BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY COUSIN LINDSEY! I LOVE YOU COUSIN!
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Aaaah theres so much to blog about I don't know where to start! Actually, I kinda forgot about the stuff I wanted to write about. Oh well. This will be perty long. Let's see what I come up with...
I went to mass in OMGC this Saturday, and it felt kinda weird just coz I haven't been there in a while (I enjoy going to mass in Interfaith more coz I actually listen haha). So I sat there, about to space out as usual, but surprisingly I paid attention from start to finish. I thought it was a gud mass because I loved the songs they sang, and I actually listened and took in the words being said throughout the mass.
"Lord, make us turn to you, show us Your face, and we shall be saved." Sometimes I feel as though I'm too blind to see the positive things around me. I always dwell on the bad things that affect me, making me even more pessimistic towards anything I come across. It seems like I refuse to see the good things in life. I'm not exactly sure why. I realized that refusing to see the good made me refuse to see Him. If I don't see the good, how am I supposed to turn to Him and see Him? I need His help to make me see that there is more to life than going through hardtimes. I need Him to make me see the good things that make life worth living.
"With blessings come pain and suffering." Life can never be perfect. It will always have both good and bad times. Like what father said, Mary's blessing was to have Jesus as her son, but with it came the pain of seeing Him die on the cross. Life will hand us many many blessings, but it has to give us pain as well. Many people wish that life could just be perfect, with everyone happy, without suffering in this world. But perfect doesn't have to mean no pain and suffering. Perfect may simply mean seeing Him and doing His will in all that we say and do.
So newayssss...
Week after finals was a sleep filled week...yeahp approximately 12 hours of sleep each day (and that's just coz someone woke me up...I could've slept for days). But it's okai coz I had to get up some time rite. That week was a strong week for me too. No signs of weakness wutsoever. Yeahp that's right. I’m proud of it. Here's a recap of my week:
Monday, Dec 15
- work
- corned beef, fried rice with Vienna sausage nite with roomie and Gladys
- Love Actually once again
Tuesday, Dec 16
- I think chilled with roomie, David, Jay, Arnie, and Ryan W. at Turtle Rock and Starbucks and our apt magic mic-ing it
Wednesday, Dec 17
- stickball with Cristina, Jason, and Derrick (das rite dawg I can hit)...FUNTIMES!
- fun parking lot ride...tire problem...fun boba talk
- slept at 9am coz of roomie grr...haha jk...fun talk as usual...pancakes at 7am...A Walk To Remember till 9am
Thursday, Dec 18
- lunch with roomie, kat, and david
- south coast then david's apt with jay n david
- alone in the apt. kinda got ascurred. So woke someone up with a fonecall. Heehee sorry.
Friday, Dec 19
- went home home
Saturday, Dec 20
- house hunting
- church (yay church)
- mall
- Sorry Joanna couldn't go!
- Happy Birthday Tracy!
- woke someone up again demnit
Sunday, Dec 21
- mall once again. At first it was all fun and stuff, but when your feet get stepped on more than ten times it's over
I'm home home now. I've been home home since Friday thanx to Gladys n Tito. Woohoo. So far everything's gud. So far. We'll see wut happens in the next two weeks. I'm scared. I don't even know why. Demnit.
Weakness starting to take over me once again. Help?
To a special friend: I may not know the feeling of what you're going through. I may not fully understand your thoughts and feelings. I may not know what to say when you tell me your heartaches. I may not seem to have the answers to all your problems. But I'm always here to listen, and I'm here to tell you that boys suck so screw them all. ::Hug::
I love my mom. I never really realized what a strong person she is till now. It made me understand her a little bit more. I guess I can say she's been through things that I never really thought was a big deal...till now. I'm glad she's enjoying her new job. And how do I know this? She's been decorating her desk.
My sister's coming back from the Philippines tomorrow! Well actually today, Monday. I'm so excited! Not coz she's coming back, but because of my pasalubongs. Haha okai jk fine I miss her. Geeznuts.
Wow I'm actually sleepy. I think I should sleep early for once. I heard it's gud for you. Payce!
Saturday, December 20, 2003
Monday, December 15, 2003
Sunday, December 14, 2003
finals week is over thank God. i dont wana think about that now coz i dont think i did well in any of my finals. im perty sure itll be very painful wen i get my grades. oh well...sux to be me.
this week has been my bitterness week. despite all my theories about stuff, i think i rilly am jus one bitter person. haha. i have the tendency to think about the worst, most horrible, hateful case possible jus to not get my hopes up too high, to prepare myself for the disappointment, and simply make it easier for me to deal with it in the end. i mean its jus all in gud fun and shtuff, but wen it gets a little too painful i know it's time to stop. there may be times wen i get weak, but i think i would come out stronger wen its over. now i know how to deal. jus take it as it goes, no worries, dont trip, have fun, and play the game. thats right. we'll see who wins. :evil laugh:
sharing is caring. that quote fits real well this past week. it makes my heart smile wen people are willing to share a part of them to a person, with the kind of trust that makes a friendship stonger...it fills my heart with happiness...and gives me a better understanding of that person. its random times like these that make finals week much more easier to bear. haha. i love it. i love you!
friday nite was nap time...magic mic time with cristina n janice...and dinner with the roomies n david. i cooked pasta, rona cooked mashed potatoes, alisa cooked her rice, and chelle baked her special cake. oh n we bought chicken. ate a little bit too much but its all gud. i love my roomies. thanx rona for the cute gift! after dinner was party time with some sierra people. funtimes except for the cleaning up part. and stuff.
saturday...my day started at 3pm. nice. cleaned some more then dinner with gladys n tsai n roomie at sushi riki. rented while you were sleeping and got ice cream n popcorn n watched the movie at tsai's. bj n bel visited us thanx u guys. then two hours later decided to go to ihop. yeahp, we are officially a bunch of realy hungry people. AND THEN... ended up not paying for our food becoz some random person took care of our check. we were in awe for a while...didnt even know who the person was. love actually is all around...good deeds do make the world go round. thank you to whoever you are..haha like theyre gona read this. but seriously, makes me wana do a good deed...makes me wana be a better person... oooohh maybe now that person can be my number one! hahaa.
whoever wants to chill im gona be in irvine this whole week...i think. lets chill!
this week has been my bitterness week. despite all my theories about stuff, i think i rilly am jus one bitter person. haha. i have the tendency to think about the worst, most horrible, hateful case possible jus to not get my hopes up too high, to prepare myself for the disappointment, and simply make it easier for me to deal with it in the end. i mean its jus all in gud fun and shtuff, but wen it gets a little too painful i know it's time to stop. there may be times wen i get weak, but i think i would come out stronger wen its over. now i know how to deal. jus take it as it goes, no worries, dont trip, have fun, and play the game. thats right. we'll see who wins. :evil laugh:
sharing is caring. that quote fits real well this past week. it makes my heart smile wen people are willing to share a part of them to a person, with the kind of trust that makes a friendship stonger...it fills my heart with happiness...and gives me a better understanding of that person. its random times like these that make finals week much more easier to bear. haha. i love it. i love you!
friday nite was nap time...magic mic time with cristina n janice...and dinner with the roomies n david. i cooked pasta, rona cooked mashed potatoes, alisa cooked her rice, and chelle baked her special cake. oh n we bought chicken. ate a little bit too much but its all gud. i love my roomies. thanx rona for the cute gift! after dinner was party time with some sierra people. funtimes except for the cleaning up part. and stuff.
saturday...my day started at 3pm. nice. cleaned some more then dinner with gladys n tsai n roomie at sushi riki. rented while you were sleeping and got ice cream n popcorn n watched the movie at tsai's. bj n bel visited us thanx u guys. then two hours later decided to go to ihop. yeahp, we are officially a bunch of realy hungry people. AND THEN... ended up not paying for our food becoz some random person took care of our check. we were in awe for a while...didnt even know who the person was. love actually is all around...good deeds do make the world go round. thank you to whoever you are..haha like theyre gona read this. but seriously, makes me wana do a good deed...makes me wana be a better person... oooohh maybe now that person can be my number one! hahaa.
whoever wants to chill im gona be in irvine this whole week...i think. lets chill!
Saturday, December 13, 2003
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Monday, December 08, 2003
Too lazy to write about my week in detail so sux to be u if you dont get this post...
yay for a safe trip to the Philippines for my sister...fun liwanag dinner...yay for my wyse girls...soulmate but not rilly: stop it!...hso will be awesome i know it...thanx cristina n leo for caring...Note to self: stop being stupid and weak. demnit.. sue i luv good stories..i love my mom...thanx janice for feeding us u da bomb... laguna is the place to "study"... thanx tsai for the gift (it's too much! aaah)... gladys tsai n roomie dennys funtimes... pst remember u can call me netime even tho i dont answer ill still call u back and i'm always here for u (i'm not always there wen u call..but i'm always on time haha)...thanx francia for ur fun goodie bag!... from 30% to 10% to 0% to 50% to 0% once again.
GOODLUCK WITH FINALS EVERYONE!
Oh btw I'm gona be staying in Irvine week after finals week. Well I'm gona be working but I'd still wana chill (ooh that rhymes) with whoevers down...yehey.
yay for a safe trip to the Philippines for my sister...fun liwanag dinner...yay for my wyse girls...soulmate but not rilly: stop it!...hso will be awesome i know it...thanx cristina n leo for caring...Note to self: stop being stupid and weak. demnit.. sue i luv good stories..i love my mom...thanx janice for feeding us u da bomb... laguna is the place to "study"... thanx tsai for the gift (it's too much! aaah)... gladys tsai n roomie dennys funtimes... pst remember u can call me netime even tho i dont answer ill still call u back and i'm always here for u (i'm not always there wen u call..but i'm always on time haha)...thanx francia for ur fun goodie bag!... from 30% to 10% to 0% to 50% to 0% once again.
GOODLUCK WITH FINALS EVERYONE!
Oh btw I'm gona be staying in Irvine week after finals week. Well I'm gona be working but I'd still wana chill (ooh that rhymes) with whoevers down...yehey.
Friday, December 05, 2003
writer: (an anonymous different person that is not cressa)
ok so interesting day with the most interesting person(cressa). we talked, mocked and had some other forms of fun. . .if ya know what i mean ; ) all in good taste though. damn boys and their ways always trying to get attention and shiz. . .making me crazy and shiz. . .always taking a shiz on me and shiz. why cant i find that one right person to take a shiz on?? why do i always have to go for the impossible. . .its never fair but life is no crystal carnivale so hey. im so boy crazy!! i cant help it and cressa promotes this kind of behavior what kind of person is she?! i think we all know the question to that. . .hah
[#3 is the only one to be] [but #2 will always do] [and #1 is oh so done]
not
ok so interesting day with the most interesting person(cressa). we talked, mocked and had some other forms of fun. . .if ya know what i mean ; ) all in good taste though. damn boys and their ways always trying to get attention and shiz. . .making me crazy and shiz. . .always taking a shiz on me and shiz. why cant i find that one right person to take a shiz on?? why do i always have to go for the impossible. . .its never fair but life is no crystal carnivale so hey. im so boy crazy!! i cant help it and cressa promotes this kind of behavior what kind of person is she?! i think we all know the question to that. . .hah
[#3 is the only one to be] [but #2 will always do] [and #1 is oh so done]
not
Monday, December 01, 2003
Random Post...
The Final Analysis
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone may destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they might be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is all between you and God,
It was never between you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa of Calcutta
The Final Analysis
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone may destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they might be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is all between you and God,
It was never between you and them anyway.
-Mother Teresa of Calcutta
Sunday, November 30, 2003
Went to church at 11am then was supposed to look at this house that my mom wanted in Highland Park but couldnt get in so sux to be us. So we jus had a random family outing instead...San Antonio Winery in downtown LA. That would be a fun date place but kinda expensive. But neways I couldve done the whole wine tasting experience coz I dont think they wouldve carded me. I duno if that's good or bad. Haha but I didnt coz I'm too cool for that.
I wana blog about stuff but I'm not sure what. I feel like I have so much stuff to say but I'm not sure which one to blog about and I dont know where to begin or if I should even blog about it. I should rilly jus write in my journal haha. Iono why I have a blog. But neways...
It sux how I get sad for stupid reasons. Well not stupid, but more like shallow. I should just be content with what I have and be thankful for being alive. Thinking about what I don't have doesnt do me any good. It creates problems that arent even supposed to be there in the first place. Okai I need to chillax. Dang I'm hopeless.
I wana blog about stuff but I'm not sure what. I feel like I have so much stuff to say but I'm not sure which one to blog about and I dont know where to begin or if I should even blog about it. I should rilly jus write in my journal haha. Iono why I have a blog. But neways...
It sux how I get sad for stupid reasons. Well not stupid, but more like shallow. I should just be content with what I have and be thankful for being alive. Thinking about what I don't have doesnt do me any good. It creates problems that arent even supposed to be there in the first place. Okai I need to chillax. Dang I'm hopeless.
BELATED HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
Wednesday, November 26
Went back home Wednesday afternoon. Thanx Gladys and Tito for bringing me home! Despite the two and a half hour drive from Irvine to LA (yeahp we left at 5pm and got home around 7:30pm...crazy holiday traffic), I got that much sleep in the car so woohoo for me. Got home and was happy to see my family cooking stuff. Yay food! Watched While You Were Sleeping once again...stupid chick flicks *sigh*
Thursday, November 27
Thanxgiving...Tita Wally's new house in Rancho Cucamonga. This was the most bummiest thanxgiving ever...my cousins and I ate and then slept the entire time. Good stuff good stuff.
Friday, November 28
Shoppingtime. Camarillo outlets the whole day. Too much walking but its worth it when its shoppingtime. Realized how bratty I am coz wanted something from Puma and this Paul Frank thing but didn't get it coz it's too much says my mom. *sigh* haha okai im over it.
Saturday, November 29
Went to post office then had eyebrows done (but it looks the same to me). Mall for a lil bit then costco then back home to get ready for my cousin Jasmine's debut. Cousin looked beautiful of course, and the party was funtoimes all the toime. She had a Indian/Aladdin theme going on and it was coolness. The belly dancer was hot haha. My drunk kuya was hitting on my sister's friend (who was scared to death), my tita was balot-ing all the food in sight, sister was on flirting mode the entire nite, and my mom of course got a dozen giveaways jus for fun. My family ladies n gentlemen.
Note to self:
- Blog about that thing next time
- Stop being such a girl...it won't do you any good
- You need to get over it or you'll end up screwing yourself over
- Pray for a friend
- Do your homework (BWHAHAA yeah rite)
I'm liking it at home. I don't rilly wana go back to Irvine coz that means I have to do work again. But going back to Irvine means I'm gona miss home more... and I like that. It's better than not wanting to be at home.
Wednesday, November 26
Went back home Wednesday afternoon. Thanx Gladys and Tito for bringing me home! Despite the two and a half hour drive from Irvine to LA (yeahp we left at 5pm and got home around 7:30pm...crazy holiday traffic), I got that much sleep in the car so woohoo for me. Got home and was happy to see my family cooking stuff. Yay food! Watched While You Were Sleeping once again...stupid chick flicks *sigh*
Thursday, November 27
Thanxgiving...Tita Wally's new house in Rancho Cucamonga. This was the most bummiest thanxgiving ever...my cousins and I ate and then slept the entire time. Good stuff good stuff.
Friday, November 28
Shoppingtime. Camarillo outlets the whole day. Too much walking but its worth it when its shoppingtime. Realized how bratty I am coz wanted something from Puma and this Paul Frank thing but didn't get it coz it's too much says my mom. *sigh* haha okai im over it.
Saturday, November 29
Went to post office then had eyebrows done (but it looks the same to me). Mall for a lil bit then costco then back home to get ready for my cousin Jasmine's debut. Cousin looked beautiful of course, and the party was funtoimes all the toime. She had a Indian/Aladdin theme going on and it was coolness. The belly dancer was hot haha. My drunk kuya was hitting on my sister's friend (who was scared to death), my tita was balot-ing all the food in sight, sister was on flirting mode the entire nite, and my mom of course got a dozen giveaways jus for fun. My family ladies n gentlemen.
Note to self:
- Blog about that thing next time
- Stop being such a girl...it won't do you any good
- You need to get over it or you'll end up screwing yourself over
- Pray for a friend
- Do your homework (BWHAHAA yeah rite)
I'm liking it at home. I don't rilly wana go back to Irvine coz that means I have to do work again. But going back to Irvine means I'm gona miss home more... and I like that. It's better than not wanting to be at home.
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Since I haven't blogged in a while, I'm just gona give a short recap of each day of this past week. Then I'll elaborate on the stuff that's been on my mind lately...
Thursday, November 13
- tired
- PCN info nite
- Kordilyera and Choir (or just one of those)
Friday, November 14
- Liwanag Sleepover
- Finding Nemo in Quenya
- Magic Mic
- Cranium all nite long (funtimes all the time!)
- Awesome prayer circle
- delirious sleep deprived nite with roomie n Janice
Saturday, November 15
- went back home to LA with Chelle early..slept the whole day
- Filipino party at Placentia...fun food and met cool people
Sunday, November 16
- papertoime
- couldn't get a ride back to Irvine till later...sorry joyce for not
making alto practice!
