Running through sprinklers.
>
> 22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
>
> 23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
>
> 24. Laughing at an inside joke.
>
> 25. Friends.
>
> 26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
>
> 27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
>
> 28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
>
> 29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
>
> 30. Playing with a new puppy.
>
> 31. Having someone play with your hair.
>
> 32. Sweet dreams.
>
> 33. Hot chocolate.
>
> 34. Road trips with friends.
>
> 35. Swinging on swings.
>
> 36. Eating cookies and drinking your favorite hot toddy.
>
> 37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
>
> 38. Going to a really good concert.
>
> 39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
>
> 40. Winning a really competitive game.
>
> 41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
>
> 42. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
>
> 43. Spending time with close friends.
>
> 44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
>
> 45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
>
> 46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
>
> 47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
>
> 48. Watching the __expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
>
> 49. Watching the sunrise.
>
>50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
saturday morning...main library...tide and noczema...no "thirteen!"...west covina...opppps....tito ruben ninong boy manang tita ching haaahaaaa... always and forever aaww...stupid islands waiter...tour around irvine..till the spectrum...prom flashbacks...go lakers woooh...massages...studytoime...no in and out dinner...just a trader joe's one...still no "thirteen!"......no more tears.
thanx for another fun weekend =).
thanx for another fun weekend =).
Wednesday, April 16, 2003
Thursday, March 06, 2003
wow this has been a very rare day...a day when i have nothing due tomorroooow woohooooo i feel freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. it seems so nice to finally feel so light with no worries or anything like that. i mean know i still have a lot of stuff to deal with later on. but rite now i jus wana sit and jus breathe. ive been busy for the past couple of weeks and i havent rilly had time to jus breathe. and would anyone believe me if i say there was a point when i couldnt even talk on the fone for 2 nights in a row coz i was BUSY? well, its true. and it sucked. big time. i promise. i swear. heehee.
i jus had a fun convo with my mom tonite. it was the usual...
mom: o anak. why arent u sleeping yet?
me: mom its 8:30.
mom: oh eh dont u have class tomorrow
me: yeah
mom: o did u eat yet?
me: uhuh
mom: wut did u eat?
me: chicken...kiev
mom: ano yon?
me: heehee iono sumtin chicken
mom: mmmhm...o sleep ka na
me: okai
mom: gudnite anak..i lab u
me: luv u too mom
nothing special, but jus fun. we talked about other things and she was jus being funnie. its weird coz i was the one who called her this time (yeah coz shes the one who calls me usually ...wait not usually...she's the one who calls me everyday). so yeah i called my mom and she was fun. haha. she was being like a mom and a friend. it was nice. i jus wish its always like that.
i jus had a fun convo with my mom tonite. it was the usual...
mom: o anak. why arent u sleeping yet?
me: mom its 8:30.
mom: oh eh dont u have class tomorrow
me: yeah
mom: o did u eat yet?
me: uhuh
mom: wut did u eat?
me: chicken...kiev
mom: ano yon?
me: heehee iono sumtin chicken
mom: mmmhm...o sleep ka na
me: okai
mom: gudnite anak..i lab u
me: luv u too mom
nothing special, but jus fun. we talked about other things and she was jus being funnie. its weird coz i was the one who called her this time (yeah coz shes the one who calls me usually ...wait not usually...she's the one who calls me everyday). so yeah i called my mom and she was fun. haha. she was being like a mom and a friend. it was nice. i jus wish its always like that.
Friday, January 31, 2003
Monday, January 06, 2003
JANUARY 3, 2003
happy 19th birthday to me! man i cant believe i only have one teen year left. im old waaaaah. i dont know if i would still like having birthdays after this one. haha. im technically everyone's ate...and also a craddle-rockin cray-z cress. grrreaat. but newaysss, the idea of having to spend my birthday in school, on the first day of classes is not new to me (coz it's been like that for the past 3-4 years). so i thought my special day was gona suck like a duck. but i was wrong. on thursday, january 2 at 11:30ish pm, i got a call from a special hane telling me to look out my window and see the best surprise ever (well it wasnt rilly a surprise...it was a semi-surprise i guess heehee). that jus made my day like u dont even know =).
so the next day, my real birthday, i felt so blessed to know that a lot of people actually remembered my birthday. you guys are the best i swear! i wana thank everyone who came here to celebrate my special day with me: chang, bel, maria, mari, (shar we miss u soo much), keith, sue, gladys, cool fartnah, my zeezter, and hane. even though we didnt get to go to stupid pat n oscar's, islands was still great because u guys jus made it so special. thank you! we should have more funtimes like that (i know sue and cool fartnah had funtimes after dinner with the help of my sister tsk tsk). oooh and chelle makes the best cake ever...and mmhhmmm it is better than sex. oh no wait i wouldnt know. only chelle would. thanx roomate!
again, thanx so much to everyone who greeted me u guys r the bestest. i luv u!
the next day i was supposed to go home...but me, sister, hun, and sue ate at ihop first. then it was time to go home =(. said our see u laters, got home, went to church =), went out for dinner, and finally got home and had...
THE TALK with my mom. this time it was foreal. everything was said. and i mean everything. there was no point of hiding nething anymore. it wasnt very pretty. but i got through it. it wasnt a succesful talk either coz nothing got settled. it was more of a revelation of feelings and differences. or maybe a realization that i can never win or even compromise with her. it was a disagreement where eveyrthing was jus put out there, left there hanging, because there seems to be no solution. that was the low point of my day. right after my birthday too wahoo. so now the only question ive been asking myself is: what the hell am i supposed to do?
so yeah, im doomed forever because i dont think she'll let me out of the house ever again. good timing rite? yup. its great =/.
happy 19th birthday to me! man i cant believe i only have one teen year left. im old waaaaah. i dont know if i would still like having birthdays after this one. haha. im technically everyone's ate...and also a craddle-rockin cray-z cress. grrreaat. but newaysss, the idea of having to spend my birthday in school, on the first day of classes is not new to me (coz it's been like that for the past 3-4 years). so i thought my special day was gona suck like a duck. but i was wrong. on thursday, january 2 at 11:30ish pm, i got a call from a special hane telling me to look out my window and see the best surprise ever (well it wasnt rilly a surprise...it was a semi-surprise i guess heehee). that jus made my day like u dont even know =).
so the next day, my real birthday, i felt so blessed to know that a lot of people actually remembered my birthday. you guys are the best i swear! i wana thank everyone who came here to celebrate my special day with me: chang, bel, maria, mari, (shar we miss u soo much), keith, sue, gladys, cool fartnah, my zeezter, and hane. even though we didnt get to go to stupid pat n oscar's, islands was still great because u guys jus made it so special. thank you! we should have more funtimes like that (i know sue and cool fartnah had funtimes after dinner with the help of my sister tsk tsk). oooh and chelle makes the best cake ever...and mmhhmmm it is better than sex. oh no wait i wouldnt know. only chelle would. thanx roomate!
again, thanx so much to everyone who greeted me u guys r the bestest. i luv u!
the next day i was supposed to go home...but me, sister, hun, and sue ate at ihop first. then it was time to go home =(. said our see u laters, got home, went to church =), went out for dinner, and finally got home and had...
THE TALK with my mom. this time it was foreal. everything was said. and i mean everything. there was no point of hiding nething anymore. it wasnt very pretty. but i got through it. it wasnt a succesful talk either coz nothing got settled. it was more of a revelation of feelings and differences. or maybe a realization that i can never win or even compromise with her. it was a disagreement where eveyrthing was jus put out there, left there hanging, because there seems to be no solution. that was the low point of my day. right after my birthday too wahoo. so now the only question ive been asking myself is: what the hell am i supposed to do?
so yeah, im doomed forever because i dont think she'll let me out of the house ever again. good timing rite? yup. its great =/.
Sunday, December 29, 2002
Friday, December 27, 2002
OMG yes im alive! i know i know i havent blogged for the longest time. its all college’s fault. yup...college...a very interesting time of my life. well i guess i can say im liking college. well actually i just like the freedom, not the studying part. ive only experienced 3-4 months of college life and i feel like ive learned a lot. and i mean a lot a lot. haha. yuppp thats rite. i learned that....
1) i can actually survive without my mom doing everything for me.
2) if you have 12-14 units...you have to study 36-42 hours a week.
3) college is a time wehn you experiment or try different things...so the stupid things that you dont count because you’re jus experimenting rite?
4) i learned a lot more things...but id rather not share haha
December 9-13
so finals came and i tried to do my best...but i guess it didnt rilly work...ah wutever. that week was funtimes all the time neway =).
December 13
watched the lion king! i liked it and actually appreciated every single aspect of the play...unlike some people who just dont get it. tsk tsk tsk. i wanted to be in a musical after watching it heeheeeee.
December 14-22
- driving week..bleh
- 18th —> =) got the best origami creation haha
- found out my permit isnt valid...daaaamn dmv
- chill week....yaaaaay =)
- shopping week...wahoo
- two weeks notice.. aaaww
- tiffany’s gift from mom...grreat
December 22-23
skt sleepover at sue’s! awww i luv my girls...the best part was sunday night...wen we all exchanged gifts (i love all my gifts thanx again u guys) and jus talked and talked and talked and of course talked some more. im thankful for being so blessed to have a group of friends who i know i can trust. thanx u guys. we’re so cool haha. shar we miss u come back!
saw more people the next day...aww i miss seeing familiar faces...for those who came to sue’s house u guys rock wahoo.
December 24
went to the dmv to finally fix my godamn permit problem..then chilled at hun’s house in the morning...yaaay thanx to ur mom for feeding me once again. went home...took a long nap.... and then midnite mass..then lola’s house for christmas dinner! yummmy.
December 25
tita’s house in walnut...food..food...food...and money wahooo.....charades with cousins and titas bwhahahahahahaha that was the best.
December 26-27
i went “jogging with sue.” =) sue ur the best i owe u. remember ur not number 2...ur ur 1.5 =) santa monica aww it was so perty and sunny i luved it...and once again...thanx to ur mom hun for feeding me.
SO YEAH...so far my break isnt so bad i guess. well actually, i dunno. i havent rilly been very enthusiastic at home. maybe sumtimes. when im out, thats definitely happy times for me. so yeah. i duno. i miss my freedom. i guess thats one of the reasons why i wana go back to irvine. i want my freedom back. but then again, going back to school means no more fun “jogging” times. =(. makes me sad. feels like the end of summer all over again. but i guess ill jus have to deal. coz wut else can i do. *sigh*
1) i can actually survive without my mom doing everything for me.
2) if you have 12-14 units...you have to study 36-42 hours a week.
3) college is a time wehn you experiment or try different things...so the stupid things that you dont count because you’re jus experimenting rite?
4) i learned a lot more things...but id rather not share haha
December 9-13
so finals came and i tried to do my best...but i guess it didnt rilly work...ah wutever. that week was funtimes all the time neway =).
December 13
watched the lion king! i liked it and actually appreciated every single aspect of the play...unlike some people who just dont get it. tsk tsk tsk. i wanted to be in a musical after watching it heeheeeee.
December 14-22
- driving week..bleh
- 18th —> =) got the best origami creation haha
- found out my permit isnt valid...daaaamn dmv
- chill week....yaaaaay =)
- shopping week...wahoo
- two weeks notice.. aaaww
- tiffany’s gift from mom...grreat
December 22-23
skt sleepover at sue’s! awww i luv my girls...the best part was sunday night...wen we all exchanged gifts (i love all my gifts thanx again u guys) and jus talked and talked and talked and of course talked some more. im thankful for being so blessed to have a group of friends who i know i can trust. thanx u guys. we’re so cool haha. shar we miss u come back!
saw more people the next day...aww i miss seeing familiar faces...for those who came to sue’s house u guys rock wahoo.
December 24
went to the dmv to finally fix my godamn permit problem..then chilled at hun’s house in the morning...yaaay thanx to ur mom for feeding me once again. went home...took a long nap.... and then midnite mass..then lola’s house for christmas dinner! yummmy.
December 25
tita’s house in walnut...food..food...food...and money wahooo.....charades with cousins and titas bwhahahahahahaha that was the best.
December 26-27
i went “jogging with sue.” =) sue ur the best i owe u. remember ur not number 2...ur ur 1.5 =) santa monica aww it was so perty and sunny i luved it...and once again...thanx to ur mom hun for feeding me.