- mass at Interfaith
- benefit concert practice
Monday, November 17
- Gina's Pizza fundraising for WYSE
- THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOU GUYS WHO CAME AND SUPPORTED! YOU DON'T
KNOW
HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO ME (YES, I ALMOST CRIED DEMNIT) :
- gladys, tsai, rona, alisa, erica d. you guys rock
- cristina, leo, dee, david, francia, flo, nimz, gp, angie, you guys are
awesome
- finished women's studies paper...sleep deprived once again
Tuesday November 18
- didn't wake up to my alarm...late for work
- Via Dolorosa practice
- Liwanag meeting
- Meteor Shower with Cristina and Janice...loved it
- sleep deprived
Wednesday, November 19
- didn't wake up to my alarm clock..late for class...or jk..didn't go to
class
- WYSE...topic: relationships...build-a-bf/gf activity heehee
- benefit concert rehearsal (thanx marites for the prayer)
Thursday, November 20
- didn't wake up to my alarm clock...late for work
- Thursday mass...yay chicken!
- Studied at Laguna with Janice and Diana
- Via Dolorosa practice at Joyce's (Joyce is awesome coz she made me
cry)
Friday, November 21
- didn't wake up to my alarm clock...late for class
- Friday mass...more chicken!
- BENEFIT CONCERT: AMAZING EXPERIENCE (see below)
- ihop
Saturday, November 22
- slept in...tried studying for econ...didn't work
- Spectrum with roomie, gladys, and tsai
- Movie nite: Love Actually ... *sigh*
Sunday, November 23
- slept in again...tried studying for econ
- 6:30pm mass at Interfaith
- tried studying again
Monday, November 24
- True Disciples (TDG!) thanxgiving dinner at Francia's and Dee's!
yummie tacos n stuff and pizookie!
- THANK YOU SO MUCH CHRISTINE B. FOR DRIVING ME TO L.A.! YOU DON'T KNOW
HOW MUCH IT MEANS TO ME! (see below for the fun adventure)
Tuesday, November 25
- home...went to INS to do fingerprinting stuff for cititzenship stuff
- drove back to Irvine...ran to class and found out quiz is
cancelled...grrr
- thanxgiving prayer service..mini liwanag meeting...uv concert
(You rock Christine T.! and TDG family members Toni and Ed!)
- Tapioca Express with Liwanag...Doll House...chill at Cristina's
Alarm Clock
Yes I woke up in time for my midterm on monday! Thank you so much for waking me up...you know who you are.
Benefit Concert
I've been in choir all four years of high school and I have done how many concerts all those four years, but nothing (yes nothing) can compare to the benefit concert. At first I was just wutever about it, because I knew my family wasn't gona be there and I didn't rilly make such a bid deal about it. But a couple hours before the concert, I felt the nervousness mixed with tiredness and sleep deprivation. That wasn't good. But despite all that, I knew that it was gona be awesome. Everyone was amazing. It sux that I couldn't be part of the audience to see all the acts, but at the same time I was glad I was part of it. It makes me smile to hear people talk about how awesome it was for them, and how moving it was. Thank You so much for being there. Your presence is definitely the reason for the concert's success.
L.A. Adventure with Christine B.
So me n Christine were driving to LA Tuesday nite (out of the kindness of her heart...awesome person foreal) and I got all my freeways rite...except that we missed the 101. So we had to exit at some random street...ended up driving around this ghettofied part of LA for a while...and found out that we were in the East LA area...yeahp...Boyle Heights and fun stuff like that at 12midnite. So we were jus driving n driving...looking for a freeway...but couldn't find any...and then somehow ended up in downtown LA. Had a scary moment with this scary looking driver who was yellling at us...but it was all gud...we were jus driving n driving still...looking for a freeway. THEN...Cristina call me and asks how we're doing and obviously we needed help...so ended up calling GP for directions. Heeeheee. I love my Liwanag people. They always got my back. You guys rock. So got home around 1:30...too tired from the fun LA adventure. I actually had fun!
Stuff
I was talking to roomie the other day and of course we had another random conversation. This time it was about losing sight of things. It's so ironic how I've realized so many things just this past month, but I've also lost sight of the other things in life that are important to me too. When I think about how I've been living my life lately, it makes me happy to know that I appreciate things more now than ever before. But sometimes I forget that there are other important things that should be done too. I'm scared that I mite not be able to catch up and I'll eventually find myself down at the bottom again. That's my ultimate fear rite now.
Mom
I was talking to a good friend about the one aspect that will always be the most significant and the most influential in life: Mom. Of all the heartaches I've had in life, the ones that definitely hurt the most are the ones where I didn't have my mom's support. It's hard to pretend that I could stand on my own two feet and not care about what she has to say or
what she thinks about my actions and decisions. It's not easy to pretend that I could go on doing what I want without her blessing...because I can't. Sometimes I wish that everything could be perfect, that everything that I want for myself is what she wants for me too. I love her a lot and I don't want to disappoint her, and maybe that's why I've been trying so hard to be a "good" daughter, even to the point making decisions to make her happy instead of thinking of what would make me happy.
Thursday, November 13
- tired
- PCN info nite
- Kordilyera and Choir (or just one of those)
Friday, November 14
- Liwanag Sleepover
- Finding Nemo in Quenya
- Magic Mic
- Cranium all nite long (funtimes all the time!)
- Awesome prayer circle
- delirious sleep deprived nite with roomie n Janice
Saturday, November 15
- went back home to LA with Chelle early..slept the whole day
- Filipino party at Placentia...fun food and met cool people
Sunday, November 16
- papertoime
- couldn't get a ride back to Irvine till later...sorry joyce for not
making alto practice!
- mass at Interfaith
- benefit concert practice
Monday, November 17
- Gina's Pizza fundraising for WYSE
- THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOU GUYS WHO CAME AND SUPPORTED! YOU DON'T
KNOW
HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO ME (YES, I ALMOST CRIED DEMNIT) :
- gladys, tsai, rona, alisa, erica d. you guys rock
- cristina, leo, dee, david, francia, flo, nimz, gp, angie, you guys are
awesome
- finished women's studies paper...sleep deprived once again
Tuesday November 18
- didn't wake up to my alarm...late for work
- Via Dolorosa practice
- Liwanag meeting
- Meteor Shower with Cristina and Janice...loved it
- sleep deprived
Wednesday, November 19
- didn't wake up to my alarm clock..late for class...or jk..didn't go to
class
- WYSE...topic: relationships...build-a-bf/gf activity heehee
- benefit concert rehearsal (thanx marites for the prayer)
Thursday, November 20
- didn't wake up to my alarm clock...late for work
- Thursday mass...yay chicken!
- Studied at Laguna with Janice and Diana
- Via Dolorosa practice at Joyce's (Joyce is awesome coz she made me
cry)
Friday, November 21
- didn't wake up to my alarm clock...late for class
- Friday mass...more chicken!
- BENEFIT CONCERT: AMAZING EXPERIENCE (see below)
- ihop
Saturday, November 22
- slept in...tried studying for econ...didn't work
- Spectrum with roomie, gladys, and tsai
- Movie nite: Love Actually ... *sigh*
Sunday, November 23
- slept in again...tried studying for econ
- 6:30pm mass at Interfaith
- tried studying again
Monday, November 24
- True Disciples (TDG!) thanxgiving dinner at Francia's and Dee's!
yummie tacos n stuff and pizookie!
- THANK YOU SO MUCH CHRISTINE B. FOR DRIVING ME TO L.A.! YOU DON'T KNOW
HOW MUCH IT MEANS TO ME! (see below for the fun adventure)
Tuesday, November 25
- home...went to INS to do fingerprinting stuff for cititzenship stuff
- drove back to Irvine...ran to class and found out quiz is
cancelled...grrr
- thanxgiving prayer service..mini liwanag meeting...uv concert
(You rock Christine T.! and TDG family members Toni and Ed!)
- Tapioca Express with Liwanag...Doll House...chill at Cristina's
Alarm Clock
Yes I woke up in time for my midterm on monday! Thank you so much for waking me up...you know who you are.
Benefit Concert
I've been in choir all four years of high school and I have done how many concerts all those four years, but nothing (yes nothing) can compare to the benefit concert. At first I was just wutever about it, because I knew my family wasn't gona be there and I didn't rilly make such a bid deal about it. But a couple hours before the concert, I felt the nervousness mixed with tiredness and sleep deprivation. That wasn't good. But despite all that, I knew that it was gona be awesome. Everyone was amazing. It sux that I couldn't be part of the audience to see all the acts, but at the same time I was glad I was part of it. It makes me smile to hear people talk about how awesome it was for them, and how moving it was. Thank You so much for being there. Your presence is definitely the reason for the concert's success.
L.A. Adventure with Christine B.
So me n Christine were driving to LA Tuesday nite (out of the kindness of her heart...awesome person foreal) and I got all my freeways rite...except that we missed the 101. So we had to exit at some random street...ended up driving around this ghettofied part of LA for a while...and found out that we were in the East LA area...yeahp...Boyle Heights and fun stuff like that at 12midnite. So we were jus driving n driving...looking for a freeway...but couldn't find any...and then somehow ended up in downtown LA. Had a scary moment with this scary looking driver who was yellling at us...but it was all gud...we were jus driving n driving still...looking for a freeway. THEN...Cristina call me and asks how we're doing and obviously we needed help...so ended up calling GP for directions. Heeeheee. I love my Liwanag people. They always got my back. You guys rock. So got home around 1:30...too tired from the fun LA adventure. I actually had fun!
Stuff
I was talking to roomie the other day and of course we had another random conversation. This time it was about losing sight of things. It's so ironic how I've realized so many things just this past month, but I've also lost sight of the other things in life that are important to me too. When I think about how I've been living my life lately, it makes me happy to know that I appreciate things more now than ever before. But sometimes I forget that there are other important things that should be done too. I'm scared that I mite not be able to catch up and I'll eventually find myself down at the bottom again. That's my ultimate fear rite now.
Mom
I was talking to a good friend about the one aspect that will always be the most significant and the most influential in life: Mom. Of all the heartaches I've had in life, the ones that definitely hurt the most are the ones where I didn't have my mom's support. It's hard to pretend that I could stand on my own two feet and not care about what she has to say or
what she thinks about my actions and decisions. It's not easy to pretend that I could go on doing what I want without her blessing...because I can't. Sometimes I wish that everything could be perfect, that everything that I want for myself is what she wants for me too. I love her a lot and I don't want to disappoint her, and maybe that's why I've been trying so hard to be a "good" daughter, even to the point making decisions to make her happy instead of thinking of what would make me happy.
Friday, November 21, 2003
I'm gona blog soon about the past week. I've just been to tired n busy with shtuff. How tired and busy? Well, I usually wake up to my alarm clock. But for the past four days in a row...I didn't wake up at all and I was late to either class or work these last four days. Can someone please wake me up monday morning at 8am? I heb a midterm at 9 and I kinda wana be on time for that.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Thursday, November 13, 2003
Sunday, November 9
Tried to do work all day but didn't work. Roomie and David went to the Jason Mraz concert without me. Boo. Church with Dale and then Benefit concert practice at nite. Supposed to leave early but decided to stay and chill. Mhmm.
Monday, November 10
Visitor at work! Heehee. Had Cram nite since my roomies and I haven't rilly chilled in a while. Chelle baked better than sex cake (she would know) and we jus chillaxed n stuff like det. Loved Alisa's version of Mother Mary, "In the times, when I'm all alone..." Pretty nite sky. I love my roomies. No crying this time. Hahaha.
Tuesday, November 11
NO SCHOOL! Slept in and woke up at 1:30pm. Dude that felt great. Shar and Chang came over and we ate at Gina's Pizza (where liwanag people where at too). Gladys and Tsai came too and we jus ate then chilled at the apt. Tried to study for math midterm tomorrow but didn't work. Liwanag meeting. I just can't get enough of Liwanag. I love it.
Got home around 12 I think and it was time to study but it still didn't work. Sooooooooo just had a random conversation with Chelle of course. No crying. Hahaa. Slept at 5:30. Dudeness.
Wednesday, November 12
First time I missed a class this quarter. Aaaah I suck. Too nervous for the midterm. Took it. Eh. I don't know anymore.
WYSE after school. My mentee and I had a wrestling conversation. Haha perty funnie how I used to like wrestling too when I was her age. Sumtimes she reminds me of myself when I was little. I could tell she's a very shy little girl, but when I talk to her she has so much things to say and share to me. I feel very lucky to actually hear what this young girl has to say. It makes me so happy to see that she's actually willing to talk to me and she's not scared to be open. I just can't explain the sense of fulfillment in being a mentor. It doesn't even require that much work to be one...it's just a matter of being there to listen to what they have to say.
Got back home around 6:30..too tired...took a nice nap and then off to benefit concert practice at Interfaith. Had to walk in the rain (well according to Janice it wasn't raining but it was still cold n wet outside aayt). We practiced Via Dolorosa and I rilly couldn't tell how we sound like but I guess we're alrite? Hehe. Practice was over at 10pm, so we were jus chillen at Interfaith. Cristina, Leo, me, and chelle decided to go to Janice's dorm (Laguna) and chilled for a bit and ate her and Diana's food. You guys are great. Then we didn't wana bother Diana anymore so we all went to our apt and chilled there. Random funtimes all the time. I wish I could have both Cristina and Leo sing me to sleep every nite. You guys are awesome. Random conversations. I loved every minute of it. Decided to have a sleepover. Janice slept on my bed with me, Cristina slept on Chelle's bed, and Leo on the floor. It's amazing how I've only known these people for a couple months but I'm completely comfortable around them and I feel like I've known them for a long time. There's just sumthing about Liwanag that makes everything fall into place. I love it.
Tried to do work all day but didn't work. Roomie and David went to the Jason Mraz concert without me. Boo. Church with Dale and then Benefit concert practice at nite. Supposed to leave early but decided to stay and chill. Mhmm.
Monday, November 10
Visitor at work! Heehee. Had Cram nite since my roomies and I haven't rilly chilled in a while. Chelle baked better than sex cake (she would know) and we jus chillaxed n stuff like det. Loved Alisa's version of Mother Mary, "In the times, when I'm all alone..." Pretty nite sky. I love my roomies. No crying this time. Hahaha.
Tuesday, November 11
NO SCHOOL! Slept in and woke up at 1:30pm. Dude that felt great. Shar and Chang came over and we ate at Gina's Pizza (where liwanag people where at too). Gladys and Tsai came too and we jus ate then chilled at the apt. Tried to study for math midterm tomorrow but didn't work. Liwanag meeting. I just can't get enough of Liwanag. I love it.
Got home around 12 I think and it was time to study but it still didn't work. Sooooooooo just had a random conversation with Chelle of course. No crying. Hahaa. Slept at 5:30. Dudeness.
Wednesday, November 12
First time I missed a class this quarter. Aaaah I suck. Too nervous for the midterm. Took it. Eh. I don't know anymore.
WYSE after school. My mentee and I had a wrestling conversation. Haha perty funnie how I used to like wrestling too when I was her age. Sumtimes she reminds me of myself when I was little. I could tell she's a very shy little girl, but when I talk to her she has so much things to say and share to me. I feel very lucky to actually hear what this young girl has to say. It makes me so happy to see that she's actually willing to talk to me and she's not scared to be open. I just can't explain the sense of fulfillment in being a mentor. It doesn't even require that much work to be one...it's just a matter of being there to listen to what they have to say.
Got back home around 6:30..too tired...took a nice nap and then off to benefit concert practice at Interfaith. Had to walk in the rain (well according to Janice it wasn't raining but it was still cold n wet outside aayt). We practiced Via Dolorosa and I rilly couldn't tell how we sound like but I guess we're alrite? Hehe. Practice was over at 10pm, so we were jus chillen at Interfaith. Cristina, Leo, me, and chelle decided to go to Janice's dorm (Laguna) and chilled for a bit and ate her and Diana's food. You guys are great. Then we didn't wana bother Diana anymore so we all went to our apt and chilled there. Random funtimes all the time. I wish I could have both Cristina and Leo sing me to sleep every nite. You guys are awesome. Random conversations. I loved every minute of it. Decided to have a sleepover. Janice slept on my bed with me, Cristina slept on Chelle's bed, and Leo on the floor. It's amazing how I've only known these people for a couple months but I'm completely comfortable around them and I feel like I've known them for a long time. There's just sumthing about Liwanag that makes everything fall into place. I love it.
Monday, November 10, 2003
So I was at work today, sitting on my desk while pretending to do work of course. Unconsciously, I looked outside the glass window and who did I see? Cristina! I was so surprised and happy! She's my first visitor at work! See, it's little things like these that make my day. Yes, it may seem shallow, but to me it means a lot. You rock Cristina. I love you!