SO YEAH...so far my break isnt so bad i guess. well actually, i dunno. i havent rilly been very enthusiastic at home. maybe sumtimes. when im out, thats definitely happy times for me. so yeah. i duno. i miss my freedom. i guess thats one of the reasons why i wana go back to irvine. i want my freedom back. but then again, going back to school means no more fun “jogging” times. =(. makes me sad. feels like the end of summer all over again. but i guess ill jus have to deal. coz wut else can i do. *sigh*
Tuesday, November 26, 2002
Friday, November 22, 2002
Thursday, November 14, 2002
Wednesday, November 13, 2002
Monday, November 11, 2002
wow im alive yaaaay. so i havent blogged in awhile. sowee about that. ive been busy with school and stuff that i havent even been reading other people's blogs nemore. but now im not gona be as stressed coz i finally dropped my programming class wahoo. i felt so good after i dropped it...it was like...like...like...heaven. bwhahahha no. so now i dunno wut i wana major in nemore. im lost. im confused. im a bum. oh well. sux to be me.
this week has been perty arite. im liking sierra more n more each day. its hella fun here....but sometimes its too much...wahaha no jk. but i like it here a lot. the people here are too cool wahoooo.
im missing everyone more n more each day too. yeah everyone. if ur reading this, ur prolly part of "everyone." i miss kickin it with my girls =(. but its all gud. we all better kick it soon...which is iono...thanksgiving break? or christmas. hellz yah.
okai thats all for now coz im getting sleepy. sleepytime for me. this weekend was too tiring for me. a good kind of tiring. i had major funtimes =).
this week has been perty arite. im liking sierra more n more each day. its hella fun here....but sometimes its too much...wahaha no jk. but i like it here a lot. the people here are too cool wahoooo.
im missing everyone more n more each day too. yeah everyone. if ur reading this, ur prolly part of "everyone." i miss kickin it with my girls =(. but its all gud. we all better kick it soon...which is iono...thanksgiving break? or christmas. hellz yah.
okai thats all for now coz im getting sleepy. sleepytime for me. this weekend was too tiring for me. a good kind of tiring. i had major funtimes =).
Tuesday, November 05, 2002
Sunday, October 27, 2002
yay i just had my first weekend in irvine! wahoooooooooooo. friday nite went clubbin...then party here in sierra..yaaay. and yes, im very very sorry if thats my way of having fun here. ill try not to have fun if that makes u happy.
wahhahaahhahaha im jez keddeng!
so midterms r coming.....im screwed.....like u dont even know...but wutever.....wut can i do...oh actually i can study...thats one plan... hmmm.....maybe i should huh...okai fine....studytime....blog again later.
wahhahaahhahaha im jez keddeng!
so midterms r coming.....im screwed.....like u dont even know...but wutever.....wut can i do...oh actually i can study...thats one plan... hmmm.....maybe i should huh...okai fine....studytime....blog again later.
Friday, October 18, 2002
man i havent blogged foreal since i got here. oh well sux to be me. theres jus nothing that interesting to blog about...at least nothing that i would wana share to everyone. oh well. now sux to be u. waaaha no. okai time for randomness....
so i hate college. well not rilly. sometimes. i like the fact that...
1) it's mom-free
2) i can do wutever i want
3) i can have as much naptimes as i want
4) somehow...theres always food somewhere here...not good food but its still food
5) no helicopters to wake me up every morning
6) my hall: funtimes
BUT i don't like the fact that...
1) it's not home =(
so yeah...i miss LA...and my house.
but sometimes it sux...coz whenever i come home...i feel like im jus visiting...coz half of my stuff's not there...and i know that id be back in irvine the next day. special thanx to kat for making me feel this way. =(
oh yeah and i hate the fact that i dont get programming. shyet.
but wutever. im still adjusting i guess. im in a wutever mood rite now. so wutever. waaaha okai ima shuttup. no wait. i was gona say sumtin. but i forgot. hmmm...oh shit i jus saw a black butterfly outside my window rite now. doesnt that mean sumtin bad? waaah im scurred.
okai top 10 randomness...
1) my mom's bein extra nice to me these days it's RILLY scary
2) the line that i hear at least 10 times everyday here..."get off the fone cressa!!!!!!"
3) programming can be fun if i actually get it
4) finally everyone in SKT is legal wahoo
5) i have a midterm on halloween....dundundauunnnnn
6) chelle made me steal food from the commons
7) chelle loves boys with the same letters in their name
8) i have a new best friend named BIG D
9) no one ever sleeps in this friggin hall
10) I DO MY HOMEWORK DAMNIT
okai enough for now.
so i hate college. well not rilly. sometimes. i like the fact that...
1) it's mom-free
2) i can do wutever i want
3) i can have as much naptimes as i want
4) somehow...theres always food somewhere here...not good food but its still food
5) no helicopters to wake me up every morning
6) my hall: funtimes
BUT i don't like the fact that...
1) it's not home =(
so yeah...i miss LA...and my house.
but sometimes it sux...coz whenever i come home...i feel like im jus visiting...coz half of my stuff's not there...and i know that id be back in irvine the next day. special thanx to kat for making me feel this way. =(
oh yeah and i hate the fact that i dont get programming. shyet.
but wutever. im still adjusting i guess. im in a wutever mood rite now. so wutever. waaaha okai ima shuttup. no wait. i was gona say sumtin. but i forgot. hmmm...oh shit i jus saw a black butterfly outside my window rite now. doesnt that mean sumtin bad? waaah im scurred.
okai top 10 randomness...
1) my mom's bein extra nice to me these days it's RILLY scary
2) the line that i hear at least 10 times everyday here..."get off the fone cressa!!!!!!"
3) programming can be fun if i actually get it
4) finally everyone in SKT is legal wahoo
5) i have a midterm on halloween....dundundauunnnnn
6) chelle made me steal food from the commons
7) chelle loves boys with the same letters in their name
8) i have a new best friend named BIG D
9) no one ever sleeps in this friggin hall
10) I DO MY HOMEWORK DAMNIT
okai enough for now.
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
Tuesday, October 15, 2002
Sunday, October 06, 2002
man i need to update. but im too lazy. basically school's been eeeh coz of friggin hw. but i like it here in sierra (my hall) coz everyone's so fun. woohoo. i had fun this weekend. yaay for bel on saturday woohoo heehee. i had fun. had to go back to irvine saturday nite. and yeah. best weekend ever haha. except for some parts. sux. but wutever. life goes on. and its time to do homework.
Thursday, September 26, 2002
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
Wednesday, September 18, 2002
Tuesday, September 17, 2002
wow im blogging two days in a row. high five for me. wahoo. so neways, i had a good day today. i chilled with my cousins again yaaay. im gona miss them when i leave =(. of course wut else do we do when we're bored? eat. well thats what i do all the time neway but wutever. its funner when theyre eating with me. we cooked pasta and baked brownies yaaay. i luv my cousins to death.
after that chelle and coleen came here coz they love me like that. we jus chilled here, tryin to make colette's camera timer work. after wasting 2 random pictures we finally got it. yaaaay. it was nice chillen with chelleen again, even though it was just for a couple of hours. crechelleen will have more funtimes soooon. we better shooooo. colette, u will have funtimes in poly dont worry!
so today was a record breaking day. my mom called me only twice today. wahoo. thats like an accomplishment for her. i luv my mom. ima miss her nagging on me everyday. well actually, she'll prolly be doin that in irvine, so i guess i wont have to miss it. she's the best mom...sometimes.
so all in all, i guess i had a good day today. i dint cry wahoooo. nyahaha. i guess im slowly taking in the fact that everything is changing, and theyre all good changes. im slowly accepting the fact that summer is over, and its time to get back to work. time to explore the college world and have funtimes. i guess im more excited now. not as much as chelle still. but im getting there. me n chelle better have funtimes shit. well ob courze we will. =)
after that chelle and coleen came here coz they love me like that. we jus chilled here, tryin to make colette's camera timer work. after wasting 2 random pictures we finally got it. yaaaay. it was nice chillen with chelleen again, even though it was just for a couple of hours. crechelleen will have more funtimes soooon. we better shooooo. colette, u will have funtimes in poly dont worry!
so today was a record breaking day. my mom called me only twice today. wahoo. thats like an accomplishment for her. i luv my mom. ima miss her nagging on me everyday. well actually, she'll prolly be doin that in irvine, so i guess i wont have to miss it. she's the best mom...sometimes.
so all in all, i guess i had a good day today. i dint cry wahoooo. nyahaha. i guess im slowly taking in the fact that everything is changing, and theyre all good changes. im slowly accepting the fact that summer is over, and its time to get back to work. time to explore the college world and have funtimes. i guess im more excited now. not as much as chelle still. but im getting there. me n chelle better have funtimes shit. well ob courze we will. =)
im feeling this song rite now...
"Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)"
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to do.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I hope you had the time of your life
"Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)"
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to do.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I hope you had the time of your life
Monday, September 16, 2002
my mom is fun....
*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: hellow anak. did the plumber come yet?
me: not yet mom.
mom: okei. call me when he comes okei?
me: okai bye.
an hour later...*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: is the plumber there now?
me: no he's not.
mom: aye nako. da manager said he will cam today...or tomorrow.
me: he's not here yet mom.
mom: aye nako.
me: ill wait tomorrow then.
mom: ayeee if he das not cam early tomorrow i will call dat manager.
me: orite mom.
mom: o sige babay.
later in the afternoon...*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: hello anak. wat are you doen?
me: oh nuttin
mom: ay nako fix ur room.
me: mom r u bored or sumtin. this is ur third call.
mom: yah. i don peel like doen work.
me: waahaaa moooom go do ur stuuuuff.
mom: ayoko. im too lazy rite now.
me: and thats why ur buggin me.
mom: yah. aye nako anak im pagod olready.
me: okai mom then go eat or sumtin.
mom: no. i heb a lot of work to do bat i dont peel like doen it.
me: then dont bug meeeeee.
mom: o sige. did u eat yet?
me: yes.
mom: okai anak. ill call u again later babay.
and thats why i luv her.
*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: hellow anak. did the plumber come yet?
me: not yet mom.
mom: okei. call me when he comes okei?
me: okai bye.
an hour later...*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: is the plumber there now?
me: no he's not.
mom: aye nako. da manager said he will cam today...or tomorrow.
me: he's not here yet mom.
mom: aye nako.
me: ill wait tomorrow then.
mom: ayeee if he das not cam early tomorrow i will call dat manager.
me: orite mom.
mom: o sige babay.
later in the afternoon...*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: hello anak. wat are you doen?
me: oh nuttin
mom: ay nako fix ur room.
me: mom r u bored or sumtin. this is ur third call.
mom: yah. i don peel like doen work.
me: waahaaa moooom go do ur stuuuuff.
mom: ayoko. im too lazy rite now.
me: and thats why ur buggin me.
mom: yah. aye nako anak im pagod olready.
me: okai mom then go eat or sumtin.
mom: no. i heb a lot of work to do bat i dont peel like doen it.
me: then dont bug meeeeee.
mom: o sige. did u eat yet?
me: yes.
mom: okai anak. ill call u again later babay.
and thats why i luv her.
THIS IS THE BLOG I WROTE FRIDAY MORNING...
I woke up this morning thinking about what today will be like. I looked out the window and saw how beautiful it was outside. I thanked God for that. I thanked him for the pretty sun, the cool air, and the nice breeze. I realized that I have taken for granted those simple things in life that I should be thankful for. I realized that life can be as simple as knowing that tomorrow will be another day that may be as beautiful as today.
I woke up this morning and told myself not to worry. Everything will be okai. The past week has been both fun and sad. I just cant believe that summer is rilly over. It’s been the best summer ive had so far, and i duno how im gona deal with all the changes that have been happening, or will happen. But wutever happens, i know i’ll get through it. It’s been perty hard, but life is never easy neway. When i feel like hell, i jus cry it out. Then after that i feel somewhat better. I guess that’s good. But i’m getting perty tired of crying...i duno wen it’ll stop.
I’m moving out this sunday...woohoo. I guess I’m excited, but not as much as chelle. Which scares me a lil bit, but I’m sure i’ll be fine. I promised myself that I’ll try to have funtimes with all the new people ima meet, becoz if I dont, then im jus gona be a losery bum. And I don’t want that.
This has been a random blog. I suck. I cant rilly think straight rite now. Well when did i ever think straight neway. Wutever. Tomorrow will be just be another day. Hope it will be as perty as today. It better be. I need sumtin to cheer me up. Tomorrow will be another long losery day for me. But I know “tomorrow”, i’ll be happy again, becoz funtimes arent over yet. The sun better be shining again.
I woke up this morning thinking about what today will be like. I looked out the window and saw how beautiful it was outside. I thanked God for that. I thanked him for the pretty sun, the cool air, and the nice breeze. I realized that I have taken for granted those simple things in life that I should be thankful for. I realized that life can be as simple as knowing that tomorrow will be another day that may be as beautiful as today.
I woke up this morning and told myself not to worry. Everything will be okai. The past week has been both fun and sad. I just cant believe that summer is rilly over. It’s been the best summer ive had so far, and i duno how im gona deal with all the changes that have been happening, or will happen. But wutever happens, i know i’ll get through it. It’s been perty hard, but life is never easy neway. When i feel like hell, i jus cry it out. Then after that i feel somewhat better. I guess that’s good. But i’m getting perty tired of crying...i duno wen it’ll stop.
I’m moving out this sunday...woohoo. I guess I’m excited, but not as much as chelle. Which scares me a lil bit, but I’m sure i’ll be fine. I promised myself that I’ll try to have funtimes with all the new people ima meet, becoz if I dont, then im jus gona be a losery bum. And I don’t want that.