Saturday, November 08, 2003
Thursday, Nov 6
Busy day once again. I met my kasama family and theyre all cool! Too bad I couldn't go to the kaba meeting and hooters coz I went to Sierra assertiveness training for the youngns. Yih party room in 101 is da bomb! Hahaha. Funtimes with my Sierra family. So got home at about 10.. theeen i thought I was goin to bed early...but noooo. Chilled with Liwanag of course! Thanx to Cristina for picking us up...u da bomb. We were jus chillen in Interfaith then decided to go to Turtle Rock. Awesome place. Despite the ghost stories and me missing the shooting star, I had an amazing time. Fun talks and stufffff like det...mhmmm. I wana go back there! Who's down? No? Fine. So we jus chilled at the Interfaith parking lot afterwards, and jus had random talks. Random is fun. All the time. Got home about 3 i think. Toooo tired.
Friday, Nov 7
So I was in the Social Ecology I building that afternoon about to go to work. I was waiting for the elevator for the longest time, and when it finally opened two cops came out. There was a lady behind me who told the cops, "He went that way towards the dean's office. I'm not sure if he's still there. He was this tall, this kind of hair, this kind of shirt, blahblahblah." She was basically describing some man who was apparently some psycho dude wandering around the building. The lady cop interrupted her as if the description she was giving was useless info, and the cop's first question was, "Color?" I stopped and looked at that cop and she seemed to think that her question was the smartest question she could ask. I just went in the elevator, frustrated for some reason, and went to work disturbed.
So newaaaaaaaaaays this is what happened Friday nite...
I was supposed to go to commons with Rona, Alisa, and David coz it's buy one meal get one free on Froidays. They've been planning that since iono when so I said I would go. But then, Kathleen called me and asked if I wana chill with Liwanag people at Island's. So of course, why would I not want to? It's Liwanag! I was thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking. Then I thought some more. Part of me thought it would be rilly sad if I ditched roomies and David. The other part of me thought that I see roomies n them everyday neway and I don't think they'd mind. So I decided to go to Islands. I'M SORRY TO ROOMIES N DAVID! Even though I know you guys didn't rilly care, I pretended that u did neways. Hahaha. Chillen with Liwanag people is always fun. Fun birthday dinner for Leo haha. Thank you guys for a fun dinner! got back here early so that I could still chill with roomies n them. Sorry for not being able to go to the Cerritos vigil...I would've gone if I didn't feel too guilty about ditching people.
Ended up having a Newport sleepover with Alisa, Dale, David, and Rona. Shopped for junk food, drove around looking for a vcr, rented Candyman, and all that other fun stuff. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. I just need to stay away from mirrors thats all. So that's good. But it'd be a fun date movie. Yihaa. Slept at about 3 I think, on a semi-comfy couch thing.
Saturday, Nov 8
Had to be back at the apt by 10am to get ready for fun beach day with the mentees. Dragged David, Rona, and Alisa out of bed yaay. Got picked up by Shermaine, headed to Amy's house to get the food, then off to Corona del Mar. Got lost, but its all gud. I'm always lost. Got there and the weather was perfect. It was amazing. We thought it was going to rain today too, but I guess someone's been watches over us and just wants us to have fun. Thank you for the beautiful weather! I just cant emphasize enough how perfect it was outside. I was just laying there, feeling the nice breeze and the warmth of the sun. I love it. It was also fun seeing our mentees having a good time. They were having good bonding times with each other and I thought that was amazing. Just to see them have fun makes me happy and content. Good beach outing turnout!
So now, I'm just here chillen like a villain. Rona, Alisa, and David ditched me coz I deserve it. I guess I'm stuck with roomie again. *sigh* Haha jk. Perhaps another heart to heart talk will happen. Dude I'm tired of thinking about this sshhhtuff. Why can't everything just be perfect? Dudeness.
Okai now I know wut happened saturday...
So GP and Francia were bored and hungry so we decided to go to Paul's Place to eat some greek/mexican/american food. It was me, Chelle, GP, Francia, and Mel. Despite the snails/ slugs it was perty fun there. I liked my Chicken Mushroom Sadwich and the fried mushrooms. That was yummay. Then they decided to go to Jei's house which is approximately 12 minutes away from the freeway (is det rite?) and we jus sang along the songs in Beauty and the Beast, took quizzes and I found out I'm Mrs. Potts, and played musical games. Bwaahaa. Got home perty early and slept. Woohoo.
Busy day once again. I met my kasama family and theyre all cool! Too bad I couldn't go to the kaba meeting and hooters coz I went to Sierra assertiveness training for the youngns. Yih party room in 101 is da bomb! Hahaha. Funtimes with my Sierra family. So got home at about 10.. theeen i thought I was goin to bed early...but noooo. Chilled with Liwanag of course! Thanx to Cristina for picking us up...u da bomb. We were jus chillen in Interfaith then decided to go to Turtle Rock. Awesome place. Despite the ghost stories and me missing the shooting star, I had an amazing time. Fun talks and stufffff like det...mhmmm. I wana go back there! Who's down? No? Fine. So we jus chilled at the Interfaith parking lot afterwards, and jus had random talks. Random is fun. All the time. Got home about 3 i think. Toooo tired.
Friday, Nov 7
So I was in the Social Ecology I building that afternoon about to go to work. I was waiting for the elevator for the longest time, and when it finally opened two cops came out. There was a lady behind me who told the cops, "He went that way towards the dean's office. I'm not sure if he's still there. He was this tall, this kind of hair, this kind of shirt, blahblahblah." She was basically describing some man who was apparently some psycho dude wandering around the building. The lady cop interrupted her as if the description she was giving was useless info, and the cop's first question was, "Color?" I stopped and looked at that cop and she seemed to think that her question was the smartest question she could ask. I just went in the elevator, frustrated for some reason, and went to work disturbed.
So newaaaaaaaaaays this is what happened Friday nite...
I was supposed to go to commons with Rona, Alisa, and David coz it's buy one meal get one free on Froidays. They've been planning that since iono when so I said I would go. But then, Kathleen called me and asked if I wana chill with Liwanag people at Island's. So of course, why would I not want to? It's Liwanag! I was thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking. Then I thought some more. Part of me thought it would be rilly sad if I ditched roomies and David. The other part of me thought that I see roomies n them everyday neway and I don't think they'd mind. So I decided to go to Islands. I'M SORRY TO ROOMIES N DAVID! Even though I know you guys didn't rilly care, I pretended that u did neways. Hahaha. Chillen with Liwanag people is always fun. Fun birthday dinner for Leo haha. Thank you guys for a fun dinner! got back here early so that I could still chill with roomies n them. Sorry for not being able to go to the Cerritos vigil...I would've gone if I didn't feel too guilty about ditching people.
Ended up having a Newport sleepover with Alisa, Dale, David, and Rona. Shopped for junk food, drove around looking for a vcr, rented Candyman, and all that other fun stuff. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. I just need to stay away from mirrors thats all. So that's good. But it'd be a fun date movie. Yihaa. Slept at about 3 I think, on a semi-comfy couch thing.
Saturday, Nov 8
Had to be back at the apt by 10am to get ready for fun beach day with the mentees. Dragged David, Rona, and Alisa out of bed yaay. Got picked up by Shermaine, headed to Amy's house to get the food, then off to Corona del Mar. Got lost, but its all gud. I'm always lost. Got there and the weather was perfect. It was amazing. We thought it was going to rain today too, but I guess someone's been watches over us and just wants us to have fun. Thank you for the beautiful weather! I just cant emphasize enough how perfect it was outside. I was just laying there, feeling the nice breeze and the warmth of the sun. I love it. It was also fun seeing our mentees having a good time. They were having good bonding times with each other and I thought that was amazing. Just to see them have fun makes me happy and content. Good beach outing turnout!
So now, I'm just here chillen like a villain. Rona, Alisa, and David ditched me coz I deserve it. I guess I'm stuck with roomie again. *sigh* Haha jk. Perhaps another heart to heart talk will happen. Dude I'm tired of thinking about this sshhhtuff. Why can't everything just be perfect? Dudeness.
Okai now I know wut happened saturday...
So GP and Francia were bored and hungry so we decided to go to Paul's Place to eat some greek/mexican/american food. It was me, Chelle, GP, Francia, and Mel. Despite the snails/ slugs it was perty fun there. I liked my Chicken Mushroom Sadwich and the fried mushrooms. That was yummay. Then they decided to go to Jei's house which is approximately 12 minutes away from the freeway (is det rite?) and we jus sang along the songs in Beauty and the Beast, took quizzes and I found out I'm Mrs. Potts, and played musical games. Bwaahaa. Got home perty early and slept. Woohoo.
Thursday, November 06, 2003
Monday night was a night full of emotions poured out, deep feelingsrevealed, fears and dreams shared, along with both sad and happy tears. It wasn't as much as a depressing session than it was a therapy session, where two people were brave enough to let it all out, without hesitation, but definitely a whole lot more of understanding for each
other. I'm not even sure how it all started, but whatever it was, I knew that me and my roomie both needed that moment.
You never know what someone's really feeling until they open up to you and everything is just said. As roomie says, sometimes you just have to take a moment and ask someone if he or she is really doing okai. Sometimes you get a good, simple answer. Other times, you get the real answer. The real answer is never simple, but is always truthful.
When I look at my life, I realize how much blessings I have received through the years that I have completely taken for granted. I've been too busy asking God for what I don't have, blaming Him for every bad thing that has happened to me, without even taking the time to stop and thank Him for what I do have in my life right now. There are times when I feel as though life is not worth living, simply because of all the heartaches that I feel at times. I realized how selfish it is of me to think that way. It is selfish of me to think that I have nothing, when in reality, I have more than I could ever imagine.
Father Pat once said, people may not remember you by your face or your name, but they will always remember how you made them feel (is that rite? well it was sumtin like det). I'm lucky enough to have experienced these people in my life. I don't even know why I deserve such wonderful people in my life. All I know is that they are all the answers to my prayers.
I know I haven’t been there for people when they needed me the most, and I regret that. I’ve been too busy to care about anything but my own little world. I’m sorry. I guess right now my greatest fear would be to lose the people who I have grown to love. I don't know what that would feel like, and I don't ever want to know. I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry for running away. But I'm here now. I'll always be here.
Man… this is one random blog. I don’t know if I made sense at all, but it’s what I’ve been thinking about lately. I haven’t blogged like this in a while, and it feels good to be able to write like this again. More to come laterrrrrr. Payce.
Ooohhh thanx to roomie, Gladys, and Tsai for a fun girls nite out. Man we're pathetic.
And yay to Cristina, GP, and Leo for visiting us on Monday. You guys are awesome. Come visit us again! Please? Haha.
other. I'm not even sure how it all started, but whatever it was, I knew that me and my roomie both needed that moment.
You never know what someone's really feeling until they open up to you and everything is just said. As roomie says, sometimes you just have to take a moment and ask someone if he or she is really doing okai. Sometimes you get a good, simple answer. Other times, you get the real answer. The real answer is never simple, but is always truthful.
When I look at my life, I realize how much blessings I have received through the years that I have completely taken for granted. I've been too busy asking God for what I don't have, blaming Him for every bad thing that has happened to me, without even taking the time to stop and thank Him for what I do have in my life right now. There are times when I feel as though life is not worth living, simply because of all the heartaches that I feel at times. I realized how selfish it is of me to think that way. It is selfish of me to think that I have nothing, when in reality, I have more than I could ever imagine.
Father Pat once said, people may not remember you by your face or your name, but they will always remember how you made them feel (is that rite? well it was sumtin like det). I'm lucky enough to have experienced these people in my life. I don't even know why I deserve such wonderful people in my life. All I know is that they are all the answers to my prayers.
I know I haven’t been there for people when they needed me the most, and I regret that. I’ve been too busy to care about anything but my own little world. I’m sorry. I guess right now my greatest fear would be to lose the people who I have grown to love. I don't know what that would feel like, and I don't ever want to know. I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry for running away. But I'm here now. I'll always be here.
Man… this is one random blog. I don’t know if I made sense at all, but it’s what I’ve been thinking about lately. I haven’t blogged like this in a while, and it feels good to be able to write like this again. More to come laterrrrrr. Payce.
Ooohhh thanx to roomie, Gladys, and Tsai for a fun girls nite out. Man we're pathetic.
And yay to Cristina, GP, and Leo for visiting us on Monday. You guys are awesome. Come visit us again! Please? Haha.
Sunday, November 02, 2003
Reasons why i realized that sleep is not as important as i thought:
tuesday, oct 28
studied for two friggin midterms and prepared a presentation. guess wut time i slept! coz i dont know.
wednesday, oct 29
had a paper due the next day. soooooo basically did that the whole nite. had printer problems so that took another hour. so wut time did i sleep? hmmm...im not quite sure
thursday, oct 30
so i thought this was my fun sleepytime nite. but that all changed wen i got a fonecall...it went sumtin like this...
me: hey wutsup
cristina: hey wut r u doing tonite
me (thinking she was gona ask if i wana go to a bday surprise): hmm...nuttin i guess.
cristina: wut does ur schedule look like tomorrow
me: uhm...i have a 9am class
cristina: maan rilly
me: why wutsup
cristina: well we wana go to vegas
me: oh...wen?
cristina: in 30 minutes
me: oh crap....hmmm...:me thinking hard:...
*after some talking and convinvcing and stuff*
me: okai me n rona r down
cristina: cressa n rona r going!..okai we'll come get u.
so there yah go. we left around 8pm...it was gp, francia, leo, me, angie, rona, and cristina. interesting ride going over there...fun drivingtimes (sumtimes)...fun car rules...fun games (sumtimes)...fun hesperia (pronounced hes-pee-ria…not hes-pe-ria)…we got there I think around midnite. rona needed a potty break so i went with her to the bathroom...where she ended up going into stall with an old lady in it. BWAAAAAAAAAAHA. that was funnie. so neways we were jus walkin around...did the ocean's eleven ending with the walking away from the water thing. bwaaahaa. then gp n francia wanted to go to excalibur and gamble so the youngns just kicked it somewhere in there...more interesting fun times...gp ended up losing more than he withdrawed from the atm...sadnesss...so we decided to eat..but there were no open buffets around...so we jus went to stateline and me n rona ate our tiny sausages n uglee eggs and pancakes in a big ass plate. bwaaaaha. we ended up giving our flipina waitress a big tip...without giving our other waiter any. that wasnt good. so we headed back home and had more fun singing games n stuff like det. i was too tired so i was kinda falling asleep but everyone else seemed too hyper still. but eventuallly everyone got tired.
friday, oct 31
we got back from vegas around 8:30am. thanx liwanag people for a memorable thursday nite! u guys are awesome! so then i took a quick shower and then rushed to my 9am class. i was kinda late but i still made it. after that i had to go to the post office to get money order, then i went to the bookstore to get me a sweatshirt, then went to my 11am class...12:30 class...2pm class...3-pm work. DUDENESS. i did all of this without naps or nething. well i was falling asleep in my lectures but those dont count. i cant believe i went to all my classes. im so cool. haha jk. i jus hate missing class. im a nerd like that. so i went back to the apt and i jus needed to crash. so took a 45minute nap. then im off to monster massive.
it was me, david, jay, arnie, and a bunch of arnie's buddies. we got to the rave around 9pm i think. it was my first rave so everything was new to me. it was interesting. i didnt drop so thats gud. i think. haha. ooh and dale n george were there too. and tall tiff and her friends. and a whole bunch oh uci people. so i dint rilly know how to dance to that kind of stuff and i was feelin kinda awkward. but then later on i felt like i was rollin too and i was getting high off sleep deprivation...or maybe it was because of all the stuff that i was inhaling around me...wutever it was there was point where i felt that i didnt care about nething...no worries...no nothing...jus dancing. interesting times. but then later on i rilly felt the tiredness and i couldnt stand the smoke n everything. so i went home with dale and george. dropped off george then me n dale got lee's sandwiches. yummmmy. had fun times with dale....aaww dale and his promiscuous ways. bwahahhaa. so got back around 4am...had to wake up chelle coz i dint have my keys on me (sorry roomiee). had insect surprises like a spider and a big ass cockroach. is that how u spell that? neways finally slept around 5...way too tired.
saturday, nov 1
woke up around 2pm...practically wasted half a day. did nothing at all. jus sat around n ate. sad fone conversation. david came over to drop off my purse and chilled for a lil bit then had to kick him out coz its group date time with cristina. woohoo. it was me, chelle, cristina, maritess, jason and francia...kfc dinner and a movie; life of david gale. interesting movie. i liked that. so we jus watched n chilled and finally got home around 1 sumtin. and then slept. dayum it felt so good to sleep so early. thanx cristina for picking us up! and thanx to maritess for bringing us home!
sunday, nov 2
woke up around 1pm. man that was the best sleep ive had since iont even know. and now its time to be productive. i think. ionow. we'll see. ooh thanx to chelle's dad tito dennis for cooking us some fried rice, eggs, and spam!
oh and happy birthday to tc and leo today!
so thats my sleep deprived week. u can actually survive without sleeping for how many days. yeahp its fun. especially those delirious moments. its like heaven. bwahaha jk. i think i should go back to sleep. sleep is good...sleep is fun....sleep is great...sleep is my best friend...sleep is awesome...sleep is alkjsaldasm,n,ab,moqi.....ZZzzzZZZzzZZ
tuesday, oct 28
studied for two friggin midterms and prepared a presentation. guess wut time i slept! coz i dont know.
wednesday, oct 29
had a paper due the next day. soooooo basically did that the whole nite. had printer problems so that took another hour. so wut time did i sleep? hmmm...im not quite sure
thursday, oct 30
so i thought this was my fun sleepytime nite. but that all changed wen i got a fonecall...it went sumtin like this...
me: hey wutsup
cristina: hey wut r u doing tonite
me (thinking she was gona ask if i wana go to a bday surprise): hmm...nuttin i guess.
cristina: wut does ur schedule look like tomorrow
me: uhm...i have a 9am class
cristina: maan rilly
me: why wutsup
cristina: well we wana go to vegas
me: oh...wen?
cristina: in 30 minutes
me: oh crap....hmmm...:me thinking hard:...