This has been a random blog. I suck. I cant rilly think straight rite now. Well when did i ever think straight neway. Wutever. Tomorrow will be just be another day. Hope it will be as perty as today. It better be. I need sumtin to cheer me up. Tomorrow will be another long losery day for me. But I know “tomorrow”, i’ll be happy again, becoz funtimes arent over yet. The sun better be shining again.
Monday, September 09, 2002
fun interesting week for meeeeeeeee....
i actually dont remember exactly (which means in great detail) wut ive been doin since monday, so im jus gona tell u
monday sept 2
labor day. went with mom and sister to beverly center (jus to go to sanrio and buy cute useless stuff), then to the hollywood and highland mall.
tuesday-thursday sept 3-5
chilled with my cousins and bj.
friday sept 6
this one i remember. i woke up eeeaaarrrlyy (which is like 7:30...woohoo thats like...wow rilly) to go to my cousin's just to chill. so of course i mooch of them once again coz they have everything there. and then i went back home to chill with bj.
then later that nite i found out my sister was goin clubbing. then my mom told her, "why dont u bring creeessaaa with u anaaak." so i was yeah siiiiiissssss. so yea i "went clubbing with my sister"...and...
- got picked up by bj n keith (sorry u guys had to wait forever)
- went to bel's and finally convinced her to go to the observatory with us
- got there...it was beautiful
- had to drop bel home or else she'd get her ass kicked
- keith went with shar n maureeeen to get ice cream for bel
- me n bj headed to to santa monica and had a walk to remember...and yes i had with me protection dont worry. lol. protection from the bums walkin around. (protection = a bottle of sparkling water woohoo.)
- left and then got some fries from jack and then headed to bel's
- saw bel, shar, maureen, trina, and keith after the longest time woohoo
- chilled there till my sister called...which was at 12 sumtin..i forgot
- got in front of my house and my sister wasnt there still..so we had to wait..so we chilled till past 1...bj fel asleep and keith had to pee. gudjob.
- finally sister came and woohoo we went in and had funtimes
so yeah basically i couldnt believe i was out friday nite. thanx to the coolest sister ever woohoo.
i had major funtimes. the night made up for the sadness i felt that day....like big time. i was luving every minute of it.
i actually dont remember exactly (which means in great detail) wut ive been doin since monday, so im jus gona tell u
monday sept 2
labor day. went with mom and sister to beverly center (jus to go to sanrio and buy cute useless stuff), then to the hollywood and highland mall.
tuesday-thursday sept 3-5
chilled with my cousins and bj.
friday sept 6
this one i remember. i woke up eeeaaarrrlyy (which is like 7:30...woohoo thats like...wow rilly) to go to my cousin's just to chill. so of course i mooch of them once again coz they have everything there. and then i went back home to chill with bj.
then later that nite i found out my sister was goin clubbing. then my mom told her, "why dont u bring creeessaaa with u anaaak." so i was yeah siiiiiissssss. so yea i "went clubbing with my sister"...and...
- got picked up by bj n keith (sorry u guys had to wait forever)
- went to bel's and finally convinced her to go to the observatory with us
- got there...it was beautiful
- had to drop bel home or else she'd get her ass kicked
- keith went with shar n maureeeen to get ice cream for bel
- me n bj headed to to santa monica and had a walk to remember...and yes i had with me protection dont worry. lol. protection from the bums walkin around. (protection = a bottle of sparkling water woohoo.)
- left and then got some fries from jack and then headed to bel's
- saw bel, shar, maureen, trina, and keith after the longest time woohoo
- chilled there till my sister called...which was at 12 sumtin..i forgot
- got in front of my house and my sister wasnt there still..so we had to wait..so we chilled till past 1...bj fel asleep and keith had to pee. gudjob.
- finally sister came and woohoo we went in and had funtimes
so yeah basically i couldnt believe i was out friday nite. thanx to the coolest sister ever woohoo.
i had major funtimes. the night made up for the sadness i felt that day....like big time. i was luving every minute of it.
Tuesday, September 03, 2002
It's my turn...
DArkB L u esmOKE: Oh well !
imatpazwithdish: sux to be u
DArkB L u esmOKE: What sucks to be me ?
DArkB L u esmOKE: Whatever it is must be pretty damn desperate
imatpazwithdish: huh?
DArkB L u esmOKE: There was no subject to your predicate in the sentence "sux to be u"
DArkB L u esmOKE: So I assumed it was "it"
DArkB L u esmOKE: And I asked, "What sucks to be me ?"
imatpazwithdish: wut the heeznuts
DArkB L u esmOKE: Ha, who can't think philosphically and deeply now ?
imatpazwithdish: thats not philosophically
DArkB L u esmOKE: But it's pretty "deep"
imatpazwithdish: ohmahgod
imatpazwithdish: the subject was u
imatpazwithdish: not it
DArkB L u esmOKE: "U sux to be u ?"
imatpazwithdish: "u" must be "pretty darn desperate"
DArkB L u esmOKE: No I was talking about YOUR sentence "sux to be u"
imatpazwithdish: um me too
imatpazwithdish: "it sux to be you"? is that wut ur saying
imatpazwithdish: it isnt a subject
DArkB L u esmOKE: Yeah, and I'm asking "what sux ?"
imatpazwithdish: YOU
DArkB L u esmOKE: No !
imatpazwithdish: yes
DArkB L u esmOKE: "I can't sux to be me !"
DArkB L u esmOKE: OMG
imatpazwithdish: yeah coz its, "you suck like a duck"
DArkB L u esmOKE: Aye !
imatpazwithdish: yeah das rite
DArkB L u esmOKE: Of course I do
DArkB L u esmOKE: Oh well !
imatpazwithdish: sux to be u
DArkB L u esmOKE: What sucks to be me ?
DArkB L u esmOKE: Whatever it is must be pretty damn desperate
imatpazwithdish: huh?
DArkB L u esmOKE: There was no subject to your predicate in the sentence "sux to be u"
DArkB L u esmOKE: So I assumed it was "it"
DArkB L u esmOKE: And I asked, "What sucks to be me ?"
imatpazwithdish: wut the heeznuts
DArkB L u esmOKE: Ha, who can't think philosphically and deeply now ?
imatpazwithdish: thats not philosophically
DArkB L u esmOKE: But it's pretty "deep"
imatpazwithdish: ohmahgod
imatpazwithdish: the subject was u
imatpazwithdish: not it
DArkB L u esmOKE: "U sux to be u ?"
imatpazwithdish: "u" must be "pretty darn desperate"
DArkB L u esmOKE: No I was talking about YOUR sentence "sux to be u"
imatpazwithdish: um me too
imatpazwithdish: "it sux to be you"? is that wut ur saying
imatpazwithdish: it isnt a subject
DArkB L u esmOKE: Yeah, and I'm asking "what sux ?"
imatpazwithdish: YOU
DArkB L u esmOKE: No !
imatpazwithdish: yes
DArkB L u esmOKE: "I can't sux to be me !"
DArkB L u esmOKE: OMG
imatpazwithdish: yeah coz its, "you suck like a duck"
DArkB L u esmOKE: Aye !
imatpazwithdish: yeah das rite
DArkB L u esmOKE: Of course I do
Frustrating times with mom and sister at the beverly center parking lot today…
Sister (driver): Ooohh, finally a parking space.
Mom: No, anak you cannot fit dere its too little por ur car.
Me: No, go ahead you can fit.
Mom: Aye nako no. We’ll find another one don worry anak.
Driving around for 10 minutes.
Mom: Uy rite dere (pointing to a spot using her lips).
Sister: That’s still too little!
Me: Just park demnit!
sister tries to park
Sister: I am not gona fit in here!
Me: Do u want me to park it or wut?!?
Mom: Sige, I’ll park it.
Mom and sis trade places
Mom: Naku, it is too little.
Sister: No, mom just go move it to the left coz theres a lot of space there.
Mom: I know bat da car beside us will still heb a hard time coming out!
mom tries fixing the car. Back n forth…back n forth…back n forth.
Me: Mom just leave it. Ur fine. Okai lets gooooooo.
Mom: Aye no no. We’ll find another one nalang. This is nat big. Dere’s a lot more spaces dere.
Mom backs up…car behind honks coz he thought we were gona go park. She drives like 1mph in the friggin parkin lot coz she wants to make sure she doesn’t miss a free spot, while a long line of cars follow behind.
Mom: Oh ayon! See deres a space here.
Sister: Umm can u fit there?
Me: Yes, demnit we can fit!
Mom: Okaaaaaai lets goooooo.
And this is prolly why my dad didn’t wana come with us.
Sister (driver): Ooohh, finally a parking space.
Mom: No, anak you cannot fit dere its too little por ur car.
Me: No, go ahead you can fit.
Mom: Aye nako no. We’ll find another one don worry anak.
Driving around for 10 minutes.
Mom: Uy rite dere (pointing to a spot using her lips).
Sister: That’s still too little!
Me: Just park demnit!
sister tries to park
Sister: I am not gona fit in here!
Me: Do u want me to park it or wut?!?
Mom: Sige, I’ll park it.
Mom and sis trade places
Mom: Naku, it is too little.
Sister: No, mom just go move it to the left coz theres a lot of space there.
Mom: I know bat da car beside us will still heb a hard time coming out!
mom tries fixing the car. Back n forth…back n forth…back n forth.
Me: Mom just leave it. Ur fine. Okai lets gooooooo.
Mom: Aye no no. We’ll find another one nalang. This is nat big. Dere’s a lot more spaces dere.
Mom backs up…car behind honks coz he thought we were gona go park. She drives like 1mph in the friggin parkin lot coz she wants to make sure she doesn’t miss a free spot, while a long line of cars follow behind.
Mom: Oh ayon! See deres a space here.
Sister: Umm can u fit there?
Me: Yes, demnit we can fit!
Mom: Okaaaaaai lets goooooo.
And this is prolly why my dad didn’t wana come with us.
Monday, September 02, 2002
Real random thoughts….
- three weeks left before I leave this house
- maureeeeeen should try to have funtimes at her house for once
- two more weeks of losery cress days
- I breakout wen I sleep late
- My sister is the best
- White music is great
- I miss Sue…Sue should party hard
- I have my addictive snake moments
- Malls shouldn’t close early on weekends
- Maria should have more fun 5 hour convos
- Scrap books are fun to make
- I like the britney cd (yikes)
- I love len for tagging my board 3 times in a row
- I can live in Michaels or Barnes and Nobles
- Christine needs to tell me wuts goin on w/ her
- People should try goin to other places and not crowd in venice beach
- Chelle should sleep early for once
- I love green tea
- Karaoke with cousins is always fun
- Bel should tell me wutsup with her =)
- Im broke
- I don’t know wuts happening with Shar n Mari
- I wonder when sclub will be ONE foreal
- I cant live without ac
- Sanrio is the best place to buy cute useless crap
- Bj n Keith have too much fun together
- I luv my parents despite the shit they give me
- Im lucky to be alive
- This three day weekend sux
- Cuban food seems too garlicky for me
- Passions is gay
- I need to sleep now
Enough random thoughts for today. More to come later.
- three weeks left before I leave this house
- maureeeeeen should try to have funtimes at her house for once
- two more weeks of losery cress days
- I breakout wen I sleep late
- My sister is the best
- White music is great
- I miss Sue…Sue should party hard
- I have my addictive snake moments
- Malls shouldn’t close early on weekends
- Maria should have more fun 5 hour convos
- Scrap books are fun to make
- I like the britney cd (yikes)
- I love len for tagging my board 3 times in a row
- I can live in Michaels or Barnes and Nobles
- Christine needs to tell me wuts goin on w/ her
- People should try goin to other places and not crowd in venice beach
- Chelle should sleep early for once
- I love green tea
- Karaoke with cousins is always fun
- Bel should tell me wutsup with her =)
- Im broke
- I don’t know wuts happening with Shar n Mari
- I wonder when sclub will be ONE foreal
- I cant live without ac
- Sanrio is the best place to buy cute useless crap
- Bj n Keith have too much fun together
- I luv my parents despite the shit they give me
- Im lucky to be alive
- This three day weekend sux
- Cuban food seems too garlicky for me
- Passions is gay
- I need to sleep now
Enough random thoughts for today. More to come later.
Thursday, August 29, 2002
I’m luvin summer rite now =)…
August 22, 2002 Thursday
- bummed around all day
- sue visited me just in case I don’t see her b4 she leaves
August 23, 2002 Friday
- keith picked me up with bj n bel then we picked up chelle to go to sue’s house
- got there..chilled…cried.. ….said our goodbyes (or cya laters)… cried again…. and left =(
- I was gona write sumthin for u sue…but I decided not to coz itll jus make u sadder and I don’t want that to happen
- Chilled at keith’s…went to tommy’s...then went home
August 24, 2002 Saturday
- family party at whittier…happy birthday Jessie!