*after some talking and convinvcing and stuff*
me: okai me n rona r down
cristina: cressa n rona r going!..okai we'll come get u.
so there yah go. we left around 8pm...it was gp, francia, leo, me, angie, rona, and cristina. interesting ride going over there...fun drivingtimes (sumtimes)...fun car rules...fun games (sumtimes)...fun hesperia (pronounced hes-pee-ria…not hes-pe-ria)…we got there I think around midnite. rona needed a potty break so i went with her to the bathroom...where she ended up going into stall with an old lady in it. BWAAAAAAAAAAHA. that was funnie. so neways we were jus walkin around...did the ocean's eleven ending with the walking away from the water thing. bwaaahaa. then gp n francia wanted to go to excalibur and gamble so the youngns just kicked it somewhere in there...more interesting fun times...gp ended up losing more than he withdrawed from the atm...sadnesss...so we decided to eat..but there were no open buffets around...so we jus went to stateline and me n rona ate our tiny sausages n uglee eggs and pancakes in a big ass plate. bwaaaaha. we ended up giving our flipina waitress a big tip...without giving our other waiter any. that wasnt good. so we headed back home and had more fun singing games n stuff like det. i was too tired so i was kinda falling asleep but everyone else seemed too hyper still. but eventuallly everyone got tired.
friday, oct 31
we got back from vegas around 8:30am. thanx liwanag people for a memorable thursday nite! u guys are awesome! so then i took a quick shower and then rushed to my 9am class. i was kinda late but i still made it. after that i had to go to the post office to get money order, then i went to the bookstore to get me a sweatshirt, then went to my 11am class...12:30 class...2pm class...3-pm work. DUDENESS. i did all of this without naps or nething. well i was falling asleep in my lectures but those dont count. i cant believe i went to all my classes. im so cool. haha jk. i jus hate missing class. im a nerd like that. so i went back to the apt and i jus needed to crash. so took a 45minute nap. then im off to monster massive.
it was me, david, jay, arnie, and a bunch of arnie's buddies. we got to the rave around 9pm i think. it was my first rave so everything was new to me. it was interesting. i didnt drop so thats gud. i think. haha. ooh and dale n george were there too. and tall tiff and her friends. and a whole bunch oh uci people. so i dint rilly know how to dance to that kind of stuff and i was feelin kinda awkward. but then later on i felt like i was rollin too and i was getting high off sleep deprivation...or maybe it was because of all the stuff that i was inhaling around me...wutever it was there was point where i felt that i didnt care about nething...no worries...no nothing...jus dancing. interesting times. but then later on i rilly felt the tiredness and i couldnt stand the smoke n everything. so i went home with dale and george. dropped off george then me n dale got lee's sandwiches. yummmmy. had fun times with dale....aaww dale and his promiscuous ways. bwahahhaa. so got back around 4am...had to wake up chelle coz i dint have my keys on me (sorry roomiee). had insect surprises like a spider and a big ass cockroach. is that how u spell that? neways finally slept around 5...way too tired.
saturday, nov 1
woke up around 2pm...practically wasted half a day. did nothing at all. jus sat around n ate. sad fone conversation. david came over to drop off my purse and chilled for a lil bit then had to kick him out coz its group date time with cristina. woohoo. it was me, chelle, cristina, maritess, jason and francia...kfc dinner and a movie; life of david gale. interesting movie. i liked that. so we jus watched n chilled and finally got home around 1 sumtin. and then slept. dayum it felt so good to sleep so early. thanx cristina for picking us up! and thanx to maritess for bringing us home!
sunday, nov 2
woke up around 1pm. man that was the best sleep ive had since iont even know. and now its time to be productive. i think. ionow. we'll see. ooh thanx to chelle's dad tito dennis for cooking us some fried rice, eggs, and spam!
oh and happy birthday to tc and leo today!
so thats my sleep deprived week. u can actually survive without sleeping for how many days. yeahp its fun. especially those delirious moments. its like heaven. bwahaha jk. i think i should go back to sleep. sleep is good...sleep is fun....sleep is great...sleep is my best friend...sleep is awesome...sleep is alkjsaldasm,n,ab,moqi.....ZZzzzZZZzzZZ
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
stupid midterms. who invented midterms neway? man. sux to be me. but newayssssss...today was my typical busiest day...wednesday. its okai tho coz i wasnt as tired as i expected to be (since i dint sleep that well last nite). but the fun isnt over yet. paper due tomorrow. yesssss.
i would blog more about stuff but ill jus stick with the random song for the day. maybe ill blog again in a lil bit. peace.
Warrior Is A Child
Gary V.
Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
Unafraid because His armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
i would blog more about stuff but ill jus stick with the random song for the day. maybe ill blog again in a lil bit. peace.
Warrior Is A Child
Gary V.
Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
Unafraid because His armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
hardcore week this week: two midterms wednesday and an article to talk about...essay thursday....sholarship essays by this weekend. im too tired.
so lately ive been rilly busy and always tired, but i like it coz it better boredom. im happy becoz i got wut i wished and prayed for...to be busy haha. its kind of a funny thing to wish for i know, but i have my reasons. its jus that wenever im not busy, i feel so useless and depressed coz i start thinking about things that make me even sadder. so being busy is gud becoz it means no worries....haha sorry if im not making sense.
im liking life rite now. i feel rilly happy wen im surrounded with people i love and enjoy spending time with. sumtimes i feel that i dont deserve all these awesome people in my life. i guess i can say im enjoying irvine, and i just wish everything can be perfect all the time. but i know it cant.
so lately ive been rilly busy and always tired, but i like it coz it better boredom. im happy becoz i got wut i wished and prayed for...to be busy haha. its kind of a funny thing to wish for i know, but i have my reasons. its jus that wenever im not busy, i feel so useless and depressed coz i start thinking about things that make me even sadder. so being busy is gud becoz it means no worries....haha sorry if im not making sense.
im liking life rite now. i feel rilly happy wen im surrounded with people i love and enjoy spending time with. sumtimes i feel that i dont deserve all these awesome people in my life. i guess i can say im enjoying irvine, and i just wish everything can be perfect all the time. but i know it cant.
Saturday, October 18, 2003
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah i jus lost the post i wrote demnit! lets try to rewrite...
yay im blogging! finally! im gona try to update it more often now becoz i wana be cool like everyone else. yaaaay! so heres my life so far...
SCHOOL
im doing better than i expected! i got a nine out of ten in my first math quiz (when i thought i was gona get a 1) and i participated in my women's studies discussion (cookie for me) and ive been doing my readings (sumtoimes). school is cool. so far.
WORK
so ive been looking for a job since summer. but no one wanted me so i dint have a job...until this week! i went on four interviews and i got three job offers =). just wen i thought i was some useless piece of $#@!...they call me and tell me they wana hire me. :tears of joy: :sniff sniff snif:
WYSE (Women and Youth Supporting Each Other)
wyse is an orgnization that mentors twelve to fourteen yr old young girls. this year, im a mentor in the spurgeon middle school in santa ana. we've only been to two sessions with our girls and its been fun so far. we get to play games while getting to know them in a deeper level, so we can talk about issues that these girls need to be aware of (sex, drugs, family probs, school probs, peer pressure, future goals/plans, anything else). its kind of a weird feeling being somewhat of a "role model" for these girls coz i dont rilly feel worthy of being looked up to. sad but true. but ill still try.
ANNIV
happy fifteen months today. yehey.
FUN STUFF
sierra party here last nite. i volunteered to be the sober one (meaning the one who would have to deal with the cops in case they come knocking on our door) but i still had fun. it was nice to meet the adorable new sierrans and see old sierrans too. thanx to everyone who helped us fix up the apartment and clean and look after people and stuff like that. you know who you are. you're da bomb diggity.
LIWANAG (light of god)
i jus joined liwanag this year and i can already see how amazing these people are. i didnt think i was gona stick with it till i came to their meetings n bonfire n homeless outreach. these people are seriously the most welcoming group of people ive ever met. i cant even express how happy i am to be part of it. i jus wish i joined it earlier (but i couldnt coz of sierra class last year). theyre so awesome its not even funnie. haha. cristina n leo are the coolest directors this year. my tdg family (true disciples) rocks (go mom francha). and everyone else is great. liwanag is the coolest thing ever.
life does not suck as much as before. thank you god for listening to me =).
yay im blogging! finally! im gona try to update it more often now becoz i wana be cool like everyone else. yaaaay! so heres my life so far...
SCHOOL
im doing better than i expected! i got a nine out of ten in my first math quiz (when i thought i was gona get a 1) and i participated in my women's studies discussion (cookie for me) and ive been doing my readings (sumtoimes). school is cool. so far.
WORK
so ive been looking for a job since summer. but no one wanted me so i dint have a job...until this week! i went on four interviews and i got three job offers =). just wen i thought i was some useless piece of $#@!...they call me and tell me they wana hire me. :tears of joy: :sniff sniff snif:
WYSE (Women and Youth Supporting Each Other)
wyse is an orgnization that mentors twelve to fourteen yr old young girls. this year, im a mentor in the spurgeon middle school in santa ana. we've only been to two sessions with our girls and its been fun so far. we get to play games while getting to know them in a deeper level, so we can talk about issues that these girls need to be aware of (sex, drugs, family probs, school probs, peer pressure, future goals/plans, anything else). its kind of a weird feeling being somewhat of a "role model" for these girls coz i dont rilly feel worthy of being looked up to. sad but true. but ill still try.
ANNIV
happy fifteen months today. yehey.
FUN STUFF
sierra party here last nite. i volunteered to be the sober one (meaning the one who would have to deal with the cops in case they come knocking on our door) but i still had fun. it was nice to meet the adorable new sierrans and see old sierrans too. thanx to everyone who helped us fix up the apartment and clean and look after people and stuff like that. you know who you are. you're da bomb diggity.
LIWANAG (light of god)
i jus joined liwanag this year and i can already see how amazing these people are. i didnt think i was gona stick with it till i came to their meetings n bonfire n homeless outreach. these people are seriously the most welcoming group of people ive ever met. i cant even express how happy i am to be part of it. i jus wish i joined it earlier (but i couldnt coz of sierra class last year). theyre so awesome its not even funnie. haha. cristina n leo are the coolest directors this year. my tdg family (true disciples) rocks (go mom francha). and everyone else is great. liwanag is the coolest thing ever.
life does not suck as much as before. thank you god for listening to me =).
Monday, September 29, 2003
too many heartaches bottled up inside
i dont even wana bother let it all out coz it seems pointless
ill jus end up crying my eyes out
but hey theres jus some people who make it all better even for jus a short while
they dont know how much laughter means to me
it feels great
but sometimes
i jus need to do my own thing
i need to be stronger
i need faith
well...i need to chillax
but i cant
so wat am i supposed to do?
i don't know
maybe i should cry some more
haha
nope
i need to hold on and believe
yeah rite
thats bullshit
wutever
ionow
we'll see wut happens
rite now
i jus need to do my shit
that's all
gnite
i dont even wana bother let it all out coz it seems pointless
ill jus end up crying my eyes out
but hey theres jus some people who make it all better even for jus a short while
they dont know how much laughter means to me
it feels great
but sometimes
i jus need to do my own thing
i need to be stronger
i need faith
well...i need to chillax
but i cant
so wat am i supposed to do?
i don't know
maybe i should cry some more
haha
nope
i need to hold on and believe
yeah rite
thats bullshit
wutever
ionow
we'll see wut happens
rite now
i jus need to do my shit
that's all
gnite
Saturday, September 13, 2003
Think Of Me
by Mark Schultz & Rachel Lampa
Packing my bag this morning was the hardest thing to do,
But packing my bag was so easy compared to standing outside your door
right now to say goodbye,
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry,
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye,
Think of me...
what can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
I know that it feels like leaving
is a part of letting go
But I'm praying with hope and believing
That I'll see you once again down this road
I hope that it won't be long
Think of me...
I know God brought you as a friend,
Think of me...
I know he'll bring you back again,
Think of me...
What can I say to show you,
I"ll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye
Think of me...
What can I say to show you
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
by Mark Schultz & Rachel Lampa
Packing my bag this morning was the hardest thing to do,
But packing my bag was so easy compared to standing outside your door
right now to say goodbye,
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry,
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye,
Think of me...
what can I say to show you,
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
I know that it feels like leaving
is a part of letting go
But I'm praying with hope and believing
That I'll see you once again down this road
I hope that it won't be long
Think of me...
I know God brought you as a friend,
Think of me...
I know he'll bring you back again,
Think of me...
What can I say to show you,
I"ll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
Think of me...
I know you've never seen me cry
Think of me...
But it's so hard to say goodbye
Think of me...
What can I say to show you
I'll never give up on you
I will be waiting for you
I will be there when you call
I will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground
Sunday, August 10, 2003
Sunday, August 03, 2003
Saturday, July 19, 2003
Thursday, July 03, 2003
Monday, June 30, 2003
Convo of the day with Chelle:
i am meechy keen (5:43:40 PM): i hate this summer
Buthafly (5:44:45 PM): i know it sux
Buthafly (5:44:51 PM): theres nuttin to do
i am meechy keen (5:44:56 PM): seriously
i am meechy keen (5:45:00 PM): i have NO:
i am meechy keen (5:45:02 PM): job
i am meechy keen (5:45:09 PM): fun
i am meechy keen (5:45:12 PM): books
i am meechy keen (5:45:15 PM): license
i am meechy keen (5:45:16 PM): boy
i am meechy keen (5:45:20 PM): sleep
i am meechy keen (5:45:28 PM): food
i am meechy keen (5:45:39 PM): even though i shouldnt have the food
i am meechy keen (5:45:40 PM): lol
i am meechy keen (5:45:43 PM): NO:
i am meechy keen (5:45:45 PM): gym
i am meechy keen (5:45:49 PM): money
i am meechy keen (5:45:52 PM): man o man
i am meechy keen (5:45:55 PM): i have nothing
i am meechy keen (5:45:56 PM): nothing
i am meechy keen (5:45:57 PM): nothing
Buthafly (5:46:02 PM): bwhahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaha
i am meechy keen (5:46:05 PM): if i dont have u
i am meechy keen (5:43:40 PM): i hate this summer
Buthafly (5:44:45 PM): i know it sux
Buthafly (5:44:51 PM): theres nuttin to do
i am meechy keen (5:44:56 PM): seriously
i am meechy keen (5:45:00 PM): i have NO:
i am meechy keen (5:45:02 PM): job
i am meechy keen (5:45:09 PM): fun
i am meechy keen (5:45:12 PM): books
i am meechy keen (5:45:15 PM): license
i am meechy keen (5:45:16 PM): boy
i am meechy keen (5:45:20 PM): sleep
i am meechy keen (5:45:28 PM): food
i am meechy keen (5:45:39 PM): even though i shouldnt have the food
i am meechy keen (5:45:40 PM): lol
i am meechy keen (5:45:43 PM): NO:
i am meechy keen (5:45:45 PM): gym
i am meechy keen (5:45:49 PM): money
i am meechy keen (5:45:52 PM): man o man
i am meechy keen (5:45:55 PM): i have nothing
i am meechy keen (5:45:56 PM): nothing
i am meechy keen (5:45:57 PM): nothing
Buthafly (5:46:02 PM): bwhahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaha
i am meechy keen (5:46:05 PM): if i dont have u
Monday, June 23, 2003
Thursday, June 19, 2003
And yes, I'm still alive!
the last few weeks of school have been crazy. foinals and all that crap: over!
the very last week of school was fun interesting toimes all the toime. yeaaahp. fun interesting toimes indeed.
move out day was the worst day. sierra has been one of the greatest things that has happened to me, and leaving was one of the hardest things i've ever done. i'll miss you all. we need to party hardcore next yr!
so neways, this summer i wana be productive. summer school, summer job, volunteer. yeahp thats roite. u think i can do it? of course i can. i think. we'll see.
the last few weeks of school have been crazy. foinals and all that crap: over!
the very last week of school was fun interesting toimes all the toime. yeaaahp. fun interesting toimes indeed.
move out day was the worst day. sierra has been one of the greatest things that has happened to me, and leaving was one of the hardest things i've ever done. i'll miss you all. we need to party hardcore next yr!
so neways, this summer i wana be productive. summer school, summer job, volunteer. yeahp thats roite. u think i can do it? of course i can. i think. we'll see.