- Supposed to go to the getty but dint happen
- Went to church instead
- Then to chowking
- Then watched serving sara
August 25, 2002 Sunday
- DID NOTHING
- The grove
- Trader joe’s (saw Topanga)
- Ralphs
August 26, 2002 Monday
- picked up Camille at immac
- ate at in n out
- went to get boba in upper house
- went home and was seriously bored boo
August 27, 2002 Tuesday
- went to Venice beach with bj early in the morning….funfun beach...lots of stuff to do there
- then went to the dmv to take my written…man I finally got it woohoo
- went to Loyola coz bj thought he could sell his books…no one was there so we just left n went to kfc
- chilled at home
- sister saved us and took us to the getty and then dinner at c&o…saw Gregory Hines (some important person)
- got home toooo tired
August 28, 2002 Wednesday
- had a physical at Kaiser
- had to get 4 shots à hepa b, tetanus, mmr, meningitis shots
- jus chilled with bj
- my right arm is killing me…like someone beat me up foreal =(
August 29, 2002 Thursday
- went to cousin's house early in the morning
- funtimes doin lil cousins project
- then jus chilled
- watched save the last dance with them once again
okai so I have less than a month more before school starts…sux to be me…i duno if im supposed to be happy that ima be outta here soon. but wutever. im jus gona chill and deal with it. newayssss... soooooo.....wut else is new....hmmm....iono....i saw two stars this week. topanga and gregory hines...haha okai...umm...i havent blogged in awhile...coz iono....theres nuttin to write about? well okai...laterrrzzz
August 22, 2002 Thursday
- bummed around all day
- sue visited me just in case I don’t see her b4 she leaves
August 23, 2002 Friday
- keith picked me up with bj n bel then we picked up chelle to go to sue’s house
- got there..chilled…cried.. ….said our goodbyes (or cya laters)… cried again…. and left =(
- I was gona write sumthin for u sue…but I decided not to coz itll jus make u sadder and I don’t want that to happen
- Chilled at keith’s…went to tommy’s...then went home
August 24, 2002 Saturday
- family party at whittier…happy birthday Jessie!
- Supposed to go to the getty but dint happen
- Went to church instead
- Then to chowking
- Then watched serving sara
August 25, 2002 Sunday
- DID NOTHING
- The grove
- Trader joe’s (saw Topanga)
- Ralphs
August 26, 2002 Monday
- picked up Camille at immac
- ate at in n out
- went to get boba in upper house
- went home and was seriously bored boo
August 27, 2002 Tuesday
- went to Venice beach with bj early in the morning….funfun beach...lots of stuff to do there
- then went to the dmv to take my written…man I finally got it woohoo
- went to Loyola coz bj thought he could sell his books…no one was there so we just left n went to kfc
- chilled at home
- sister saved us and took us to the getty and then dinner at c&o…saw Gregory Hines (some important person)
- got home toooo tired
August 28, 2002 Wednesday
- had a physical at Kaiser
- had to get 4 shots à hepa b, tetanus, mmr, meningitis shots
- jus chilled with bj
- my right arm is killing me…like someone beat me up foreal =(
August 29, 2002 Thursday
- went to cousin's house early in the morning
- funtimes doin lil cousins project
- then jus chilled
- watched save the last dance with them once again
okai so I have less than a month more before school starts…sux to be me…i duno if im supposed to be happy that ima be outta here soon. but wutever. im jus gona chill and deal with it. newayssss... soooooo.....wut else is new....hmmm....iono....i saw two stars this week. topanga and gregory hines...haha okai...umm...i havent blogged in awhile...coz iono....theres nuttin to write about? well okai...laterrrzzz
Thursday, August 22, 2002
violent tendencies of keith...
KFDPiNoY: fine, u can beat him up
KFDPiNoY: i'll just watch
buthafly: wahaah
buthafly: and laugh
KFDPiNoY: yeah
buthafly: oh man
buthafly: ur mean
KFDPiNoY: fine
KFDPiNoY: me and bj we'll both gang up on u and beat u up
KFDPiNoY: happy?
buthafly: uuuhm
KFDPiNoY: :-D
buthafly: waaaaaaaaah
KFDPiNoY: fine, u can beat him up
KFDPiNoY: i'll just watch
buthafly: wahaah
buthafly: and laugh
KFDPiNoY: yeah
buthafly: oh man
buthafly: ur mean
KFDPiNoY: fine
KFDPiNoY: me and bj we'll both gang up on u and beat u up
KFDPiNoY: happy?
buthafly: uuuhm
KFDPiNoY: :-D
buthafly: waaaaaaaaah
Wednesday, August 21, 2002
yay i had a fun weekend (well friday and saturday..not sunday)! here's wut happened in great detail...
FRIDAY, AUGUST 16, 2002
- friday morning went to 99cents store, albertson's, picked up chelle, house of pies
- went straight to griffith park to see if immac people were there already but no one was there
- picked up bel
- went back to the park to the waterfest
- met bj's godsis cheryl and her people
- keith, rj, and aprille came
- got somewhat wet but not as much as some people woohoo
- sue, shar, and maria finally came (almost complete...one is missing as usual)
- decided to go to the immac picnic...saw kat, maryrose, nikki, francine, portia, sylvana, len, joanna
- time to pick up mari...but me, bel, and shar decided to chill at the waterfest
- took bel home coz she had swimming
- bj me n shar go back to the waterfest
- keith came back…then sue chelle maria and mari
- the four left again…then me bj keith n shar decided to go to the immac picnic again
- everyone was leaving…so we decided to go to bj’s house
- chilled for a while…keith n shar went to pack n picked up bel while we watched rudy for 20minutes
- headed to sue’s..fun fun dinner…I luv it at sue’s
- chilled…watched big brother..and two can play that game..keith n bj left…and girls chilled…woohoo
SATURDAY, AUGUST 17, 2002
- fun talk….we ate like 10 times….watched a walk to remember (well me n maria did)..then had funtalk with sue n maria till like 6am…and then I was gone
- woke up at 10sumtin…shower…maria left first awww mariaaaa…then shar n bel…then mari, chelle, sue n me went to see blue crush (saw elisa, gina n connie at islands first).
- Dropped mari then chelle home
- Got home with sue….chilled for a bit…then picked up chelle then went to church
- First saw bj..then keith…then bel n trina…then my family..then bel’s mom…wow we were one big happy family haahaa
- Decided to go to the grove with everyone and then soup plantation…thanx to mom n dad woohoo
- Brought everyone home except for sue..funtimes
SUNDAY, AUGUST 18, 2002
- got yelled at
- lunch at lola’s..i luv my cousins…and I luv karaoke
- got home n jus chilled….*sigh*
- started my precious moments cross stitch and other fun projects to get rid of boredom
- sad n happy day
MONDAY, AUGUST 19, 2002
- took the bus to lacc early in the mornin to get a fee waiver application
- dint realize it was raining a lil…so I walked in the ugly ass weather
- bj n camille show up at my door and kidnapped me
- went to lunch with bj’s family at max’s…funtimes al the timeeee
- got the talk from tita ruth that made me think…how I wish she was my mom
- finished watching rudy awww
- still tryin to be a gud daughter
- someone finally got a friggin celfone waha..bel its jus u now
TUESDAY, AUGUST 20, 2002
- had to sell books in immac
- woohoo got some money…even tho theyre checks…but I still have my precal book…anyone who needs a precal book pleeaaasseeeee tell meeeeee
- saw a lot of people once again…aww I miss everyone
- me sue bel trina chelle bj n keith went to starbucks…me n sue went to ralphs to get me some cough drops…. and then we all headed to my house (except for chelle n sue who went to chelle’s house)
- we chilled..keith left for a bit…watched save the last dance…keith came back…then chelle, shar, sue, and mitch came…then they watched AHX…fun violent movie
- funtimesss all the tiiiiimmmmeeeeeeeee
- they all ate my cookie crisps..so im sad now
- my throat n head hurt like a mother…I swear to god I was getting sick
- everyone had to leave..except for bj…but he left a lil later …so then I rilly started to feel rilly sick
- did my chores…while sneezing away…tried to sleep at like 9..dint work…I felt soooo tired but I couldn’t sleep..my throat was killing me..i wanted to cry…but I dint
- I was basically in bed…awake…till like 12..then I fell asleep…but thoat n head still hurting
WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 21, 2002
- woke up later than usual with a gay ass voice…I sounded like a man
- went online….decided to have lunch with sue at islands for the last time =(…my head was still killing me but it was ayt….one last lunch out with sue was worth it
- funtimes at islands..finally had my kona pie…then we visited mari so sue could say bye
- went home…took a nice long nap…that was nice
- woke up with a headache…sux to be me…and now im online
that was my week so far…summer school’s finally over thank god. One more month before college…sadness…actually a part of me wants to leave…and a part of me doesn’t…for many reasons….iono its weird. Im not feelin too good rite now. And its time to watch friends (rerun) neways so blog ya later.
FRIDAY, AUGUST 16, 2002
- friday morning went to 99cents store, albertson's, picked up chelle, house of pies
- went straight to griffith park to see if immac people were there already but no one was there
- picked up bel
- went back to the park to the waterfest
- met bj's godsis cheryl and her people
- keith, rj, and aprille came
- got somewhat wet but not as much as some people woohoo
- sue, shar, and maria finally came (almost complete...one is missing as usual)
- decided to go to the immac picnic...saw kat, maryrose, nikki, francine, portia, sylvana, len, joanna
- time to pick up mari...but me, bel, and shar decided to chill at the waterfest
- took bel home coz she had swimming
- bj me n shar go back to the waterfest
- keith came back…then sue chelle maria and mari
- the four left again…then me bj keith n shar decided to go to the immac picnic again
- everyone was leaving…so we decided to go to bj’s house
- chilled for a while…keith n shar went to pack n picked up bel while we watched rudy for 20minutes
- headed to sue’s..fun fun dinner…I luv it at sue’s
- chilled…watched big brother..and two can play that game..keith n bj left…and girls chilled…woohoo
SATURDAY, AUGUST 17, 2002
- fun talk….we ate like 10 times….watched a walk to remember (well me n maria did)..then had funtalk with sue n maria till like 6am…and then I was gone
- woke up at 10sumtin…shower…maria left first awww mariaaaa…then shar n bel…then mari, chelle, sue n me went to see blue crush (saw elisa, gina n connie at islands first).
- Dropped mari then chelle home
- Got home with sue….chilled for a bit…then picked up chelle then went to church
- First saw bj..then keith…then bel n trina…then my family..then bel’s mom…wow we were one big happy family haahaa
- Decided to go to the grove with everyone and then soup plantation…thanx to mom n dad woohoo
- Brought everyone home except for sue..funtimes
SUNDAY, AUGUST 18, 2002
- got yelled at
- lunch at lola’s..i luv my cousins…and I luv karaoke
- got home n jus chilled….*sigh*
- started my precious moments cross stitch and other fun projects to get rid of boredom
- sad n happy day
MONDAY, AUGUST 19, 2002
- took the bus to lacc early in the mornin to get a fee waiver application
- dint realize it was raining a lil…so I walked in the ugly ass weather
- bj n camille show up at my door and kidnapped me
- went to lunch with bj’s family at max’s…funtimes al the timeeee
- got the talk from tita ruth that made me think…how I wish she was my mom
- finished watching rudy awww
- still tryin to be a gud daughter
- someone finally got a friggin celfone waha..bel its jus u now
TUESDAY, AUGUST 20, 2002
- had to sell books in immac
- woohoo got some money…even tho theyre checks…but I still have my precal book…anyone who needs a precal book pleeaaasseeeee tell meeeeee
- saw a lot of people once again…aww I miss everyone
- me sue bel trina chelle bj n keith went to starbucks…me n sue went to ralphs to get me some cough drops…. and then we all headed to my house (except for chelle n sue who went to chelle’s house)
- we chilled..keith left for a bit…watched save the last dance…keith came back…then chelle, shar, sue, and mitch came…then they watched AHX…fun violent movie
- funtimesss all the tiiiiimmmmeeeeeeeee
- they all ate my cookie crisps..so im sad now
- my throat n head hurt like a mother…I swear to god I was getting sick
- everyone had to leave..except for bj…but he left a lil later …so then I rilly started to feel rilly sick
- did my chores…while sneezing away…tried to sleep at like 9..dint work…I felt soooo tired but I couldn’t sleep..my throat was killing me..i wanted to cry…but I dint
- I was basically in bed…awake…till like 12..then I fell asleep…but thoat n head still hurting
WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 21, 2002
- woke up later than usual with a gay ass voice…I sounded like a man
- went online….decided to have lunch with sue at islands for the last time =(…my head was still killing me but it was ayt….one last lunch out with sue was worth it
- funtimes at islands..finally had my kona pie…then we visited mari so sue could say bye
- went home…took a nice long nap…that was nice
- woke up with a headache…sux to be me…and now im online
that was my week so far…summer school’s finally over thank god. One more month before college…sadness…actually a part of me wants to leave…and a part of me doesn’t…for many reasons….iono its weird. Im not feelin too good rite now. And its time to watch friends (rerun) neways so blog ya later.