Saturday, May 03, 2003
Complicated Melody
by
India Arie
If he were a color
He'd be a deep dark forest green
If he were a car
He'd be a long stretch limousine
With room for all of humanity inside
Cause he is so giving
And he is so wise
If he were a number
He'd be a five
Cause he has such a brilliant mind
If he were an animal
He'd be an ass
Cause he's so stubborn sometime
But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key
But he means the world to me
If he were a building
He'd be a beautiful cathedral
Cause he's so traditionally spiritual
If he were a dance
He'd be complicated like the tango
Exotic like a mango
But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key
But he means the world to me
He ain't the reason for the sun and the moon
He is just the reason for this here tune
Cause he means the world to me
Said he means the world to me
Me me me yeah
He means the world to me yeah
Complicated melody that complicated fellow he
He's complicated melody
I almost cannot sing it on key
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My Mother Taught Me...
1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE . "If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."
2. My mother taught me RELIGION. "You better pray that will come out of the carpet."
3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL . "If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"
4. My mother taught me LOGIC. "Because I said so, that's why."
5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC. "If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."
6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT. "Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."
7. My mother taught me IRONY. "Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."
8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS. "Shut your mouth and eat your supper."
9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM . "Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"
10. My mother taught me about PATIENCE. "You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."
11. My mother taught me about WEATHER. "This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."
12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY. "If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"
13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE. "I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."
14.My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION . "Stop acting like your father!"
15. My mother taught me about ENVY. "There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."
16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION. " Just wait until we get home."
17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING. "You are going to get it when you get home!"
18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE. "If you don't stop crossing your eyes, They are going to freeze that way."
19. My mother taught me ESP . "Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"
20. My mother taught me HUMOR. "When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."
21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT. "If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."
22. My mother taught me GENETICS. "You're just like your father."
23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS. " Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"
24. My mother taught me WISDOM. "When you get to be my age, you'll understand."
25. And my favorite : my mother taught me about JUSTICE. "One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!"
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The Best Things In Loife (highlighted ones are extra special to me)
> 1. Falling in love.
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> 2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
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> 3. A hot shower.
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> 4. No lines at the supermarket.
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> 5. A special glance.
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> 6. Getting mail.
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> 7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
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> 8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
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> 9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
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> 10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
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> 11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
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> 12. Chocolate milkshake (or vanilla!) (or strawberry).
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> 13. A long distance phone call.
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> 14. A bubble bath.
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> 15. Giggling.
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> 16. A good conversation.
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> 17. The beach.
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> 18. Finding a $20 bill in your coat from last winter.
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> 19. Laughing at yourself.
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> 20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
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> 21. Running through sprinklers.
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> 22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
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> 23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
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> 24. Laughing at an inside joke.
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> 25. Friends.
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> 26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
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> 27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
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> 28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
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> 29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
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> 30. Playing with a new puppy.
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> 31. Having someone play with your hair.
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> 32. Sweet dreams.
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> 33. Hot chocolate.
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> 34. Road trips with friends.
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> 35. Swinging on swings.
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> 36. Eating cookies and drinking your favorite hot toddy.
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> 37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
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> 38. Going to a really good concert.
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> 39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
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> 40. Winning a really competitive game.
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> 41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
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> 42. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
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> 43. Spending time with close friends.
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> 44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
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> 45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
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> 46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
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> 47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
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> 48. Watching the __expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
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> 49. Watching the sunrise.
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>50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
by
India Arie
If he were a color
He'd be a deep dark forest green
If he were a car
He'd be a long stretch limousine
With room for all of humanity inside
Cause he is so giving
And he is so wise
If he were a number
He'd be a five
Cause he has such a brilliant mind
If he were an animal
He'd be an ass
Cause he's so stubborn sometime
But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key
But he means the world to me
If he were a building
He'd be a beautiful cathedral
Cause he's so traditionally spiritual
If he were a dance
He'd be complicated like the tango
Exotic like a mango
But if he were a song
He'd be a complicated melody
That complicated fellow he
I almost cannot sing it on key
But he means the world to me
He ain't the reason for the sun and the moon
He is just the reason for this here tune
Cause he means the world to me
Said he means the world to me
Me me me yeah
He means the world to me yeah
Complicated melody that complicated fellow he
He's complicated melody
I almost cannot sing it on key
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My Mother Taught Me...
1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE . "If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."
2. My mother taught me RELIGION. "You better pray that will come out of the carpet."
3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL . "If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"
4. My mother taught me LOGIC. "Because I said so, that's why."
5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC. "If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."
6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT. "Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."
7. My mother taught me IRONY. "Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."
8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS. "Shut your mouth and eat your supper."
9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM . "Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"
10. My mother taught me about PATIENCE. "You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."
11. My mother taught me about WEATHER. "This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."
12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY. "If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"
13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE. "I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."
14.My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION . "Stop acting like your father!"
15. My mother taught me about ENVY. "There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."
16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION. " Just wait until we get home."
17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING. "You are going to get it when you get home!"
18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE. "If you don't stop crossing your eyes, They are going to freeze that way."
19. My mother taught me ESP . "Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"
20. My mother taught me HUMOR. "When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."
21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT. "If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."
22. My mother taught me GENETICS. "You're just like your father."
23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS. " Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"
24. My mother taught me WISDOM. "When you get to be my age, you'll understand."
25. And my favorite : my mother taught me about JUSTICE. "One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!"
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The Best Things In Loife (highlighted ones are extra special to me)
> 1. Falling in love.
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> 2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
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> 3. A hot shower.
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> 4. No lines at the supermarket.
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> 5. A special glance.
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> 6. Getting mail.
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> 7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
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> 8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
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> 9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
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> 10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
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> 11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
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> 12. Chocolate milkshake (or vanilla!) (or strawberry).
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> 13. A long distance phone call.
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> 14. A bubble bath.
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> 15. Giggling.
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> 16. A good conversation.
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> 17. The beach.
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> 18. Finding a $20 bill in your coat from last winter.
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> 19. Laughing at yourself.
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> 20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
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> 21. Running through sprinklers.
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> 22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
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> 23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
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> 24. Laughing at an inside joke.
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> 25. Friends.
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> 26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
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> 27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
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> 28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
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> 29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
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> 30. Playing with a new puppy.
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> 31. Having someone play with your hair.
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> 32. Sweet dreams.
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> 33. Hot chocolate.
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> 34. Road trips with friends.
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> 35. Swinging on swings.
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> 36. Eating cookies and drinking your favorite hot toddy.
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> 37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
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> 38. Going to a really good concert.
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> 39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
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> 40. Winning a really competitive game.
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> 41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
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> 42. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
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> 43. Spending time with close friends.
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> 44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
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> 45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
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> 46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
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> 47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
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> 48. Watching the __expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
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> 49. Watching the sunrise.
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>50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
saturday morning...main library...tide and noczema...no "thirteen!"...west covina...opppps....tito ruben ninong boy manang tita ching haaahaaaa... always and forever aaww...stupid islands waiter...tour around irvine..till the spectrum...prom flashbacks...go lakers woooh...massages...studytoime...no in and out dinner...just a trader joe's one...still no "thirteen!"......no more tears.
thanx for another fun weekend =).
thanx for another fun weekend =).
Wednesday, April 16, 2003
Thursday, March 06, 2003
wow this has been a very rare day...a day when i have nothing due tomorroooow woohooooo i feel freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. it seems so nice to finally feel so light with no worries or anything like that. i mean know i still have a lot of stuff to deal with later on. but rite now i jus wana sit and jus breathe. ive been busy for the past couple of weeks and i havent rilly had time to jus breathe. and would anyone believe me if i say there was a point when i couldnt even talk on the fone for 2 nights in a row coz i was BUSY? well, its true. and it sucked. big time. i promise. i swear. heehee.
i jus had a fun convo with my mom tonite. it was the usual...
mom: o anak. why arent u sleeping yet?
me: mom its 8:30.
mom: oh eh dont u have class tomorrow
me: yeah
mom: o did u eat yet?
me: uhuh
mom: wut did u eat?
me: chicken...kiev
mom: ano yon?
me: heehee iono sumtin chicken
mom: mmmhm...o sleep ka na
me: okai
mom: gudnite anak..i lab u
me: luv u too mom
nothing special, but jus fun. we talked about other things and she was jus being funnie. its weird coz i was the one who called her this time (yeah coz shes the one who calls me usually ...wait not usually...she's the one who calls me everyday). so yeah i called my mom and she was fun. haha. she was being like a mom and a friend. it was nice. i jus wish its always like that.
i jus had a fun convo with my mom tonite. it was the usual...
mom: o anak. why arent u sleeping yet?
me: mom its 8:30.
mom: oh eh dont u have class tomorrow
me: yeah
mom: o did u eat yet?
me: uhuh
mom: wut did u eat?
me: chicken...kiev
mom: ano yon?
me: heehee iono sumtin chicken
mom: mmmhm...o sleep ka na
me: okai
mom: gudnite anak..i lab u
me: luv u too mom
nothing special, but jus fun. we talked about other things and she was jus being funnie. its weird coz i was the one who called her this time (yeah coz shes the one who calls me usually ...wait not usually...she's the one who calls me everyday). so yeah i called my mom and she was fun. haha. she was being like a mom and a friend. it was nice. i jus wish its always like that.
Friday, January 31, 2003
Monday, January 06, 2003
JANUARY 3, 2003
happy 19th birthday to me! man i cant believe i only have one teen year left. im old waaaaah. i dont know if i would still like having birthdays after this one. haha. im technically everyone's ate...and also a craddle-rockin cray-z cress. grrreaat. but newaysss, the idea of having to spend my birthday in school, on the first day of classes is not new to me (coz it's been like that for the past 3-4 years). so i thought my special day was gona suck like a duck. but i was wrong. on thursday, january 2 at 11:30ish pm, i got a call from a special hane telling me to look out my window and see the best surprise ever (well it wasnt rilly a surprise...it was a semi-surprise i guess heehee). that jus made my day like u dont even know =).
so the next day, my real birthday, i felt so blessed to know that a lot of people actually remembered my birthday. you guys are the best i swear! i wana thank everyone who came here to celebrate my special day with me: chang, bel, maria, mari, (shar we miss u soo much), keith, sue, gladys, cool fartnah, my zeezter, and hane. even though we didnt get to go to stupid pat n oscar's, islands was still great because u guys jus made it so special. thank you! we should have more funtimes like that (i know sue and cool fartnah had funtimes after dinner with the help of my sister tsk tsk). oooh and chelle makes the best cake ever...and mmhhmmm it is better than sex. oh no wait i wouldnt know. only chelle would. thanx roomate!
again, thanx so much to everyone who greeted me u guys r the bestest. i luv u!
the next day i was supposed to go home...but me, sister, hun, and sue ate at ihop first. then it was time to go home =(. said our see u laters, got home, went to church =), went out for dinner, and finally got home and had...
THE TALK with my mom. this time it was foreal. everything was said. and i mean everything. there was no point of hiding nething anymore. it wasnt very pretty. but i got through it. it wasnt a succesful talk either coz nothing got settled. it was more of a revelation of feelings and differences. or maybe a realization that i can never win or even compromise with her. it was a disagreement where eveyrthing was jus put out there, left there hanging, because there seems to be no solution. that was the low point of my day. right after my birthday too wahoo. so now the only question ive been asking myself is: what the hell am i supposed to do?
so yeah, im doomed forever because i dont think she'll let me out of the house ever again. good timing rite? yup. its great =/.
happy 19th birthday to me! man i cant believe i only have one teen year left. im old waaaaah. i dont know if i would still like having birthdays after this one. haha. im technically everyone's ate...and also a craddle-rockin cray-z cress. grrreaat. but newaysss, the idea of having to spend my birthday in school, on the first day of classes is not new to me (coz it's been like that for the past 3-4 years). so i thought my special day was gona suck like a duck. but i was wrong. on thursday, january 2 at 11:30ish pm, i got a call from a special hane telling me to look out my window and see the best surprise ever (well it wasnt rilly a surprise...it was a semi-surprise i guess heehee). that jus made my day like u dont even know =).
so the next day, my real birthday, i felt so blessed to know that a lot of people actually remembered my birthday. you guys are the best i swear! i wana thank everyone who came here to celebrate my special day with me: chang, bel, maria, mari, (shar we miss u soo much), keith, sue, gladys, cool fartnah, my zeezter, and hane. even though we didnt get to go to stupid pat n oscar's, islands was still great because u guys jus made it so special. thank you! we should have more funtimes like that (i know sue and cool fartnah had funtimes after dinner with the help of my sister tsk tsk). oooh and chelle makes the best cake ever...and mmhhmmm it is better than sex. oh no wait i wouldnt know. only chelle would. thanx roomate!
again, thanx so much to everyone who greeted me u guys r the bestest. i luv u!
the next day i was supposed to go home...but me, sister, hun, and sue ate at ihop first. then it was time to go home =(. said our see u laters, got home, went to church =), went out for dinner, and finally got home and had...
THE TALK with my mom. this time it was foreal. everything was said. and i mean everything. there was no point of hiding nething anymore. it wasnt very pretty. but i got through it. it wasnt a succesful talk either coz nothing got settled. it was more of a revelation of feelings and differences. or maybe a realization that i can never win or even compromise with her. it was a disagreement where eveyrthing was jus put out there, left there hanging, because there seems to be no solution. that was the low point of my day. right after my birthday too wahoo. so now the only question ive been asking myself is: what the hell am i supposed to do?
so yeah, im doomed forever because i dont think she'll let me out of the house ever again. good timing rite? yup. its great =/.
Sunday, December 29, 2002
Friday, December 27, 2002
OMG yes im alive! i know i know i havent blogged for the longest time. its all college’s fault. yup...college...a very interesting time of my life. well i guess i can say im liking college. well actually i just like the freedom, not the studying part. ive only experienced 3-4 months of college life and i feel like ive learned a lot. and i mean a lot a lot. haha. yuppp thats rite. i learned that....
1) i can actually survive without my mom doing everything for me.
2) if you have 12-14 units...you have to study 36-42 hours a week.
3) college is a time wehn you experiment or try different things...so the stupid things that you dont count because you’re jus experimenting rite?
4) i learned a lot more things...but id rather not share haha
December 9-13
so finals came and i tried to do my best...but i guess it didnt rilly work...ah wutever. that week was funtimes all the time neway =).
December 13
watched the lion king! i liked it and actually appreciated every single aspect of the play...unlike some people who just dont get it. tsk tsk tsk. i wanted to be in a musical after watching it heeheeeee.
December 14-22
- driving week..bleh
- 18th —> =) got the best origami creation haha
- found out my permit isnt valid...daaaamn dmv
- chill week....yaaaaay =)
- shopping week...wahoo
- two weeks notice.. aaaww
- tiffany’s gift from mom...grreat
December 22-23
skt sleepover at sue’s! awww i luv my girls...the best part was sunday night...wen we all exchanged gifts (i love all my gifts thanx again u guys) and jus talked and talked and talked and of course talked some more. im thankful for being so blessed to have a group of friends who i know i can trust. thanx u guys. we’re so cool haha. shar we miss u come back!
saw more people the next day...aww i miss seeing familiar faces...for those who came to sue’s house u guys rock wahoo.
December 24
went to the dmv to finally fix my godamn permit problem..then chilled at hun’s house in the morning...yaaay thanx to ur mom for feeding me once again. went home...took a long nap.... and then midnite mass..then lola’s house for christmas dinner! yummmy.
December 25
tita’s house in walnut...food..food...food...and money wahooo.....charades with cousins and titas bwhahahahahahaha that was the best.
December 26-27
i went “jogging with sue.” =) sue ur the best i owe u. remember ur not number 2...ur ur 1.5 =) santa monica aww it was so perty and sunny i luved it...and once again...thanx to ur mom hun for feeding me.
SO YEAH...so far my break isnt so bad i guess. well actually, i dunno. i havent rilly been very enthusiastic at home. maybe sumtimes. when im out, thats definitely happy times for me. so yeah. i duno. i miss my freedom. i guess thats one of the reasons why i wana go back to irvine. i want my freedom back. but then again, going back to school means no more fun “jogging” times. =(. makes me sad. feels like the end of summer all over again. but i guess ill jus have to deal. coz wut else can i do. *sigh*
1) i can actually survive without my mom doing everything for me.
2) if you have 12-14 units...you have to study 36-42 hours a week.
3) college is a time wehn you experiment or try different things...so the stupid things that you dont count because you’re jus experimenting rite?
4) i learned a lot more things...but id rather not share haha
December 9-13
so finals came and i tried to do my best...but i guess it didnt rilly work...ah wutever. that week was funtimes all the time neway =).
December 13
watched the lion king! i liked it and actually appreciated every single aspect of the play...unlike some people who just dont get it. tsk tsk tsk. i wanted to be in a musical after watching it heeheeeee.
December 14-22
- driving week..bleh
- 18th —> =) got the best origami creation haha
- found out my permit isnt valid...daaaamn dmv
- chill week....yaaaaay =)
- shopping week...wahoo
- two weeks notice.. aaaww
- tiffany’s gift from mom...grreat
December 22-23
skt sleepover at sue’s! awww i luv my girls...the best part was sunday night...wen we all exchanged gifts (i love all my gifts thanx again u guys) and jus talked and talked and talked and of course talked some more. im thankful for being so blessed to have a group of friends who i know i can trust. thanx u guys. we’re so cool haha. shar we miss u come back!
saw more people the next day...aww i miss seeing familiar faces...for those who came to sue’s house u guys rock wahoo.