Thursday, August 15, 2002
Thursday, August 08, 2002
okai i think my brain is working now...lets start with this random thought that just popped in my head while talking to sue today (after one whole day of not hearing from her at all maaan)...
the whole "summer is ending perty soon" bothers me. some people just wana get summer over with, but im not one of those. i guess im not ready to let it all go just yet. summer's been great despite the fact i get the sermon at least once a week. but i dunno. i jus dont like major changes, and thats wuts gradually been happening these past few weeks, and thats wuts gona be happening in the coming weeks. perty soon, people are gona be leaving for college one by one, and i dont know exactly how im gona take that. the fact that i mite not see these people ever again scares me. its so easy for us to say, "lets k.i.t." but i know for a fact that its not that easy to do. wut happens wen we all go our separate ways? who knows.
neways...update of wutsup these past few days...
- been studying for psych tests gggrrr
- hitting vans and buying knives with bj...gudjob dude
- not talkin to sue for one whole day...dayum
- basically bein a gud girl for mommie dear
neways...random thoughts from my psychology class...
- gayness can be genetic
- it takes longer for women to get orgasms, so they fake em all the time (funtimes all the time waahaa)
- does anyone remember Maslow's hierarchy of needs from experiencing god? well i just wanted to point out that i think most of the people i know is on the level of needing "love and belonging" (relationships, friendships, family, support, etc.)
- freud is a freak. he thinks everythin is about sex and aggression.
- more random psych stuff will be posted later
man i havent been goin online that much lately. i just got tired of bein shouted at thats why. so even if i dont see u online as much, just wanted to let u know im still alive and im prolly missing u. blog again later.
the whole "summer is ending perty soon" bothers me. some people just wana get summer over with, but im not one of those. i guess im not ready to let it all go just yet. summer's been great despite the fact i get the sermon at least once a week. but i dunno. i jus dont like major changes, and thats wuts gradually been happening these past few weeks, and thats wuts gona be happening in the coming weeks. perty soon, people are gona be leaving for college one by one, and i dont know exactly how im gona take that. the fact that i mite not see these people ever again scares me. its so easy for us to say, "lets k.i.t." but i know for a fact that its not that easy to do. wut happens wen we all go our separate ways? who knows.
neways...update of wutsup these past few days...
- been studying for psych tests gggrrr
- hitting vans and buying knives with bj...gudjob dude
- not talkin to sue for one whole day...dayum
- basically bein a gud girl for mommie dear
neways...random thoughts from my psychology class...
- gayness can be genetic
- it takes longer for women to get orgasms, so they fake em all the time (funtimes all the time waahaa)
- does anyone remember Maslow's hierarchy of needs from experiencing god? well i just wanted to point out that i think most of the people i know is on the level of needing "love and belonging" (relationships, friendships, family, support, etc.)
- freud is a freak. he thinks everythin is about sex and aggression.
- more random psych stuff will be posted later
man i havent been goin online that much lately. i just got tired of bein shouted at thats why. so even if i dont see u online as much, just wanted to let u know im still alive and im prolly missing u. blog again later.
okai i think my brain is working now...lets start with this random thought that just popped in my head while talking to sue today (after one whole day of not hearing from her at all maaan)...
the whole "summer is ending perty soon" bothers me. some people just wana get summer over with, but im not one of those. i guess im not ready to let it all go just yet. summer's been great despite the fact i get the sermon at least once a week. but i dunno. i jus dont like major changes, and thats wuts gradually been happening these past few weeks, and thats wuts gona be happening in the coming weeks. perty soon, people are gona be leaving for college one by one, and i dont know exactly how im gona take that. the fact that i mite not see these people ever again scares me. its so easy for us to say, "lets k.i.t." but i know for a fact that its not that easy to do. wut happens wen we all go our separate ways? who knows.
neways...update of wutsup these past few days...
- been studying for psych tests gggrrr
- hitting vans and buying knives with bj...gudjob dude
- not talkin to sue for one whole day...dayum
- basically bein a gud girl for mommie dear
neways...random thoughts from my psychology class...
- gayness can be genetic
- it takes longer for women to get orgasms, so they fake em all the time (funtimes all the time waahaa)
- does anyone remember Maslow's hierarchy of needs from experiencing god? well i just wanted to point out that i think most of the people i know is on the level of needing "love and belonging" (relationships, friendships, family, support, etc.)
- freud is a freak. he thinks everythin is about sex and aggression.
- more random psych stuff will be posted later
man i havent been goin online that much lately. i just got tired of bein shouted at thats why. so even if i dont see u online as much, just wanted to let u know im still alive and im prolly missing u. blog again later.
the whole "summer is ending perty soon" bothers me. some people just wana get summer over with, but im not one of those. i guess im not ready to let it all go just yet. summer's been great despite the fact i get the sermon at least once a week. but i dunno. i jus dont like major changes, and thats wuts gradually been happening these past few weeks, and thats wuts gona be happening in the coming weeks. perty soon, people are gona be leaving for college one by one, and i dont know exactly how im gona take that. the fact that i mite not see these people ever again scares me. its so easy for us to say, "lets k.i.t." but i know for a fact that its not that easy to do. wut happens wen we all go our separate ways? who knows.
neways...update of wutsup these past few days...
- been studying for psych tests gggrrr
- hitting vans and buying knives with bj...gudjob dude
- not talkin to sue for one whole day...dayum
- basically bein a gud girl for mommie dear
neways...random thoughts from my psychology class...
- gayness can be genetic
- it takes longer for women to get orgasms, so they fake em all the time (funtimes all the time waahaa)
- does anyone remember Maslow's hierarchy of needs from experiencing god? well i just wanted to point out that i think most of the people i know is on the level of needing "love and belonging" (relationships, friendships, family, support, etc.)
- freud is a freak. he thinks everythin is about sex and aggression.
- more random psych stuff will be posted later
man i havent been goin online that much lately. i just got tired of bein shouted at thats why. so even if i dont see u online as much, just wanted to let u know im still alive and im prolly missing u. blog again later.
Tuesday, August 06, 2002
time to bloooooooog once again....
august 2, friday
- did all my chores and chilled with sue at home
- hoping id be able to go to maria's but got the sermon instead
august 3, saturday
- went to santa barbara with sister, her friends marge and floyd, and bj
- i so wanted to go to maria's but i couldnt go out unless i was with sister
august 4, sunday
- went to church with sister, and saw bel, keith and bj there too
- went home, chilled for awhile, then went to the grove with sister and her friend jeff
- met up with bel, trina, keith, and bj there
- chilled, went to beverly connection, chilled
august 5 and 6, monday and tuesday
- im a bum, tryin to be productive and bitter haha oh well
so that's wuts happening. i basically cant go out coz they said i do that too much already. wtf. iono. sucks to be me. oh well. um wut else. ill blog again later wen my brain's awake.
august 2, friday
- did all my chores and chilled with sue at home
- hoping id be able to go to maria's but got the sermon instead
august 3, saturday
- went to santa barbara with sister, her friends marge and floyd, and bj
- i so wanted to go to maria's but i couldnt go out unless i was with sister
august 4, sunday
- went to church with sister, and saw bel, keith and bj there too
- went home, chilled for awhile, then went to the grove with sister and her friend jeff
- met up with bel, trina, keith, and bj there
- chilled, went to beverly connection, chilled
august 5 and 6, monday and tuesday
- im a bum, tryin to be productive and bitter haha oh well
so that's wuts happening. i basically cant go out coz they said i do that too much already. wtf. iono. sucks to be me. oh well. um wut else. ill blog again later wen my brain's awake.
Thursday, August 01, 2002
man today was sadtimes...i spoiled the beach outing for bel, keith, and bj. sorry u guys. okai here's wut happened...
me n bj went to keith's house just coz...then they were all "lets go to the beach"...so i was all..orite...so keith was all preparing and stuff...and we stopped by bj's house for towels n stuff...and then we decided to kidnap bel (sowee bel i forgot to say it was a beach outing haha)...so yeah...everything was goin fine...it was trafficy but its alll gud. so after an hour's drive my mom calls me and was all pissed coz i dint tell her i was goin somewhere. so she decides to ruin my fun and told me to get my ass home. fucker. big trouble woohoo. so i had to go home even though we were like more than halfway to the beach after all that traffic n shit. im soweeee u guys i felt rilly bad. i owe u guys a beach trip. so we decided to pass by in n out first...comfort food. funtimes. while my mother called me 5 times in a row...and left 13 messages in the friggin answering machine at home. fucker. that was scary. i jus dont understand why she was all bein paranoid and shit. i mean wut can possibly happen to me on a weekday afternoon. fuck. so they chilled at my house for a while. then i had to kick them out coz mom will be home soon. she got home and wasnt talkin to me at all. silent treatment woohoo. i thought that was kinda scary...but perty cool. for once she has nothing to say to me. so i took a nap...woke up and she's still not talking...wutever. and then dinnertime she was all normal and shit. her usual happy self. i was all....hhmmm sumtin's wrong here. so later on she talks to me coz she asked me to type up sumtin for her. she was all bein nice n stuff...i was all...hmm okai now this is rilly wrong. she dint mention a single thing about wut i did. my sister was all, "maybe she felt guilty." waha well yeah. wutever. i duno if that means she'll let me go on saturday. we'll see. but if i cant, i suck. but its all gud coz im used to it. ive been dealing with this ish since forever. i think i can handle it for couple more months.
me n bj went to keith's house just coz...then they were all "lets go to the beach"...so i was all..orite...so keith was all preparing and stuff...and we stopped by bj's house for towels n stuff...and then we decided to kidnap bel (sowee bel i forgot to say it was a beach outing haha)...so yeah...everything was goin fine...it was trafficy but its alll gud. so after an hour's drive my mom calls me and was all pissed coz i dint tell her i was goin somewhere. so she decides to ruin my fun and told me to get my ass home. fucker. big trouble woohoo. so i had to go home even though we were like more than halfway to the beach after all that traffic n shit. im soweeee u guys i felt rilly bad. i owe u guys a beach trip. so we decided to pass by in n out first...comfort food. funtimes. while my mother called me 5 times in a row...and left 13 messages in the friggin answering machine at home. fucker. that was scary. i jus dont understand why she was all bein paranoid and shit. i mean wut can possibly happen to me on a weekday afternoon. fuck. so they chilled at my house for a while. then i had to kick them out coz mom will be home soon. she got home and wasnt talkin to me at all. silent treatment woohoo. i thought that was kinda scary...but perty cool. for once she has nothing to say to me. so i took a nap...woke up and she's still not talking...wutever. and then dinnertime she was all normal and shit. her usual happy self. i was all....hhmmm sumtin's wrong here. so later on she talks to me coz she asked me to type up sumtin for her. she was all bein nice n stuff...i was all...hmm okai now this is rilly wrong. she dint mention a single thing about wut i did. my sister was all, "maybe she felt guilty." waha well yeah. wutever. i duno if that means she'll let me go on saturday. we'll see. but if i cant, i suck. but its all gud coz im used to it. ive been dealing with this ish since forever. i think i can handle it for couple more months.
Wednesday, July 31, 2002
This week started out perfectly, just becoz I got to chill with my girls yesterday. Okai lets have a recap so that its easier…
- got up at 7:30..took a shower
- started cooking at 8am for the meeting haha
- bj came and gave me fun stuff from his trip
- we go to class and he sat in woohoo
- we go back to my house and fought with sue about parking
- 6 of us chilled for awhile, ate, saw a flip movie
- bj n me go pick up mari at togo’s
- so we finally started the sharing --> funtimes. I luv my girls.
- Left to eat at islands
- Got home and dint get in trouble woohoo
Even though maria was present through speaker fone for a while, we still missed her. But all in all, the kickback was fun. Its just nice to catch up with wuts happening with everyone else yah know. I wish all of us girls the best of luck in our lil “journeys” in life. heeheeee
So today was fun too. Bj picked me up after school and we jus chilled at home.
Basically, ive been a happy girl these past few weeks. I mean, life hasn’t been all perfect or nething like that. But its been good. I guess those of you who know wutsup with me might be thinking, “of course she’s happy…why would she not be.” Well yah that’s true. Im having fun this summer. That’s wut summer’s supposed to be neway. I jus wana have some funtimes before we all go off to college, out into the real world. I just wana make some fun memories to remember yah know. That’s all I want. But neways, I just wish everyone who’s been goin thru a lot of ish can find a way to have funtimes this summer. I know its hard to be optimistic sometimes. Well all the time actually. I find it hard to do it myself. But I guess its jus a matter of attitude. As I always say, if u wana have funtimes, then ull find a way to have funtimes. That’s all for now.
- got up at 7:30..took a shower
- started cooking at 8am for the meeting haha
- bj came and gave me fun stuff from his trip
- we go to class and he sat in woohoo
- we go back to my house and fought with sue about parking
- 6 of us chilled for awhile, ate, saw a flip movie
- bj n me go pick up mari at togo’s
- so we finally started the sharing --> funtimes. I luv my girls.
- Left to eat at islands
- Got home and dint get in trouble woohoo
Even though maria was present through speaker fone for a while, we still missed her. But all in all, the kickback was fun. Its just nice to catch up with wuts happening with everyone else yah know. I wish all of us girls the best of luck in our lil “journeys” in life. heeheeee
So today was fun too. Bj picked me up after school and we jus chilled at home.
Basically, ive been a happy girl these past few weeks. I mean, life hasn’t been all perfect or nething like that. But its been good. I guess those of you who know wutsup with me might be thinking, “of course she’s happy…why would she not be.” Well yah that’s true. Im having fun this summer. That’s wut summer’s supposed to be neway. I jus wana have some funtimes before we all go off to college, out into the real world. I just wana make some fun memories to remember yah know. That’s all I want. But neways, I just wish everyone who’s been goin thru a lot of ish can find a way to have funtimes this summer. I know its hard to be optimistic sometimes. Well all the time actually. I find it hard to do it myself. But I guess its jus a matter of attitude. As I always say, if u wana have funtimes, then ull find a way to have funtimes. That’s all for now.
Sunday, July 28, 2002
This week has been an eeeh one. Ive been bumming around, goin to summer school, and then sleeping the whole day. That was nice. Hahaha. But yeah, I got time to jus chill and do nothing and think of nothing. That was cool. Man I duno wut else to say. Ooh except today was funtimes for me. I got spoiled by my mommy todaaaay woohoo. I got me some clothes of course…and guess wut else?!? A fone! Woohoo finally! Yeaah that was the highlight of the day.
Oh and I ran into two of my immac girls today too. Alisha and Christine woohoo. Aaww I miss my girls. It was nice running into people I havent seen o talked to in awhile. And even though I havent seen maureen in a while, its nice to know that’s she’s never bored at SLO waahhahaha funtimes all the time buddy.
To bel and shar….aww u guys I thought my dad was gona stop to let u guys ride but then I guess not. Lol I felt bad. Soweeeee.
Welcum back suuuuuuueeeeeeeeeeee and bj!
I wana change my template gggrr. But itll take me awhile to fix it. Im too layzee. Eh wutever.
Oh and I ran into two of my immac girls today too. Alisha and Christine woohoo. Aaww I miss my girls. It was nice running into people I havent seen o talked to in awhile. And even though I havent seen maureen in a while, its nice to know that’s she’s never bored at SLO waahhahaha funtimes all the time buddy.
To bel and shar….aww u guys I thought my dad was gona stop to let u guys ride but then I guess not. Lol I felt bad. Soweeeee.
Welcum back suuuuuuueeeeeeeeeeee and bj!
I wana change my template gggrr. But itll take me awhile to fix it. Im too layzee. Eh wutever.
Monday, July 22, 2002
since sue, bel, and maria made me feel oh-so-special, i was inspired to do the same thing. so to my girls, i luv u all, and i dont know where the hell i would be without ur constant support and trust in me. u guys are my foundation, the “table” of all the appetizers, maindishes, and desserts that i would have. without you, all the funtimes in my life would not exist. thank you...and i luv u...mwah!
(in alphabetical order lol)...
bel - aaaaww beeeeeeeeeeel. wut can i say, but from funtimes in algebra, to goodtimes at the mall wahahaha, to the fun rides that ur mom always gave me just so id have a life haha, thank u soooo much. thanx for not freakin out about u know...uve been so supportive...i needed that...thanx bel i luv u!
chelle - omigod chelle u dont know how much this whole rommie thing is affecting me. chelle u dont understand! i dont wana lose u..u freak on a big stick. u have to promise me we’ll make things work damn u. but neways, i know i dont get to talk to u on a regular basis nemore...coz ud rather be with other people than us...but its okai...hahah naw im kidding. but yeah..... uve been there to listen to my stupid nonsense, and support me 100% of the time. thank u so much ur the best. i know u always blog about the sadness inside of u. but i jus hope u see the funtimes that i know is somewhere in there. smile chelle. u r beautiful. i luv u.
mari - mari! dude im serious...where the hell are u...uve been M.I.A. (missing in action) since...see i dont even know! man o man u still alive dude? newayssss....mari....i jus wana thank you for ur dreams.. hahahaha. if it werent for them, i dont know where i would be rite now lol. u were one of my best supporters, always reminding me about “wutever floats my boat”. well, im sailing away! wahahaaha i luv u mari.
maria - mariaaaaaa omigod my laffin partner. oh maaan. u bring the sunshine in my life. i know i said u were the saddest of the combo, bread, and salad, but i told u exactly why. omigod maria ur hot orite? and if they cant see that, well then sux to be them. maybe we can say that god has sumthin majorly fun for u in the future. everything happens for a reason. rite mi amiga? also, thank you so much for the happy thoughts u sent my way the last time we talked on the fone. heehee i luv u maria!
shar - omigod seastar wutupwutup? do u remmber junior retreat? horseshoe? yeah we rock. if it werent for that experience, i duno if u and i would have funtimes at all. man o man shar. not only were u my retreat buddy, but also the coolest physics cheatmate. haha. man o man im so glad u stayed till the end. or else i wouldve gona crayzee. and oh yes....we do need to have our talk. i luv u shar.
sue - sssssuuuueeeeee. dayum sue. one more month. suuuee why cant u jus stay here??!?!? that just shows how much u care about us boohoo. naw im playin. heehee. but seriously sue. uve been there, every minute, even every second of my day, that i wouldnt know wut it would be like wen u leave. u have given me so much, (u know wut they all are....im not gona mention them...it ranges from material things to nonmaterial things haha) and words cannot express the gratitude that i feel. i dont know where i would be without u. i luv u sue.
and for everyone else (you know who u guys are..the ones readin this rite now =)), who may have also touched my life in one way or another, i luv u.
(in alphabetical order lol)...
bel - aaaaww beeeeeeeeeeel. wut can i say, but from funtimes in algebra, to goodtimes at the mall wahahaha, to the fun rides that ur mom always gave me just so id have a life haha, thank u soooo much. thanx for not freakin out about u know...uve been so supportive...i needed that...thanx bel i luv u!
chelle - omigod chelle u dont know how much this whole rommie thing is affecting me. chelle u dont understand! i dont wana lose u..u freak on a big stick. u have to promise me we’ll make things work damn u. but neways, i know i dont get to talk to u on a regular basis nemore...coz ud rather be with other people than us...but its okai...hahah naw im kidding. but yeah..... uve been there to listen to my stupid nonsense, and support me 100% of the time. thank u so much ur the best. i know u always blog about the sadness inside of u. but i jus hope u see the funtimes that i know is somewhere in there. smile chelle. u r beautiful. i luv u.
mari - mari! dude im serious...where the hell are u...uve been M.I.A. (missing in action) since...see i dont even know! man o man u still alive dude? newayssss....mari....i jus wana thank you for ur dreams.. hahahaha. if it werent for them, i dont know where i would be rite now lol. u were one of my best supporters, always reminding me about “wutever floats my boat”. well, im sailing away! wahahaaha i luv u mari.
maria - mariaaaaaa omigod my laffin partner. oh maaan. u bring the sunshine in my life. i know i said u were the saddest of the combo, bread, and salad, but i told u exactly why. omigod maria ur hot orite? and if they cant see that, well then sux to be them. maybe we can say that god has sumthin majorly fun for u in the future. everything happens for a reason. rite mi amiga? also, thank you so much for the happy thoughts u sent my way the last time we talked on the fone. heehee i luv u maria!
shar - omigod seastar wutupwutup? do u remmber junior retreat? horseshoe? yeah we rock. if it werent for that experience, i duno if u and i would have funtimes at all. man o man shar. not only were u my retreat buddy, but also the coolest physics cheatmate. haha. man o man im so glad u stayed till the end. or else i wouldve gona crayzee. and oh yes....we do need to have our talk. i luv u shar.
sue - sssssuuuueeeeee. dayum sue. one more month. suuuee why cant u jus stay here??!?!? that just shows how much u care about us boohoo. naw im playin. heehee. but seriously sue. uve been there, every minute, even every second of my day, that i wouldnt know wut it would be like wen u leave. u have given me so much, (u know wut they all are....im not gona mention them...it ranges from material things to nonmaterial things haha) and words cannot express the gratitude that i feel. i dont know where i would be without u. i luv u sue.
and for everyone else (you know who u guys are..the ones readin this rite now =)), who may have also touched my life in one way or another, i luv u.
Friday, July 19, 2002
yesterday was funtimes once again of course.
- summer school: learned that the teacher does see every move u make
- bj n sue picked me up and then went to keith's house...keith n bel came
- went to marketplace...panda...jewel city...woohoo yay for me n keith the best players (special awards: sue for almost making a hole on the floor every single time, bel for her graceful bowling moves, bj for 10 fouls in a row waha naw im playin)
- ray, aprille, and cool fartnah came yaaay i miss the couuuurrtt
- after two games we chilled at my house...funtimes...all the time
- they all left and had funtimes at coffee bean without me...yeah i c how it is
- and yes...interesting convos with sue n chelle who else...maan u guys r the bomb waha
todaaay....
i guess ima be stuck at home today. im not part of the funtimes at maria's coz id have to be home by 5..and that wouldnt happen. so yah. sleepy time for me today woohoo.
yaay fun filled week yet again. i guess next week will be an eeh week for me coz sue n bj r both not gona be here sadness. man why is everyone leavin. to mitch, bj, n sue, and whoever else is goin somewhere...have fuuuuuuuuuuun!
i have some random thoughts in my head rite now but i still have to organize it. haha so check again later yay.
- summer school: learned that the teacher does see every move u make
- bj n sue picked me up and then went to keith's house...keith n bel came
- went to marketplace...panda...jewel city...woohoo yay for me n keith the best players (special awards: sue for almost making a hole on the floor every single time, bel for her graceful bowling moves, bj for 10 fouls in a row waha naw im playin)
- ray, aprille, and cool fartnah came yaaay i miss the couuuurrtt
- after two games we chilled at my house...funtimes...all the time
- they all left and had funtimes at coffee bean without me...yeah i c how it is
- and yes...interesting convos with sue n chelle who else...maan u guys r the bomb waha
todaaay....
i guess ima be stuck at home today. im not part of the funtimes at maria's coz id have to be home by 5..and that wouldnt happen. so yah. sleepy time for me today woohoo.
yaay fun filled week yet again. i guess next week will be an eeh week for me coz sue n bj r both not gona be here sadness. man why is everyone leavin. to mitch, bj, n sue, and whoever else is goin somewhere...have fuuuuuuuuuuun!
i have some random thoughts in my head rite now but i still have to organize it. haha so check again later yay.
Wednesday, July 17, 2002
BLOGTIME!
monday, july 15
first day of school at lacc. i thought i was gona end up taking poli sci....but i ended up liking psych much better. funtimes all the time. hmmm i forgot wut else i did. i think i slept the whole day. yeah i forgot. next day...
tuesday, july 16
second day of summer school. eh. great. but after school was funtimes. outing with sue, shar, chelle, keith, bj, joe, john, and jonn woohoo
- bj picked me up from school
- got lost goin to sue’s house
- got there...we were late yes we’re sorry
- followed keith to hermosa
- funtimes all the time at the beach
- left and changed at sue’s
- ate at andre’s...italian and chilled there for a while
- went to the grove to watch the fountain
check out sue’s blog for more details.. I HAD MAJOR FUNTIMES. i got in trouble wen i got home, but wutever...it was worth it.
wednesday, july 17 (today)
third day of summer school. still eh. but its also cool. perty interesting funtimes with interesting people in class.. major points for keith for giving me a ride yay. after school i had fun bonding times with bj. went to in n out...dairy queen...haha...then chilled at my house n watched american history x...fun movie haha. thanx dude for a fun day.
time for messages to my girls...
bel - welcum back beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel
mari - where the hell r u man
shar - man wen u gona tell me ur story?
maria - u still got it. u still make me laff. thanx mi amigaaaaa
chelle - sooo...howwwss it goooeeenn????...holy mother i have a story for u..oh yah thank u so much for
bein one of my trusted advisers i luv u chelle.
sue - damn u bitch i luv u haha. i guess all i can say is..where would i be without you.. i owe it all to u. thanx so much i luv u sue.
random thoughts...