December 24
went to the dmv to finally fix my godamn permit problem..then chilled at hun’s house in the morning...yaaay thanx to ur mom for feeding me once again. went home...took a long nap.... and then midnite mass..then lola’s house for christmas dinner! yummmy.
December 25
tita’s house in walnut...food..food...food...and money wahooo.....charades with cousins and titas bwhahahahahahaha that was the best.
December 26-27
i went “jogging with sue.” =) sue ur the best i owe u. remember ur not number 2...ur ur 1.5 =) santa monica aww it was so perty and sunny i luved it...and once again...thanx to ur mom hun for feeding me.
SO YEAH...so far my break isnt so bad i guess. well actually, i dunno. i havent rilly been very enthusiastic at home. maybe sumtimes. when im out, thats definitely happy times for me. so yeah. i duno. i miss my freedom. i guess thats one of the reasons why i wana go back to irvine. i want my freedom back. but then again, going back to school means no more fun “jogging” times. =(. makes me sad. feels like the end of summer all over again. but i guess ill jus have to deal. coz wut else can i do. *sigh*
Tuesday, November 26, 2002
Friday, November 22, 2002
Thursday, November 14, 2002
Wednesday, November 13, 2002
Monday, November 11, 2002
wow im alive yaaaay. so i havent blogged in awhile. sowee about that. ive been busy with school and stuff that i havent even been reading other people's blogs nemore. but now im not gona be as stressed coz i finally dropped my programming class wahoo. i felt so good after i dropped it...it was like...like...like...heaven. bwhahahha no. so now i dunno wut i wana major in nemore. im lost. im confused. im a bum. oh well. sux to be me.
this week has been perty arite. im liking sierra more n more each day. its hella fun here....but sometimes its too much...wahaha no jk. but i like it here a lot. the people here are too cool wahoooo.
im missing everyone more n more each day too. yeah everyone. if ur reading this, ur prolly part of "everyone." i miss kickin it with my girls =(. but its all gud. we all better kick it soon...which is iono...thanksgiving break? or christmas. hellz yah.
okai thats all for now coz im getting sleepy. sleepytime for me. this weekend was too tiring for me. a good kind of tiring. i had major funtimes =).
this week has been perty arite. im liking sierra more n more each day. its hella fun here....but sometimes its too much...wahaha no jk. but i like it here a lot. the people here are too cool wahoooo.
im missing everyone more n more each day too. yeah everyone. if ur reading this, ur prolly part of "everyone." i miss kickin it with my girls =(. but its all gud. we all better kick it soon...which is iono...thanksgiving break? or christmas. hellz yah.
okai thats all for now coz im getting sleepy. sleepytime for me. this weekend was too tiring for me. a good kind of tiring. i had major funtimes =).
Tuesday, November 05, 2002
Sunday, October 27, 2002
yay i just had my first weekend in irvine! wahoooooooooooo. friday nite went clubbin...then party here in sierra..yaaay. and yes, im very very sorry if thats my way of having fun here. ill try not to have fun if that makes u happy.
wahhahaahhahaha im jez keddeng!
so midterms r coming.....im screwed.....like u dont even know...but wutever.....wut can i do...oh actually i can study...thats one plan... hmmm.....maybe i should huh...okai fine....studytime....blog again later.
wahhahaahhahaha im jez keddeng!
so midterms r coming.....im screwed.....like u dont even know...but wutever.....wut can i do...oh actually i can study...thats one plan... hmmm.....maybe i should huh...okai fine....studytime....blog again later.
Friday, October 18, 2002
man i havent blogged foreal since i got here. oh well sux to be me. theres jus nothing that interesting to blog about...at least nothing that i would wana share to everyone. oh well. now sux to be u. waaaha no. okai time for randomness....
so i hate college. well not rilly. sometimes. i like the fact that...
1) it's mom-free
2) i can do wutever i want
3) i can have as much naptimes as i want
4) somehow...theres always food somewhere here...not good food but its still food
5) no helicopters to wake me up every morning
6) my hall: funtimes
BUT i don't like the fact that...
1) it's not home =(
so yeah...i miss LA...and my house.
but sometimes it sux...coz whenever i come home...i feel like im jus visiting...coz half of my stuff's not there...and i know that id be back in irvine the next day. special thanx to kat for making me feel this way. =(
oh yeah and i hate the fact that i dont get programming. shyet.
but wutever. im still adjusting i guess. im in a wutever mood rite now. so wutever. waaaha okai ima shuttup. no wait. i was gona say sumtin. but i forgot. hmmm...oh shit i jus saw a black butterfly outside my window rite now. doesnt that mean sumtin bad? waaah im scurred.
okai top 10 randomness...
1) my mom's bein extra nice to me these days it's RILLY scary
2) the line that i hear at least 10 times everyday here..."get off the fone cressa!!!!!!"
3) programming can be fun if i actually get it
4) finally everyone in SKT is legal wahoo
5) i have a midterm on halloween....dundundauunnnnn
6) chelle made me steal food from the commons
7) chelle loves boys with the same letters in their name
8) i have a new best friend named BIG D
9) no one ever sleeps in this friggin hall
10) I DO MY HOMEWORK DAMNIT
okai enough for now.
so i hate college. well not rilly. sometimes. i like the fact that...
1) it's mom-free
2) i can do wutever i want
3) i can have as much naptimes as i want
4) somehow...theres always food somewhere here...not good food but its still food
5) no helicopters to wake me up every morning
6) my hall: funtimes
BUT i don't like the fact that...
1) it's not home =(
so yeah...i miss LA...and my house.
but sometimes it sux...coz whenever i come home...i feel like im jus visiting...coz half of my stuff's not there...and i know that id be back in irvine the next day. special thanx to kat for making me feel this way. =(
oh yeah and i hate the fact that i dont get programming. shyet.
but wutever. im still adjusting i guess. im in a wutever mood rite now. so wutever. waaaha okai ima shuttup. no wait. i was gona say sumtin. but i forgot. hmmm...oh shit i jus saw a black butterfly outside my window rite now. doesnt that mean sumtin bad? waaah im scurred.
okai top 10 randomness...
1) my mom's bein extra nice to me these days it's RILLY scary
2) the line that i hear at least 10 times everyday here..."get off the fone cressa!!!!!!"
3) programming can be fun if i actually get it
4) finally everyone in SKT is legal wahoo
5) i have a midterm on halloween....dundundauunnnnn
6) chelle made me steal food from the commons
7) chelle loves boys with the same letters in their name
8) i have a new best friend named BIG D
9) no one ever sleeps in this friggin hall
10) I DO MY HOMEWORK DAMNIT
okai enough for now.
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
Tuesday, October 15, 2002
Sunday, October 06, 2002
man i need to update. but im too lazy. basically school's been eeeh coz of friggin hw. but i like it here in sierra (my hall) coz everyone's so fun. woohoo. i had fun this weekend. yaay for bel on saturday woohoo heehee. i had fun. had to go back to irvine saturday nite. and yeah. best weekend ever haha. except for some parts. sux. but wutever. life goes on. and its time to do homework.
Thursday, September 26, 2002
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
Wednesday, September 18, 2002
Tuesday, September 17, 2002
wow im blogging two days in a row. high five for me. wahoo. so neways, i had a good day today. i chilled with my cousins again yaaay. im gona miss them when i leave =(. of course wut else do we do when we're bored? eat. well thats what i do all the time neway but wutever. its funner when theyre eating with me. we cooked pasta and baked brownies yaaay. i luv my cousins to death.
after that chelle and coleen came here coz they love me like that. we jus chilled here, tryin to make colette's camera timer work. after wasting 2 random pictures we finally got it. yaaaay. it was nice chillen with chelleen again, even though it was just for a couple of hours. crechelleen will have more funtimes soooon. we better shooooo. colette, u will have funtimes in poly dont worry!
so today was a record breaking day. my mom called me only twice today. wahoo. thats like an accomplishment for her. i luv my mom. ima miss her nagging on me everyday. well actually, she'll prolly be doin that in irvine, so i guess i wont have to miss it. she's the best mom...sometimes.
so all in all, i guess i had a good day today. i dint cry wahoooo. nyahaha. i guess im slowly taking in the fact that everything is changing, and theyre all good changes. im slowly accepting the fact that summer is over, and its time to get back to work. time to explore the college world and have funtimes. i guess im more excited now. not as much as chelle still. but im getting there. me n chelle better have funtimes shit. well ob courze we will. =)
after that chelle and coleen came here coz they love me like that. we jus chilled here, tryin to make colette's camera timer work. after wasting 2 random pictures we finally got it. yaaaay. it was nice chillen with chelleen again, even though it was just for a couple of hours. crechelleen will have more funtimes soooon. we better shooooo. colette, u will have funtimes in poly dont worry!
so today was a record breaking day. my mom called me only twice today. wahoo. thats like an accomplishment for her. i luv my mom. ima miss her nagging on me everyday. well actually, she'll prolly be doin that in irvine, so i guess i wont have to miss it. she's the best mom...sometimes.
so all in all, i guess i had a good day today. i dint cry wahoooo. nyahaha. i guess im slowly taking in the fact that everything is changing, and theyre all good changes. im slowly accepting the fact that summer is over, and its time to get back to work. time to explore the college world and have funtimes. i guess im more excited now. not as much as chelle still. but im getting there. me n chelle better have funtimes shit. well ob courze we will. =)
im feeling this song rite now...
"Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)"
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to do.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I hope you had the time of your life
"Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)"
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to do.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I hope you had the time of your life
Monday, September 16, 2002
my mom is fun....
*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: hellow anak. did the plumber come yet?
me: not yet mom.
mom: okei. call me when he comes okei?
me: okai bye.
an hour later...*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: is the plumber there now?
me: no he's not.
mom: aye nako. da manager said he will cam today...or tomorrow.
me: he's not here yet mom.
mom: aye nako.
me: ill wait tomorrow then.
mom: ayeee if he das not cam early tomorrow i will call dat manager.
me: orite mom.
mom: o sige babay.
later in the afternoon...*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: hello anak. wat are you doen?
me: oh nuttin
mom: ay nako fix ur room.
me: mom r u bored or sumtin. this is ur third call.
mom: yah. i don peel like doen work.
me: waahaaa moooom go do ur stuuuuff.
mom: ayoko. im too lazy rite now.
me: and thats why ur buggin me.
mom: yah. aye nako anak im pagod olready.
me: okai mom then go eat or sumtin.
mom: no. i heb a lot of work to do bat i dont peel like doen it.
me: then dont bug meeeeee.
mom: o sige. did u eat yet?
me: yes.
mom: okai anak. ill call u again later babay.
and thats why i luv her.
*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: hellow anak. did the plumber come yet?
me: not yet mom.
mom: okei. call me when he comes okei?
me: okai bye.
an hour later...*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: is the plumber there now?
me: no he's not.
mom: aye nako. da manager said he will cam today...or tomorrow.
me: he's not here yet mom.
mom: aye nako.
me: ill wait tomorrow then.
mom: ayeee if he das not cam early tomorrow i will call dat manager.
me: orite mom.
mom: o sige babay.
later in the afternoon...*fone rings*
me: hello?
mom: hello anak. wat are you doen?
me: oh nuttin
mom: ay nako fix ur room.
me: mom r u bored or sumtin. this is ur third call.
mom: yah. i don peel like doen work.
me: waahaaa moooom go do ur stuuuuff.
mom: ayoko. im too lazy rite now.
me: and thats why ur buggin me.
mom: yah. aye nako anak im pagod olready.
me: okai mom then go eat or sumtin.
mom: no. i heb a lot of work to do bat i dont peel like doen it.
me: then dont bug meeeeee.
mom: o sige. did u eat yet?
me: yes.
mom: okai anak. ill call u again later babay.
and thats why i luv her.
THIS IS THE BLOG I WROTE FRIDAY MORNING...
I woke up this morning thinking about what today will be like. I looked out the window and saw how beautiful it was outside. I thanked God for that. I thanked him for the pretty sun, the cool air, and the nice breeze. I realized that I have taken for granted those simple things in life that I should be thankful for. I realized that life can be as simple as knowing that tomorrow will be another day that may be as beautiful as today.
I woke up this morning and told myself not to worry. Everything will be okai. The past week has been both fun and sad. I just cant believe that summer is rilly over. It’s been the best summer ive had so far, and i duno how im gona deal with all the changes that have been happening, or will happen. But wutever happens, i know i’ll get through it. It’s been perty hard, but life is never easy neway. When i feel like hell, i jus cry it out. Then after that i feel somewhat better. I guess that’s good. But i’m getting perty tired of crying...i duno wen it’ll stop.
I’m moving out this sunday...woohoo. I guess I’m excited, but not as much as chelle. Which scares me a lil bit, but I’m sure i’ll be fine. I promised myself that I’ll try to have funtimes with all the new people ima meet, becoz if I dont, then im jus gona be a losery bum. And I don’t want that.
This has been a random blog. I suck. I cant rilly think straight rite now. Well when did i ever think straight neway. Wutever. Tomorrow will be just be another day. Hope it will be as perty as today. It better be. I need sumtin to cheer me up. Tomorrow will be another long losery day for me. But I know “tomorrow”, i’ll be happy again, becoz funtimes arent over yet. The sun better be shining again.
I woke up this morning thinking about what today will be like. I looked out the window and saw how beautiful it was outside. I thanked God for that. I thanked him for the pretty sun, the cool air, and the nice breeze. I realized that I have taken for granted those simple things in life that I should be thankful for. I realized that life can be as simple as knowing that tomorrow will be another day that may be as beautiful as today.
I woke up this morning and told myself not to worry. Everything will be okai. The past week has been both fun and sad. I just cant believe that summer is rilly over. It’s been the best summer ive had so far, and i duno how im gona deal with all the changes that have been happening, or will happen. But wutever happens, i know i’ll get through it. It’s been perty hard, but life is never easy neway. When i feel like hell, i jus cry it out. Then after that i feel somewhat better. I guess that’s good. But i’m getting perty tired of crying...i duno wen it’ll stop.
I’m moving out this sunday...woohoo. I guess I’m excited, but not as much as chelle. Which scares me a lil bit, but I’m sure i’ll be fine. I promised myself that I’ll try to have funtimes with all the new people ima meet, becoz if I dont, then im jus gona be a losery bum. And I don’t want that.
This has been a random blog. I suck. I cant rilly think straight rite now. Well when did i ever think straight neway. Wutever. Tomorrow will be just be another day. Hope it will be as perty as today. It better be. I need sumtin to cheer me up. Tomorrow will be another long losery day for me. But I know “tomorrow”, i’ll be happy again, becoz funtimes arent over yet. The sun better be shining again.
Monday, September 09, 2002
fun interesting week for meeeeeeeee....
i actually dont remember exactly (which means in great detail) wut ive been doin since monday, so im jus gona tell u
monday sept 2
labor day. went with mom and sister to beverly center (jus to go to sanrio and buy cute useless stuff), then to the hollywood and highland mall.
tuesday-thursday sept 3-5
chilled with my cousins and bj.
friday sept 6
this one i remember. i woke up eeeaaarrrlyy (which is like 7:30...woohoo thats like...wow rilly) to go to my cousin's just to chill. so of course i mooch of them once again coz they have everything there. and then i went back home to chill with bj.
then later that nite i found out my sister was goin clubbing. then my mom told her, "why dont u bring creeessaaa with u anaaak." so i was yeah siiiiiissssss. so yea i "went clubbing with my sister"...and...
- got picked up by bj n keith (sorry u guys had to wait forever)
- went to bel's and finally convinced her to go to the observatory with us
- got there...it was beautiful
- had to drop bel home or else she'd get her ass kicked
- keith went with shar n maureeeen to get ice cream for bel
- me n bj headed to to santa monica and had a walk to remember...and yes i had with me protection dont worry. lol. protection from the bums walkin around. (protection = a bottle of sparkling water woohoo.)
- left and then got some fries from jack and then headed to bel's
- saw bel, shar, maureen, trina, and keith after the longest time woohoo
- chilled there till my sister called...which was at 12 sumtin..i forgot
- got in front of my house and my sister wasnt there still..so we had to wait..so we chilled till past 1...bj fel asleep and keith had to pee. gudjob.
- finally sister came and woohoo we went in and had funtimes
so yeah basically i couldnt believe i was out friday nite. thanx to the coolest sister ever woohoo.
i had major funtimes. the night made up for the sadness i felt that day....like big time. i was luving every minute of it.
i actually dont remember exactly (which means in great detail) wut ive been doin since monday, so im jus gona tell u
monday sept 2
labor day. went with mom and sister to beverly center (jus to go to sanrio and buy cute useless stuff), then to the hollywood and highland mall.
tuesday-thursday sept 3-5
chilled with my cousins and bj.
friday sept 6
this one i remember. i woke up eeeaaarrrlyy (which is like 7:30...woohoo thats like...wow rilly) to go to my cousin's just to chill. so of course i mooch of them once again coz they have everything there. and then i went back home to chill with bj.
then later that nite i found out my sister was goin clubbing. then my mom told her, "why dont u bring creeessaaa with u anaaak." so i was yeah siiiiiissssss. so yea i "went clubbing with my sister"...and...