- things dont turn out the way u expect them to be
- it’ll come when u least expect it
- i just wana live my life as if there’s no tomorrow
well all i can say is i luv summer. it’s the best one so far. man. iono. im speechless. geezus. um...yah...im happy. there. that says it all.
monday, july 15
first day of school at lacc. i thought i was gona end up taking poli sci....but i ended up liking psych much better. funtimes all the time. hmmm i forgot wut else i did. i think i slept the whole day. yeah i forgot. next day...
tuesday, july 16
second day of summer school. eh. great. but after school was funtimes. outing with sue, shar, chelle, keith, bj, joe, john, and jonn woohoo
- bj picked me up from school
- got lost goin to sue’s house
- got there...we were late yes we’re sorry
- followed keith to hermosa
- funtimes all the time at the beach
- left and changed at sue’s
- ate at andre’s...italian and chilled there for a while
- went to the grove to watch the fountain
check out sue’s blog for more details.. I HAD MAJOR FUNTIMES. i got in trouble wen i got home, but wutever...it was worth it.
wednesday, july 17 (today)
third day of summer school. still eh. but its also cool. perty interesting funtimes with interesting people in class.. major points for keith for giving me a ride yay. after school i had fun bonding times with bj. went to in n out...dairy queen...haha...then chilled at my house n watched american history x...fun movie haha. thanx dude for a fun day.
time for messages to my girls...
bel - welcum back beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel
mari - where the hell r u man
shar - man wen u gona tell me ur story?
maria - u still got it. u still make me laff. thanx mi amigaaaaa
chelle - sooo...howwwss it goooeeenn????...holy mother i have a story for u..oh yah thank u so much for
bein one of my trusted advisers i luv u chelle.
sue - damn u bitch i luv u haha. i guess all i can say is..where would i be without you.. i owe it all to u. thanx so much i luv u sue.
random thoughts...
- things dont turn out the way u expect them to be
- it’ll come when u least expect it
- i just wana live my life as if there’s no tomorrow
well all i can say is i luv summer. it’s the best one so far. man. iono. im speechless. geezus. um...yah...im happy. there. that says it all.
Monday, July 15, 2002
GOT BACK FROM UCI ORIENTATION WOOHOO!
July 11, Thursday
- got only 2 hours of sleep coz I jus luv my chatroom buddies sue, maria, chelle, keith, and bj haahaa
- woke up at 5am, left at 6 with chelle n my dad, got to uci, took my precalc test, saw jason n patrick
- chelle’s ate tricia and her bf mike took us to their place to chill, chelle’s ate berly took us to in n out
- me n chelle took id pics, chilled, saw mad and sidney, then checked in our dorms yaaay
- chelle n I were in different dorms (which was perty gud rite chelle? U have to admit it was better that we were separated) GO OTERO! GO NINTERO haha
- Met a lot of interesting people, and cute anteaters. Maaan I luv my staff people
- My roomie Stephanie was cool, she was 20 but she looked like she was 12.
- Had interesting convos with these cool people who im so thankful I met. Jeanette and Colleen were my girls. Theyre perty cool people.
- Me n chelle wandered late that night looking for a computer with aim. Haha jk. But man was I was dying of aim deprivation I swear.
July 12, Friday
- breakfast with fun people, then academic counseling (that was torture), picnic at the park (with fun games of course)
- academic counseling once again. Met a new friend who is undecided too but wants to major in ics too. Yay we mite have same classes together.
- Basically chilled with cool people till the talent show
- Talent show: anteaters are awesome. Theyre a bunch of talented and funny people who know how to entertain yayay.
- Dance at the plaza woohoo funtimes with my dorm people and of course freakydeaky chelle.
July 13, Saturday
- Dint rilly sleep coz we played hella fun games: the animal game, stick game haahaa, mafia, cross dressing game, sexual position game. Sounds like funtimes haa
- We were basically waiting till sunrise so we all went up the parking lot and chilled aww that waas fun.
- Thought I could take a one hour nap so I could eat breakfast, but noooo I overslept and missed breakfast. Damn.
- Closing. Went back to dorms and had an awesome experience. It was almost like mini kairos I swear. The touch game did touch my heart. Ill never forget that game.
- OOOOOOOOOTERO!
- Yay for the coolest staffers – man I forgot some of their names. Haha but lets try this: Hian, Shelby, Katie, R, Beat, Josh, Nick, and the sexiest ones, my group leaders Thao and Rachel. YAY! Theyre the nicest and the best leaders one could have. They made me feel at home, and that I was truly part of the group. Theyre one awesome group of people I luv them all.
- Checkout time. GOODBYE EVERYONE! DON’T FORGET THE SPOP REUNION!
- sue n shar picked me n chelle up. Aww I missed my girls. Ate at islands
- the ride home was fun for me n chelle coz we catched up on our sleep. Sue n shar we need those pictures that u said u took damn u. haha.
- Man o man I miss laffin w/ maria. Mariaaa u know wuts funner? Telllin ur story live.
- Dropped of shar then chelle. Then my house. Then me n sue went to the mall and then marketplace to chill n eat.
- Chelle called tellin us to come over n bring her food. Sorry no panda for u chelle, it was all sue’s fault.
- Bj n keith were there too so we had funtimes in our almost complete live chatroom (maria was the only one missing)
- Keith has the coolest car n radio wahaa wutupwutupwutup
- Got home, dint get in trouble woohoo (yeah coz that’s how much my family misssed me)
July 14, Sunday
- had to go to church t 9am at omgc. Maaan I need sleeeep I swear.
- Saw bj, but no keith. Tsk tsk major negative points for him, but major points for bj coz we chilled the whole day with my sister. Went to santa monica beach, (kinkyness all over damn) ate at mr. Noodle at westwood (thanx sister!), and diddy riese (yes I wasted my ice cream sandwich im sorry), and then went to rodeo to try and avoid getting food coma (and some more kinkyness of course).
- Went back to omgc to drop off bj coz he left his car there
- Got home, took a nice nap, and then fun bonding times with mi familia si.
Random thoughts:
The whole orientation experience was great. I rilly did not wana go at first. I got there with the feeling of “not wanting to be there”. I was scared, felt sad, and wanted to go home. But then immediately that first night of orientation, I met the coolest people. We were all jus chillen and we all started getting to know each other. That was cool. So the second day I woke up and felt good. I decided that its up to me if I want to make this orientation fun for me or not. I realized that if I want to make the best out of that experience, I should make an effort to make it as awesome as I want it to be. I woke up with a positive attitude, and jus seized the day. So the next couple of days was awesome. Ill admit, it did feel like I was there for one whole week. But I had fun. On the third day, I guess I was excited to go home. But it was jus so weird how I felt like I was leaving that place for good, wen rilly, im gona be back there in two months. The last activity just amazed me. I havent felt that much loved in a while. It was amazing.
The nice lunch with sue, shar, and chelle was nice. Its nice to see familiar faces once again. Sue n shar, u guys will have funtimes at orientation too. Don’t worry about it. U will if u want to. Trust me.
I realized that college is a whole new different world. It’s a whole new different experience, far away from high school and far away from home. I hate changes. Im bad at dealing with changes, or anything that has to do with it. I don’t like starting from scratch. Ive gone thru it before, and im scared that my first year in collge would be hell. But then, I also realized that if I don’t, at least, make an effort to just give it a try, then I rilly will be experiencing hell. Its up to me if I want college to be fun or not. I will if I want it to be. So I decided, that I will make it funtimes all the time. Yes I will haha.
It’s nice to be back home. I luv seeing familiar faces once again, and jus kickin it with funfunfun people. Especially today. That was funtimes all the time.
July 11, Thursday
- got only 2 hours of sleep coz I jus luv my chatroom buddies sue, maria, chelle, keith, and bj haahaa
- woke up at 5am, left at 6 with chelle n my dad, got to uci, took my precalc test, saw jason n patrick
- chelle’s ate tricia and her bf mike took us to their place to chill, chelle’s ate berly took us to in n out
- me n chelle took id pics, chilled, saw mad and sidney, then checked in our dorms yaaay
- chelle n I were in different dorms (which was perty gud rite chelle? U have to admit it was better that we were separated) GO OTERO! GO NINTERO haha
- Met a lot of interesting people, and cute anteaters. Maaan I luv my staff people
- My roomie Stephanie was cool, she was 20 but she looked like she was 12.
- Had interesting convos with these cool people who im so thankful I met. Jeanette and Colleen were my girls. Theyre perty cool people.
- Me n chelle wandered late that night looking for a computer with aim. Haha jk. But man was I was dying of aim deprivation I swear.
July 12, Friday
- breakfast with fun people, then academic counseling (that was torture), picnic at the park (with fun games of course)
- academic counseling once again. Met a new friend who is undecided too but wants to major in ics too. Yay we mite have same classes together.
- Basically chilled with cool people till the talent show
- Talent show: anteaters are awesome. Theyre a bunch of talented and funny people who know how to entertain yayay.
- Dance at the plaza woohoo funtimes with my dorm people and of course freakydeaky chelle.
July 13, Saturday
- Dint rilly sleep coz we played hella fun games: the animal game, stick game haahaa, mafia, cross dressing game, sexual position game. Sounds like funtimes haa
- We were basically waiting till sunrise so we all went up the parking lot and chilled aww that waas fun.
- Thought I could take a one hour nap so I could eat breakfast, but noooo I overslept and missed breakfast. Damn.
- Closing. Went back to dorms and had an awesome experience. It was almost like mini kairos I swear. The touch game did touch my heart. Ill never forget that game.
- OOOOOOOOOTERO!
- Yay for the coolest staffers – man I forgot some of their names. Haha but lets try this: Hian, Shelby, Katie, R, Beat, Josh, Nick, and the sexiest ones, my group leaders Thao and Rachel. YAY! Theyre the nicest and the best leaders one could have. They made me feel at home, and that I was truly part of the group. Theyre one awesome group of people I luv them all.
- Checkout time. GOODBYE EVERYONE! DON’T FORGET THE SPOP REUNION!
- sue n shar picked me n chelle up. Aww I missed my girls. Ate at islands
- the ride home was fun for me n chelle coz we catched up on our sleep. Sue n shar we need those pictures that u said u took damn u. haha.
- Man o man I miss laffin w/ maria. Mariaaa u know wuts funner? Telllin ur story live.
- Dropped of shar then chelle. Then my house. Then me n sue went to the mall and then marketplace to chill n eat.
- Chelle called tellin us to come over n bring her food. Sorry no panda for u chelle, it was all sue’s fault.
- Bj n keith were there too so we had funtimes in our almost complete live chatroom (maria was the only one missing)
- Keith has the coolest car n radio wahaa wutupwutupwutup
- Got home, dint get in trouble woohoo (yeah coz that’s how much my family misssed me)
July 14, Sunday
- had to go to church t 9am at omgc. Maaan I need sleeeep I swear.
- Saw bj, but no keith. Tsk tsk major negative points for him, but major points for bj coz we chilled the whole day with my sister. Went to santa monica beach, (kinkyness all over damn) ate at mr. Noodle at westwood (thanx sister!), and diddy riese (yes I wasted my ice cream sandwich im sorry), and then went to rodeo to try and avoid getting food coma (and some more kinkyness of course).
- Went back to omgc to drop off bj coz he left his car there
- Got home, took a nice nap, and then fun bonding times with mi familia si.
Random thoughts:
The whole orientation experience was great. I rilly did not wana go at first. I got there with the feeling of “not wanting to be there”. I was scared, felt sad, and wanted to go home. But then immediately that first night of orientation, I met the coolest people. We were all jus chillen and we all started getting to know each other. That was cool. So the second day I woke up and felt good. I decided that its up to me if I want to make this orientation fun for me or not. I realized that if I want to make the best out of that experience, I should make an effort to make it as awesome as I want it to be. I woke up with a positive attitude, and jus seized the day. So the next couple of days was awesome. Ill admit, it did feel like I was there for one whole week. But I had fun. On the third day, I guess I was excited to go home. But it was jus so weird how I felt like I was leaving that place for good, wen rilly, im gona be back there in two months. The last activity just amazed me. I havent felt that much loved in a while. It was amazing.
The nice lunch with sue, shar, and chelle was nice. Its nice to see familiar faces once again. Sue n shar, u guys will have funtimes at orientation too. Don’t worry about it. U will if u want to. Trust me.
I realized that college is a whole new different world. It’s a whole new different experience, far away from high school and far away from home. I hate changes. Im bad at dealing with changes, or anything that has to do with it. I don’t like starting from scratch. Ive gone thru it before, and im scared that my first year in collge would be hell. But then, I also realized that if I don’t, at least, make an effort to just give it a try, then I rilly will be experiencing hell. Its up to me if I want college to be fun or not. I will if I want it to be. So I decided, that I will make it funtimes all the time. Yes I will haha.
It’s nice to be back home. I luv seeing familiar faces once again, and jus kickin it with funfunfun people. Especially today. That was funtimes all the time.
Tuesday, July 09, 2002
yes yes yes i know i havent been bloggin that much. its jus coz i rilly have nothing to blog about...nothing that would interest you neways...waha ...but neways....im gona blog just for the hell of it...and so that u would have sumthin to do. OOOHHH and i wrote some deep shiet in the end end so yah enjoy haha.
july 3, wednesday
i forgot wut happened
july 4, thursday
happy 4th of july! had a lil party thing at my grandma’s house. fun bonding times with cousins. man ima miss jus kickin it and doing wutever with them wen i leave. so yeah, after that went to old town and got some stuff at pacsun. man their pacsun over there is perty gud. so yeah went to target after, and then ate at in n out. fun bonding times with family grreeaaaat.
july 5, friday
kat’s debut. sue picked me up, then maria, then bel and then we went to coffee bean and played the game haha. that was fun. so we get to the hotel and i see everyone once again. aww everyone was so perty. the debut was beautiful, jus like chelle’s. i had fun....im perty sure everyone did. of course they all did. i know maria n mari did. wahahaa. yaay. i was jus kinda sad after wen i realized that that mite be the last time ima be seeing these people. maaan i swear we all have to go out again soon.
july 6, saturday
lil party thing at tita’s house. yaay food. funtimes with family and cousins again as usual. then two lil cousins, sister, and me went to go see mr. deeds at the marketplace yaaaay. fun bonding times at taco bell haha.
july 7, sunday
went to church at 9. keith wasnt there so negative points for him hahaaa. then we all went to eat at sushi mac at friggin sherman oaks geesh. then i remembered i had this gift that i wanted to return from myaunt. haha. she got it at mervyn’s so i had to actually look for sumthin i like in that store. man was that a challenge. so my mom saved my life by buying some kitchen thing so that she could use the gift money, and she just paid me my cash. then i was happy! so then after that me n sister decided to watch the yaya sisterhood. we went to burbank, watched, and ate at bj’s (who have cheater waiters btw gggrrrrrrr).
july 8, monday
fun talk with mommie. haha man i luv my mother.
july 9, tuesday
ate at thai bbq with sue and then went to marketplace to get coldstones. chilled at my house and of course had an interesting talk. man sue, wen do ever not have an interesting talk?
okai time to be deep....
have u ever heard someone say that life is just like a book, composed of chapters that never seem to end. each chapter has a new adventure, a certain climax that will never be forgoten. the first few chapters of one’s life may start out in high spirits, and end in a resentment. or maybe it could start with bitterness, and end with true bliss. each chapter has its ups and downs, but wut makes up the whole is the experience. each chapter gives one the opportunity to better understand life. it doesnt matter if it hurts. it doesnt matter if it brings you tears. it doesnt matter if it breaks your heart. what matters is that it strengthens. it tests your mind, it tests your heart, it tests your faith. living life to the fullest means living each chapter, page by page, without the fear of stumbling or losing sight of one’s way. each chapter teaches. it does not bring one down to the point of defeat. it does not mean to ruin or cause hatred. each chapter is a challenge that one has to go through in order to move on to the next. once a chapter has ended, as one wanted it to end or not, it is time to turn the page and start a new one. the question is, when can one say that it truly is over? only time can tell. maybe if one looks hard enough, one can find a way to move on and start that new chapter in life. maybe i already did.
july 3, wednesday
i forgot wut happened
july 4, thursday
happy 4th of july! had a lil party thing at my grandma’s house. fun bonding times with cousins. man ima miss jus kickin it and doing wutever with them wen i leave. so yeah, after that went to old town and got some stuff at pacsun. man their pacsun over there is perty gud. so yeah went to target after, and then ate at in n out. fun bonding times with family grreeaaaat.
july 5, friday
kat’s debut. sue picked me up, then maria, then bel and then we went to coffee bean and played the game haha. that was fun. so we get to the hotel and i see everyone once again. aww everyone was so perty. the debut was beautiful, jus like chelle’s. i had fun....im perty sure everyone did. of course they all did. i know maria n mari did. wahahaa. yaay. i was jus kinda sad after wen i realized that that mite be the last time ima be seeing these people. maaan i swear we all have to go out again soon.
july 6, saturday
lil party thing at tita’s house. yaay food. funtimes with family and cousins again as usual. then two lil cousins, sister, and me went to go see mr. deeds at the marketplace yaaaay. fun bonding times at taco bell haha.
july 7, sunday
went to church at 9. keith wasnt there so negative points for him hahaaa. then we all went to eat at sushi mac at friggin sherman oaks geesh. then i remembered i had this gift that i wanted to return from myaunt. haha. she got it at mervyn’s so i had to actually look for sumthin i like in that store. man was that a challenge. so my mom saved my life by buying some kitchen thing so that she could use the gift money, and she just paid me my cash. then i was happy! so then after that me n sister decided to watch the yaya sisterhood. we went to burbank, watched, and ate at bj’s (who have cheater waiters btw gggrrrrrrr).
july 8, monday
fun talk with mommie. haha man i luv my mother.
july 9, tuesday
ate at thai bbq with sue and then went to marketplace to get coldstones. chilled at my house and of course had an interesting talk. man sue, wen do ever not have an interesting talk?
okai time to be deep....
have u ever heard someone say that life is just like a book, composed of chapters that never seem to end. each chapter has a new adventure, a certain climax that will never be forgoten. the first few chapters of one’s life may start out in high spirits, and end in a resentment. or maybe it could start with bitterness, and end with true bliss. each chapter has its ups and downs, but wut makes up the whole is the experience. each chapter gives one the opportunity to better understand life. it doesnt matter if it hurts. it doesnt matter if it brings you tears. it doesnt matter if it breaks your heart. what matters is that it strengthens. it tests your mind, it tests your heart, it tests your faith. living life to the fullest means living each chapter, page by page, without the fear of stumbling or losing sight of one’s way. each chapter teaches. it does not bring one down to the point of defeat. it does not mean to ruin or cause hatred. each chapter is a challenge that one has to go through in order to move on to the next. once a chapter has ended, as one wanted it to end or not, it is time to turn the page and start a new one. the question is, when can one say that it truly is over? only time can tell. maybe if one looks hard enough, one can find a way to move on and start that new chapter in life. maybe i already did.
Tuesday, July 02, 2002
yay blogtime. let’s start with all the funtimes last week...
june 26, wednesday, chelle’s birthday was a very interesting day, not only for me but for a lot of people. i guess i can say things are looking better for most of us, but not for some. im one of the people who, i guess, have fixed things with certain people. i should be happy. but can u blame me if i still wasnt? wutever. im gona be okay.
june 27, thursday, practice at the hotel. but first had to watch jonn at cool fartnah’s and melissa’s coz he wanted an audience. yeah chelle found out about it neways but wutever! we did our best to keep it from her till the debut itself. well except for sue who just had to write it in her blog geesh. man i couldnt believe that was the real last practice. sadness. went to celebrate tita wela’s bday after, and yeah we did have funtimes celebrating with coffee bean and yeah. haha gud stuff. except wen my mother called and scared the shit out of me, resulting in a lie that just made everything worse haha oh well sux to be me.
june 28, friday, day of the debut. woke up early to do my chores, packed, and of course went online to see who had the heart to give me a ride to chelle’s. it was a long story, but bj took me, after passing by this office he works at. um yah thanx sue, u truly add color to my everyday life ggeesssh. got to chelle’s, got hair and makeup done, thanx nikki and melissa! okai lets make things easier and make bullet points...
- thankful for mcdonalds coz i was hella hungry
- got ready by putting on our tops, and sweating like u dont know
- rode with kat to the hotel, nervous as hell
- got there, got ready in the room, took pics, practiced our thang, saw lots of people, got more nervous
- grand entrance(CHELLE U WERE BEAUTIFUL) dinner, program GOOD JOB CZAREINE, KAT, & MELISSA and finally candles came, can never be more nervous
- after that i was fine, GOOD JOB SUE AND JONN!, cotillion performance, aawww the time finally came
- dance, dance, dance - too tired
so yeah, that was basically the whole night, funtimes at the after party of course =).
june 29, saturday, after the debut. well the after party wasn’t over. everyone got some sleep at some point. i think me n chelle were the last ones to knock out. at 5? man it’s fun watching people sleep i swear to god. yeah we were planning on watching the sunrise. our 5 minute nap became a 2 hour nap. so i got up at about 7 sumthin, got ready to go home coz i dint wana get in trouble. they were gona go to denny’s and keith’s house but i couldnt. sadness. bj took me home, took my 7 hour “nap” and got the semi-silent treatment from my mother. grrr.
man ima miss the whole court i swear. ive spent almost every single weekend since january with these people, and i dont know wut my weekends would be like anymore without practices. no more funtimes at kat’s or chelle’s, no more reason for me to go out on saturdays, no more goofin around (man i cant believe ima say this but ima miss credit cards hahahaa naww maybe not). to the whole court, especially to the coolest fartnah one could have, i will miss all of u! dude we better have more debut outings i swear.
june 30, sunday, family day. went to church, costco, trader joe’s, lola’s house, hospital to visit tito, home, vons, ralphs, home. yes quality time with family. grrreaat. mom r u happy now. got THE sermon that i thought she forgot to give me. haha. it wasnt as bad as i thought. it’s the usual. but yeah. im sowee if i let my parents down. i still am the good daughter that theyve always had. i jus need to be reminded everytime.
july 1, monday, cress and sue are back. sue picked me up to go to islands. it was closed still so we bugged mari. went back to see if islands was open yay it was. funtimes watching gay people, and dissing boys of course. but we did some praising boys too so that was fun. went back to the mall, couldnt find anything nice, went back to kidnap mari, and went to coldstones. chilled and had funtimes with mari n sue. dont worry mari i feel yah. i know wut ur goin thru coz im goin thru the same exact thing. LOL JK. and sue, maaaan i duno. im dumb. there. haha. jk. thanx sue.
july 2, today, im a bum. woke up at 1230. damn im unproductive. i need to do stuff now. ggrrr. orite ill blog again if sumthin interesting happens. i highly doubt that tho.
june 26, wednesday, chelle’s birthday was a very interesting day, not only for me but for a lot of people. i guess i can say things are looking better for most of us, but not for some. im one of the people who, i guess, have fixed things with certain people. i should be happy. but can u blame me if i still wasnt? wutever. im gona be okay.
june 27, thursday, practice at the hotel. but first had to watch jonn at cool fartnah’s and melissa’s coz he wanted an audience. yeah chelle found out about it neways but wutever! we did our best to keep it from her till the debut itself. well except for sue who just had to write it in her blog geesh. man i couldnt believe that was the real last practice. sadness. went to celebrate tita wela’s bday after, and yeah we did have funtimes celebrating with coffee bean and yeah. haha gud stuff. except wen my mother called and scared the shit out of me, resulting in a lie that just made everything worse haha oh well sux to be me.
june 28, friday, day of the debut. woke up early to do my chores, packed, and of course went online to see who had the heart to give me a ride to chelle’s. it was a long story, but bj took me, after passing by this office he works at. um yah thanx sue, u truly add color to my everyday life ggeesssh. got to chelle’s, got hair and makeup done, thanx nikki and melissa! okai lets make things easier and make bullet points...
- thankful for mcdonalds coz i was hella hungry
- got ready by putting on our tops, and sweating like u dont know
- rode with kat to the hotel, nervous as hell
- got there, got ready in the room, took pics, practiced our thang, saw lots of people, got more nervous
- grand entrance(CHELLE U WERE BEAUTIFUL) dinner, program GOOD JOB CZAREINE, KAT, & MELISSA and finally candles came, can never be more nervous
- after that i was fine, GOOD JOB SUE AND JONN!, cotillion performance, aawww the time finally came
- dance, dance, dance - too tired
so yeah, that was basically the whole night, funtimes at the after party of course =).
june 29, saturday, after the debut. well the after party wasn’t over. everyone got some sleep at some point. i think me n chelle were the last ones to knock out. at 5? man it’s fun watching people sleep i swear to god. yeah we were planning on watching the sunrise. our 5 minute nap became a 2 hour nap. so i got up at about 7 sumthin, got ready to go home coz i dint wana get in trouble. they were gona go to denny’s and keith’s house but i couldnt. sadness. bj took me home, took my 7 hour “nap” and got the semi-silent treatment from my mother. grrr.
man ima miss the whole court i swear. ive spent almost every single weekend since january with these people, and i dont know wut my weekends would be like anymore without practices. no more funtimes at kat’s or chelle’s, no more reason for me to go out on saturdays, no more goofin around (man i cant believe ima say this but ima miss credit cards hahahaa naww maybe not). to the whole court, especially to the coolest fartnah one could have, i will miss all of u! dude we better have more debut outings i swear.
june 30, sunday, family day. went to church, costco, trader joe’s, lola’s house, hospital to visit tito, home, vons, ralphs, home. yes quality time with family. grrreaat. mom r u happy now. got THE sermon that i thought she forgot to give me. haha. it wasnt as bad as i thought. it’s the usual. but yeah. im sowee if i let my parents down. i still am the good daughter that theyve always had. i jus need to be reminded everytime.
july 1, monday, cress and sue are back. sue picked me up to go to islands. it was closed still so we bugged mari. went back to see if islands was open yay it was. funtimes watching gay people, and dissing boys of course. but we did some praising boys too so that was fun. went back to the mall, couldnt find anything nice, went back to kidnap mari, and went to coldstones. chilled and had funtimes with mari n sue. dont worry mari i feel yah. i know wut ur goin thru coz im goin thru the same exact thing. LOL JK. and sue, maaaan i duno. im dumb. there. haha. jk. thanx sue.
july 2, today, im a bum. woke up at 1230. damn im unproductive. i need to do stuff now. ggrrr. orite ill blog again if sumthin interesting happens. i highly doubt that tho.