- got picked up by bj n keith (sorry u guys had to wait forever)
- went to bel's and finally convinced her to go to the observatory with us
- got there...it was beautiful
- had to drop bel home or else she'd get her ass kicked
- keith went with shar n maureeeen to get ice cream for bel
- me n bj headed to to santa monica and had a walk to remember...and yes i had with me protection dont worry. lol. protection from the bums walkin around. (protection = a bottle of sparkling water woohoo.)
- left and then got some fries from jack and then headed to bel's
- saw bel, shar, maureen, trina, and keith after the longest time woohoo
- chilled there till my sister called...which was at 12 sumtin..i forgot
- got in front of my house and my sister wasnt there still..so we had to wait..so we chilled till past 1...bj fel asleep and keith had to pee. gudjob.
- finally sister came and woohoo we went in and had funtimes
so yeah basically i couldnt believe i was out friday nite. thanx to the coolest sister ever woohoo.
i had major funtimes. the night made up for the sadness i felt that day....like big time. i was luving every minute of it.
Tuesday, September 03, 2002
It's my turn...
DArkB L u esmOKE: Oh well !
imatpazwithdish: sux to be u
DArkB L u esmOKE: What sucks to be me ?
DArkB L u esmOKE: Whatever it is must be pretty damn desperate
imatpazwithdish: huh?
DArkB L u esmOKE: There was no subject to your predicate in the sentence "sux to be u"
DArkB L u esmOKE: So I assumed it was "it"
DArkB L u esmOKE: And I asked, "What sucks to be me ?"
imatpazwithdish: wut the heeznuts
DArkB L u esmOKE: Ha, who can't think philosphically and deeply now ?
imatpazwithdish: thats not philosophically
DArkB L u esmOKE: But it's pretty "deep"
imatpazwithdish: ohmahgod
imatpazwithdish: the subject was u
imatpazwithdish: not it
DArkB L u esmOKE: "U sux to be u ?"
imatpazwithdish: "u" must be "pretty darn desperate"
DArkB L u esmOKE: No I was talking about YOUR sentence "sux to be u"
imatpazwithdish: um me too
imatpazwithdish: "it sux to be you"? is that wut ur saying
imatpazwithdish: it isnt a subject
DArkB L u esmOKE: Yeah, and I'm asking "what sux ?"
imatpazwithdish: YOU
DArkB L u esmOKE: No !
imatpazwithdish: yes
DArkB L u esmOKE: "I can't sux to be me !"
DArkB L u esmOKE: OMG
imatpazwithdish: yeah coz its, "you suck like a duck"
DArkB L u esmOKE: Aye !
imatpazwithdish: yeah das rite
DArkB L u esmOKE: Of course I do
DArkB L u esmOKE: Oh well !
imatpazwithdish: sux to be u
DArkB L u esmOKE: What sucks to be me ?
DArkB L u esmOKE: Whatever it is must be pretty damn desperate
imatpazwithdish: huh?
DArkB L u esmOKE: There was no subject to your predicate in the sentence "sux to be u"
DArkB L u esmOKE: So I assumed it was "it"
DArkB L u esmOKE: And I asked, "What sucks to be me ?"
imatpazwithdish: wut the heeznuts
DArkB L u esmOKE: Ha, who can't think philosphically and deeply now ?
imatpazwithdish: thats not philosophically
DArkB L u esmOKE: But it's pretty "deep"
imatpazwithdish: ohmahgod
imatpazwithdish: the subject was u
imatpazwithdish: not it
DArkB L u esmOKE: "U sux to be u ?"
imatpazwithdish: "u" must be "pretty darn desperate"
DArkB L u esmOKE: No I was talking about YOUR sentence "sux to be u"
imatpazwithdish: um me too
imatpazwithdish: "it sux to be you"? is that wut ur saying
imatpazwithdish: it isnt a subject
DArkB L u esmOKE: Yeah, and I'm asking "what sux ?"
imatpazwithdish: YOU
DArkB L u esmOKE: No !
imatpazwithdish: yes
DArkB L u esmOKE: "I can't sux to be me !"
DArkB L u esmOKE: OMG
imatpazwithdish: yeah coz its, "you suck like a duck"
DArkB L u esmOKE: Aye !
imatpazwithdish: yeah das rite
DArkB L u esmOKE: Of course I do
Frustrating times with mom and sister at the beverly center parking lot today…
Sister (driver): Ooohh, finally a parking space.
Mom: No, anak you cannot fit dere its too little por ur car.
Me: No, go ahead you can fit.
Mom: Aye nako no. We’ll find another one don worry anak.
Driving around for 10 minutes.
Mom: Uy rite dere (pointing to a spot using her lips).
Sister: That’s still too little!
Me: Just park demnit!
sister tries to park
Sister: I am not gona fit in here!
Me: Do u want me to park it or wut?!?
Mom: Sige, I’ll park it.
Mom and sis trade places
Mom: Naku, it is too little.
Sister: No, mom just go move it to the left coz theres a lot of space there.
Mom: I know bat da car beside us will still heb a hard time coming out!
mom tries fixing the car. Back n forth…back n forth…back n forth.
Me: Mom just leave it. Ur fine. Okai lets gooooooo.
Mom: Aye no no. We’ll find another one nalang. This is nat big. Dere’s a lot more spaces dere.
Mom backs up…car behind honks coz he thought we were gona go park. She drives like 1mph in the friggin parkin lot coz she wants to make sure she doesn’t miss a free spot, while a long line of cars follow behind.
Mom: Oh ayon! See deres a space here.
Sister: Umm can u fit there?
Me: Yes, demnit we can fit!
Mom: Okaaaaaai lets goooooo.
And this is prolly why my dad didn’t wana come with us.
Sister (driver): Ooohh, finally a parking space.
Mom: No, anak you cannot fit dere its too little por ur car.
Me: No, go ahead you can fit.
Mom: Aye nako no. We’ll find another one don worry anak.
Driving around for 10 minutes.
Mom: Uy rite dere (pointing to a spot using her lips).
Sister: That’s still too little!
Me: Just park demnit!
sister tries to park
Sister: I am not gona fit in here!
Me: Do u want me to park it or wut?!?
Mom: Sige, I’ll park it.
Mom and sis trade places
Mom: Naku, it is too little.
Sister: No, mom just go move it to the left coz theres a lot of space there.
Mom: I know bat da car beside us will still heb a hard time coming out!
mom tries fixing the car. Back n forth…back n forth…back n forth.
Me: Mom just leave it. Ur fine. Okai lets gooooooo.
Mom: Aye no no. We’ll find another one nalang. This is nat big. Dere’s a lot more spaces dere.
Mom backs up…car behind honks coz he thought we were gona go park. She drives like 1mph in the friggin parkin lot coz she wants to make sure she doesn’t miss a free spot, while a long line of cars follow behind.
Mom: Oh ayon! See deres a space here.
Sister: Umm can u fit there?
Me: Yes, demnit we can fit!
Mom: Okaaaaaai lets goooooo.
And this is prolly why my dad didn’t wana come with us.
Monday, September 02, 2002
Real random thoughts….
- three weeks left before I leave this house
- maureeeeeen should try to have funtimes at her house for once
- two more weeks of losery cress days
- I breakout wen I sleep late
- My sister is the best
- White music is great
- I miss Sue…Sue should party hard
- I have my addictive snake moments
- Malls shouldn’t close early on weekends
- Maria should have more fun 5 hour convos
- Scrap books are fun to make
- I like the britney cd (yikes)
- I love len for tagging my board 3 times in a row
- I can live in Michaels or Barnes and Nobles
- Christine needs to tell me wuts goin on w/ her
- People should try goin to other places and not crowd in venice beach
- Chelle should sleep early for once
- I love green tea
- Karaoke with cousins is always fun
- Bel should tell me wutsup with her =)
- Im broke
- I don’t know wuts happening with Shar n Mari
- I wonder when sclub will be ONE foreal
- I cant live without ac
- Sanrio is the best place to buy cute useless crap
- Bj n Keith have too much fun together
- I luv my parents despite the shit they give me
- Im lucky to be alive
- This three day weekend sux
- Cuban food seems too garlicky for me
- Passions is gay
- I need to sleep now
Enough random thoughts for today. More to come later.
- three weeks left before I leave this house
- maureeeeeen should try to have funtimes at her house for once
- two more weeks of losery cress days
- I breakout wen I sleep late
- My sister is the best
- White music is great
- I miss Sue…Sue should party hard
- I have my addictive snake moments
- Malls shouldn’t close early on weekends
- Maria should have more fun 5 hour convos
- Scrap books are fun to make
- I like the britney cd (yikes)
- I love len for tagging my board 3 times in a row
- I can live in Michaels or Barnes and Nobles
- Christine needs to tell me wuts goin on w/ her
- People should try goin to other places and not crowd in venice beach
- Chelle should sleep early for once
- I love green tea
- Karaoke with cousins is always fun
- Bel should tell me wutsup with her =)
- Im broke
- I don’t know wuts happening with Shar n Mari
- I wonder when sclub will be ONE foreal
- I cant live without ac
- Sanrio is the best place to buy cute useless crap
- Bj n Keith have too much fun together
- I luv my parents despite the shit they give me
- Im lucky to be alive
- This three day weekend sux
- Cuban food seems too garlicky for me
- Passions is gay
- I need to sleep now
Enough random thoughts for today. More to come later.
Thursday, August 29, 2002
I’m luvin summer rite now =)…
August 22, 2002 Thursday
- bummed around all day
- sue visited me just in case I don’t see her b4 she leaves
August 23, 2002 Friday
- keith picked me up with bj n bel then we picked up chelle to go to sue’s house
- got there..chilled…cried.. ….said our goodbyes (or cya laters)… cried again…. and left =(
- I was gona write sumthin for u sue…but I decided not to coz itll jus make u sadder and I don’t want that to happen
- Chilled at keith’s…went to tommy’s...then went home
August 24, 2002 Saturday
- family party at whittier…happy birthday Jessie!
- Supposed to go to the getty but dint happen
- Went to church instead
- Then to chowking
- Then watched serving sara
August 25, 2002 Sunday
- DID NOTHING
- The grove
- Trader joe’s (saw Topanga)
- Ralphs
August 26, 2002 Monday
- picked up Camille at immac
- ate at in n out
- went to get boba in upper house
- went home and was seriously bored boo
August 27, 2002 Tuesday
- went to Venice beach with bj early in the morning….funfun beach...lots of stuff to do there
- then went to the dmv to take my written…man I finally got it woohoo
- went to Loyola coz bj thought he could sell his books…no one was there so we just left n went to kfc
- chilled at home
- sister saved us and took us to the getty and then dinner at c&o…saw Gregory Hines (some important person)
- got home toooo tired
August 28, 2002 Wednesday
- had a physical at Kaiser
- had to get 4 shots à hepa b, tetanus, mmr, meningitis shots
- jus chilled with bj
- my right arm is killing me…like someone beat me up foreal =(
August 29, 2002 Thursday
- went to cousin's house early in the morning
- funtimes doin lil cousins project
- then jus chilled
- watched save the last dance with them once again
okai so I have less than a month more before school starts…sux to be me…i duno if im supposed to be happy that ima be outta here soon. but wutever. im jus gona chill and deal with it. newayssss... soooooo.....wut else is new....hmmm....iono....i saw two stars this week. topanga and gregory hines...haha okai...umm...i havent blogged in awhile...coz iono....theres nuttin to write about? well okai...laterrrzzz
August 22, 2002 Thursday
- bummed around all day
- sue visited me just in case I don’t see her b4 she leaves
August 23, 2002 Friday
- keith picked me up with bj n bel then we picked up chelle to go to sue’s house
- got there..chilled…cried.. ….said our goodbyes (or cya laters)… cried again…. and left =(
- I was gona write sumthin for u sue…but I decided not to coz itll jus make u sadder and I don’t want that to happen
- Chilled at keith’s…went to tommy’s...then went home
August 24, 2002 Saturday
- family party at whittier…happy birthday Jessie!
- Supposed to go to the getty but dint happen
- Went to church instead
- Then to chowking
- Then watched serving sara
August 25, 2002 Sunday
- DID NOTHING
- The grove
- Trader joe’s (saw Topanga)
- Ralphs
August 26, 2002 Monday
- picked up Camille at immac
- ate at in n out
- went to get boba in upper house
- went home and was seriously bored boo
August 27, 2002 Tuesday
- went to Venice beach with bj early in the morning….funfun beach...lots of stuff to do there
- then went to the dmv to take my written…man I finally got it woohoo
- went to Loyola coz bj thought he could sell his books…no one was there so we just left n went to kfc
- chilled at home
- sister saved us and took us to the getty and then dinner at c&o…saw Gregory Hines (some important person)
- got home toooo tired
August 28, 2002 Wednesday
- had a physical at Kaiser
- had to get 4 shots à hepa b, tetanus, mmr, meningitis shots
- jus chilled with bj
- my right arm is killing me…like someone beat me up foreal =(
August 29, 2002 Thursday
- went to cousin's house early in the morning
- funtimes doin lil cousins project
- then jus chilled
- watched save the last dance with them once again
okai so I have less than a month more before school starts…sux to be me…i duno if im supposed to be happy that ima be outta here soon. but wutever. im jus gona chill and deal with it. newayssss... soooooo.....wut else is new....hmmm....iono....i saw two stars this week. topanga and gregory hines...haha okai...umm...i havent blogged in awhile...coz iono....theres nuttin to write about? well okai...laterrrzzz
Thursday, August 22, 2002
violent tendencies of keith...
KFDPiNoY: fine, u can beat him up
KFDPiNoY: i'll just watch
buthafly: wahaah
buthafly: and laugh
KFDPiNoY: yeah
buthafly: oh man
buthafly: ur mean
KFDPiNoY: fine
KFDPiNoY: me and bj we'll both gang up on u and beat u up
KFDPiNoY: happy?
buthafly: uuuhm
KFDPiNoY: :-D
buthafly: waaaaaaaaah
KFDPiNoY: fine, u can beat him up
KFDPiNoY: i'll just watch
buthafly: wahaah
buthafly: and laugh
KFDPiNoY: yeah
buthafly: oh man
buthafly: ur mean
KFDPiNoY: fine
KFDPiNoY: me and bj we'll both gang up on u and beat u up
KFDPiNoY: happy?
buthafly: uuuhm
KFDPiNoY: :-D
buthafly: waaaaaaaaah
Wednesday, August 21, 2002
yay i had a fun weekend (well friday and saturday..not sunday)! here's wut happened in great detail...
FRIDAY, AUGUST 16, 2002
- friday morning went to 99cents store, albertson's, picked up chelle, house of pies
- went straight to griffith park to see if immac people were there already but no one was there
- picked up bel
- went back to the park to the waterfest
- met bj's godsis cheryl and her people
- keith, rj, and aprille came
- got somewhat wet but not as much as some people woohoo
- sue, shar, and maria finally came (almost complete...one is missing as usual)
- decided to go to the immac picnic...saw kat, maryrose, nikki, francine, portia, sylvana, len, joanna
- time to pick up mari...but me, bel, and shar decided to chill at the waterfest
- took bel home coz she had swimming
- bj me n shar go back to the waterfest
- keith came back…then sue chelle maria and mari
- the four left again…then me bj keith n shar decided to go to the immac picnic again
- everyone was leaving…so we decided to go to bj’s house
- chilled for a while…keith n shar went to pack n picked up bel while we watched rudy for 20minutes
- headed to sue’s..fun fun dinner…I luv it at sue’s
- chilled…watched big brother..and two can play that game..keith n bj left…and girls chilled…woohoo
SATURDAY, AUGUST 17, 2002
- fun talk….we ate like 10 times….watched a walk to remember (well me n maria did)..then had funtalk with sue n maria till like 6am…and then I was gone
- woke up at 10sumtin…shower…maria left first awww mariaaaa…then shar n bel…then mari, chelle, sue n me went to see blue crush (saw elisa, gina n connie at islands first).
- Dropped mari then chelle home
- Got home with sue….chilled for a bit…then picked up chelle then went to church
- First saw bj..then keith…then bel n trina…then my family..then bel’s mom…wow we were one big happy family haahaa
- Decided to go to the grove with everyone and then soup plantation…thanx to mom n dad woohoo
- Brought everyone home except for sue..funtimes
SUNDAY, AUGUST 18, 2002
- got yelled at
- lunch at lola’s..i luv my cousins…and I luv karaoke
- got home n jus chilled….*sigh*
- started my precious moments cross stitch and other fun projects to get rid of boredom
- sad n happy day
MONDAY, AUGUST 19, 2002
- took the bus to lacc early in the mornin to get a fee waiver application
- dint realize it was raining a lil…so I walked in the ugly ass weather
- bj n camille show up at my door and kidnapped me
- went to lunch with bj’s family at max’s…funtimes al the timeeee
- got the talk from tita ruth that made me think…how I wish she was my mom
- finished watching rudy awww
- still tryin to be a gud daughter
- someone finally got a friggin celfone waha..bel its jus u now
TUESDAY, AUGUST 20, 2002
- had to sell books in immac
- woohoo got some money…even tho theyre checks…but I still have my precal book…anyone who needs a precal book pleeaaasseeeee tell meeeeee
- saw a lot of people once again…aww I miss everyone
- me sue bel trina chelle bj n keith went to starbucks…me n sue went to ralphs to get me some cough drops…. and then we all headed to my house (except for chelle n sue who went to chelle’s house)
- we chilled..keith left for a bit…watched save the last dance…keith came back…then chelle, shar, sue, and mitch came…then they watched AHX…fun violent movie
- funtimesss all the tiiiiimmmmeeeeeeeee
- they all ate my cookie crisps..so im sad now
- my throat n head hurt like a mother…I swear to god I was getting sick
- everyone had to leave..except for bj…but he left a lil later …so then I rilly started to feel rilly sick
- did my chores…while sneezing away…tried to sleep at like 9..dint work…I felt soooo tired but I couldn’t sleep..my throat was killing me..i wanted to cry…but I dint
- I was basically in bed…awake…till like 12..then I fell asleep…but thoat n head still hurting
WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 21, 2002
- woke up later than usual with a gay ass voice…I sounded like a man
- went online….decided to have lunch with sue at islands for the last time =(…my head was still killing me but it was ayt….one last lunch out with sue was worth it
- funtimes at islands..finally had my kona pie…then we visited mari so sue could say bye
- went home…took a nice long nap…that was nice
- woke up with a headache…sux to be me…and now im online
that was my week so far…summer school’s finally over thank god. One more month before college…sadness…actually a part of me wants to leave…and a part of me doesn’t…for many reasons….iono its weird. Im not feelin too good rite now. And its time to watch friends (rerun) neways so blog ya later.
FRIDAY, AUGUST 16, 2002
- friday morning went to 99cents store, albertson's, picked up chelle, house of pies
- went straight to griffith park to see if immac people were there already but no one was there
- picked up bel
- went back to the park to the waterfest
- met bj's godsis cheryl and her people
- keith, rj, and aprille came
- got somewhat wet but not as much as some people woohoo
- sue, shar, and maria finally came (almost complete...one is missing as usual)
- decided to go to the immac picnic...saw kat, maryrose, nikki, francine, portia, sylvana, len, joanna
- time to pick up mari...but me, bel, and shar decided to chill at the waterfest
- took bel home coz she had swimming
- bj me n shar go back to the waterfest
- keith came back…then sue chelle maria and mari
- the four left again…then me bj keith n shar decided to go to the immac picnic again
- everyone was leaving…so we decided to go to bj’s house
- chilled for a while…keith n shar went to pack n picked up bel while we watched rudy for 20minutes
- headed to sue’s..fun fun dinner…I luv it at sue’s
- chilled…watched big brother..and two can play that game..keith n bj left…and girls chilled…woohoo
SATURDAY, AUGUST 17, 2002
- fun talk….we ate like 10 times….watched a walk to remember (well me n maria did)..then had funtalk with sue n maria till like 6am…and then I was gone
- woke up at 10sumtin…shower…maria left first awww mariaaaa…then shar n bel…then mari, chelle, sue n me went to see blue crush (saw elisa, gina n connie at islands first).
- Dropped mari then chelle home
- Got home with sue….chilled for a bit…then picked up chelle then went to church
- First saw bj..then keith…then bel n trina…then my family..then bel’s mom…wow we were one big happy family haahaa
- Decided to go to the grove with everyone and then soup plantation…thanx to mom n dad woohoo
- Brought everyone home except for sue..funtimes
SUNDAY, AUGUST 18, 2002
- got yelled at
- lunch at lola’s..i luv my cousins…and I luv karaoke
- got home n jus chilled….*sigh*
- started my precious moments cross stitch and other fun projects to get rid of boredom
- sad n happy day
MONDAY, AUGUST 19, 2002
- took the bus to lacc early in the mornin to get a fee waiver application
- dint realize it was raining a lil…so I walked in the ugly ass weather
- bj n camille show up at my door and kidnapped me
- went to lunch with bj’s family at max’s…funtimes al the timeeee
- got the talk from tita ruth that made me think…how I wish she was my mom
- finished watching rudy awww
- still tryin to be a gud daughter
- someone finally got a friggin celfone waha..bel its jus u now
TUESDAY, AUGUST 20, 2002
- had to sell books in immac
- woohoo got some money…even tho theyre checks…but I still have my precal book…anyone who needs a precal book pleeaaasseeeee tell meeeeee
- saw a lot of people once again…aww I miss everyone
- me sue bel trina chelle bj n keith went to starbucks…me n sue went to ralphs to get me some cough drops…. and then we all headed to my house (except for chelle n sue who went to chelle’s house)
- we chilled..keith left for a bit…watched save the last dance…keith came back…then chelle, shar, sue, and mitch came…then they watched AHX…fun violent movie
- funtimesss all the tiiiiimmmmeeeeeeeee
- they all ate my cookie crisps..so im sad now
- my throat n head hurt like a mother…I swear to god I was getting sick
- everyone had to leave..except for bj…but he left a lil later …so then I rilly started to feel rilly sick
- did my chores…while sneezing away…tried to sleep at like 9..dint work…I felt soooo tired but I couldn’t sleep..my throat was killing me..i wanted to cry…but I dint
- I was basically in bed…awake…till like 12..then I fell asleep…but thoat n head still hurting
WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 21, 2002
- woke up later than usual with a gay ass voice…I sounded like a man
- went online….decided to have lunch with sue at islands for the last time =(…my head was still killing me but it was ayt….one last lunch out with sue was worth it
- funtimes at islands..finally had my kona pie…then we visited mari so sue could say bye
- went home…took a nice long nap…that was nice
- woke up with a headache…sux to be me…and now im online
that was my week so far…summer school’s finally over thank god. One more month before college…sadness…actually a part of me wants to leave…and a part of me doesn’t…for many reasons….iono its weird. Im not feelin too good rite now. And its time to watch friends (rerun) neways so blog ya later.
Thursday, August 15, 2002
Thursday, August 08, 2002
okai i think my brain is working now...lets start with this random thought that just popped in my head while talking to sue today (after one whole day of not hearing from her at all maaan)...
the whole "summer is ending perty soon" bothers me. some people just wana get summer over with, but im not one of those. i guess im not ready to let it all go just yet. summer's been great despite the fact i get the sermon at least once a week. but i dunno. i jus dont like major changes, and thats wuts gradually been happening these past few weeks, and thats wuts gona be happening in the coming weeks. perty soon, people are gona be leaving for college one by one, and i dont know exactly how im gona take that. the fact that i mite not see these people ever again scares me. its so easy for us to say, "lets k.i.t." but i know for a fact that its not that easy to do. wut happens wen we all go our separate ways? who knows.
neways...update of wutsup these past few days...
- been studying for psych tests gggrrr
- hitting vans and buying knives with bj...gudjob dude
- not talkin to sue for one whole day...dayum
- basically bein a gud girl for mommie dear
neways...random thoughts from my psychology class...
- gayness can be genetic
- it takes longer for women to get orgasms, so they fake em all the time (funtimes all the time waahaa)
- does anyone remember Maslow's hierarchy of needs from experiencing god? well i just wanted to point out that i think most of the people i know is on the level of needing "love and belonging" (relationships, friendships, family, support, etc.)
- freud is a freak. he thinks everythin is about sex and aggression.
- more random psych stuff will be posted later
man i havent been goin online that much lately. i just got tired of bein shouted at thats why. so even if i dont see u online as much, just wanted to let u know im still alive and im prolly missing u. blog again later.
the whole "summer is ending perty soon" bothers me. some people just wana get summer over with, but im not one of those. i guess im not ready to let it all go just yet. summer's been great despite the fact i get the sermon at least once a week. but i dunno. i jus dont like major changes, and thats wuts gradually been happening these past few weeks, and thats wuts gona be happening in the coming weeks. perty soon, people are gona be leaving for college one by one, and i dont know exactly how im gona take that. the fact that i mite not see these people ever again scares me. its so easy for us to say, "lets k.i.t." but i know for a fact that its not that easy to do. wut happens wen we all go our separate ways? who knows.
neways...update of wutsup these past few days...
- been studying for psych tests gggrrr
- hitting vans and buying knives with bj...gudjob dude
- not talkin to sue for one whole day...dayum
- basically bein a gud girl for mommie dear
neways...random thoughts from my psychology class...
- gayness can be genetic
- it takes longer for women to get orgasms, so they fake em all the time (funtimes all the time waahaa)
- does anyone remember Maslow's hierarchy of needs from experiencing god? well i just wanted to point out that i think most of the people i know is on the level of needing "love and belonging" (relationships, friendships, family, support, etc.)
- freud is a freak. he thinks everythin is about sex and aggression.
- more random psych stuff will be posted later
man i havent been goin online that much lately. i just got tired of bein shouted at thats why. so even if i dont see u online as much, just wanted to let u know im still alive and im prolly missing u. blog again later.
okai i think my brain is working now...lets start with this random thought that just popped in my head while talking to sue today (after one whole day of not hearing from her at all maaan)...
the whole "summer is ending perty soon" bothers me. some people just wana get summer over with, but im not one of those. i guess im not ready to let it all go just yet. summer's been great despite the fact i get the sermon at least once a week. but i dunno. i jus dont like major changes, and thats wuts gradually been happening these past few weeks, and thats wuts gona be happening in the coming weeks. perty soon, people are gona be leaving for college one by one, and i dont know exactly how im gona take that. the fact that i mite not see these people ever again scares me. its so easy for us to say, "lets k.i.t." but i know for a fact that its not that easy to do. wut happens wen we all go our separate ways? who knows.
neways...update of wutsup these past few days...
- been studying for psych tests gggrrr
- hitting vans and buying knives with bj...gudjob dude
- not talkin to sue for one whole day...dayum
- basically bein a gud girl for mommie dear
neways...random thoughts from my psychology class...
- gayness can be genetic
- it takes longer for women to get orgasms, so they fake em all the time (funtimes all the time waahaa)
- does anyone remember Maslow's hierarchy of needs from experiencing god? well i just wanted to point out that i think most of the people i know is on the level of needing "love and belonging" (relationships, friendships, family, support, etc.)
- freud is a freak. he thinks everythin is about sex and aggression.
- more random psych stuff will be posted later
man i havent been goin online that much lately. i just got tired of bein shouted at thats why. so even if i dont see u online as much, just wanted to let u know im still alive and im prolly missing u. blog again later.
the whole "summer is ending perty soon" bothers me. some people just wana get summer over with, but im not one of those. i guess im not ready to let it all go just yet. summer's been great despite the fact i get the sermon at least once a week. but i dunno. i jus dont like major changes, and thats wuts gradually been happening these past few weeks, and thats wuts gona be happening in the coming weeks. perty soon, people are gona be leaving for college one by one, and i dont know exactly how im gona take that. the fact that i mite not see these people ever again scares me. its so easy for us to say, "lets k.i.t." but i know for a fact that its not that easy to do. wut happens wen we all go our separate ways? who knows.
neways...update of wutsup these past few days...
- been studying for psych tests gggrrr
- hitting vans and buying knives with bj...gudjob dude
- not talkin to sue for one whole day...dayum
- basically bein a gud girl for mommie dear
neways...random thoughts from my psychology class...
- gayness can be genetic
- it takes longer for women to get orgasms, so they fake em all the time (funtimes all the time waahaa)
- does anyone remember Maslow's hierarchy of needs from experiencing god? well i just wanted to point out that i think most of the people i know is on the level of needing "love and belonging" (relationships, friendships, family, support, etc.)
- freud is a freak. he thinks everythin is about sex and aggression.
- more random psych stuff will be posted later
man i havent been goin online that much lately. i just got tired of bein shouted at thats why. so even if i dont see u online as much, just wanted to let u know im still alive and im prolly missing u. blog again later.
Tuesday, August 06, 2002
time to bloooooooog once again....
august 2, friday
- did all my chores and chilled with sue at home
- hoping id be able to go to maria's but got the sermon instead
august 3, saturday
- went to santa barbara with sister, her friends marge and floyd, and bj
- i so wanted to go to maria's but i couldnt go out unless i was with sister
august 4, sunday
- went to church with sister, and saw bel, keith and bj there too
- went home, chilled for awhile, then went to the grove with sister and her friend jeff
- met up with bel, trina, keith, and bj there
- chilled, went to beverly connection, chilled
august 5 and 6, monday and tuesday
- im a bum, tryin to be productive and bitter haha oh well
so that's wuts happening. i basically cant go out coz they said i do that too much already. wtf. iono. sucks to be me. oh well. um wut else. ill blog again later wen my brain's awake.
august 2, friday
- did all my chores and chilled with sue at home
- hoping id be able to go to maria's but got the sermon instead
august 3, saturday
- went to santa barbara with sister, her friends marge and floyd, and bj
- i so wanted to go to maria's but i couldnt go out unless i was with sister
august 4, sunday
- went to church with sister, and saw bel, keith and bj there too
- went home, chilled for awhile, then went to the grove with sister and her friend jeff
- met up with bel, trina, keith, and bj there
- chilled, went to beverly connection, chilled
august 5 and 6, monday and tuesday
- im a bum, tryin to be productive and bitter haha oh well
so that's wuts happening. i basically cant go out coz they said i do that too much already. wtf. iono. sucks to be me. oh well. um wut else. ill blog again later wen my brain's awake.
Thursday, August 01, 2002
man today was sadtimes...i spoiled the beach outing for bel, keith, and bj. sorry u guys. okai here's wut happened...
me n bj went to keith's house just coz...then they were all "lets go to the beach"...so i was all..orite...so keith was all preparing and stuff...and we stopped by bj's house for towels n stuff...and then we decided to kidnap bel (sowee bel i forgot to say it was a beach outing haha)...so yeah...everything was goin fine...it was trafficy but its alll gud. so after an hour's drive my mom calls me and was all pissed coz i dint tell her i was goin somewhere. so she decides to ruin my fun and told me to get my ass home. fucker. big trouble woohoo. so i had to go home even though we were like more than halfway to the beach after all that traffic n shit. im soweeee u guys i felt rilly bad. i owe u guys a beach trip. so we decided to pass by in n out first...comfort food. funtimes. while my mother called me 5 times in a row...and left 13 messages in the friggin answering machine at home. fucker. that was scary. i jus dont understand why she was all bein paranoid and shit. i mean wut can possibly happen to me on a weekday afternoon. fuck. so they chilled at my house for a while. then i had to kick them out coz mom will be home soon. she got home and wasnt talkin to me at all. silent treatment woohoo. i thought that was kinda scary...but perty cool. for once she has nothing to say to me. so i took a nap...woke up and she's still not talking...wutever. and then dinnertime she was all normal and shit. her usual happy self. i was all....hhmmm sumtin's wrong here. so later on she talks to me coz she asked me to type up sumtin for her. she was all bein nice n stuff...i was all...hmm okai now this is rilly wrong. she dint mention a single thing about wut i did. my sister was all, "maybe she felt guilty." waha well yeah. wutever. i duno if that means she'll let me go on saturday. we'll see. but if i cant, i suck. but its all gud coz im used to it. ive been dealing with this ish since forever. i think i can handle it for couple more months.
me n bj went to keith's house just coz...then they were all "lets go to the beach"...so i was all..orite...so keith was all preparing and stuff...and we stopped by bj's house for towels n stuff...and then we decided to kidnap bel (sowee bel i forgot to say it was a beach outing haha)...so yeah...everything was goin fine...it was trafficy but its alll gud. so after an hour's drive my mom calls me and was all pissed coz i dint tell her i was goin somewhere. so she decides to ruin my fun and told me to get my ass home. fucker. big trouble woohoo. so i had to go home even though we were like more than halfway to the beach after all that traffic n shit. im soweeee u guys i felt rilly bad. i owe u guys a beach trip. so we decided to pass by in n out first...comfort food. funtimes. while my mother called me 5 times in a row...and left 13 messages in the friggin answering machine at home. fucker. that was scary. i jus dont understand why she was all bein paranoid and shit. i mean wut can possibly happen to me on a weekday afternoon. fuck. so they chilled at my house for a while. then i had to kick them out coz mom will be home soon. she got home and wasnt talkin to me at all. silent treatment woohoo. i thought that was kinda scary...but perty cool. for once she has nothing to say to me. so i took a nap...woke up and she's still not talking...wutever. and then dinnertime she was all normal and shit. her usual happy self. i was all....hhmmm sumtin's wrong here. so later on she talks to me coz she asked me to type up sumtin for her. she was all bein nice n stuff...i was all...hmm okai now this is rilly wrong. she dint mention a single thing about wut i did. my sister was all, "maybe she felt guilty." waha well yeah. wutever. i duno if that means she'll let me go on saturday. we'll see. but if i cant, i suck. but its all gud coz im used to it. ive been dealing with this ish since forever. i think i can handle it for couple more months.